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Chapter 4

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Brooke wanted more than anything to say something. But decided against it, hoping someone else would break the awkward silence. So that's what happened. I know he cheated on Peyton like more than once, but I thought for sure he wouldn't cheat on Haley. She is Haley, I mean no one cheats on Haley. And I know there was that one time that he kissed Kaity Dendrow, but she forgave him. And plus she got him back. Well she says the kid kissed her- but im sure Haley had a part in it. But that he actually f ucked her? I guess I put it past him. And I mean honestly, I would think that Haley would be enough. Why would he get with KRISTEN, when he has HALEY?

She broke the silence

"Hey Nate, why the hell would you f uck Kristen Sanders when you have Haley?

"Had Haley, Had Brooke, past tense" Haley added as she turned up the radio, not wanting to know what was being said in the backseat.

"Peyt, what CD's did you bring?" Haley asked

Peyton looked at her with sympathy in her eyes, "Umm..let me see"

She began rummaging through a case that had to have more than 100 CDs in it.

Haley started changing the stations on the radio, it seemed to her that every song that came on somehow linked her to Nathan in some way, so she just left it on a commercial.

Meanwhile in the backseat

"I mean seriously Nathan, what were you thinking?" Brooke had to know what had possessed Nathan to cheat on his girlfriend of a year and a half.

"Wanting to avoid the question, Nathan answered "I wasn't"

Peyton eyed Nathan as he made this statement. Why would he do that? I mean honestly I thought he had changed.

"Hey Haley?" Peyton questioned

"Hmm??"

"Are you okay? Do you want me to drive, or Lucas maybe?"

Haley let a light laugh escape her lips, she didn't say Nathan or Brooke. Brooke and Nathan were both MUCH better driver's than Peyton.

"Nah it's alright, I think I got it"

"What's so funny?" Luke asked trying to get his mind away from Nathan cheating on Haley.

"Peyton just asked me if I was okay and if I wanted her or you to drive", she giggled again.

"No offense Petyon, but I have seen your driving and you are the LAST person I want driving me across the country." Lucas laughed.

The thought of Peyton driving, made everyone chuckle, including Nathan. Seeing as how everyone had been with her at one point and time while she was driving, everyone had to laugh.

Haley couldn't help but think.. this is how it was suppose to be, laughing about stupid things, doing stupid things, all of them together as a group? Everything was suppose to be good, like this. Not like an hour ago. She couldn't help herself, she looked in her rearview mirror to see Nathan laughing at some insane comment that Brooke had made, he looked so sad, even if he was laughing, there was still sadness in his eyes. Im not suppose to feel bad for him, he was the one that cheated on me. I should hate him, I should be cussing at him, but I can't because he knows what he did, and I know he is honestly sorry but can I really forgive him. I mean can I honestly forgive him for this? I swore I would never let anyone walk all over me. I mean but, he did come to me right after it happened, shouldn't that count for something.

Flashback…….

It was 2:45 in the morning and she couldn't sleep, there was something wrong, she knew that something was up. Then came the sound of the rocks at her window. I knew he would show she thought to herself. She made her way outside to find a crying Nathan.

 "Baby whats wrong?"

"God, Haley I am so sorry, God Im sorry" He managed to say, his voice shaking and tears falling freely from  his eyes.

"Hey hey it's okay Nathan, Im not mad at you anymore, I just got so upset about the whole Dan thing, you know how I get about it. Im a little pushy, im sorry baby".

She stopped talking when he was shaking his head no, and held his hand up like she was wrong.

Then something hit her, and she had to ask, she wasn't quite sure, but something told her to ask.

"Nathan, baby, whats wrong,? What are you sorry for?"

All he could do was take her in his arms and hold her, he knew this was different this time.

He whispered  "God, I love you Haley, Im so sorry baby"

She felt him tense up as he said Im sorry, she then knew that something was seriously wrong.

After telling him that she loved him too, she got out of his grasp and made her way to the bench, that they so often times sat on.

He followed.

He sat next to her , I have to tell her, she deserves to know, she needs to know, with that he turned to her.

"Haley" he said, his voice soft 

Her heart stopped, she knew. She knew what he was going to say, and she didn't want to hear it.

She put her hand on his forehead, "Hmm?"

"I screwed up really bad"

Trying to avoid what her gut was telling her, she said, "It's okay Nathan"

She kissed him softly.

He pulled away, and any doubt in her mind disappeared. She knew her gut was right.

"Ya know, I thought about not telling you this, but you need to know. The funny thing is I could easily get away with it, but I love you to much to keep something like this from you."

"Tell me what?" she knew she would regret saying those words, but she didn't know to what extent.

"Haley, tonight after I went off, I was looking for a way to piss you off…and I knew that kissing another girl would do just that…"

"Oh, I see…you kissed another girl? Who was it Kristen Sanders?"Haley said jokingly trying to lighten the mood.

He just stood there—

"Oh, so it was Kr-"

He interrupted her

"Haley that's not all". Im just gonna have to say it.

"What do you mean that's not all?"

Say it Nathan..just say it.. spit it out..

"I umm I uhh…"

"You what?" Hurt now coming to her voice

"I kinda sorda had sex with her…"

"Kinda sorda, what the hell you can't kinda sorda have sex with anyone, get the f uck away from me!" She cried out

"Haley please..let me explain…"

"No I think its pretty damn clear Nate, you got pissed at me because I was trying to help, went, had to much alcohol. When you came to find me I was still pissed, so you called me a bitch and went to find some way to piss me off. You found Kristen Sanders,and you were only gonna kiss her, but then befire you knew it, you were fucking her? Am I right, does that sound about right?, Go home Nate, and don't bother coming back EVER!"

"Hal, you don't mean that."

"Oh you better believe I do buddy!, get away from me, and stay the fuck away from me, I don't need your lame ass apology, were through, Great Job Nathan Scott, you have single handedly ruined everything, way to go. But I forget that's something that you are known for, I was just stupid enough to think that I was different. You realize I gave up not only Stanford for you, but Princeton, Nathan, Princeton. I declined my scholarship for your sorry ass and now Im stuck going to a mother fucking college, that isnt going to take me anywhere, when I could have been at Princeton, damnit Nate, I have wanted to go there since I was 5 fucking 5 years old.  Nathan, 5! Now get your cheating, Fucking kristen sanders sorry ass the fuck away from me. Don't bother calling, don't try and see me, because we are done, and I mean that. Done, finito, es todo, that's it its finsihed, and I swear to Budah, you call me HAL again, and you will wish you were never born. Now Leave!"

She turned and went inside her house, tears streaming down her face.

I already do..Nathan thought as he drove away from her house.

End of flashback…………..

Tears started to sting her eyes, at the thought of that night.

Hey, are you sure you don't want me to drive? Peyton asked, hoping to crack a smile from her.

It didn't work.

"Hey, Luke, where is out first stop?"

Chitley, he replied.

"That's like 10 minutes from here", Haley said

Ten minutes later they arrived at the hotel they would be staying at for the night.

Peyton had an idea..seeing as how there were only 3 rooms.

"Hey Haley, do you mind if I have the one room to myself?" Peyton asked

Haley obviously stressed just said "Yeah, whatever."

Nathan had decided to go sleep in Lucas and Brooke's room. BAD IDEA

Peyton and Haley were in Peyton's room, when they heard a knock.

"Hey can I sleep in here with you?" Nathan asked

"No, but you can come in here until the two love brids are done doing whatever", she forgot Haley was in there and invited Nathan in.

"Peyton, did you see the look on her"..Haley stopped when he came in the room

She turned back to the TV, hoping that he wouldn't notice her presence.

It didn't work.

"So, what are we watching,? Nathan asked as he sat down next to Haley. It was habit, I only did it because it was habit. He kept telling himself that over and over.

"Legally Blonde", Haley responded quietly

Peyton feeling like she was interrupting something told them she was going to bed, and that they could stay and watch the movie, or go in Haley's room.

Haley got up to leave, Nathan followed.

Haley, put the key into the door, and opened it. She let Nathan in.

"Im going to sleep, so do whatever." She said coldly.

"Peyton kinda, is asleep, and Luke and Brooke, are umm.. yeah they are f ucking. So umm can I sleep in here with you? He asked unsure of himself and her answer

"Fine, but stay on your side of the bed"

"Alright"

After changing into her night clothes in the bathroom, she got into bed. Nathan did the same after he had taken his shirt off.

Ten minutes they layed there in silence.

"This is weird" Haley broke the silence

"What is that?" he asked.

"This, this sleeping arrangement, I don't like it."

Within seconds Nathans arms were wrapped around her petite body, and she snuggled into him.

"This better?" he asked, as a smile spread across his lips. He couldn't help but smile.

"Much", she replied as she drifted off to sleep, with a small grin on her face.

Nathan just layed there breathing in her scent, and taking full enjoyment out of her skin next to his. This is how it is suppose to be, was his last thought before he closed his eyes and let his exhaustion overtake him.

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