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Chapter 7: To Tell or Not To Tell, That's The Question
"Hi Alexandra." Remus said when Alexandra opened her door the next morning.
"Oh, err, hi." Alexandra said nervously.
"I, err, just want to tell you that I am going back to my school tomorrow." Remus said, sensing that something was wrong.
"Yeah...." Alexandra said slowly.
"So I am here to say goodbye." Remus said and reached out to touch her but before Alexandra knew what she was doing, she backed away, not letting him to touch her.
Remus raised his eyebrows and looked slightly hurt.
"I, um, sorry. I'm not feeling well today.." Alexandra said softly and had her head low, not meeting Remus' eyes.
Remus took a deep breath. "Oh, I'm sorry. I hope you get well soon."
Alexandra nodded.
"I, um, have to go now and pack my things....so, goodbye, see you during Easter holidays." Remus said and turned.
"Remus? What's the name of your school?" Alexandra suddenly asked.
Remus stopped dead in his tracks and turned around slowly. "Err, you don't want to know. It's pretty dumb and difficult to remember." He lied.
Alexandra shook her head. "You are lying."
"W-what?"
Alexandra took a deep breath. "You. Are. Lying. Your school is Hogwarts, school of witchcraft and wizardry, right?"
"I...I, err, I have no idea what are you talking about."
"OH YES YOU DO!" Alexandra exploded. "Remus, tell me, where exactly do you live? What is your telephone number? What are your friends' names? Where did you get the music box? Why is your mail don't require address and stamp? What is the subject that you teach?"
"I-I told you, I teach Literature!" Remus managed to answer weakly.
"No, you don't, you teach Defence Against the Dark Arts!" Alexandra hissed.
Remus turned ghastly pale. Alexandra grabbed his hand, dragged him into the house and slammed the door shut.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Alexandra demanded.
Before Remus could think of a good answer, she said, " I know why, you are a wizard and you are toying with my feelings for pleasure! Why will a great wizard like you would go out with a Muggle like me?!"
Remus didn't respond.
Alexandra sat down on her sofa, breathing heavily. "Get out, please." She whispered.
Remus just walked out of the door and closed it. Alexandra reacted by throwing her butterfly-shape cushion towards the door. "DAMN YOU REMUS LUPIN!"
***
"Hey Remus! How are the things going on between you and your wife?" Sirius teased and grinned when Remus came into the staff room the next day.
Remus just looked at him with lifeless eyes.
"What's the matter? Remus, are you okay?" Sirius' grin faded and asked in concern.
Remus sat down on his chair and rested his head on the table. "It's over between me and Alexandra." He said without lifting his head up.
"Why?" Sirius demanded. Then he frowned a little. "She knows, right? She has found out about your true identity right?"
"Yeah."
"So she finds out all by herself?" Sirius asked.
"Yeah. She got the book "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" for Christmas." Remus said dryly and then lifted his head.
Sirius groaned. "How did she react?"
"She's totally upset. She thought that I am playing with her feelings."
"What did you say then?" Sirius asked eagerly.
"Nothing."
"WHAT?!"
"I figured that I would make things worse if I opened my mouth. Besides, it is hopeless," Remus said sadly. "This relationship will never work out. It is much better this way if we just break up. She doesn't have to risk her life to be with me on a full moon."
"But you drink the Wolfsbane Potion every month!" Sirius protested.
"What if I didn't? What if I forget to drink it?" Remus challenged.
"But...." Sirius started.
"Just leave me alone." Remus snapped and leaned back on his chair with his eyes closed. As he did, Sirius could see a drop of tear coming out of the corner of his eye.
***
"Remus? Remus!" Madam Hooch called during breakfast a few days later.
"Huh? What?" Remus glanced up from his bacon.
"I said, pass the pepper." Madam Hooch said impatiently.
"Oh, okay." Remus said and passed Madam Hooch the salt.
Madam Hooch rolled her eyes and took out her wand. "Accio pepper." She said and the pepper flew to her hand.
"Gee, Lupin, I think you should have your eyes test." Snape teased unmercifully but Remus didn't seem to hear him, he was chewing his bacon slowly.
Sirius laughed inwardly at Snape that his joke had gone backfired.
Dumbledore and Professor McGonagall looked at each other. "Err, Lupin? I think you should take a rest today." Dumbledore said gently.
"What?" Remus looked at Dumbledore and picked up his toast. "There's no need, Professor, I am all right." Remus said and forced a smile. "Pass the butter."
"It's right in front of you." Snape said flatly.
"Oh, right." Remus said and took the box of butter.
Sirius looked at Remus in concern. If Remus carried on like this, he may end up being sick. He needed to think of something to cheer him up...
***
When Remus was holding his lessons, Sirius sneaked into his office and rummaged around his drawer. He found what he wanted: a piece of parchment with Alexandra's address. He took out his wand, waved it and everything went back to its original position. He stuffed the parchment under his robes and went out of the office.
***
Sirius looked up from the parchment and smiled. "Boy, this place is hard to find." He muttered and rang the doorbell.
Alexandra opened the door.
"Hi." Sirius said cheerfully.
Alexandra studied Sirius from head to toe. "Who are you? You looked...oddly familiar."
"I'm Sirius Black."
Alexandra's eyes widened. "I thought you are on the run."
"That rat turned himself in, I'm free." Sirius said casually.
"Oh."
"Can I come in?"
"Sure." Alexandra said and let Sirius in. "Have a seat."
Sirius sat down. "You know my good friend Remus right?"
Alexandra nodded.
"Look, I'll come straight to the point. Remus is not what you think. If he is, he will be in Slytherin, not Gryffindor. You know what I mean, right?"
Alexandra nodded again. "But...he should have told me in the first place!"
Sirius couldn't help but snorted. "Yeah right." He said sarcastically. "If I tell you that I'm a werewolf, will you believe me?"
Alexandra thought for a while. "No."
"That's it! He is wasting his time telling you because you probably won't believe him." Sirius said. At least he thought that's why Remus won't tell her, but who cares? As long as he could get Remus and Alexandra back together.... "And do you know the other reason why?"
Alexandra shook her head.
"Because he loves you. He thinks that if he tells you, you will leave him, like Tom Riddle's parents. Err, you know who's Tom Riddle right?" Sirius asked. Yeah, that's more likely the reason why Remus was unwilling to tell Alexandra the truth....
Alexandra nodded and had her head low.
"Anyway, there's no denied that he is a werewolf. We wizards and witches, like you Muggles, are afraid of werewolves. Before he met James, that rat, and me, he was pretty lonely. And can you imagine how sad and lonely he was after he lost all of his best friends with the death of the Potters, my imprisonment and the fake death of that rat?"
Alexandra shook her head and began to sob. "I regret my words right after Remus left my house. I wish we can get back together, but it is hopeless, he will never forgive me for accusing him...."
"He will. I promise you." Sirius promised.
***
When Sirius got back to Hogwarts, it was evening, and he saw Remus lying like a dead man in his bedroom, with his eyes opened.
"Remus? Remus!" Sirius called.
"Oh, it's you, Sirius." Remus said flatly, barely lifting his head from his pillow to look at Sirius.
Sirius clicked his tongue. "Oh for Merlin's sake! If you cared for Alexandra so much, go and find her!"
"I don't care about that Muggle!" Remus protested.
"Yes, you do! I saw you crying when you came back that day!" Sirius said loudly.
Remus didn't respond.
"Oh look, don't kill me, but I went to visit her today. She was pretty upset."
Remus still didn't respond.
"She said that she wished that you and her could get back together but you would probably never forgive her for accusing you...." Sirius stopped and tried to see Remus' reaction.
Remus' face remained blank.
Sirius threw up his hands. "OH I GIVE UP!" He said and stormed out of his bedroom.
Remus sat up on his bed and looked at the door, wondering whether what Sirius had said was true.
"Why not? Just give it a shot. You will regret it if you don't." The mirror on the wall said.
Remus got out of his bed and went to his closet.
***
Alexandra stared out of her window and sighed at the heavy rain. "Looks like it is really over between me and Remus." She said sadly, looking at the empty wet street. "How could I say those nasty things? What's the matter with me?! Alexandra, you idiot!" She scolded herself. "Now he will never come back to you."
She sighed again and went to her bathroom, thinking that maybe a bath would make her feel better.
***
½ hour later, she came of the bathroom with nothing but her bathrobe. She looked into the mirror and gasped at her reflection, who looked back at her with red eyes.
"Of course, you have been crying for the whole afternoon." Alexandra said and tried to smile. She went to the window and gazed out at the rain again. Obviously, the bath had not done any improvement to her mood. And the weather suited it perfectly.
Alexandra looked at the dark street, with its streetlamps shone softly in the rain, and a man with wet light brown and grey hair, walking towards her house....
Wait a minute.
Alexandra's eyes widened and she rushed downstairs when she heard the doorbell rang. She flung it open and saw Remus Lupin standing there; looking as if he had just came out of the swimming pool.
"R-Remus..." Alexandra started.
"Alexandra." Remus interrupted. "I'm so sorry....."
"Come in." Alexandra said in panic. "You will catch a cold!"
Remus came in and after Alexandra closed the door, he pulled her into his arms. "Alexandra, I am so sorry! I should have told you the truth ever since I met you...." He released her. "But I can't. I love you too much...."
Alexandra sniffed. "I am the one who should be saying sorry! I shouldn't accuse you..."
Remus acted as if he didn't hear her. He hug her again and refused to let go.
"Remus, I don't care if you are a werewolf or a vampire. I love you and I always will." Alexandra whispered.
Remus gazed into her eyes lovingly and they kissed. As Remus kissed her neck, he waved his hand behind him and the curtains drew shut. Alexandra gazed at Remus and she didn't stop him when he untied the knot of her bathrobe's belt.
Chapter 7: To Tell or Not To Tell, That's The Question
"Hi Alexandra." Remus said when Alexandra opened her door the next morning.
"Oh, err, hi." Alexandra said nervously.
"I, err, just want to tell you that I am going back to my school tomorrow." Remus said, sensing that something was wrong.
"Yeah...." Alexandra said slowly.
"So I am here to say goodbye." Remus said and reached out to touch her but before Alexandra knew what she was doing, she backed away, not letting him to touch her.
Remus raised his eyebrows and looked slightly hurt.
"I, um, sorry. I'm not feeling well today.." Alexandra said softly and had her head low, not meeting Remus' eyes.
Remus took a deep breath. "Oh, I'm sorry. I hope you get well soon."
Alexandra nodded.
"I, um, have to go now and pack my things....so, goodbye, see you during Easter holidays." Remus said and turned.
"Remus? What's the name of your school?" Alexandra suddenly asked.
Remus stopped dead in his tracks and turned around slowly. "Err, you don't want to know. It's pretty dumb and difficult to remember." He lied.
Alexandra shook her head. "You are lying."
"W-what?"
Alexandra took a deep breath. "You. Are. Lying. Your school is Hogwarts, school of witchcraft and wizardry, right?"
"I...I, err, I have no idea what are you talking about."
"OH YES YOU DO!" Alexandra exploded. "Remus, tell me, where exactly do you live? What is your telephone number? What are your friends' names? Where did you get the music box? Why is your mail don't require address and stamp? What is the subject that you teach?"
"I-I told you, I teach Literature!" Remus managed to answer weakly.
"No, you don't, you teach Defence Against the Dark Arts!" Alexandra hissed.
Remus turned ghastly pale. Alexandra grabbed his hand, dragged him into the house and slammed the door shut.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Alexandra demanded.
Before Remus could think of a good answer, she said, " I know why, you are a wizard and you are toying with my feelings for pleasure! Why will a great wizard like you would go out with a Muggle like me?!"
Remus didn't respond.
Alexandra sat down on her sofa, breathing heavily. "Get out, please." She whispered.
Remus just walked out of the door and closed it. Alexandra reacted by throwing her butterfly-shape cushion towards the door. "DAMN YOU REMUS LUPIN!"
***
"Hey Remus! How are the things going on between you and your wife?" Sirius teased and grinned when Remus came into the staff room the next day.
Remus just looked at him with lifeless eyes.
"What's the matter? Remus, are you okay?" Sirius' grin faded and asked in concern.
Remus sat down on his chair and rested his head on the table. "It's over between me and Alexandra." He said without lifting his head up.
"Why?" Sirius demanded. Then he frowned a little. "She knows, right? She has found out about your true identity right?"
"Yeah."
"So she finds out all by herself?" Sirius asked.
"Yeah. She got the book "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" for Christmas." Remus said dryly and then lifted his head.
Sirius groaned. "How did she react?"
"She's totally upset. She thought that I am playing with her feelings."
"What did you say then?" Sirius asked eagerly.
"Nothing."
"WHAT?!"
"I figured that I would make things worse if I opened my mouth. Besides, it is hopeless," Remus said sadly. "This relationship will never work out. It is much better this way if we just break up. She doesn't have to risk her life to be with me on a full moon."
"But you drink the Wolfsbane Potion every month!" Sirius protested.
"What if I didn't? What if I forget to drink it?" Remus challenged.
"But...." Sirius started.
"Just leave me alone." Remus snapped and leaned back on his chair with his eyes closed. As he did, Sirius could see a drop of tear coming out of the corner of his eye.
***
"Remus? Remus!" Madam Hooch called during breakfast a few days later.
"Huh? What?" Remus glanced up from his bacon.
"I said, pass the pepper." Madam Hooch said impatiently.
"Oh, okay." Remus said and passed Madam Hooch the salt.
Madam Hooch rolled her eyes and took out her wand. "Accio pepper." She said and the pepper flew to her hand.
"Gee, Lupin, I think you should have your eyes test." Snape teased unmercifully but Remus didn't seem to hear him, he was chewing his bacon slowly.
Sirius laughed inwardly at Snape that his joke had gone backfired.
Dumbledore and Professor McGonagall looked at each other. "Err, Lupin? I think you should take a rest today." Dumbledore said gently.
"What?" Remus looked at Dumbledore and picked up his toast. "There's no need, Professor, I am all right." Remus said and forced a smile. "Pass the butter."
"It's right in front of you." Snape said flatly.
"Oh, right." Remus said and took the box of butter.
Sirius looked at Remus in concern. If Remus carried on like this, he may end up being sick. He needed to think of something to cheer him up...
***
When Remus was holding his lessons, Sirius sneaked into his office and rummaged around his drawer. He found what he wanted: a piece of parchment with Alexandra's address. He took out his wand, waved it and everything went back to its original position. He stuffed the parchment under his robes and went out of the office.
***
Sirius looked up from the parchment and smiled. "Boy, this place is hard to find." He muttered and rang the doorbell.
Alexandra opened the door.
"Hi." Sirius said cheerfully.
Alexandra studied Sirius from head to toe. "Who are you? You looked...oddly familiar."
"I'm Sirius Black."
Alexandra's eyes widened. "I thought you are on the run."
"That rat turned himself in, I'm free." Sirius said casually.
"Oh."
"Can I come in?"
"Sure." Alexandra said and let Sirius in. "Have a seat."
Sirius sat down. "You know my good friend Remus right?"
Alexandra nodded.
"Look, I'll come straight to the point. Remus is not what you think. If he is, he will be in Slytherin, not Gryffindor. You know what I mean, right?"
Alexandra nodded again. "But...he should have told me in the first place!"
Sirius couldn't help but snorted. "Yeah right." He said sarcastically. "If I tell you that I'm a werewolf, will you believe me?"
Alexandra thought for a while. "No."
"That's it! He is wasting his time telling you because you probably won't believe him." Sirius said. At least he thought that's why Remus won't tell her, but who cares? As long as he could get Remus and Alexandra back together.... "And do you know the other reason why?"
Alexandra shook her head.
"Because he loves you. He thinks that if he tells you, you will leave him, like Tom Riddle's parents. Err, you know who's Tom Riddle right?" Sirius asked. Yeah, that's more likely the reason why Remus was unwilling to tell Alexandra the truth....
Alexandra nodded and had her head low.
"Anyway, there's no denied that he is a werewolf. We wizards and witches, like you Muggles, are afraid of werewolves. Before he met James, that rat, and me, he was pretty lonely. And can you imagine how sad and lonely he was after he lost all of his best friends with the death of the Potters, my imprisonment and the fake death of that rat?"
Alexandra shook her head and began to sob. "I regret my words right after Remus left my house. I wish we can get back together, but it is hopeless, he will never forgive me for accusing him...."
"He will. I promise you." Sirius promised.
***
When Sirius got back to Hogwarts, it was evening, and he saw Remus lying like a dead man in his bedroom, with his eyes opened.
"Remus? Remus!" Sirius called.
"Oh, it's you, Sirius." Remus said flatly, barely lifting his head from his pillow to look at Sirius.
Sirius clicked his tongue. "Oh for Merlin's sake! If you cared for Alexandra so much, go and find her!"
"I don't care about that Muggle!" Remus protested.
"Yes, you do! I saw you crying when you came back that day!" Sirius said loudly.
Remus didn't respond.
"Oh look, don't kill me, but I went to visit her today. She was pretty upset."
Remus still didn't respond.
"She said that she wished that you and her could get back together but you would probably never forgive her for accusing you...." Sirius stopped and tried to see Remus' reaction.
Remus' face remained blank.
Sirius threw up his hands. "OH I GIVE UP!" He said and stormed out of his bedroom.
Remus sat up on his bed and looked at the door, wondering whether what Sirius had said was true.
"Why not? Just give it a shot. You will regret it if you don't." The mirror on the wall said.
Remus got out of his bed and went to his closet.
***
Alexandra stared out of her window and sighed at the heavy rain. "Looks like it is really over between me and Remus." She said sadly, looking at the empty wet street. "How could I say those nasty things? What's the matter with me?! Alexandra, you idiot!" She scolded herself. "Now he will never come back to you."
She sighed again and went to her bathroom, thinking that maybe a bath would make her feel better.
***
½ hour later, she came of the bathroom with nothing but her bathrobe. She looked into the mirror and gasped at her reflection, who looked back at her with red eyes.
"Of course, you have been crying for the whole afternoon." Alexandra said and tried to smile. She went to the window and gazed out at the rain again. Obviously, the bath had not done any improvement to her mood. And the weather suited it perfectly.
Alexandra looked at the dark street, with its streetlamps shone softly in the rain, and a man with wet light brown and grey hair, walking towards her house....
Wait a minute.
Alexandra's eyes widened and she rushed downstairs when she heard the doorbell rang. She flung it open and saw Remus Lupin standing there; looking as if he had just came out of the swimming pool.
"R-Remus..." Alexandra started.
"Alexandra." Remus interrupted. "I'm so sorry....."
"Come in." Alexandra said in panic. "You will catch a cold!"
Remus came in and after Alexandra closed the door, he pulled her into his arms. "Alexandra, I am so sorry! I should have told you the truth ever since I met you...." He released her. "But I can't. I love you too much...."
Alexandra sniffed. "I am the one who should be saying sorry! I shouldn't accuse you..."
Remus acted as if he didn't hear her. He hug her again and refused to let go.
"Remus, I don't care if you are a werewolf or a vampire. I love you and I always will." Alexandra whispered.
Remus gazed into her eyes lovingly and they kissed. As Remus kissed her neck, he waved his hand behind him and the curtains drew shut. Alexandra gazed at Remus and she didn't stop him when he untied the knot of her bathrobe's belt.