Author's Note
Okay, got my laptop and now I'm updating. I fear procrastinating with infect me further, and I already am battling the evil cold.
Oh, interesting note. Before I read the song lyrics, I picked the title from the song that's the Silent Mobius opening. Now I read them and they actually work with the fic!
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Forbidden Pense
hito wa dare mo umareta imi o sagashite toki o samayou no
wasurenai de futatsu no tsuki ga kasanari au toki o...
(People wander when they search for the reason they were born
don't forget when the two moons overlap each other)
Sailor Moon stood atop the building of tinted glass, watching the scene below unfold. She must have looked like an angel, determining if she should intervene or not. She was going to, it was her nature to do whatever she could, but she realized something as she watched the battle begin.
This was something Pluto had to do on her own. It was both a physical and mental battle, and only she could save herself in the end.
Ever since the battle with Galaxia, Usagi was little by little remembering the Silver Millennium with great clarity, but she had chosen to not reveal this to her Senshi, though she suspected Setsuna knew. For her to reveal what she remembered would most likely hurt the Senshi more, for those memories held deep regrets and tragedy, memories that needed to come back on their own terms. She couldn't lie to them, and they'd want to know. And she'd have to tell them about Endymion's generals and their relationship to them.
As for Mamoru, she knew he was remembering too, thankfully. She was beginning to miss the Mamoru she'd fallen for, the witty, edgy Mamoru. Not that she didn't love her Mamo-chan, she loved him more than anything on Earth, but she had realized lately that he had been changing to please her. She didn't want him to change. She loved her cranky college student and actually missed arguing sometimes. It was so fun looking back.
Because she remembered, Usagi knew who Pluto was fighting and why.
And that was why she simply watched at the moment, whispering a prayer.
"Setsuna-san, may your tragedy not repeat itself."
Ah kimi wa kaze no naka aozameta rakuen o toki hanashi
kimi wa miokuru yo kegarenaki ano hibi no omoide o
(Ah, you release a blue-ish paradise in the wind
And you see off the memories of those days without getting dirty)
Do not cry, Pluto thought. The time of tears has long since past.
Hades summoned energy, releasing a ball of dark power at Sailor Pluto. She dodged it, releasing a Dead Scream at him in return. He dodged it. They were quite even it appeared.
"I see, you've gotten stronger over the years. So much more calm, so sure. I half expected to see those tears of yours by now." He taunted.
"I'm sure you'd love that, Hades. I think you loved seeing me miserable so you wouldn't have to be miserable alone." She spat out.
He smirked.
"Ah, but are you not the soldier of melancholy? I'm just the King of the Dead. Or was."
He then began to attack her with his sword, as they began fencing with sword and staff.
Pluto knew he had the advantage, if the now gashing cut on her arm was anything to prove for it.
The best she could do was bludgeon him unconscious, and she doubted that would keep him down for long.
Was it really once upon a time ago they had fallen so quickly and deeply in love?
Soulmates were they?
More in misery than love.
"I almost had you, didn't I? It's amazing how you always escape death? Is it because your father is a god or are you just that damn lucky?" he suddenly asked, feeling a bruise forming on his ribs.
"Almost had me?!" she gasped, and then it dawned on her.
He wanted her to fight and lose.
He wanted to kill her out of revenge and anger…but not in the way she had thought.
If she died…he'd have her. Her soul would be his to claim as he was, despite the years, the King of the Underworld, and she was bound to him.
He wanted her still…
And that was why she did something she rarely did in battle.
Escaped.
After launching a Dead Scream, she escaped to the Time Gate as fast as she could, the one place he could not enter.
Hades gazed at the spot where she had stood, wiped the blood from the cut on his lip and smirked.
"I see, you've figured it out. You can run, but I will always find you."
"Hades!"
He turned at the feminine voice.
He blinked then chuckled.
"Little Princess Serenity! You were floating dead with your Earth lover last I saw you. Betrayed your kingdom, seems common amongst you and your Senshi. Tell me, did you laugh to yourself when my darling wife had to face your mother, most likely ashamed for loving me?"
"Never. I would never laugh at her. Of all my senshi, she has made the most sacrifices. I knew of you two before anyone else, and said nothing. She knew of my love for Endymion the whole time and said nothing. It must've been hard for her, carrying such knowledge. I think no one has endured more than she has sometimes. Even you."
"She knows nothing of suffering and neither do you! I was a king and yet treated like a pariah amongst the Silver Millennium council. She was the one good thing in my life, I dreamt of her before we even spoke, and for a while, I thought she felt the same. Then she cursed our love, destroyed everything! She killed me as I killed her!" he bellowed, unleashing the anger in his soul.
A brief flash of pain shined in Sailor Moon's blue eyes.
"I knew, from the beginning, that it would end badly for Endymion and I. I loved him so much though, I never wanted to let go. I betrayed my kingdom and my mother. We died. We were reborn with our memories locked. When we met again, Endymion and I always argued. He had been taken by the Dark Kingdom, and almost killed me, but I struck back. He died saving me. I died. We came back though. Do you think you're the only one ever felt that pain or forbidden love?"
"But it worked out so fairy tale for you and your prince!" he sneered.
amai doku ni sasoware
atsui tsumi o okashite
toki no ame ni utarete kimi ha mezameru
( Being invited by a sweet poison,
You commit a deep crime
Being struck by the rain of the moment
You wake up)
Sailor Moon remained calm.
"Imagine having been told as a child, that it was your destiny to guard something so important that the universe depended on it. Imagine being alone, literally, for years, yearning for the company of another soul. Imagine that you did this out of duty and loyalty and faith. Then imagine everything changed and you betrayed this, your reason for being and all you stood for. Imagine the pain it causes to make such a betrayal, only to then have said reason kill you. Imagine then being reborn and remembering everything about it, never forgetting. Do you think it was all so easy for her? I remember, when no one was there but myself, she cried for days, crying your name."
"Out of guilt."
"Out of heartbreak you fool! You think you were lonely? You know nothing! I remember the look of her face when she danced with you that night, she was so happy, I'd never seen her so happy. She loved you more than you seem to fathom!"
"Then why don't you just get rid of me? You have the power."
"Because," she said, as she began to walk away, "I haven't lost all hope."
kindan no PENSE
aisuru imi o sagashite daremo kizutsuku no
namae mo naki da tenshitachi yo
inoru you ni odore
unmei no PENSE
namida no naka de kimi ha umare kawaru
kitto ai o dakishime tsuyokunareru...
( Forbidden thoughts
When he looks for the meaning he loves
Everybody gets hurt.
Fallen angels without even a name
Dance as if you were praying
Fateful thoughts
You are reborn inside your tears
Surely, you can get stronger by embracing love)
Ah kimi wa yume no naka taikutsu na shiawase ni tsukare hate
kimi wa tanoshi muyo zeitaku na kanashimi no uragiri o
( Ah, in your dreams, you've got tired out in your tedious happiness
And you enjoy the betrayal of your wild sadness)
hoshi no kakera atsumete
akai hana o chirashite
mune ni toge o umete kimi ha hohoemu
( By carrying fragments of stars
And scattering red flowers
And putting a thorn in your heart,
You smile.)
seijuku no PENSE
umareta imi o sagashite daremo tabidatsu no
namae mo naki da tenshitachi yo
inoru you ni nemure
unmei no PENSE
haruka na michi o kimi ha arukidaseru
daremo shiranai mirai tsukuru tame ni...
( Prudent thoughts
When he looks for the meaning of his birth
Everybody begins a trip
Fallens angels without even a name
Sleep as if you were praying
Fateful thoughts
You can begin to walk on a distant road
So that you can create a future that nobody will know)
kindan no PENSE
aisuru imi o sagashite daremo kizutsuku no
namae mo naki da tenshitachi yo
inoru you ni odore
unmei no PENSE
namida no naka de kimi ha umare kawaru
kitto ai o dakishime tsuyokunareru...
( Forbidden thoughts
When he looks for the meaning he loves
Everybody gets hurt.
Fallen angels without even a name
Dance as if you were praying
Fateful thoughts
You are reborn inside your tears
Surely, you can get stronger by embracing love)
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
'There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart…there was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more than to keep from the breaking apart all my pictures of you…'- 'Pictures of You' The Cure
'There are things you should know…the more I try the distance between us seems to grow.'- 'Your Sweet Six Six Six H.I.M.
'She'll be right here in my arms, so in love....'- Right Here In My Arms- H.I.M.
'Please take me home too late its gone I bet your sad this is the best time we ever had.'- 'Please Take Me Home' Blink 182
Okay, got my laptop and now I'm updating. I fear procrastinating with infect me further, and I already am battling the evil cold.
Oh, interesting note. Before I read the song lyrics, I picked the title from the song that's the Silent Mobius opening. Now I read them and they actually work with the fic!
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Forbidden Pense
hito wa dare mo umareta imi o sagashite toki o samayou no
wasurenai de futatsu no tsuki ga kasanari au toki o...
(People wander when they search for the reason they were born
don't forget when the two moons overlap each other)
Sailor Moon stood atop the building of tinted glass, watching the scene below unfold. She must have looked like an angel, determining if she should intervene or not. She was going to, it was her nature to do whatever she could, but she realized something as she watched the battle begin.
This was something Pluto had to do on her own. It was both a physical and mental battle, and only she could save herself in the end.
Ever since the battle with Galaxia, Usagi was little by little remembering the Silver Millennium with great clarity, but she had chosen to not reveal this to her Senshi, though she suspected Setsuna knew. For her to reveal what she remembered would most likely hurt the Senshi more, for those memories held deep regrets and tragedy, memories that needed to come back on their own terms. She couldn't lie to them, and they'd want to know. And she'd have to tell them about Endymion's generals and their relationship to them.
As for Mamoru, she knew he was remembering too, thankfully. She was beginning to miss the Mamoru she'd fallen for, the witty, edgy Mamoru. Not that she didn't love her Mamo-chan, she loved him more than anything on Earth, but she had realized lately that he had been changing to please her. She didn't want him to change. She loved her cranky college student and actually missed arguing sometimes. It was so fun looking back.
Because she remembered, Usagi knew who Pluto was fighting and why.
And that was why she simply watched at the moment, whispering a prayer.
"Setsuna-san, may your tragedy not repeat itself."
Ah kimi wa kaze no naka aozameta rakuen o toki hanashi
kimi wa miokuru yo kegarenaki ano hibi no omoide o
(Ah, you release a blue-ish paradise in the wind
And you see off the memories of those days without getting dirty)
Do not cry, Pluto thought. The time of tears has long since past.
Hades summoned energy, releasing a ball of dark power at Sailor Pluto. She dodged it, releasing a Dead Scream at him in return. He dodged it. They were quite even it appeared.
"I see, you've gotten stronger over the years. So much more calm, so sure. I half expected to see those tears of yours by now." He taunted.
"I'm sure you'd love that, Hades. I think you loved seeing me miserable so you wouldn't have to be miserable alone." She spat out.
He smirked.
"Ah, but are you not the soldier of melancholy? I'm just the King of the Dead. Or was."
He then began to attack her with his sword, as they began fencing with sword and staff.
Pluto knew he had the advantage, if the now gashing cut on her arm was anything to prove for it.
The best she could do was bludgeon him unconscious, and she doubted that would keep him down for long.
Was it really once upon a time ago they had fallen so quickly and deeply in love?
Soulmates were they?
More in misery than love.
"I almost had you, didn't I? It's amazing how you always escape death? Is it because your father is a god or are you just that damn lucky?" he suddenly asked, feeling a bruise forming on his ribs.
"Almost had me?!" she gasped, and then it dawned on her.
He wanted her to fight and lose.
He wanted to kill her out of revenge and anger…but not in the way she had thought.
If she died…he'd have her. Her soul would be his to claim as he was, despite the years, the King of the Underworld, and she was bound to him.
He wanted her still…
And that was why she did something she rarely did in battle.
Escaped.
After launching a Dead Scream, she escaped to the Time Gate as fast as she could, the one place he could not enter.
Hades gazed at the spot where she had stood, wiped the blood from the cut on his lip and smirked.
"I see, you've figured it out. You can run, but I will always find you."
"Hades!"
He turned at the feminine voice.
He blinked then chuckled.
"Little Princess Serenity! You were floating dead with your Earth lover last I saw you. Betrayed your kingdom, seems common amongst you and your Senshi. Tell me, did you laugh to yourself when my darling wife had to face your mother, most likely ashamed for loving me?"
"Never. I would never laugh at her. Of all my senshi, she has made the most sacrifices. I knew of you two before anyone else, and said nothing. She knew of my love for Endymion the whole time and said nothing. It must've been hard for her, carrying such knowledge. I think no one has endured more than she has sometimes. Even you."
"She knows nothing of suffering and neither do you! I was a king and yet treated like a pariah amongst the Silver Millennium council. She was the one good thing in my life, I dreamt of her before we even spoke, and for a while, I thought she felt the same. Then she cursed our love, destroyed everything! She killed me as I killed her!" he bellowed, unleashing the anger in his soul.
A brief flash of pain shined in Sailor Moon's blue eyes.
"I knew, from the beginning, that it would end badly for Endymion and I. I loved him so much though, I never wanted to let go. I betrayed my kingdom and my mother. We died. We were reborn with our memories locked. When we met again, Endymion and I always argued. He had been taken by the Dark Kingdom, and almost killed me, but I struck back. He died saving me. I died. We came back though. Do you think you're the only one ever felt that pain or forbidden love?"
"But it worked out so fairy tale for you and your prince!" he sneered.
amai doku ni sasoware
atsui tsumi o okashite
toki no ame ni utarete kimi ha mezameru
( Being invited by a sweet poison,
You commit a deep crime
Being struck by the rain of the moment
You wake up)
Sailor Moon remained calm.
"Imagine having been told as a child, that it was your destiny to guard something so important that the universe depended on it. Imagine being alone, literally, for years, yearning for the company of another soul. Imagine that you did this out of duty and loyalty and faith. Then imagine everything changed and you betrayed this, your reason for being and all you stood for. Imagine the pain it causes to make such a betrayal, only to then have said reason kill you. Imagine then being reborn and remembering everything about it, never forgetting. Do you think it was all so easy for her? I remember, when no one was there but myself, she cried for days, crying your name."
"Out of guilt."
"Out of heartbreak you fool! You think you were lonely? You know nothing! I remember the look of her face when she danced with you that night, she was so happy, I'd never seen her so happy. She loved you more than you seem to fathom!"
"Then why don't you just get rid of me? You have the power."
"Because," she said, as she began to walk away, "I haven't lost all hope."
kindan no PENSE
aisuru imi o sagashite daremo kizutsuku no
namae mo naki da tenshitachi yo
inoru you ni odore
unmei no PENSE
namida no naka de kimi ha umare kawaru
kitto ai o dakishime tsuyokunareru...
( Forbidden thoughts
When he looks for the meaning he loves
Everybody gets hurt.
Fallen angels without even a name
Dance as if you were praying
Fateful thoughts
You are reborn inside your tears
Surely, you can get stronger by embracing love)
Ah kimi wa yume no naka taikutsu na shiawase ni tsukare hate
kimi wa tanoshi muyo zeitaku na kanashimi no uragiri o
( Ah, in your dreams, you've got tired out in your tedious happiness
And you enjoy the betrayal of your wild sadness)
hoshi no kakera atsumete
akai hana o chirashite
mune ni toge o umete kimi ha hohoemu
( By carrying fragments of stars
And scattering red flowers
And putting a thorn in your heart,
You smile.)
seijuku no PENSE
umareta imi o sagashite daremo tabidatsu no
namae mo naki da tenshitachi yo
inoru you ni nemure
unmei no PENSE
haruka na michi o kimi ha arukidaseru
daremo shiranai mirai tsukuru tame ni...
( Prudent thoughts
When he looks for the meaning of his birth
Everybody begins a trip
Fallens angels without even a name
Sleep as if you were praying
Fateful thoughts
You can begin to walk on a distant road
So that you can create a future that nobody will know)
kindan no PENSE
aisuru imi o sagashite daremo kizutsuku no
namae mo naki da tenshitachi yo
inoru you ni odore
unmei no PENSE
namida no naka de kimi ha umare kawaru
kitto ai o dakishime tsuyokunareru...
( Forbidden thoughts
When he looks for the meaning he loves
Everybody gets hurt.
Fallen angels without even a name
Dance as if you were praying
Fateful thoughts
You are reborn inside your tears
Surely, you can get stronger by embracing love)
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
'There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart…there was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more than to keep from the breaking apart all my pictures of you…'- 'Pictures of You' The Cure
'There are things you should know…the more I try the distance between us seems to grow.'- 'Your Sweet Six Six Six H.I.M.
'She'll be right here in my arms, so in love....'- Right Here In My Arms- H.I.M.
'Please take me home too late its gone I bet your sad this is the best time we ever had.'- 'Please Take Me Home' Blink 182