Disclaimer: Nope, still don't own Gundam Wing. And I don't own *Nsync's
song, 'Gone'.
Author: GWingAngel
Rating: PG
Warnings: hints of Shonen Ai
Gwing: this is Relena thinking about the day Heero left her
(lyrics)
Song Book 1 Gone
(There's thousand words that I could say to make you come home, yeah. Seems so long ago you walked away and left me alone. And I remember what you said to me, you were acting so strange. And maybe I was too blind to see that you needed a change.)
Relena looked back into her memory.
"A mission?," she asked the dark haired boy. Wrapping her arms around him. He shrugged her off and looked into her blue eyes. He shook his head and turned back to his packing.
"I'm leaving Relena."
"But why?"
"I don't belong here any more. I was just here to protect you, now it's time for me to live my own life."
(Was it something I said to make you turn away. To make you walk out and leave me cold. If I could just find a way to made it so that you were right here, right now.)
"But you have a life here," Relena retorted. "What's out in the world that you don't have here?"
"Duo." Relena's eyes widened. Another man. Heero was leaving the blonde beauty +gag+ for another man.
"You can't or I'll or I'll. Or I'll tell everyone that you were a Gundam pilot!"
Heero closed his bag and gave her a smirk. "Aren't we being a little childish. Besides, I don't care what you do anymore."
(I've been sitting here. Can't get you off my mind. I'm tryin' my best to be a man and be strong. I drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face. But the truth remains, you're Gone.)
She touched Heero's stone face lightly then turned down the picture. "I've got to be strong," she said to herself. She got up from her seat, turned off the lights and headed for the garage.
(Now I don't wanna make excuses, baby. Won't change the fact that you're gone. But if there's something that I could do, won't you please let me know. The time is passing so slowly now, guess that's my life without you. And maybe I could change my everyday, but baby I don't want to.)
Pagan drove the pink limousine as usual. She sat at the edge of the seat. "Please Heero. Isn't there anything?," she pleaded. He shook his head. She stared out the window and everything seemed so slow. She started to say to him that she would change her life, but then took it back. 'I have accepted this life. I won't run away from it.'
(So I'll just hang around and find something's to do. To take my mind off missing you. And I know in my heart, you can't say don't me too. Please say you do, yeah.)
"Excuse my prying Ms. Relena," Pagan started.
"Don't worry Pagan. Go ahead," Relena smiled.
"Well Ms. Relena, everybody is worried that you're working too hard. Ever since Heero left you've been indulging in your work."
"Don't worry Pagan, I can take care." Pagan nodded from the front seat and closed the window. Relena let go of the breath that she was holding.
"You must have loved me once, Heero," Relena whispered.
(I've been sitting here. Can't get you off my mind. I'm tryin' my best to be a man and be strong. I've drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face. But the truth remains, you're Gone.)
Relena flipped the remark in her mind. 'I just needed something to do Pagan. After Heero left...' She shook her head and looked out the window. Relena touched the window. Heero was on the other side. Relena shook her head again and stared at the closed black screen that separated her and Pagan. 'I have to be strong.'
(What will I do if I can't be with you? Tell me where will I turn to, baby who will I be. Now that we are apart, am I still in your heart? Baby why can't you see that I need you here with me?)
A month with out being with Heero. She looked at her full length mirror in her bedroom. Nothing was wrong with her. 'Then again he's into guys. Anyway, I've been doing alright with out him.' Relena turned her back to the mirror. "Oh Heero. Maybe we could have just been friends. Do you even remember me? Oh Heero. I'm kidding myself. I've always needed you."
(I've been sitting here. Can't get you off my mind. I'm tryin' my best to be a man and be strong. I've drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face. But the truth remains, you're Gone.)
Relena sat at the edge of her bed looking at another picture of Heero. He was in her mind was again. 'I must be strong. This is going to make me stronger in the bigger picture. She touched Heero's face again then shook her head. She set Heero's picture face down on the small table near her bed. "I've got to accept you're gone Heero." She turned off the lights and cried in the dark.
Author: GWingAngel
Rating: PG
Warnings: hints of Shonen Ai
Gwing: this is Relena thinking about the day Heero left her
(lyrics)
Song Book 1 Gone
(There's thousand words that I could say to make you come home, yeah. Seems so long ago you walked away and left me alone. And I remember what you said to me, you were acting so strange. And maybe I was too blind to see that you needed a change.)
Relena looked back into her memory.
"A mission?," she asked the dark haired boy. Wrapping her arms around him. He shrugged her off and looked into her blue eyes. He shook his head and turned back to his packing.
"I'm leaving Relena."
"But why?"
"I don't belong here any more. I was just here to protect you, now it's time for me to live my own life."
(Was it something I said to make you turn away. To make you walk out and leave me cold. If I could just find a way to made it so that you were right here, right now.)
"But you have a life here," Relena retorted. "What's out in the world that you don't have here?"
"Duo." Relena's eyes widened. Another man. Heero was leaving the blonde beauty +gag+ for another man.
"You can't or I'll or I'll. Or I'll tell everyone that you were a Gundam pilot!"
Heero closed his bag and gave her a smirk. "Aren't we being a little childish. Besides, I don't care what you do anymore."
(I've been sitting here. Can't get you off my mind. I'm tryin' my best to be a man and be strong. I drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face. But the truth remains, you're Gone.)
She touched Heero's stone face lightly then turned down the picture. "I've got to be strong," she said to herself. She got up from her seat, turned off the lights and headed for the garage.
(Now I don't wanna make excuses, baby. Won't change the fact that you're gone. But if there's something that I could do, won't you please let me know. The time is passing so slowly now, guess that's my life without you. And maybe I could change my everyday, but baby I don't want to.)
Pagan drove the pink limousine as usual. She sat at the edge of the seat. "Please Heero. Isn't there anything?," she pleaded. He shook his head. She stared out the window and everything seemed so slow. She started to say to him that she would change her life, but then took it back. 'I have accepted this life. I won't run away from it.'
(So I'll just hang around and find something's to do. To take my mind off missing you. And I know in my heart, you can't say don't me too. Please say you do, yeah.)
"Excuse my prying Ms. Relena," Pagan started.
"Don't worry Pagan. Go ahead," Relena smiled.
"Well Ms. Relena, everybody is worried that you're working too hard. Ever since Heero left you've been indulging in your work."
"Don't worry Pagan, I can take care." Pagan nodded from the front seat and closed the window. Relena let go of the breath that she was holding.
"You must have loved me once, Heero," Relena whispered.
(I've been sitting here. Can't get you off my mind. I'm tryin' my best to be a man and be strong. I've drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face. But the truth remains, you're Gone.)
Relena flipped the remark in her mind. 'I just needed something to do Pagan. After Heero left...' She shook her head and looked out the window. Relena touched the window. Heero was on the other side. Relena shook her head again and stared at the closed black screen that separated her and Pagan. 'I have to be strong.'
(What will I do if I can't be with you? Tell me where will I turn to, baby who will I be. Now that we are apart, am I still in your heart? Baby why can't you see that I need you here with me?)
A month with out being with Heero. She looked at her full length mirror in her bedroom. Nothing was wrong with her. 'Then again he's into guys. Anyway, I've been doing alright with out him.' Relena turned her back to the mirror. "Oh Heero. Maybe we could have just been friends. Do you even remember me? Oh Heero. I'm kidding myself. I've always needed you."
(I've been sitting here. Can't get you off my mind. I'm tryin' my best to be a man and be strong. I've drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face. But the truth remains, you're Gone.)
Relena sat at the edge of her bed looking at another picture of Heero. He was in her mind was again. 'I must be strong. This is going to make me stronger in the bigger picture. She touched Heero's face again then shook her head. She set Heero's picture face down on the small table near her bed. "I've got to accept you're gone Heero." She turned off the lights and cried in the dark.