Death of the Soul
Chapter 3: Blood running down the wrists
By Kitty Tasuki
To the Flames that lick the wounds of many
To the Scars that all have
To the Hollows made of pain
To the Souls increased by darkness
To the Demons that walk the plague
To the Blood that drips from the cold steel of the sword
To the Bullet lodged in your life
To the Gun that seeks life
To the Death embedded by all
To the Tears that run down your face
To the Sorrow indicted by all
(By you're truly: me)
" Haha I win" Ashen mumbled to Ron.
" Damn again" Ron responded.
It's a warm evening here in the Gryfinndor tower. Ron and Ashen are planning a game of wizard chess. Harry is coming up to them and grabs a chair.
" Ashen, didn't you have detention tonight?" Harry asked her.
" Umm yeh but Pavati wanted to go test out some polyjuice. So I let her take my place at detention."
" Do you really think that's a good idea, to let her do that?" Ron asked.
" Well now that you think of it. I don't think I should I have let her go."
At that moment, they all exchange looks and then quickly dive for the door. As they open it, Parvati comes in.
" What the fuck did you make me do to him?" Ashen yells.
" I twisted with his mind." she said smiling and twilling her hair.
" Oh crap I'm dead now." Ashen says slowly calming down.
" Well it's ok. If he says anything just be like all confused." Parvati said heading towards the bedroom door.
"Where are you going?" Harry questioned.
" Bed. I've had enough adventure for one night. I also don't need her shit" she said pointing a finger at Ashen.
Ashen starts to come near her, but Ron and Harry hold her back. Once Parvati finally gets into the bedroom. Harry and Ron let her go. Fuming, Ashen heads towards the couch. Grabs her wand, mumbles some words and starts fixing the pillows and blankets she just received.
" Umm Ashen, what are you doing?" Ron asked with a raised eyebrow.
" Well I can't sleep in that room, because I'd probably kill her."
" Ahh ok. Well I'd invite you to my room but I don't think that would be a good idea." Ron said.
" No it wouldn't be Ron, but thanks for mentioning something."
As Ron and Harry head for bed, Harry looks back down to Ashen. In his head he's telling himself that I hope she's all right. Then he opens the door to the bedroom and heads to bed.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The next day~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The next day is a stormy Saturday. The dark gray clouds cover the grounds of Hogwarts. Ashen is no longer on the couch but is down at breakfast. Ron is still in the bathroom and Harry is drooling in his sleep.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Harry's Dream~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It's a dark night the rain floods the skies and the grounds are soaked. Ashen is running outside and heading towards the forest. She is wearing a black hat, black clothing, and a black trench coat. Harry is trying to catch her before she gets to the forest.
" Ashen please wait!!!"
" Never, get away from me!"
" Ashen, please tell me I wont tell anyone!"
"No you will, you're tell everyone!"
Harry finally catches up with Ashen and grabs her around the waist. It's raining so hard that he has to pull his face closer so he can look at her without problems.
" Ashen please tell me. Why do you have scars all over your body?"
" No I can't tell you! I'll never tell you!……………
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Harry awakes with a cold sweat. Wiping the sweat and drool away, he notices the time. It's almost 10:00. Grabbing a towel, he heads to the bathroom. Arriving he noticed that Ron is in there.
" Ron how long have you been in here?"
" Umm not long why?"
" Because if I recall you have been in the shower for hours lately."
" Well I have to be clean don't I?"
" Yeh but not that clean. Tell me what's up."
" Nah you'll find out later."
"Whatever"
Hour an hour later. Harry is dressed and at breakfast and Ron is off wondering the halls. Ashen is reading some book she got at the library and Harry is staring at her with wonder. Getting up to leave, a note falls out of the book and onto her seat. Not noticing Ashen walks off. Harry looking around to see if anyone notices reaches across and picks it up. Slowly reading it himself, he grasps in disbelief. It's not a note but looks like something from the book she was reading. He finally got what she was reading. It was a input on cutting. He quickly got up, walked out to find a empty room, grabbing a seat, starts to cry. He remembered that the way that his friend died, was by cutting herself. Harry didn't want to lose Ashen too. Even though they barely now each other, he doesn't want anyone to die this year that was close to him.
" Not this year, Not this year, no one will die that is close to me. Not this year." he said pounding the table.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ later that evening~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
" Ashen. I'm so sorry." Ron stammered.
" Ron, it's ok you didn't mean to spill the juice on my brand new shirt."
"Here I'll wash it for you."
" Ok then but let me go change first"
Ashen heads up to her bedroom as Ron keeps looking over at Harry. Harry is laughing because as Ashen was teaching him how to deal, Ron had accidentally knocked a glass of juice on to her shirt and pants. Coming back down a few minutes later, Ashen was in the outfit that was mentioned in the dream. Handing the clothes to Ron, she grabbed a chair by Harry. Staring at him, Harry turns and does the same.
" Ashen, I see you wear that outfit all the time. Why?"
" Well it has a long story behind it."
" Care to share?"
" Sure. Well there was this guy at my old school. I liked him a lot. So I had always seen him wear this outfit that I decided to copy it. But after I learned I was coming here I was kind of bum out cause I never got a chance to show him.
" Wow great story"
" Oh shut up" she said throwing a pillow at him
Harry catching the pillow, looks over at Ashen. He quickly notices scars on her arm. Looking up at her and slowly losing the smile, Ashen figures out what's going on and covers her arm with the coat sleeve. Harry getting up and reaching for her arm, Ashen slaps his hand away and runs for the door. Harry running after her. Coming near the doors that lead to the outside, Harry almost catches her. She gets to the door and heads out it. Harry is on her tail.
" Ashen please wait!!!"
" Never, get away from me!"
" Ashen, please tell me I wont tell anyone!"
"No you will, you're tell everyone!"
It's just like the dream. The rain is so thick it's so had to see where they were going. Harry finally catches up with Ashen and grabs her around the waist. It's raining so hard that he has to pull his face closer so he can look at her without problems.
" Ashen please tell me. Why do you have scars all over your body?"
" No I can't tell you! I'll never tell you!……………"
Harry presses his cold, damp lips to hers. Pulling away, Ashen slaps him. Putting a hand up to his face., she falls down and starts to cry. Harry leans down and covers her with his cloak and holds her in the pouring rain. They finally get up and Harry carries her into the school. Entering the tower, he looks around and then heads to Ron's head boy room. Ron isn't' in there, so Harry places down Ashen on the couch. Getting some blankets and something warm to drink, he joins her and starts in about the scars.
" Ashen why?"
" Because I do it, because it makes me feel better about her death."
" But why are you doing something that killed her?"
" I don't know. I thought that because we weren't that close in blood. Her death wouldn't effect me but I looks like it has."
" Its ok Ashen. But please try to stop. I don't want you dead."
Ashen then turns to Harry and stares at him. Moving closer, she asks him why he kisses her. He responded with it was the only thing to shut her up. She then throws her wet hat on him. Then they start to laugh and enjoy life again.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Next Day~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It's a sunny day. Everything is dripping with rain. Ron ended up sleeping in Harry's bed because they were both passes out in the living room. Later; Harry and Ashen are in a bathroom, where they are talking about last night.
" Harry I promise to stop if you let me do it one last time" Ashen asked
" Fine but I don't want to see it at all." Harry said handing over the box cutters.
Ashen does a quick, thin, cut across her arm. Bleeding slightly she slides the cutters back over to Harry and then grabs some papers towels to clean up the wound. Harry turns the cutters into a candle and then places it on the towel dispenser. Ashen, holding her arm, looks over at Harry and smiles. Harry turns and smiles back. Walking out of the bathroom , Harry walks her to Aspen's bedroom. it's nearly ten and they have class tomorrow. After like half and hour, Harry comes in and makes sure that she's ok and not doing anything bad. Ashen is sleeping there still holding the paper towels. Harry can't help but smile. As he closes the door, he whispers something.
" Good night my angel."
And heads off to bed. Hoping that the next week will be much easier then this week.
The blood flows from her eyes.
The tears are no more.
The sword drops to the ground
The man stands above her.
Showing no sorrow,
She drops to the ground,
Closes her eyes and says goodbye.
He slowly walks away,
Tears start to flow from his eyes.
The anger and fear begin to show.
He killed his only friend that would listen to his problems.
He said he didn't need help
She wouldn't let go
So anger begins to fill his soul.
He killed his only friend.
The blood still flows from her eyes.
The tears are no more.
Disclaimer: I do not own any Harry Potter item that stuff belongs to J.K. Rowling. I do however own all the poems that are used in this chapter. If they say there by me then they are. If you want to use them please let me know.
Ashen: Thanks everyone for reading my story.
Harry: Kitty is very proud of herself she actually wrote for three hours straight.
Kitty: Trust me after I get the computer shut down I'm like so going to sleep because me eyes are killing me.
Ashen: Yah I think you need some sleep your eyes are blood shot.
Harry: Hey before you go to bed. Try this cocoa it helps go to sleep.
Kitty: Thanks Harry. *slups* *falls on the table fast asleep.*
Ashen and Harry: goodnight *drapes a blanket over her and then head to bed themselves*