Lost Between Words
By: Animefreak2004
A/N: Hi again people! This is my final chappie to this story.*sobs* ;_;. BUT! I am going to be posting another story (in the Beyblade section this time^_^ I love Rei!) called Forgotton Soul. Yeah.it's rated PG-13 and under romance. I hope you'll read it! I havn't posted it yet though. I gotta finish this first! Well, this chappie is mainly.SAP! Hehehe.without further ado.here's chappie 5!
Disclaimer: I do not own KH. But I really wish I did own Sora! Please! If you can, hook m up with him!!! ^_^
Ch. 5:Traces of a Heart
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"No.No! You can't be! Come on! Don't die on me! You just can't be dead!! No!" I screamed in denial. I started shaking his lifeless body violently, but to no reaction.
"Stop, Kairi. It's no use, Sora's dead," Riku said quietly, coming up behind me and resting a hand on my shoulder. I pulled away in my fury.
"Shut up! He's going to be fine! I know it! He's going to wake up now, or I'm going to wake up soon in my bed finding this was all just a bad dream!" I screamed more forcefully than what I meant. Riku gave me a pitying look with his mezmorizing aquamarine eyes. 'He can'r be dead, he just can't be!' I thought savagely. I looked down on Sora's still body. 'No.he really is dead.' Before I could stop myself, I fell sobbing into my bed. I felt Riku's arm around my shoulders, but it was shaking.
I lifted my face off my bed sheets and looked up at Riku through tear- filled eyes. I was shocked to see that Riku's eyes were also filled with tears. He wiped them away angrily though, too determined to not show emotions.
"Why did Sora have to die? Why couldn't it have been me?" I said quietly up to him. I felt weak and tired from everything that had happened this night. I didn't really listen to what I was saying myself. I just couldn't stand the mere fact that the one I truly love is dead, the thought was almost unspeakable.
"Don't say that, Kairi. I don't know why Sora was the one chosen by Ansem. I guess it's because he had no heart, and Ansem couldn't find anymore use for him, so he killed Sora," Riku suggested.
"No more use for him? I don't understand, Riku. What do you mean?"I asked curiously. The words he was saying seemed to blur into a long nightmare. 'None of this can be real, this is just to imaginable. I thought that this would be a blissful night, when I was finally reunited with Sora. But somehow this simple night of simple pleasures turned into a living hell,' I thought feeling a splitting headache fire on.
"I'm not quite exactly sure myself, but maybe Sora was out doing deeds for him and he must have betreyed Ansem by falling in love with you," Riku pondered aloud, staring at the floor.
"Do you think that his "deed" or whatever, was me?"I asked before I thought the words over in my head. Riku looked up at this question, raising an eyebrow.
"I don't know, Kairi. But I do know, that what happened tonight didn't really mean anything. He had no heart at the time." he said, but trailed off at the furious look on my face.
"How can you say he had no heart?! He told me he loved me! He kissed me! Doesn't that show the traces of a heart?!" I yelled at Riku, pounding my fists on the bed. Angry tears were now splashing down onto the bed and floor. I started to shake violently with these continuous tears streaming down my face. Riku reached forward and wiped my tears away with his finger. His finger softly rested on my lips.
"Shh." he said soothingly. Riku then pulled me forward in an embrace. I clutched onto Riku, fearing that if I let go, my life would be gone like Sora's. Riku rocked me back and forth slightly, stroking my sleek hair, resting his head onto mine. I didn't know what to say. I felt as though I was lost, lost between words of what to think or do.
My heart seemed as though it was crushed into a million pieces. 'He was my angel, the one I ran to for comfort. Now somebody has taken that light and comfort I so longed for in my life away from me. Pummelting me into the darkness of my broken soul,' I thought, still feeling hot tears run down my face. 'I want him back. I can't live without you, Sora. You were the only thing that made me who I am today. Why did you leave me behind?'
Riku pulled away from me and wiped my tears away again. "I think we should go now," he said quietly to me, rising to his feet. He involentarily reached his hand out for me to grasp, I did so and he pulled me to my feet as well. I gazed down on the body of my cherished angel with grief.
"You go. I'll meet you in a minute," I said to Riku. He didn't ask why, and I'm glad he didn't, but left me in my room alone, closing the door.
I sat down on the edge of my bed, gazing into his beautiful face. I reached my hand out and lightly touched his cheek. It was so cold. This only brought more hot tears to my already stinging eyes. I leaned forward and lightly touched my lips to his. I started crying to realize he isn't going to kiss me back. I fell onto his chest, racking out sobs and taking in short breaths. 'There is nothing I can do now.my heart.my soul.my angel is dead,' I thought through my continuous sobs.
" You were my angel, Sora. My God-sent angel from heaven. Even though I never got to tell you this when you were alive, I feel as though now you know. I need you back here in my life, I wish that you can see that! I love you, Sora! And no matter where my life may take me or who I will meet, I will always love you, and I can't change that! My hearts belongs to you," I cried out, talking to nobody. Indeed, my heart does belong to him, but now it was torn in two, and nobody was here to heal it.
'Sora had always been the one to wipe the tears from my eyes. Now, nobody will. Even if Riku tries, it won't be the same,' I straightened up off of Sora's chest. I never wanted to give Sora a last look, but I ended up doing so. In the last moments I sat beside Sora, part of me wanted to pull away, the other told me to stay forever.
I stood up from the bedside and hesitantly moved away from Sora. I gave him what would be my last glimpse of the man I loved, and turned to leave. 'I love you Sora.' and with that, I exited my bedroom and went to meet Riku.
~*~*~
I lay sleeping on the over stuffed sofa downstairs in my living room, thinking, dreaming about times with Sora. I remembered that as soon as I had set eyes on the spikey haired youth, I had loved him. But back then, that little child crush didn't mean anything. Now that I am 18, I feel like it did mean something, almost like it was the beginning of our relationship. Almost.
I felt more tears trickle down my face as I thought back to the drawing of the paupo fruit in the cave on Destiney Island. We were so young.but that's the first time I realized that Sora cared for me like I cared for him. Just little kid things.
I squeezed my eyes shut and let out another sob. The room was chilly from the air drifting in from an open window. Just then, a big gust of wind came through the window, drying my tears away. I can swear that when the wind blew my tears away, I heard a faint whisper say:
"Don't cry, Kairi. I will keep my promise to always be there, and to dry your tears." and I felt something warm and comforting grasp my hand tightly.
~*~*~
A/N: ok! That is the end of my Fan Fic! *sobs* but remember to read my next fan fic called Forgotton Soul in the Beyblade section! (rated PG-13 and subjected in romance). I'm really gonna miss ya guys! Well, please R&R! I really wanna know how my first Fan Fic did! ^_^ Bye! And Happy Holidays! ^__________^
By: Animefreak2004
A/N: Hi again people! This is my final chappie to this story.*sobs* ;_;. BUT! I am going to be posting another story (in the Beyblade section this time^_^ I love Rei!) called Forgotton Soul. Yeah.it's rated PG-13 and under romance. I hope you'll read it! I havn't posted it yet though. I gotta finish this first! Well, this chappie is mainly.SAP! Hehehe.without further ado.here's chappie 5!
Disclaimer: I do not own KH. But I really wish I did own Sora! Please! If you can, hook m up with him!!! ^_^
Ch. 5:Traces of a Heart
~~~~~~~~~~~
"No.No! You can't be! Come on! Don't die on me! You just can't be dead!! No!" I screamed in denial. I started shaking his lifeless body violently, but to no reaction.
"Stop, Kairi. It's no use, Sora's dead," Riku said quietly, coming up behind me and resting a hand on my shoulder. I pulled away in my fury.
"Shut up! He's going to be fine! I know it! He's going to wake up now, or I'm going to wake up soon in my bed finding this was all just a bad dream!" I screamed more forcefully than what I meant. Riku gave me a pitying look with his mezmorizing aquamarine eyes. 'He can'r be dead, he just can't be!' I thought savagely. I looked down on Sora's still body. 'No.he really is dead.' Before I could stop myself, I fell sobbing into my bed. I felt Riku's arm around my shoulders, but it was shaking.
I lifted my face off my bed sheets and looked up at Riku through tear- filled eyes. I was shocked to see that Riku's eyes were also filled with tears. He wiped them away angrily though, too determined to not show emotions.
"Why did Sora have to die? Why couldn't it have been me?" I said quietly up to him. I felt weak and tired from everything that had happened this night. I didn't really listen to what I was saying myself. I just couldn't stand the mere fact that the one I truly love is dead, the thought was almost unspeakable.
"Don't say that, Kairi. I don't know why Sora was the one chosen by Ansem. I guess it's because he had no heart, and Ansem couldn't find anymore use for him, so he killed Sora," Riku suggested.
"No more use for him? I don't understand, Riku. What do you mean?"I asked curiously. The words he was saying seemed to blur into a long nightmare. 'None of this can be real, this is just to imaginable. I thought that this would be a blissful night, when I was finally reunited with Sora. But somehow this simple night of simple pleasures turned into a living hell,' I thought feeling a splitting headache fire on.
"I'm not quite exactly sure myself, but maybe Sora was out doing deeds for him and he must have betreyed Ansem by falling in love with you," Riku pondered aloud, staring at the floor.
"Do you think that his "deed" or whatever, was me?"I asked before I thought the words over in my head. Riku looked up at this question, raising an eyebrow.
"I don't know, Kairi. But I do know, that what happened tonight didn't really mean anything. He had no heart at the time." he said, but trailed off at the furious look on my face.
"How can you say he had no heart?! He told me he loved me! He kissed me! Doesn't that show the traces of a heart?!" I yelled at Riku, pounding my fists on the bed. Angry tears were now splashing down onto the bed and floor. I started to shake violently with these continuous tears streaming down my face. Riku reached forward and wiped my tears away with his finger. His finger softly rested on my lips.
"Shh." he said soothingly. Riku then pulled me forward in an embrace. I clutched onto Riku, fearing that if I let go, my life would be gone like Sora's. Riku rocked me back and forth slightly, stroking my sleek hair, resting his head onto mine. I didn't know what to say. I felt as though I was lost, lost between words of what to think or do.
My heart seemed as though it was crushed into a million pieces. 'He was my angel, the one I ran to for comfort. Now somebody has taken that light and comfort I so longed for in my life away from me. Pummelting me into the darkness of my broken soul,' I thought, still feeling hot tears run down my face. 'I want him back. I can't live without you, Sora. You were the only thing that made me who I am today. Why did you leave me behind?'
Riku pulled away from me and wiped my tears away again. "I think we should go now," he said quietly to me, rising to his feet. He involentarily reached his hand out for me to grasp, I did so and he pulled me to my feet as well. I gazed down on the body of my cherished angel with grief.
"You go. I'll meet you in a minute," I said to Riku. He didn't ask why, and I'm glad he didn't, but left me in my room alone, closing the door.
I sat down on the edge of my bed, gazing into his beautiful face. I reached my hand out and lightly touched his cheek. It was so cold. This only brought more hot tears to my already stinging eyes. I leaned forward and lightly touched my lips to his. I started crying to realize he isn't going to kiss me back. I fell onto his chest, racking out sobs and taking in short breaths. 'There is nothing I can do now.my heart.my soul.my angel is dead,' I thought through my continuous sobs.
" You were my angel, Sora. My God-sent angel from heaven. Even though I never got to tell you this when you were alive, I feel as though now you know. I need you back here in my life, I wish that you can see that! I love you, Sora! And no matter where my life may take me or who I will meet, I will always love you, and I can't change that! My hearts belongs to you," I cried out, talking to nobody. Indeed, my heart does belong to him, but now it was torn in two, and nobody was here to heal it.
'Sora had always been the one to wipe the tears from my eyes. Now, nobody will. Even if Riku tries, it won't be the same,' I straightened up off of Sora's chest. I never wanted to give Sora a last look, but I ended up doing so. In the last moments I sat beside Sora, part of me wanted to pull away, the other told me to stay forever.
I stood up from the bedside and hesitantly moved away from Sora. I gave him what would be my last glimpse of the man I loved, and turned to leave. 'I love you Sora.' and with that, I exited my bedroom and went to meet Riku.
~*~*~
I lay sleeping on the over stuffed sofa downstairs in my living room, thinking, dreaming about times with Sora. I remembered that as soon as I had set eyes on the spikey haired youth, I had loved him. But back then, that little child crush didn't mean anything. Now that I am 18, I feel like it did mean something, almost like it was the beginning of our relationship. Almost.
I felt more tears trickle down my face as I thought back to the drawing of the paupo fruit in the cave on Destiney Island. We were so young.but that's the first time I realized that Sora cared for me like I cared for him. Just little kid things.
I squeezed my eyes shut and let out another sob. The room was chilly from the air drifting in from an open window. Just then, a big gust of wind came through the window, drying my tears away. I can swear that when the wind blew my tears away, I heard a faint whisper say:
"Don't cry, Kairi. I will keep my promise to always be there, and to dry your tears." and I felt something warm and comforting grasp my hand tightly.
~*~*~
A/N: ok! That is the end of my Fan Fic! *sobs* but remember to read my next fan fic called Forgotton Soul in the Beyblade section! (rated PG-13 and subjected in romance). I'm really gonna miss ya guys! Well, please R&R! I really wanna know how my first Fan Fic did! ^_^ Bye! And Happy Holidays! ^__________^