May 17, 2002
We left the hospital at 2am. We being my mom and I. My cousins Papo, Mauri, and her boyfriend Silver were there too, and left with us. Qui Qui stayed with Ami. they were with Pa till the end. He died this morning at 4:30 am. I feel like someone is tearing-up my insides. He died from the say thing Tia Mauya died of. I MEAN GOD! I so mad and I can't stop crying. I haven't been this bad since Titi died. Wednesday will make it seven years since that happened. Then not to long ago My brother's (Qui Qui) godmother's (May) dad died. He was like a grandfather to me. Tio Pa was a father to me. He helped raise me. He always had a video camera and a Bud-wiser in hand. Everyone loved him. Everyone except his godforsaken kids. I know he wasn't perfect and I know that he made a lot of mistakes with them. But he was always there for them and he loved them very much. Those assholes didn't even have the balls to show up at the hospital last night or to even call. It seems that every ten years we experience death to an extreme with in our family.
Qui Qui and I went to school for attendance reasons I don't know why we bothered. The attendance lady was being a bitch when we tried to leave early with our notes. But whatever we got out. When I got to school and went to the patio where the girls were I broke down. Hell I can hardly type right now but I can't think of what else to do. My Tia E. is here with my mom now comforting her. No one really knows where I am or what I'm doing. I guess they know I just have to deal my own way.
God this damn thing must be really boring to read for whoever is wasting there time. Completely off topic now. Seya doesn't believe in ghost so I told him that the day I die I'm going to haunt him to see if then he will. I'm weird like that I believe in ghost, spirits, witchcraft having powers such as, ESP, sensitizes, clairvoyants, aliens, etc. and if I ever really get into that in this you'll probably just think its bull or that I'm crazy but as they say now a days " Whatever tickles your pickle." I'm a sensitive towards emotion mainly I also have the ability to "read" people. That's the only way I can really think of calling it. I see someone or get close to them and I can tell you their emotional and in some cases health state usually. A few times I've gotten glimpses of peoples lives. Not always a good thing. You know what I don't feel so good. Till next time. When ever that may be...
You
I saw your eyes above me as a child,
Later I saw them as an adult,
You remained the same but in a way changed,
You died free and happy, hopefully,
But at least not chained,
In pain and suffering,
But surrounded by friends and family,
And now tonight we all shed tears,
Tears for your peace and death but we know you will always be near.
So I know your eyes will still watch over me throughout the years.
We left the hospital at 2am. We being my mom and I. My cousins Papo, Mauri, and her boyfriend Silver were there too, and left with us. Qui Qui stayed with Ami. they were with Pa till the end. He died this morning at 4:30 am. I feel like someone is tearing-up my insides. He died from the say thing Tia Mauya died of. I MEAN GOD! I so mad and I can't stop crying. I haven't been this bad since Titi died. Wednesday will make it seven years since that happened. Then not to long ago My brother's (Qui Qui) godmother's (May) dad died. He was like a grandfather to me. Tio Pa was a father to me. He helped raise me. He always had a video camera and a Bud-wiser in hand. Everyone loved him. Everyone except his godforsaken kids. I know he wasn't perfect and I know that he made a lot of mistakes with them. But he was always there for them and he loved them very much. Those assholes didn't even have the balls to show up at the hospital last night or to even call. It seems that every ten years we experience death to an extreme with in our family.
Qui Qui and I went to school for attendance reasons I don't know why we bothered. The attendance lady was being a bitch when we tried to leave early with our notes. But whatever we got out. When I got to school and went to the patio where the girls were I broke down. Hell I can hardly type right now but I can't think of what else to do. My Tia E. is here with my mom now comforting her. No one really knows where I am or what I'm doing. I guess they know I just have to deal my own way.
God this damn thing must be really boring to read for whoever is wasting there time. Completely off topic now. Seya doesn't believe in ghost so I told him that the day I die I'm going to haunt him to see if then he will. I'm weird like that I believe in ghost, spirits, witchcraft having powers such as, ESP, sensitizes, clairvoyants, aliens, etc. and if I ever really get into that in this you'll probably just think its bull or that I'm crazy but as they say now a days " Whatever tickles your pickle." I'm a sensitive towards emotion mainly I also have the ability to "read" people. That's the only way I can really think of calling it. I see someone or get close to them and I can tell you their emotional and in some cases health state usually. A few times I've gotten glimpses of peoples lives. Not always a good thing. You know what I don't feel so good. Till next time. When ever that may be...
You
I saw your eyes above me as a child,
Later I saw them as an adult,
You remained the same but in a way changed,
You died free and happy, hopefully,
But at least not chained,
In pain and suffering,
But surrounded by friends and family,
And now tonight we all shed tears,
Tears for your peace and death but we know you will always be near.
So I know your eyes will still watch over me throughout the years.