Chapter Thirty
No Turning Back

Trowa couldn't remember how he got them back to the apartment so quickly. They weren't even inside when Serena was on him again.

Their mouths locked together as Serena started sliding his jacket off his shoulders, letting it fall to the ground. Serena pulled up on his shirt, untucking it from his pants as her hands flew up to start unfastening the top few buttons. Trowa did his best to guide her to the bedroom.

His clothes left a trail behind them as they moved. Serena's coat and shoes had come off at some point but he couldn't remember when. Trowa's hands were sliding up her back as he reached for the zipper to her dress. Pulling it down he moved his hands to her shoulders, pushing the material over them, letting the dress fall off her body to pool around her feet.

Trowa broke away from kissing Serena to take in the sight of her curves. To truly take in her beauty this time. Even though he had seen her body more than once, this was the first time his eyes could freely roam over her. Her form was sculpted to perfection. Every muscle carving out the body of a goddess in his eyes. From her breast down to her hips, his eyes traveled taking in every inch of her.

Trowa hadn't realized that he had taken a step back. He was too lost admiring Serena in nothing more than her bra and panties.

Trowa watched as Serena slowly brought her hands up, reaching around her back. He heard the snap of her bra clasp before she let the garment fall to the ground. Slowly Serena moved her hands, sliding them over her body as she made her way down to her hips. Linking her fingers through the lace of her underwear. But she didn't remove them. Trowa brought his eyes up to meet hers as her infamous smirk returned.

She had been watching him.

Slowly Serena pushed her hands down, letting the lace slide over her hips, joining her already discarded bra.

Before Serena could tease him any further, Trowa crushed himself against her. Letting his hands roam over her bare skin. Feeling, memorizing every inch of her. Serena's mouth seared him as their kissing grew with intensity. Trowa pulled her towards the bed, turning them so he could push her onto it.

He wanted them to take their time. To explore each other and truly savor the moment.

Breaking from their kiss, Trowa moved his mouth to her neck where he began to plant small kisses on her skin. He nibbled and sucked lightly as he made his way down, kissing the hollow of her neck. The soft sounds Serena made enticed him more as he moved lower.

Taking one of her breasts, Trowa slowly started to knead it as his mouth captured the already puckered nipple. Her breast fit perfectly in his hands as he moved from one to the other. Serena's fingers had found their way into his hair. Encouraging him to keep going.

As Trowa moved lower down her body, he watched as her skin prickled with goosebumps after every kiss. It wasn't until he reached her core that Serena arched her back at the first contact his mouth made. Trowa wrapped his arms around her legs and hips holding her in place. When one of his hands joined his mouth, her moans flowed freely from her parted lips.

Trowa watched Serena closely. Her eyes were clamped shut, her hips bucked as she arched her back more. Trowa was trying in vain to hold Serena in place as he continued. He had forgotten how strong she truly was. Trowa moved his other arm across her stomach trying to keep her from breaking contact with him. He wanted to savor everything she was giving him. He smiled to himself as her hands gripped the sheets tightly, a wave of pleasure washing over her.

When Serena settled down, Trowa lifted his head, watching the rise and fall of her chest as she struggled to regain her breathing. When his eyes met hers, Trowa moved quickly to settle himself between her legs. Resting his weight on her before he captured her lips in another heated kiss. Serena started rubbing her legs against him before...

Trowa blinked when his back hit the bed. Looking up, he saw her eyes brimming with mirth.

"How did you-" Serena silenced him with a kiss. When she pulled away, Serena looked into his eyes before lowering her head to whisper in his ear.

"I'm not holding back with you."

Trowa's eyes flew up to the ceiling as Serena slid down his body. He felt her hand wrap around him before her mouth descended onto him.

God help me...

Trowa squeezed his eyes shut as a groan escaped his throat. His hands moved to take a hold of her head. Stopping her movements. Trowa opened his eyes to see her pull her mouth off him. Her eyes were an even darker shade of blue as the corners of her lips turned up.

He had meant to say something to her, but as she resumed, Trowa found the words lost on his lips. He wasn't sure if he could last as her hand and mouth worked in harmony together. Trowa wanted to say something and stop her before it was too late, but Serena suddenly broke away from him.

Slowly she crawled back up the length of his body. Settling herself on top of him before their lips met once again.

As Serena rocked her hips against him, driving his senses even crazier, Trowa came up with an idea. Keeping their mouths locked together he quickly flipped them back over so Serena was underneath him again.

When Serena opened her eyes, he smirked at her as he adjusted himself between her legs. Slowly he eased himself into her. Trowa wanted to allow her time to adjust to him but as her back arched, Serena pushed her hips into him causing him to gasp. Grabbing a hold of her hips, Trowa's head snapped up to look directly at her.

"Don't hold back, Barton," Serena's lips curled up as her eyes sparkled at him.

When they arrived back home, Heero and Relena were making their way inside as Relena thanked him for the lovely evening but asked if they could turn in early for the real fun.

Heero had no qualms about doing just that. Moving to the kitchen he grabbed a bottle of wine out of the wine fridge before moving to get two glasses. Uncorking the wine bottle, he let it sit before putting the cork back in. Taking all the items he made his way upstairs to the bedroom.

Their bedroom now.

As Heero entered the room he nearly dropped the wine, along with the glasses. Relena stood from the bed with nothing more than her lingerie and heels on. His eyes must have gone wide as a smile formed on her face.

"You brought wine?" Relena purred as she walked toward him. She took the bottle and glasses from him and moved them to one of the nightstands. "Are you going to join me or just stand there?" Relena asked from over her shoulder.

Heero quickly removed his clothes, throwing them around the room as he made his way to the bed.

"That's better," Relena smiled as she handed him a glass. "Let's toast. To a wonderful four years and many more to come." They clinked their glasses together before each taking a sip. Or in Heero's case, downing the whole glass in one gulp.

"A little impatient aren't we?" Relena raised an eyebrow at him.

"Hard not to be," Heero said leaning over her to set the glass down.

"I can see that," Relena giggled before downing her glass, setting it down next to his.

"Then why are we still talking?" Heero's lips tugged up at the corners.

Heero didn't give Relena a chance to respond as he tilted his head, pressing his lips to hers. Wrapping his arms around her, Heero pulled her close. Relena's lip parted eagerly. Tasting the wine as their tongues swirled in a heated battle.

Keeping their mouths together, Heero moved to lay Relena down as he straddled her waist. He tried to pull away only to have her pull him back down to continue their kiss.

Breaking away breathless, Relena's ocean blue eyes opened to meet him. Holding him captive as she whispered, "let's take our time."

Heero nodded his head, lowering his lips back to hers. If she wanted them to take their time, then he would.

Slowly Heero started to move his hands, brushing soft touches on her arms, stomach, and legs. Touching all his favorite places. Even though every part of her was his favorite. Heero moved a hand to her breast, cupping it lightly in his hand. Relena moaned into his mouth as he started to squeeze before pushing the lace material out of his way.

Leaving her mouth, Heero kissed his way down her body. From Relena's jaw to the spot on her neck just below her ear that she loved. Making his way down he glanced up to see Relena's eyes close as his mouth descended on her breast. He savored the feeling of her soft skin and the hardened nipple as he swirled his tongue over it.

Heero felt Relena's hands in his hair as he moved to attend to her other breast. Giving it the same attention as he had the other. Relena's soft moans filled the room as he went back and forth.

"Lower." Heero snapped his head up. Relena's face held a devilish smile on her lips. "Lower," she repeated. Heero's lips curled up.

"As you wish."

Who was he to tell her no?

Heero made his way down to her center. Leaving a trail of kisses on her skin in his wake. Relena had spread her legs so he could nestle himself between them. Slowly he lowered his mouth as Relena's hands once again found their way into his hair. Her moans grew louder as he continued to bring her the pleasure she desired.

"More," Relena's voice floated to his ears as her fingers gripped his hair harder. Moving one of his free hands to join his mouth. Her hips bucked as his fingers made contact with her.

Heero was starting to wonder if Relena was trying to torture him. Whenever he thought she was satisfied, she'd just tell him to keep going. It wasn't that Heero minded, but the strain of his own needs was starting to weigh on him. After a few more minutes he finally lifted his head.

"Relena…" Heero murmured. His voice was low and husky. Relena's eyes opened slowly.

"Lay down," she said softly.

Heero shook his head. Even though Relena wanted them to take their time, he was done waiting. Sitting up, he adjusted her legs. Heero looked into her eyes, waiting for confirmation that he could continue. Relena smiled softly as she reached her arms out to him.

Leaning forward, Heero allowed Relena to encircle his neck with her arms, bringing their faces together. Her kiss was soft and warm as he gently eased himself into her. Relena broke away gasping as their body became one.

Heero started his pace slow, savoring the feeling. Relena's hands slid over his back to his arms. Her mouth pressed kisses to his neck as Heero cradled his head on her shoulder.

Whispering in his ear, Heero groaned as he picked up his pace. Relena knew exactly what to say, and when to say it. Heero turned his head kissing her on the lips in a heated kiss before moving to sit up straight.

Increasing his thrusts, Heero wanted to bring Relena the release she was begging him for while he tried to hold off on his own. Though Relena was making it difficult. With every breathy moan and encouraging words, Heero thought he would lose it any moment.

As he worked harder, Heero felt not only her hands tighten around his arms, but her center closing in around him. Relena's cry filled the air right before his cry joined hers.

Leaning forward again, Heero rested his forehead against hers. Their breaths mingled together as their heart rates came back down from the rush of their lovemaking. Opening his eyes, Heero saw that Relena was staring at him. Her lips parted ever so slightly.

"I love you, Heero," Relena whispered. Heero angled his head to press a kiss to her lips.

"Relena… I…" Heero trailed off as he pulled away to look into her eyes again.

"I know," Relena smiled up at him. Heero offered her a smile of his own before he rolled off her to cradle her in his arms. Content to stay like that for the night.

Serena wasn't lying when she said she wasn't going to hold back. Every time Trowa felt like he was in control of their lovemaking Serena would overpower him. It was tantalizing how she'd worked her way to be in control just to let him take back over once she was satisfied.

The feelings coursing through him that Serena was causing him to experience, Trowa knew he was done for. No one would ever compare to Serena. Even as her nails dug into his flesh. The sheer pain sealed his fate.

He was a goner.

Every time Trowa felt like he was giving Serena another piece of himself, while she caved into his every need. He loved every sound she made. The way she'd say his name, making Trowa feel like it was truly his. The way Serena would arch her back to meet his thrust, their bodies modeling together perfectly. Even the way she kissed him. It was like everything Serena did was for him and only him. Looking at her lying beneath him, Trowa selfishly wondered how he could keep Serena to himself. To hold on to this, to hold on to her.

The sex had been rough, passionate, and satisfying. The tension was gone from Trowa's body and Serena's as she lay in his arms next to him.

After, they lay down to try and get some rest. It was well into the early morning hours but part of him didn't want to sleep. Trowa stared at the back of Serena's head wondering if any of it could be real? Or if he could ask her to stay?

They had yet to discuss what would happen once ROE was taken down. What she planned to do or where she'd go.

Trowa moved to nuzzle his face into her neck. A sigh escaped from Serena as she snuggled herself more into him. Smiling, he kissed her neck before laying his head back on his pillow.

Closing his eyes, Trowa knew he'd have to find a way to keep Serena. However selfish it was, he couldn't let her walk out of his life. He wasn't going to let her go, no matter the cost.

A/N

Happy Hump Day! In all sense of the word. Yes, I know how cheesy that was, don't care. I found it hysterical that this chapter happened to fall on a Wednesday for my upload schedule, and no it wasn't planned.

There's a lot going on in this chapter. Originally this chapter was only Heero and Relena, but I didn't like how things flowed considering everything was happening on the same day timeline-wise. Thus the mash-up of three chapters. It is what it is now. I know this chapter isn't long and it's heavily focused on what's happening between these two couples. That was the entire point of this chapter. Heero and Relena have been in a long-term relationship and well, Trowa finally got laid. I hope by now most of you see in my notes that I don't take myself seriously, I try and write as seriously as I can, but I even have to make jokes about my work.

I know that my style of writing isn't for everyone and I tend to lean more towards the reader fill in the finer details. I try and paint a picture but I really like letting others fill in those blanks and create their own imaginary scene, if that makes sense. I've messed around with these scenes a few times and I always come back to the inner thoughts of each character. In a lot of ways, it's more realistic to the real world. Everybody has thoughts while engaging in adult activities. Sometimes it's more emotional, sometimes it's more primal in the scene of doing such actives. But personally enjoy writing the more emotional aspects, with the act itself sprinkled in. The only reason I'm saying all this is because I don't think I've ever explained my thought process, only a few people who's asked me, and where we've discussed different writing techniques. That and honestly what is there for me to say? This chapter is very self-explanatory.

The only thing I can add is what will happen between Trowa and Serena at this point? There's still a lot of story left to get through and there's going to be a lot of up and downs. Heero and Relena are fine, they're doing just dandy. I can't mess with that relationship because I am truly a 1xR fan, even though this story took me for a wild ride and now I'm a Trowa fan even more now, lol. Shit happens. Over the next few chapters, there are a lot of feelings happening while also new events and details will come to light. There's a lot, and I'm just excited to be re-uploading this story. But I do believe I've rambled on long enough. I hope you all have a great rest of your Wednesday and I will see you all on Friday for the appropriately titled chapter, Feelings.

Until then,
-MM