Hi! I hope you enjoy this chappie! It's a sad one!

~~Chapter 8: A broken heart~~

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Spinelli sat on the sofa that evening, she was meant to be watching wrestling with her dad but she was somewhat distracted, she was of course thinking of TJ

'did him coming and lying next to me mean anything? Or was he just helping a friend? I mean he didn't seen to upset that he would be by that Gina girl –god I hate her! She's such a kiss up towards him!' Spinelli's thoughts were interrupted my Mrs Spinelli

"Ashley dear, are you okay?"

"firstly call me SPINELLI and secondly I was watching wrestling" she said trying to find a way to explain her 'day dream'

"but Pookie –the wrestling's just been won!"

Spinelli looked at the TV and realised her mother was right

"now I'm making the Spinelli secret sauce and wanted you to come help, you have to add your touch."

Spinelli followed her mum into the kitchen

"I was thinking of throwing away your mr monk monk –he's looking really old" said Mrs Spinelli

"NO!" said Spinelli quickly

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Spinelli awoke on Christmas morning and ran into her parents room jumping on the bed madly

"IT CRIZZIEMAS! IT CRIZZIEMAS!" she shouted (she was only in kindergarten)

"we're up Ashley"

"its Spinotie!" she said jumping from the bed and running down the stairs. She reached the Christmas tree and started searching madly for one of her presents

"open this one" said her dad "its form your little friend TJ"

Spinelli tore open the paper to find a Mr Monk Monk teddy. she had given a Mr Monk Monk teddy to TJ and was most upset about it –she wanted it for herself!

"miser monk monk! Miser monk monk!" she shouted running around happily

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Spinelli smiled as she remembered this "just wash him or reaper him or something"

Spinelli wasn't about to throw away her first ever gift from TJ!

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TJ glanced at his beloved monkey toy and his mind was yet again filled with thoughts of Spinelli, how much she had changed –since when would she not hit him? And moreover she kept a toy he'd given her nearly 6 years ago! But then again so had he.

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TJ woke up at around three AM Christmas morning, he got up and snuck down the stairs –he'd better not wake up his parents. When he finally reached the Christmas tree he started looking for his presents, His eyes fell on a present with shiny wrapping –the one Spinelli had given him. TJ excitedly tore off the paper to see a Mr Monk Monk

"OOOOOOOOOH! A MR MONK MONK!" he shouted hugging it and jumping up and down excitedly

"get to bed NOW young man!" said Mrs Detweiler emerging from the stairs rubbing her eyes

"look! Look! Its from spinotie!" he said waving the toy in his mothers face

"Spinelli" she corrected

"splinlie" he replied

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TJ chucked lightly as he remembered trying to learn Spinelli's name

He then began to think of Spinelli yet again

"If I could be anything I would be your tear, so I could be born in your eye, live down your cheek and die at you lips" he whispered

'WOA! Am I turning into Mikey or something?!'

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"good morning bright minds!" said Miss Grotkey brightly over the class

"good morning" came a few replies

"I'm holding a class poetry contest today, song find your inspiration and start writing"

"Oh boy poetry" said Mikey

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Spinelli glanced over at TJ and instantly found inspiration

He is my friend, my very first love... The person you know you can be with forever and not have to worry about anything. We've been friends for so many years. He has arrested my heart pity its behind bars.

I don't know how I hide these confusing feelings I just hide behind my image –my invisibility cloak.

I read love poetry the words and meaning hit me. I realize that love should be felt and not feared. My heart is yearning to have him near me... without him I feel almost incomplete, although love should be felt its hard when my beloved feels for others –a better.

You may keep my life going, but its hard not feel unloved,  I may look back and think, "I'm a hopeless romantic" but what I feel now can only be hidden, and not denied but one day I'm sure, my first love will be married and I alone. unless you take notice of me, please notice me my love.

Spinelli  read over her poem –it would have to be anonyms, she quickly decided to write a cover poem

W wrestling

R running with Adrenalin 

E everlasting screams of fans

S statistics and bets

T timing is crucial

L losing is shameful

I in a small ring

N no mercy

G greatest sport

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TJ's head was almost immediately filled with a poem and while on this role he began to write

I've been thinking about you a lot lately,

and wondering if your eyes are as deep as they are in my dreams. 

If your lips are as sweet,

I would surely melt and never return home.

I would end up in your arms forever. 

I wish to have you as a girlfriend so understanding,

so strong yet gentle, and still so sincere. 

I know you may not feel for me what I feel for you,

but my love, I wish we could be,

Mornings I have to awake and go back to reality. 

But I see you every time I lay my head upon a pillow,

my love, I wish to asleep for an eternity. 

I will always remember you.

You are so real to me,

it's a shame every time I am in a slumber

I have to wake up and return to reality.

But there are questions in my mind...

Could we ever be?

Could you be my Soul Mate?

Are you sending me these innocent dreams?

Because you are everything I want in a girl...

..EVERYTHING I WANT AND NEED

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The Recess bell rang and everyone got up

"Spinelli, cold I see you for a minute?"

"sure Miss Grotkey" said Spinelli walking to the front "see you guys in a minute"

when the class finally emptied Spinelli began to speak

"I've written two poems, but people cant know I wrote this one" she said handing Miss Grotkey her poem for TJ and watching Miss Grotkey read it

"this amazing" said Miss Grotkey wiping a tear from her eye

"um, thanks, as always this is between you and me right?"

"of course, would you mind if I kept a copy? This poem in beautiful"

"um sure –just don't tell anyone its mine"

"your secrets safe with me" said Miss Grotkey leaving the room

Spinelli glanced around the classroom nervously –making sure no one was present, she didn't see a soul but a sheet of paper on TJ's desk caught here eyes, she walked up and began to read

"I've been thinking about you a lot lately,

and wondering if your eyes are as deep as they are in my dreams. 

If your lips are as sweet,

I would surely melt and never return home.

I would end up in your arms forever. 

I wish to have you as a girlfriend so understanding,

so strong yet gentle, and still so sincere. 

I know you may not feel for me what I feel for you,

but my love, I wish we could be,

Mornings I have to awake and go back to reality. 

But I see you every time I lay my head upon a pillow,

my love, I wish to asleep for an eternity. 

I will always remember you.

You are so real to me,

it's a shame every time I am in a slumber

I have to wake up and return to reality.

But there are questions in my mind...

Could we ever be?

Could you be my Soul Mate?

Are you sending me these innocent dreams?

Because you are everything I want in a girl...

..EVERYTHING I WANT AND NEED"

When she finished tears were streaming down her face stabbing pains shooting through her heart

"no, its true, he loves Gina NO!" she ran from the room tears streaming down her face, she reached the girls toilets locked her self in a cubicle and slid down the wall "I'm so stupid"

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I saw Spinelli walking towards me –towards the classroom and relief flooded through me, she was okay.

"THERE YOU ARE SPIN!" I said happily "where have you been?"

I put my hand on her shoulder and smiled, any contact with her was perfect. but I couldn't be prepared for her reaction.

"leave me alone!" she said angrily pushing my hand away with a force and running into the class

her voice echoed through my mind, the angry look on her face flashed in my eyes, she hated me, what ever I've done -I've been an idiot.

"come on TJ, You cant stand alone in the hall all day!" said miss Grotkey, I looked up and realised she was right -I was alone in the hall.

I put in a grin and replied "aw you caught me" I walked into the class my cheery smile in place

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the 'end of recess' bell rang through me, I wiped my eyes and walked towards class, as I was nearly there I saw TJ walking towards me and the poem echoed though my mind

"THERE YOU ARE SPIN!" he said "where have you been?"

he put his had on my shoulder –how could he do this after writing that poem about HER! My heart tightened painfully and I felt a strong rush of anger

"leave me alone!" I said pushing his hand off of my shoulder and getting away quickly –if he thinks he can hurt me like this then he is VERY much mistaken, He already has that Gina cow.

I sat at my desk and stared ahead –I have to avoid eye contact at all costs

"Spinelli" I looked around to see Mikey

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I shouted, why doesn't anyone get the picture?! I want to be ALONE

I glanced up and saw TJ wasn't in the room

"come on TJ You cant stand alone in the hall all day!" said miss Grotkey in her usual cheerful voice

"aw you caught me" he said happily walking into the class with a large grin on his face

he could care for me just slightly –to think I called him a friend!

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Can you BELIEVE this has about 1885 words? Probably more!

political princess: yea –new world rule –all bf's watch Recess and read our ff's for lessons! Lol! yea, I bet she dose –but then if she knows how can she trust em alone? You must be so tired lol! lol at the SCANDALOUS thing! What did you think of this chappie? Tissue box worthy?

goofy monkey child: Thanks for reading! Yea I agree with the photo thing! Your not a dork –I'm 16 and I still have a comfort teddy (a mangled cat called jungle kitten lol!) your right about the 'pookie'  thanks for letting me know! I'm a fan of 'Gretch/Vince' thanks for telling me bought the '!' thing! I'm putting them on story and chapter titles but I'm gunna try and cut it out so much on general writing (its kinda a habit though) What did you think of this chappie? Is it Tissue box worthy?  Please review!

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