Raven sat in her room, staring into the darkness. She held a book in her
hand, one of the books BB had gotten her. It was entitled "She Died Too
Young" by Lurlene McDaniel. The lonely girl looked up at her window. It was
snowing, little white crystals landing on the outside sill, freezing the
glass on the window.
"It's snowing? It wasn't cold yesterday!" Raven said in exasperation. She looked at the book and set it down on the bed, laying her head on one of the pillows and closing her eyes.
Someone knocked on her door. She did not answer, but used her magic to open it. She opened one of her eyes and looked at who knocked. It was BB.
Raven looked at him and a sad expression overcame her features. BB walked over to her bed silently and sat on the edge.
"Why did you run off, Raven?" he asked quietly.
She shook her head and turned, her eyes closed once again. "I cannot tell you, Beast Boy. Please.....leave me be." She said, her voice cracking ever so slightly, though BB did not catch it.
"Alright...but I'm going to come check on you later, got that?" he said and left, closing the door behind him.
Raven got up slowly, walking over to her desk. She looked in the mirror in time to see another vision of herself, this time wearing dark red and black. The Raven in the mirror looked at her in disgust.
"I hate you." It said, glaring and walking away. Raven stared back at it. 'Hate....'she thought bitterly. 'Hate for myself.' She looked down and sighed, opening a desk drawer. She pulled out a little dark green book with the words 'Raven's Diary' written in bright yellow cursive on the cover. She sat back down on her bed and flipped open the cover. Inside was a note.
'Raven, happy birthday today! I hope you got this okay. I'm glad to have seen you grow so fast, you are such a beautiful child! Even with your telekinesis, I love you dearly no matter what you do. I know you act distant to everyone and everything, but deep down, I know you can love. Speaking of which, when are you going to bring me home a boy? I just wish that you would find someone! I think just the thing you need is either some friends to keep you company or a boyfriend to laugh and have fun with. Well, I have to stop writing now, my writer's block is kickin' in. I love you always, Mom.'
Raven felt a tear fall down her cheek and onto the paper. She closed the diary and walked over to the window, looking up at the snow-surrounded moon.
"Mom...I want you back...I love you..." she whispered, hearing a creak outside her door, knowing it was BB again. "You've got your wish...but I do not deserve him."
BB entered her room and saw that she was crying again. Raven didn't care if he saw this time....she just wanted to make sure he didn't love her. She didn't deserve him, his love, his worry, his heart....it was all too much to handle. And now that she remembered freshly how her mom died, she didn't want to lose anyone else that was close to her.
"Raven...I know something's wrong. Come on, you can tell me. I'll always be here." BB said gently, placing a hand on her shoulder, which shook with sobs.
"Beast Boy, please, I do not want to tell anyone anything. I think I will go to the café. They canceled the poetry contest, just to let you know." She cleared her throat and walked out of her door, leaving BB staring after her. He suddenly had an idea. He walked over to her mirror, getting transported into it. He looked around for Happy Raven, and soon found her. She was dancing around happily, humming to herself.
"Hello, Beast Boy." She said, still humming.
"Hi. Do you know where I can find Raven's memories of her mother?" he said. She looked at him and smiled.
"Of course!" she said and skipped, motioning for him to follow her. A portal appeared a few yards ahead, and the two just walked/skipped through it. A vast nowhere surrounded them. Suddenly, a room inside a house appeared. A woman was sitting happily on a chair, holding a small child who looked to be about six or seven. The child had violet hair and a crystal on her forehead. The young Raven was listening to a story told by her mother, and was smiling and laughing. It was such a cute sight...first of all, seeing Raven so happy and laughing was completely out of the ordinary.
Suddenly, the roof of the house glowed black and exploded, making large pieces of shingles flying everywhere inside the house. BB didn't need to cough as the dust filled his vision, since it was not real anymore, nothing more than a memory. He heard Raven's small voice calling her mom, getting no answer. There was no sound other than the girl's frantic crying. She ran around the destroyed house and lifted up the large slates. Eventually, she lifted one and found her mother lying dead under it. There was blood pouring out of the woman's head and her neck looked crushed. The sight was utterly horrible. The little girl didn't cry, but muttered something quiet, but BB still heard it. "It was my fault. I did it." She said, a sad look on her face. She lifted the dead woman with her powers and walked slowly, her eyes shut tight in concentration. Once she was outside with her mom, Raven dug a hole, placing her mom inside it, and burying her. She picked a flower from outside and placed it atop the mound, praying silently. Suddenly, BB only saw swirls of color and found himself back in Raven's room. The present Raven had pulled him out of her mind. She looked not angry or sad, but thoughtful. "So, you now know. But why did you have to find out?" she asked quietly in her usual monotone. "I heard you crying and saying stuff about your mom, so I wanted to know what happened. I still don't know what happened with your dad, except the fact that you hate him." BB said, standing up off of the floor. Raven walked over and sat on the floor by her window, and BB soon followed suit. "I'll tell you. I need to get this out of me. Okay...Before I was born, my dad raped a woman who gave birth to me. She was unhappy for the crime that was committed upon her, but was happy to take care of me. She raised me like a normal child on Azarath. Azarath was a lot like here, on Earth. The only thing that made her and me both mad was when everyone made fun of the jewel on my forehead and my hair color, since no one there had such a weird color. Luckily, my mom was a teacher for all grades and home schooled me. When I was six, my mom and I discovered that I had telekinetic powers, and she helped me through being able to use them and acted like more than a mother, but a best friend. The only friend I ever had. Then when I turned seven, she bought me a diary for my birthday, but I never used it. She was reading me a story that she had also bought me, and I laughed. I thought it was just like any other giggle, but it set off my powers and brought the roof down and killed her. That's when I became aware of how dangerous my emotions were. I kept the diary and I found out she wrote a note in it. I just found that today." She sighed and looked out the window. BB listened intently throughout her story. "Wow. I didn't know you had such a...harsh childhood. I'm so sorry." He said truthfully. Raven waved her hand and brushed it aside. "It's okay. I've been able to deal with it quite well, ever since I met you guys. You've always kept me happy, Starfire kept me confident, Cyborg understood me because he is also different, and Robin held the team together anyway." BB smiled and looked meaningfully at her. "I'll always be here for you. Remember that." He said and stood up, stretching. "Geez, I'm tired today. I'm gonna go take a nap. See ya later, Raven." He said and yawned as he shut her door. Raven smiled and walked over to her own bed. She almost immediately fell asleep, with her head swirling about memories of her past.
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.::~*=AleX=*~::.
"It's snowing? It wasn't cold yesterday!" Raven said in exasperation. She looked at the book and set it down on the bed, laying her head on one of the pillows and closing her eyes.
Someone knocked on her door. She did not answer, but used her magic to open it. She opened one of her eyes and looked at who knocked. It was BB.
Raven looked at him and a sad expression overcame her features. BB walked over to her bed silently and sat on the edge.
"Why did you run off, Raven?" he asked quietly.
She shook her head and turned, her eyes closed once again. "I cannot tell you, Beast Boy. Please.....leave me be." She said, her voice cracking ever so slightly, though BB did not catch it.
"Alright...but I'm going to come check on you later, got that?" he said and left, closing the door behind him.
Raven got up slowly, walking over to her desk. She looked in the mirror in time to see another vision of herself, this time wearing dark red and black. The Raven in the mirror looked at her in disgust.
"I hate you." It said, glaring and walking away. Raven stared back at it. 'Hate....'she thought bitterly. 'Hate for myself.' She looked down and sighed, opening a desk drawer. She pulled out a little dark green book with the words 'Raven's Diary' written in bright yellow cursive on the cover. She sat back down on her bed and flipped open the cover. Inside was a note.
'Raven, happy birthday today! I hope you got this okay. I'm glad to have seen you grow so fast, you are such a beautiful child! Even with your telekinesis, I love you dearly no matter what you do. I know you act distant to everyone and everything, but deep down, I know you can love. Speaking of which, when are you going to bring me home a boy? I just wish that you would find someone! I think just the thing you need is either some friends to keep you company or a boyfriend to laugh and have fun with. Well, I have to stop writing now, my writer's block is kickin' in. I love you always, Mom.'
Raven felt a tear fall down her cheek and onto the paper. She closed the diary and walked over to the window, looking up at the snow-surrounded moon.
"Mom...I want you back...I love you..." she whispered, hearing a creak outside her door, knowing it was BB again. "You've got your wish...but I do not deserve him."
BB entered her room and saw that she was crying again. Raven didn't care if he saw this time....she just wanted to make sure he didn't love her. She didn't deserve him, his love, his worry, his heart....it was all too much to handle. And now that she remembered freshly how her mom died, she didn't want to lose anyone else that was close to her.
"Raven...I know something's wrong. Come on, you can tell me. I'll always be here." BB said gently, placing a hand on her shoulder, which shook with sobs.
"Beast Boy, please, I do not want to tell anyone anything. I think I will go to the café. They canceled the poetry contest, just to let you know." She cleared her throat and walked out of her door, leaving BB staring after her. He suddenly had an idea. He walked over to her mirror, getting transported into it. He looked around for Happy Raven, and soon found her. She was dancing around happily, humming to herself.
"Hello, Beast Boy." She said, still humming.
"Hi. Do you know where I can find Raven's memories of her mother?" he said. She looked at him and smiled.
"Of course!" she said and skipped, motioning for him to follow her. A portal appeared a few yards ahead, and the two just walked/skipped through it. A vast nowhere surrounded them. Suddenly, a room inside a house appeared. A woman was sitting happily on a chair, holding a small child who looked to be about six or seven. The child had violet hair and a crystal on her forehead. The young Raven was listening to a story told by her mother, and was smiling and laughing. It was such a cute sight...first of all, seeing Raven so happy and laughing was completely out of the ordinary.
Suddenly, the roof of the house glowed black and exploded, making large pieces of shingles flying everywhere inside the house. BB didn't need to cough as the dust filled his vision, since it was not real anymore, nothing more than a memory. He heard Raven's small voice calling her mom, getting no answer. There was no sound other than the girl's frantic crying. She ran around the destroyed house and lifted up the large slates. Eventually, she lifted one and found her mother lying dead under it. There was blood pouring out of the woman's head and her neck looked crushed. The sight was utterly horrible. The little girl didn't cry, but muttered something quiet, but BB still heard it. "It was my fault. I did it." She said, a sad look on her face. She lifted the dead woman with her powers and walked slowly, her eyes shut tight in concentration. Once she was outside with her mom, Raven dug a hole, placing her mom inside it, and burying her. She picked a flower from outside and placed it atop the mound, praying silently. Suddenly, BB only saw swirls of color and found himself back in Raven's room. The present Raven had pulled him out of her mind. She looked not angry or sad, but thoughtful. "So, you now know. But why did you have to find out?" she asked quietly in her usual monotone. "I heard you crying and saying stuff about your mom, so I wanted to know what happened. I still don't know what happened with your dad, except the fact that you hate him." BB said, standing up off of the floor. Raven walked over and sat on the floor by her window, and BB soon followed suit. "I'll tell you. I need to get this out of me. Okay...Before I was born, my dad raped a woman who gave birth to me. She was unhappy for the crime that was committed upon her, but was happy to take care of me. She raised me like a normal child on Azarath. Azarath was a lot like here, on Earth. The only thing that made her and me both mad was when everyone made fun of the jewel on my forehead and my hair color, since no one there had such a weird color. Luckily, my mom was a teacher for all grades and home schooled me. When I was six, my mom and I discovered that I had telekinetic powers, and she helped me through being able to use them and acted like more than a mother, but a best friend. The only friend I ever had. Then when I turned seven, she bought me a diary for my birthday, but I never used it. She was reading me a story that she had also bought me, and I laughed. I thought it was just like any other giggle, but it set off my powers and brought the roof down and killed her. That's when I became aware of how dangerous my emotions were. I kept the diary and I found out she wrote a note in it. I just found that today." She sighed and looked out the window. BB listened intently throughout her story. "Wow. I didn't know you had such a...harsh childhood. I'm so sorry." He said truthfully. Raven waved her hand and brushed it aside. "It's okay. I've been able to deal with it quite well, ever since I met you guys. You've always kept me happy, Starfire kept me confident, Cyborg understood me because he is also different, and Robin held the team together anyway." BB smiled and looked meaningfully at her. "I'll always be here for you. Remember that." He said and stood up, stretching. "Geez, I'm tired today. I'm gonna go take a nap. See ya later, Raven." He said and yawned as he shut her door. Raven smiled and walked over to her own bed. She almost immediately fell asleep, with her head swirling about memories of her past.
Please RxR, it boosts my WRITING POWER CELLS! MUAH HA HA HA! THE HAMPSTER LIVES ON!
.::~*=AleX=*~::.