Disclaimer: No...Weiss... not... mine... *sob*
Author's note: Konnichiwa minna-san!!!! Arigato to all of you who reviewed!! It really helped me write this chapter faster! You guys are great!!
Email: KMSchow@aol.com
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Secrets of the Heart
Heart's Lament
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"HIV... positive...?" Omi gaped at the red haired woman. The other members of Weiss turned their similar shocked expressions towards Manx.
"Hai. Omi there are-"
"You have got to be kidding me!" Ken interrupted Manx. Stalking over to where the woman stood, Ken grabbed the lapels of her red suit jacket. "Is this some
sort of sick joke?! Omi has been through enough already!"
"I'm sorry Ken, our doctors have checked the results multiple times already..." Manx looked down at the ground, hating to be the bearer of such terrible news.
It felt like all of Omi's thoughts were going through his head a thousand miles an hour. Emotions raging between shock, anger, fear and depression. 'How...why
is this happening?!' Omi thought despairingly. 'I can't take this...' Desperately needing to get out of the suddenly small and confining room, Omi did the only thing
he could think of; run away.
Watching the trembling boy suddenly turn and run up the stairs, Ken released Manx's jacket from his death grip and yelled at Omi to stop but a hand on his
shoulder stopped him from actually following the boy.
"Let him sort things out on his own first Ken. He needs to be alone right now." Seeing the disbelief in Ken's eyes, Manx took another tactic. "While Omi settles
things with himself, I can discuss the way to go about this sudden change with you three."
"Way to go about this? You make it sound so simple." Aya spoke with an icy edge to his voice.
"I'll admit it isn't simple, but you do have to understand that this isn't going to change Omi overnight. We have medication that can help Omi's immune system fight,
" Mans stated taking out some papers from a folder, "it could take over a decade for him to develop any serious illness."
"So Omi might be ok?" Yoji asked, a skeptical glint in his eyes.
"No, there is no cure for this so he won't be 'ok' but we can prolong the effects, allowing him to live a somewhat normal life. The medication is expensive, but
Kritiker is more than willing to take a large sum of the price off you hands." Manx looked at each of the members as she spoke.
"So what you're saying is that Omi will still die before his time!" Ken glared at the woman. "You can't save him... You're just helping to pay since it's your fault
that he was raped to begin with!"
"Ken! Have you head nothing that I've said?! We have things that can help Omi, allowing him to live longer. Two decades ago someone diagnosed with HIV
could have died within months! We're giving Omi years! You should be thankful we have the resources we do today!"
At a loss for words, Ken just stared at Manx. Omi would be ok... but he would still die eventually because his immune system won't be able to fight any illness
he faces. How could he accept that? The one he loved had contracted a fatal illness. No cure... but if Manx was right, Omi could live to at least 30 or more!
'The only thing to do I guess is help Omi deal with this... and savor the time we do have together, whether it's short or long.' With that set in his mind, Ken
announced to the group that he was going to find Omi.
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'The water is so calm... so still... that anything could be reflected off it's surfaces. But... with the touch of one object...' a leaf flutters down, being carried by the
wind until it reaches it's destination. Upon landing in the lake, ripples spread out as if wanting to announce the presence of the little leaf. 'The smallest of things
can change the river in seconds. Just like one incident in my life... can have an affect that lasts forever...'
Turning away from the lake and his gloomy thoughts, Omi laid down in the grass, enjoying the feeling of the breeze tickling his nose and face. Closing his eyes,
Omi let his thoughts drift from the lake back to the matter at home. What could he do about this? As if being an assassin didn't put him at risk enough, if that
doesn't kill him now the common cold could! How long would it take for his immune system to fail... Would he even last another year? 'Kami-sama! What will I do
about Ken? I could never make love to him now... Ken would become HIV positive as well.'
They had decided to wait to do anything too serious. Omi still got the jitters occasionally if they went to far. Even though things were slow now, Omi still had
wanted to show Ken how much he loved him once he was ready. Now he would never have that chance. Would Ken even want to be his boyfriend now that
he was HIV positive?
"Omi?"
Eyes flew open at the sound of his name. He really must have been deep in thought to not notice someone walk up to him. Sitting up and scanning his
surroundings, Omi's eyes finally settled on Ken's worried face.
"Ken-kun... what are you doing here?"
Walking over to sit beside Omi, Ken looked into Omi's clear blue eyes. "I thought you could use someone to talk to."
"What's there to say...?" Omi asked with his eyes downcast.
"Well, I personally think there is a lot we could talk about." Ken gingerly tilted up Omi's chin, their gazes meeting slowly. "Like maybe how the world isn't coming
to an end. Manx talked to us after you left. There is medicine out there that can help keep you healthy longer." He squeezed Omi's hand, trying to help him
realize the importance of his words.
"But no matter what I will still die because of this..." Omi could no longer hold back his raging emotions. As his eyes started to spill over with tears he felt
himself enveloped in a tight hug. Ken's embrace had always made him safe, and it still did, even if he truly wasn't. All Omi wanted to do was curl up
somewhere with Ken and stay there forever in his arms.
"Everyone dies sometime Omi, and with our jobs, it might even be sooner than that. We all know it. Every one of us has to live while we can, before life is
taken from us. Your situation is no different. You can't just stop doing the things you love because you will die one day. That's like telling someone not to
have a kid just because they'll eventually die too. It's a natural thing to die, there's no need to fear it. What we need to do," Ken raised Omi's hand to hip lips,
kissing it lightly, "is savor the time we have. No worrying about the 'what ifs'." Wiping off Omi's tears, Ken leaned down and kissed the boy he loved. Nothing
but love went into the small action.
"Thank you Ken. For everything. You are always so good to me." Omi stood up and turned to the brunette.
"And don't you think for a minute that I'll stop being good to you, or loving you, just because your HIV positive." Ken stood up as well, taking Omi's small hand in
his larger ones.
"Are you really sure you want me still?" Omi looked at Ken, eyes once again getting teary, but now for a happy reason.
"Never been more sure of anything else Omittchi. Now, I think there are a few other people you know who are also worried about you. Want to head back?"
"Yeah, let's go home. We've still got a lot to do." Omi smiled at Ken and they headed through the park back to the koneko, hand in hand.
TBC... or not?
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AHHH! I wrote more!!! Is this a good place to end it or are all you readers expecting something more dramatic? Death of Omi... much sadness ensuing...
Or is this a more happier ending that y'all like? I aim to please but I'm losing ideas on this... I don't know if I can kill Omittchi... Ken might pop out my t.v. and
attack me for killing the one he loves.... hehe. Well, tell me want you think!!! ^_^
Author's note: Konnichiwa minna-san!!!! Arigato to all of you who reviewed!! It really helped me write this chapter faster! You guys are great!!
Email: KMSchow@aol.com
~*~*~
Secrets of the Heart
Heart's Lament
~*~*~
"HIV... positive...?" Omi gaped at the red haired woman. The other members of Weiss turned their similar shocked expressions towards Manx.
"Hai. Omi there are-"
"You have got to be kidding me!" Ken interrupted Manx. Stalking over to where the woman stood, Ken grabbed the lapels of her red suit jacket. "Is this some
sort of sick joke?! Omi has been through enough already!"
"I'm sorry Ken, our doctors have checked the results multiple times already..." Manx looked down at the ground, hating to be the bearer of such terrible news.
It felt like all of Omi's thoughts were going through his head a thousand miles an hour. Emotions raging between shock, anger, fear and depression. 'How...why
is this happening?!' Omi thought despairingly. 'I can't take this...' Desperately needing to get out of the suddenly small and confining room, Omi did the only thing
he could think of; run away.
Watching the trembling boy suddenly turn and run up the stairs, Ken released Manx's jacket from his death grip and yelled at Omi to stop but a hand on his
shoulder stopped him from actually following the boy.
"Let him sort things out on his own first Ken. He needs to be alone right now." Seeing the disbelief in Ken's eyes, Manx took another tactic. "While Omi settles
things with himself, I can discuss the way to go about this sudden change with you three."
"Way to go about this? You make it sound so simple." Aya spoke with an icy edge to his voice.
"I'll admit it isn't simple, but you do have to understand that this isn't going to change Omi overnight. We have medication that can help Omi's immune system fight,
" Mans stated taking out some papers from a folder, "it could take over a decade for him to develop any serious illness."
"So Omi might be ok?" Yoji asked, a skeptical glint in his eyes.
"No, there is no cure for this so he won't be 'ok' but we can prolong the effects, allowing him to live a somewhat normal life. The medication is expensive, but
Kritiker is more than willing to take a large sum of the price off you hands." Manx looked at each of the members as she spoke.
"So what you're saying is that Omi will still die before his time!" Ken glared at the woman. "You can't save him... You're just helping to pay since it's your fault
that he was raped to begin with!"
"Ken! Have you head nothing that I've said?! We have things that can help Omi, allowing him to live longer. Two decades ago someone diagnosed with HIV
could have died within months! We're giving Omi years! You should be thankful we have the resources we do today!"
At a loss for words, Ken just stared at Manx. Omi would be ok... but he would still die eventually because his immune system won't be able to fight any illness
he faces. How could he accept that? The one he loved had contracted a fatal illness. No cure... but if Manx was right, Omi could live to at least 30 or more!
'The only thing to do I guess is help Omi deal with this... and savor the time we do have together, whether it's short or long.' With that set in his mind, Ken
announced to the group that he was going to find Omi.
~*~*~
'The water is so calm... so still... that anything could be reflected off it's surfaces. But... with the touch of one object...' a leaf flutters down, being carried by the
wind until it reaches it's destination. Upon landing in the lake, ripples spread out as if wanting to announce the presence of the little leaf. 'The smallest of things
can change the river in seconds. Just like one incident in my life... can have an affect that lasts forever...'
Turning away from the lake and his gloomy thoughts, Omi laid down in the grass, enjoying the feeling of the breeze tickling his nose and face. Closing his eyes,
Omi let his thoughts drift from the lake back to the matter at home. What could he do about this? As if being an assassin didn't put him at risk enough, if that
doesn't kill him now the common cold could! How long would it take for his immune system to fail... Would he even last another year? 'Kami-sama! What will I do
about Ken? I could never make love to him now... Ken would become HIV positive as well.'
They had decided to wait to do anything too serious. Omi still got the jitters occasionally if they went to far. Even though things were slow now, Omi still had
wanted to show Ken how much he loved him once he was ready. Now he would never have that chance. Would Ken even want to be his boyfriend now that
he was HIV positive?
"Omi?"
Eyes flew open at the sound of his name. He really must have been deep in thought to not notice someone walk up to him. Sitting up and scanning his
surroundings, Omi's eyes finally settled on Ken's worried face.
"Ken-kun... what are you doing here?"
Walking over to sit beside Omi, Ken looked into Omi's clear blue eyes. "I thought you could use someone to talk to."
"What's there to say...?" Omi asked with his eyes downcast.
"Well, I personally think there is a lot we could talk about." Ken gingerly tilted up Omi's chin, their gazes meeting slowly. "Like maybe how the world isn't coming
to an end. Manx talked to us after you left. There is medicine out there that can help keep you healthy longer." He squeezed Omi's hand, trying to help him
realize the importance of his words.
"But no matter what I will still die because of this..." Omi could no longer hold back his raging emotions. As his eyes started to spill over with tears he felt
himself enveloped in a tight hug. Ken's embrace had always made him safe, and it still did, even if he truly wasn't. All Omi wanted to do was curl up
somewhere with Ken and stay there forever in his arms.
"Everyone dies sometime Omi, and with our jobs, it might even be sooner than that. We all know it. Every one of us has to live while we can, before life is
taken from us. Your situation is no different. You can't just stop doing the things you love because you will die one day. That's like telling someone not to
have a kid just because they'll eventually die too. It's a natural thing to die, there's no need to fear it. What we need to do," Ken raised Omi's hand to hip lips,
kissing it lightly, "is savor the time we have. No worrying about the 'what ifs'." Wiping off Omi's tears, Ken leaned down and kissed the boy he loved. Nothing
but love went into the small action.
"Thank you Ken. For everything. You are always so good to me." Omi stood up and turned to the brunette.
"And don't you think for a minute that I'll stop being good to you, or loving you, just because your HIV positive." Ken stood up as well, taking Omi's small hand in
his larger ones.
"Are you really sure you want me still?" Omi looked at Ken, eyes once again getting teary, but now for a happy reason.
"Never been more sure of anything else Omittchi. Now, I think there are a few other people you know who are also worried about you. Want to head back?"
"Yeah, let's go home. We've still got a lot to do." Omi smiled at Ken and they headed through the park back to the koneko, hand in hand.
TBC... or not?
~*~*~
AHHH! I wrote more!!! Is this a good place to end it or are all you readers expecting something more dramatic? Death of Omi... much sadness ensuing...
Or is this a more happier ending that y'all like? I aim to please but I'm losing ideas on this... I don't know if I can kill Omittchi... Ken might pop out my t.v. and
attack me for killing the one he loves.... hehe. Well, tell me want you think!!! ^_^