Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or 'With You', by Linkin Park
Author: GWingAngel
Rating: PG
Warnings: shonen ai, kissing, some language, bit of violence, and some blood
Gwing: uh this is Duo's POV on an incident
(lyrics)
Song Book 4 With You
(I woke up in a dream today To the cold of the static/And put my cold feet on the floor Forgot about yesterday Remembering I'm pretending to be who I'm not anymore A little taste of hypocrisy And I'm left in the wake of the mistake/Slow to react Even though you're so close to me, You're still so distant/And I can't bring you back)
I slowly wake up taking in everything around me. Gray walls surround me and a cold bed is underneath me. What the hell happened last night? It all seems like a huge blur. I curl up in the bed and pull the thin blanket over me. I want to forget. I look at the sheet I'm clutching. There's some dried blood on it. I sit up and look at the blood. Why did we fight? Was it because of what I said? Was I was too open to the perfect soldier? I guess I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I couldn't be myself anymore.
(It's true/The way I feel Was promised by you face The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you're not with me I'm with you)
We were sitting in my bedroom of this safe house. The same room I'm sitting in now. You were typing at the computer that just happened to be in my bedroom. I watched your reflection on the computer screen. You were thinking and I was looking. Your face was relaxed and there were emotions playing on your face. Being the stupid being I am, I interrupted the moment.
"So Heero what are you doing?" I watched as you face turned rigid again, but your eyes still showed feeling. You tried to glare at me from your reflection. I smiled at you, acting like myself.
"Why do you care?" you asked in monotone. I shrugged my shoulders.
"We might as well do something since we'll be stuck here for a while." You sighed and turned your chair around.
"What's the matter Duo?" I looked at him with surprise.
"What?"
"There's something with you. You're not acting normal. You were quiet while I was on the computer and now you're asking stupid questions. What's the matter?"
You passed your one sentence quota. But that line didn't cross my mind. I just looked surprised at you.
"I don't know. Besides you wouldn't care." That I liked you ever since I saw you fly away from Howard's ship. That was playing in my mind. I wouldn't tell you that I was gay. Why would the perfect soldier have feelings?
"Try me," he simply said. I shook my head, but you glared at me with your gorgeous blue eyes. Sighing I started.
"I'm pretending to be who I'm not anymore. Everybody only knows me as the joker of the group. And I still am, but I can't always be. I have my serious moments and nobody takes them seriously. " You kept looking at me with understanding deep with in your eyes. "I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm not joking when I say this. I...I...I think I'm in love with you Heero."
(You/Now I see/Keeping everything inside You/Now I see/Even when I close my eyes)
You continue to stare at me. Your eyes showing a flurry of emotions. In my heart is hope and dread. On your face was nothing. I start to get impatient.
"Damn it Heero answer me," I say quietly but demanding. I look up at you. Nothing. "If your not going to answer me then think of it as a joke. Think of it as I never even spoke to you and that I'll always be who I'm not." I start to get up, but you grab my hand. I turn to look at you. "Are you going to answer me?"
He nodded and put his forehead to mine. "Omae o korusu Duo."
(I hit you and you hit me back. We fall to the floor/The rest of the day stands still Fine line between this and that When things go wrong I pretend that the past isn't' real.)
I stare blankly at you. "You always say you're going to kill. And when has it happened? I'm waiting and I always will be. I hate you Heero!" I scream at him and punch you in the face. Almost a year of anger went into that punch. Anger from hiding from myself and anger from you not caring about anybody but yourself. "I thought you would care."
You punched me in the face too. At the same time I felt blood trickling down my chin I saw your blood go down yours. The blood goes down our throats and falls to the floor. Time stood still. An angry and startled look on my face. Your face was unchanging, but your eyes looked a little startled.
"I," you hesitated. The perfect soldier hesitated. "I don't feel the same way Duo." And you simply walked away.
(Now I'm trapped in this memory And I'm left in the wake of the mistake/Slow to react So, even though you're so close to me You're still so distant/And can't bring you back)
Back to reality I look at the bed sheet then at the dried puddle of blood on the floor. A small river connected the two. It would always be here for me to look at. To taunt me, so when I close my eyes all I can see is you. Why the hell did life have to be like this? You're in the next fuckin' room, but it feels like you're on that damn cold planet of Pluto. Damn you, Heero Yuy!
(It's true/The way I feel Was promised by you face The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you're not with me I'm with you)
(You/Now I see/Keeping everything inside You/Now I see/Even when I close my eyes)
I won't take back what I said to you. I kept telling myself this as I enter the kitchen. There you are, on your laptop. You were in my room, because the battery was dead on yours. Now it's fully recharged. You gave me a small glance then went back to your computer.
I knew I shouldn't have told you. Why do you have to be so damn closed off? I don't know why I dream of you.
I sit across from you with my sugar coated cereal. I start eating and remember last night again.
"Duo?" I look up at you with a mouthful of cereal. "Did you mean what you said last night?" I look down at my cereal and swallow what's in my mouth. I push the soggy cereal around with my spoon.
"How do you want to look at it? If you think I wasn't drunk, then I meant what I said. If you think that I was just being who I'm not, then no, I didn't mean it." Taking a spoonful of cereal I hope choke to death. I wish that this day was over.
"I think that you were being yourself. The person that's beneath the joker." I look up in surprise and swallow the cereal. Damn, I didn't choke.
"So what are you saying?" I ask.
"I think I'm in love with you too." I look with saucer eyes at you. A big grin on my face. You lean over. Are you going to kiss me? Nope, you take a napkin and wipe milk off my chin. I pout and take another mouthful of cereal.
"Are you going to answer me Duo?" I look up at you. Happiness playing in your eyes and your frown isn't as dark.
"What's next?" Nice thing to say! You lean over again. I have milk on my chin again don't I? But this time your lips trap mine. At first I'm surprised, but then I close my eyes savoring the moment. Time has definitely stopped. And when it starts again this war will seem a hell of a lot friendlier.
(No No matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow No No matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow With you)
Author: GWingAngel
Rating: PG
Warnings: shonen ai, kissing, some language, bit of violence, and some blood
Gwing: uh this is Duo's POV on an incident
(lyrics)
Song Book 4 With You
(I woke up in a dream today To the cold of the static/And put my cold feet on the floor Forgot about yesterday Remembering I'm pretending to be who I'm not anymore A little taste of hypocrisy And I'm left in the wake of the mistake/Slow to react Even though you're so close to me, You're still so distant/And I can't bring you back)
I slowly wake up taking in everything around me. Gray walls surround me and a cold bed is underneath me. What the hell happened last night? It all seems like a huge blur. I curl up in the bed and pull the thin blanket over me. I want to forget. I look at the sheet I'm clutching. There's some dried blood on it. I sit up and look at the blood. Why did we fight? Was it because of what I said? Was I was too open to the perfect soldier? I guess I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I couldn't be myself anymore.
(It's true/The way I feel Was promised by you face The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you're not with me I'm with you)
We were sitting in my bedroom of this safe house. The same room I'm sitting in now. You were typing at the computer that just happened to be in my bedroom. I watched your reflection on the computer screen. You were thinking and I was looking. Your face was relaxed and there were emotions playing on your face. Being the stupid being I am, I interrupted the moment.
"So Heero what are you doing?" I watched as you face turned rigid again, but your eyes still showed feeling. You tried to glare at me from your reflection. I smiled at you, acting like myself.
"Why do you care?" you asked in monotone. I shrugged my shoulders.
"We might as well do something since we'll be stuck here for a while." You sighed and turned your chair around.
"What's the matter Duo?" I looked at him with surprise.
"What?"
"There's something with you. You're not acting normal. You were quiet while I was on the computer and now you're asking stupid questions. What's the matter?"
You passed your one sentence quota. But that line didn't cross my mind. I just looked surprised at you.
"I don't know. Besides you wouldn't care." That I liked you ever since I saw you fly away from Howard's ship. That was playing in my mind. I wouldn't tell you that I was gay. Why would the perfect soldier have feelings?
"Try me," he simply said. I shook my head, but you glared at me with your gorgeous blue eyes. Sighing I started.
"I'm pretending to be who I'm not anymore. Everybody only knows me as the joker of the group. And I still am, but I can't always be. I have my serious moments and nobody takes them seriously. " You kept looking at me with understanding deep with in your eyes. "I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm not joking when I say this. I...I...I think I'm in love with you Heero."
(You/Now I see/Keeping everything inside You/Now I see/Even when I close my eyes)
You continue to stare at me. Your eyes showing a flurry of emotions. In my heart is hope and dread. On your face was nothing. I start to get impatient.
"Damn it Heero answer me," I say quietly but demanding. I look up at you. Nothing. "If your not going to answer me then think of it as a joke. Think of it as I never even spoke to you and that I'll always be who I'm not." I start to get up, but you grab my hand. I turn to look at you. "Are you going to answer me?"
He nodded and put his forehead to mine. "Omae o korusu Duo."
(I hit you and you hit me back. We fall to the floor/The rest of the day stands still Fine line between this and that When things go wrong I pretend that the past isn't' real.)
I stare blankly at you. "You always say you're going to kill. And when has it happened? I'm waiting and I always will be. I hate you Heero!" I scream at him and punch you in the face. Almost a year of anger went into that punch. Anger from hiding from myself and anger from you not caring about anybody but yourself. "I thought you would care."
You punched me in the face too. At the same time I felt blood trickling down my chin I saw your blood go down yours. The blood goes down our throats and falls to the floor. Time stood still. An angry and startled look on my face. Your face was unchanging, but your eyes looked a little startled.
"I," you hesitated. The perfect soldier hesitated. "I don't feel the same way Duo." And you simply walked away.
(Now I'm trapped in this memory And I'm left in the wake of the mistake/Slow to react So, even though you're so close to me You're still so distant/And can't bring you back)
Back to reality I look at the bed sheet then at the dried puddle of blood on the floor. A small river connected the two. It would always be here for me to look at. To taunt me, so when I close my eyes all I can see is you. Why the hell did life have to be like this? You're in the next fuckin' room, but it feels like you're on that damn cold planet of Pluto. Damn you, Heero Yuy!
(It's true/The way I feel Was promised by you face The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you're not with me I'm with you)
(You/Now I see/Keeping everything inside You/Now I see/Even when I close my eyes)
I won't take back what I said to you. I kept telling myself this as I enter the kitchen. There you are, on your laptop. You were in my room, because the battery was dead on yours. Now it's fully recharged. You gave me a small glance then went back to your computer.
I knew I shouldn't have told you. Why do you have to be so damn closed off? I don't know why I dream of you.
I sit across from you with my sugar coated cereal. I start eating and remember last night again.
"Duo?" I look up at you with a mouthful of cereal. "Did you mean what you said last night?" I look down at my cereal and swallow what's in my mouth. I push the soggy cereal around with my spoon.
"How do you want to look at it? If you think I wasn't drunk, then I meant what I said. If you think that I was just being who I'm not, then no, I didn't mean it." Taking a spoonful of cereal I hope choke to death. I wish that this day was over.
"I think that you were being yourself. The person that's beneath the joker." I look up in surprise and swallow the cereal. Damn, I didn't choke.
"So what are you saying?" I ask.
"I think I'm in love with you too." I look with saucer eyes at you. A big grin on my face. You lean over. Are you going to kiss me? Nope, you take a napkin and wipe milk off my chin. I pout and take another mouthful of cereal.
"Are you going to answer me Duo?" I look up at you. Happiness playing in your eyes and your frown isn't as dark.
"What's next?" Nice thing to say! You lean over again. I have milk on my chin again don't I? But this time your lips trap mine. At first I'm surprised, but then I close my eyes savoring the moment. Time has definitely stopped. And when it starts again this war will seem a hell of a lot friendlier.
(No No matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow No No matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow With you)