Shattered Life: Chapter 2: Emotions

I got up slowly, noticing nobody was not home yet. My head was throbbing terribly and there was this empty pain in my stomach. I knew what was going on...just refused to believe it. I knew denial had to be one of the first things to happen when someone you really love dies...it's just natural.

I walked up the stairs slowly, feeling the weight of my body on my feet. I got into my room and went to the bathroom. I took one glance at my face and turned around and started to vomit into the toilet bowl...after a while it was all dry heaves.

The phone rang. It echoed through my whole body making my shake. I tried to stand up and get it but I fell right back down to the cold, hard ground. The answering machine picked up...

"Hey um...Amy, It's Ephram. Listen...I heard the news...Just wanted to see if you were doing ok? I know you've probably heard that enough today but I just needed to know...well...um...I guess I'll talk to you later, bye."

Every word bounced off each wall in my room... I crawled out from the bathroom into my bed, were I lay there replaying Ephram's message until I fell asleep with the sound of his voice gently soothing my pain.

I woke up in a cold sweat, I couldn't feel my body. I didn't care if I could feel it though...it's not exactly like I wanted to feel all the aching pain I was going to feel when my body wasn't numb anymore.

I went downstairs...Everyone sat at the table in silence not one person looked up at me. I sat down and looked at everyone. Bright had been crying you could tell. My mom must have been to because her eyes were almost as red as mine. Dad, I couldn't tell. Which kind of made me sadder that he wasn't sharing the same pain I was... I wasn't just in pain...I was suffering...slowly dying...and he wasn't feeling that, which hurt.

Bright got up from the table and put his dish in the sink then walked out the kitchen. I followed. I knew something was just as wrong with him as me and he needed someone to talk to...

I walked into his room. "So...how are you?" I said listening to my voice crack through the silence.

"Fine..." he said paging through a book. "You?" He said to me barely paying any attention at all.

"Okay...I guess..." I said lying to him.

"Colin's dead Amy! You're not fine! And if you are that's..." He said starting to get angry but then trailing off.

"That's what? Not normal! Well obviously I'm not normal now anyways so who gives a damn?!" I said anger filling my throat and tears choking my as they ran down my face.

"Oh Amy..." Bright said getting up and holding his sister. "Everything will be fine...just fine..."

"I just want him back... I want everything back to the way it was when life made sense..." I said feeling defenseless and crying into his shoulder.

"Me too...Me too..." Bright said sadness filling his throat.