Well, this is a faster update again ^_^ *smile*. As it's so cold that not even my dog puts his nose out of the door without shivering and my friends are busy with wrapping presents up, there's not so much I can do but write a new chapter.

Thanks for all the nice reviews I got, I'm so nervous when I open my e-mails and notice that I've got reviews.

I'm always afraid that somebody says: "Even my little sister writes better stories, and she's six.", or something like that and then, when I realise that nobody has written anything similar to that, I'm so happy and my whole world is lightening so much that I could jump around for about an hour XD (yeah, I'm a little idiot).

I've read the first chapters again and there are so many mistakes in them that I could cry my eyes off (stuff like : "he didn't neither...nor...).

-_- oh damn...

I don't really like this chapter, I'm afraid to say, but even though I dunno why I'm happy, perhaps because Christmas is coming up (in Germany we get our presents on Christmas' Eve *grin* *yeah*).

Dunno why I'm writing all this rubbish, sorry ^.^"", the important notes are on (at?) the bottom of this chapter.

Enjoy :)!!

Disclaimer: JKR

Chapter 7 : The truth in the past

"What do you mean? What has that to do with my dad?", Harry asked, both confused and a little angry.

"May I tell him, Albus?", Lupin asked, looking at Dumbledore.

"What a question.", Dumbledore answered, nodding slightly.

"Alright then...", Lupin turned to Harry again, "Harry, what I'm going to tell you now will be a little hard for you, but it's the truth. And Harry, whatever you're going to hear now, your father was a great man, remember that...well, I didn't know all this stuff until this morning when Professor Dumbledore explained some things, Professor Snape had told him all this when he came to teach at Hogwarts."

Harry got more and more impatient, he didn't want to know since when or why Lupin know all that stuff, which seemed to be very interesting and mysterious, he wanted to know what Lupin knew.

And then, finally, after what seemed like hours to Harry, Lupin began his tale.

"You know that Professor Snape is a former Death Eater."

Harry nodded curiously.

"All this seems to began in his fifth year at Hogwarts, he always was interested in the Dark Arts as he still is, you know, but he had never been supporting Voldemort before, as he had been too young and Lord Voldemort had been working undercover before, but then, after he had been tortured by...", Lupin swallowed hard, as if these words made his throat aching, "...by us, that means Peter, Sirius, James and me.", he finally said, "Severus was more and more alone, well, let go of some stupid fellow Slytherins, who were his...friends.", Lupin spoke the last word with bitterness, "They made him joining Voldemort, told him it was great and that one could get mighty there, very mighty and very strong. Of course he was still a pupil, but from that moment on, he was a supporter of Voldemort."

"Yeah, I know he joined him, but what has that to do with-", Harry began, but was interrupted by Lupin.

"I'm coming to the point. I told you Severus was alone, but well, there was James. They weren't friends with each other, they were really, really similar, even something like...soulmates or so."

"Soulmates? Are you mad?", Harry almost yelled, surprised that Lupin was telling things that seemed to be rubbish about his father.

"I really hope I am Harry, but I doubt it.", he tried to smile weakly, "Anyway, they were often talking when nobody could hear them, when they were all alone, they understood each other. Your father knew Severus was going to join Voldemort, that he was almost a Death Eater, and so Severus knew about your father that he was up to be an Auror, and also that your father would love to be really mighty. Snape didn't want to loose the only one similar to a real friend, he knew, of course, that they could never meet again when they would leave school, a Death Eater and an Auror – no way. So he asked James to join, too."

"What?!!", Harry shouted, jumping off his chair, almost knocking it over, "That...that git!"

Lupin was looking pale, but Dumbledore was still sitting in a great armchair calmly, obviously eating a lemon drop or something like that, but his face was worried.

"Harry...", Lupin spoke again, his voice breaking, "You know that your father has never become a Death Eater, but he didn't refuse this offer immediately, he was thinking about it quite a long time."

"No...", Harry muttered with a weak voice, though he knew Lupin didn't lie, as he seemed to take it very seriously himself.

"Snape told him that he could rule, be mighty, one of the really great ones.", Lupin continued, Harry noticed that he had stopped adressing Snape by his first name, "Finally James said no, of course, especially as he loved Lily, he couldn't join a person hating witches and wizards like her, calling them mudbloods, murdering them. But nobody knows what he'd have done if your mum hadn't been there."

Tears were running down Harry's face, but he didn't care.

"Yeah, I know this must be hard for you.", Lupin said sadly, looking at him, "I really don't think he would have murdered anyone, Harry, this wouldn't have been likely for him. Well, after all that, and even after they'd finished school and your parents had joined the Order,as James had managed to stay in contact with Snape, though he knew what Snape was, he did not care, he trustet Snape. Snape knew that James was a member of the Order, fighting him, and this hit him hard, though they still met sometimes. Not only that James didn't join Voldemort and became an Auror, he even joined a group of people, who were fighting against Voldemort, and so against him, too, directly. Snape got both angry and sad. He was afraid James would kill him once, as they were enemies, he couldn't trust your father anymore. He was so full of bitterness that he didn't know who was on his side and who destroyed him slowly from the inside anymore. What you saw in your dream was a scene in the past, I think, when Severus told Voldemort James was in the Order of the Phoenix and that he trusted him. Of course, Voldemort wanted Severus to kill James, but, as you and I know, he didn't do, he couldn't do it...at least not himself. But he still wanted to help Voldemort as he thought that their friendship had never been real, he thought that James used him as a way to know what Voldemort was up to. Snape increased more and more into this. And then, when got stronger and stronger, James told him he was going into hiding with Lily and you and who your secretkeeper was supposed to be, he saw his chance. I think James did this to show Snape he was trusting him, but Snape didn't notice it. Snape wanted to make your dad feel all the pain he had felt when he had seemingly lost him, that's why he betrayed James."

Harry noticed that Lupin's voice, which had been hard before, was softening a little bit and he started to call Snape 'Severus' again,

"But then, Voldemort found James and Snape must have thought that Sirius was a traitor, he was angry he didn't get his revenge at first, but then, he must have been lucky that he had been a little too late, because he suddenly checked what that had been about. He realised James had never betrayed their friendship. After he became teacher here and especially after he met you, he became more and more angry both at him and at Sirius, as he thought Sirius had betrayed James. I think that's one of the causes for what has happened in the Shrieking Shrack some years ago, remember how angry he was when Sirius got away. But, you know, now Severus is on our side, for him, you're almost like his son, as he would've been almost the one who had made you an orphan. He's really worried about you Harry, that's why he's so strict, he wants you to get strong, to survive and he wants you to make him pay for your father's death when you're old enough, after he has explained everything to you, because he still can not forgive himself...he really cares about all this, especially about you Harry, he really cares."

With this words Harry got up from his chair again, but not as fast as last time, he went to the door where he stopped and turned around.

"Thanks.", he said, looking back at Lupin and Professor Dumbledore, his face was still wet, though he had stopped crying.

"Harry.", Dumbledore suddenly said, "You'll leave this school at the end of the seventh year, then you'll be a full-trained wizard, and I don't doubt you'll be a really strong one, so please be careful at who you point your wand when you use the Avada Kedavra course, promise me."

Harry's expression got sad once more, but then he spoke again, without crying.

"Yes, I promise. I'm going to the hospital wing, I have to see him...though I'm afraid.", he said.

Lupin nodded slightly and Dumbledore adressed him for a last time.

"He's doing fine, I know he is, I can feel it and so you can, don't you? You haven't done anything you must be ashamed of, it was my fault, I should have told you all this stuff earlier, but I couldn't, Severus didn't want it. He wanted to explain it to you himself, but now you know and I'm sure he'll understand that. Be brave, Harry."

After hearing these words from Dumbledore, Harry left the office, more confident then he had entered it, though he didn't understand the last sentence.

Be brave, Harry. – What did this mean?

But he forgot about it, it wasn't important now.

Dumbledore says he's doing fine, Harry said to himself, he'll be alright...he is caring about me.

With this thoughts Harry was running to the hospital wing, through many corridors which were decorated with mistletoes, as, without Harry noticing it before, Christmas had been coming up.

Almost crashing into Madame Pomfrey, he arrived at the hospital wing.

This is Christmas, he thought.

And now, for the first since Sirius died, every little part of his heart was filled with true happyness.

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Man, that was trashy, sorry that it has to end like that (without any style), but this is the last "main-chapter" of my story.

Well, at least it is an open end ^__^;;.

Perhaps I'm going to write something like a "Christmas-special", an extra chapter full of rubbish and trash (so this won't be a drama), but I'm not sure, perhaps it would destroy the last bit of style that's left after this end.

As you can imagine, I need your help (that means reviews, of course) to decide this.

If you want to have a special, I'm going to write one and put it online before Christmas, I promise.

I hope you enjoyed my story, though there are many mistakes in it (both grammar-mistakes and mistakes like a Neville in the advanced Potions class - @ Lili Stalder : Yeah, you're right, that's odd o_O"".) and this chapter is full of rubbish.

Merry Christmas again!