This fanfic has helped many people… and that is why this will be the first fanfic I'll update while I'm on break.

This is dedicated to all those who've keep their hope strong, for with out hope there may not be life.

Save Me

By MoshiMoshiQueen

~Thoughts~

"Talking"

(Author Speaking)

Recap of Last Chapter

I let go of him and started running laughing along the way, I knew he would catch me but running was the part that made it more interesting. He caught up to me placing his hands on my waist tickling my sides making me laugh happily, "Mou, I hate it when you do that." I said pouting.

"You know you love it." He said touching his nose with mine. I laughed, "You're too wonderful for your own good."

"Sakura?" said Tomoyo coming out behind a tree with Eriol behind her.

I looked up at her, "Hi, Tomoyo."

This Chapter

Gripping on to Eriol, Tomoyo's hand shook at the sight of Sakura's sudden smile slipping from her face.

Saying nothing, Tomoyo silently fought her own demons as flashes of the horrible memories, which were in the back of her mind, hit her with full throttle.

Tears built in her eyes, as she turned. Saying a quick apology Tomoyo ran, tears now streaming from her pale face.

Falling back against Syaoran, Sakura closed her eyes, and murmured, "I guess saying nothing was better then bitter words… I caused her so much pain. She'll never forgive me, and I understand that…I can barely forgive myself."

Eriol merely nodded towards Syaoran, and spoke quietly, "She just needs a little time… it was probably a shock for her to see you so soon."

Nodding, Sakura wasn't sure is she agreed or not, she just needed a movement to stop the tears that started to build.

Resting his head against her cheek, Syaoran rubbed her arms slowly, reassuring her. "Let's just give her time."

~*~

Face down, upon the bed she'd slept in for many weeks, Tomoyo's pain streamed from her eyes in the form of little tears.

Flashes of Sakura's blood filled her mind, as she screamed silently trying to rid her mind of the thoughts.

Images of the bloody razor hitting the ground… the smell of the salty crimson tears upon the floor… the sound of the medal hitting the ground with an echoing sound…

Pounding her fists against the sheets, Tomoyo almost felt guilty for wishing that Sakura would just go back home… That she would just leave.

Grasping on the sheets, Tomoyo poured out her pain into the bed. The crying only gave her a headache, and merely dimmed the hurt that stung at her heart, but over all it seemed to help somewhat.

Snatching a near by lamp, Tomoyo smashed it against a wall, and barely missed Eriol's head as he entered her room. Calmly, he watched her bury her head against her pillow, and let more bitter tears pour.

Tomoyo knew he would give no words, he would not pity, and he would not sooth, for Eriol was cool, and he knew she did not need such things.

"I want to hate her!" she screamed, throwing anything she could get her hands on.

"I want her to leave! Why couldn't she have just stayed away?!" Tomoyo screamed, her tears pouring out in a faster pace.

Calmly, Eriol merely pressed his lips together, and let Tomoyo shout, scream, cry and yell until all of her feelings were dry.

Mumbled her once screams, Tomoyo then slide back to her bed, and pressed her face to the pillow, her tears dried out.

Walking over to her, Eriol merely took off her shoes, and slide her under the covers.

"I don't want to sleep," she mumbled, her voice strained.

Saying nothing, he kissed her forehead, and walked towards the door, and heard her mumbled again, "I don't want to hurt any more…"

~*~

Walking from her room, Eriol found Syaoran and Sakura silently drinking some brewed tea. Sakura's hands were clasped together tightly, and her was a pale white.

"You heard," Eriol observed, his comment not offering any sympathy for the girl.

Sipping her tea with a shaky hand, Sakura said, "How could you not?"

Sitting down, Eriol poured himself a cup of tea, and drank slowly, as if he had all the time in the world.

Content with the silence, Syaoran said nothing, and sent a look towards Eriol, which only made Eriol shrug it off.

Sighing, Syaoran was the first to speak, "You can handle this, Sakura. You were prepared…"

"How could I be prepared for this?" Sakura screamed suddenly, as she pushed away from the table, "I didn't expect her to just hug me and forget this every happened, but I was prepared for the screaming…. The tears. I caused it all."

"You didn't cause it all," Eriol spoke, his voice free from any real emotion, "She was all ready scarred, you just pushed it."

"You make it sound like I did her a favor," Sakura shot out.

"Maybe you did, then again maybe you did not," Eriol said, his cool stare only heating Sakura's anger.

"She hates me." Sakura stated, as she sat down once again, her eyes dulling.

"She doesn't hate you. She just doesn't understand you, and all she feels is hurt. Hurt because she couldn't help you… hurt because she didn't see it sooner," Eriol said, his voice regaining some emotion that he had held back. The girl's tears hit the tabletop, and hit straight to Eriol's heart.

"She should hate me…" Sakura's voice came out in a mere whisper.

"You're her dearest friend. Why is it she should hate you? Just because you made a mistake? A mistake that got out of control?"

"A mistake…" Sakura whispered, not knowing if she would call her cutting such a thing.

~*~

Letting this wind hit her face, Tomoyo left numb, and that was better then feeling anything at all…In this state she felt no pain, felt no hurt… in this state thoughts of letting the numbness stay forever revolved around her mind.

"Thinking, Tomoyo?" Eriol asked quietly as he watched her eyes slowly reach his.

"It's numb again."

"Do you remember how we talked about the numbness, Tomoyo?"

"I like feeling nothing…"

"Can you feel the flowers? Can you hear the music?"

"It's better when you feel nothing."

Pressing his lips to hers, he pulled away slowly, "Can you feel my love for you, Tomoyo?"

Tears fell from her eyes, as she was left speechless. "Don't I want the numbness?"

"Do you want to forget me? To lose me by jumping?"

"I can't get hurt when I feel nothing."

"And you can't love if you feel nothing."

"Why love?!" She screamed, setting herself upon the barrier between life and death, "I can end it all!"

"Love, Tomoyo. You will lose it all if you jump."

"When I love I get hurt!"

"But, even for a few moments… love can rewrite the hurt."

"Maybe it's not good enough."

"Do you really think so? Is love not good enough? Is it not enough to keep you alive? Am I not good enough to keep you in this world?"

Seeing the pain in his eyes, Tomoyo's nerves faulted, "I'm not good enough for you… why love me? Why love something broken?"

"You are the one I love, Tomoyo… and you are not broken, Can't you feel the love, part of life we have built together?" he asked as he took her hand in his, and pressed it to his breast, to his heart.

Blinded by the thump of his heart, tears clouded her sight. "Love can't save everything."

"Then why don't you let the flowers save you? Why not the sunsets that you'll miss if you end your life now?"

Looking out into the setting sky, she felt the breeze cascade over her pale skin.

"Why not let the little kittens save you? Why not the sight of a newborn baby? Or of the smooth chocolate as it hits your tongue?"

"Simple things cannot save everyone…"

"Why won't you let what you'll leave behind, what you'll miss save you, Tomoyo?"

Thinking, Tomoyo slowly became pliant, and she slide from the bar into Eriol's arms, "Maybe… maybe it's better to live for those things…"

"Maybe?"

"I don't know anymore… how can I know what I'd miss?"

"Why don't you live and find out?"

"Why if it only causes more pain?"

"Why if it causes more joy? How will you know if you don't take a chance? How will you know if you don't live"

"I love you, Eriol," she murmured as sleep took over her once again.

"I love you, Tomoyo," Eriol whispered in her hair, "And I hope you realize that Sakura loves you as well.

I know that was a pretty short chapter, but it felt right to end it there. I hope you all are not so angry with me for not updating in a very long time… Live has been busy, school has been hectic. I hope to update this fanfic again soon… and as for my other fanfics, I'm not sure if I'll update them any time soon… I apologize for the wait, but… I can only do so much.