Love is Pain Ch#2: The Hate
By: Freewater
Pairings: Gh-Tr
Rating: Pg 13, Shonen ai
Disclaimers: I do not own DBZ, never have never will yada, yada, yada. Please don't sue me!
Warnings: Male/Male relationship. Swearing
Archive: Sure, anything's good! Just ask me first k? ^_^
Feedback: Definitely! Please, yes!! I want to know if I did a good job or not writing this! a_rosko@hotmail.com
Notes: A bunch of these little stars **** Means a change in time or scenery. ''These things here indicate thoughts.
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Three months had passed since Gohan threw Trunks out and he was still was living all alone. Trunks had gone back to live at CC and he hadn't tried to contact him since the day he was thrown out. Gohan was half relieved for this while his other half remained miserable.
Part of him wanted to work it out with Trunks. He missed him so much that it hurt, but he knew that it would be both stupid and pointless to try and take him back. Like the old saying goes: Once a cheater always a cheater. It just bothered him that he wasn't around anymore.
It was strange waking up in the morning and not feeling the warmth of his body laying next to him, or not seeing his lavender hair or bright blue eyes everyday, and no matter how many more days passed he just missed him even more. Gohan just couldn't get used to it. Last week was Trunks twenty-third birthday and, he had to constantly remind himself not to go out and get him anything because they weren't on speaking terms anymore. It was weird.
He couldn't deny his anger at Trunks for what he did, but he also couldn't deny how much he wanted him back. It took a lot of willpower to not call him and suggest that they work things out, but that would be just what Trunks wanted. For him to come running back to him like some kind of mindless pet.
It was still hard not having him around though. One time he woke up in the middle of the night from one of his horrible nightmares, where he watched everyone he ever loved being killed by either Frieza or Cell. Trunks among them. When he woke up with a giant start, he tried to wake Trunks up to tell him about it, but when the memory of how he'd thrown him out when he found nothing but cold sheets on the other side of him came back, he cried himself back to sleep miserably.
He was alone now, with no one to be there for him and no one to hold him close whenever he would have one of his dreams. He'd had them for as long as he could remember, because out of all the fights he'd been in, the two of them were the worst and the most cruel when they took the lives of his friends. And even when whished back he still couldn't control the pain inside of him when he remembers their faces twisted up in agony as they died.
Videl didn't understand the pain of these dreams, and on a few occasions when he tried to wake her up to tell her about them, she would merely shrug him off in annoyance and tell him to go back to sleep. Trunks never did that. Not once. He would gladly get up at four in the morning to listen to what he had to say and hold him until he would fall asleep again in his loving embrace.
Was it a loving embrace? He didn't know anymore. He didn't know if any of the soft touches or whispered words of love were true at all in any part of their now dead relationship. For all he knew, Trunks never cared to begin with, and he was merely one in a very long line of spoiled rich brats who care about nothing and no one but themselves, and he was just next on the list to be used.
Almost immediately after he broke up with the treacherous brat, Goten moved into Capsule Corp with him, and from the bits and pieces of gossip that went around the school he taught at, he heard that they were sharing a room together. This proved him right from the very start, but it still crushed him.
His father came over once to see how he was doing, and he even suggested that he should forgive Trunks for whatever it was that he did. Goku was pretty much out of the loop when it came down to what had happened, so when he told his father that his Koi, the very person whom he would've married if given the chance had cheated on him, he was just stunned, and didn't really know what to say or do aside from offer his support. Gohan didn't tell him that Trunks had done it with Goten, because he knew that, that would just cause more tension in their family. They just didn't need that right now.
So far he hadn't figured out who sent him the photos that proved Trunks guilty, but that was the very last thing on his mind at this point in time. The number one issue right now was whether or not he should open the door and let his little brother, who was knocking on the other side of it in.
He'd been out there for a good fifteen minutes so far, and the sound of his knuckles banging against the wooden door was really starting to piss him off. He must've known that he was home because from the sound of it he wasn't about to leave.
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Goten knew he was in there, it was hard to *not* sense his Ki that was currently fluctuating in anger from the inside. He sighed in annoyance. The only reason why he was even here was to give him the package that Trunks had asked him to deliver for him, which was currently tucked away safely inside of his huge trench coat pocket.
He really didn't know why his best friend did favours like this for him anymore. Especially after what he did to him, and trust me when I say that what he was about to give him was *great*! But he wouldn't get a chance to give his pigheaded brother the package if he didn't open the damn door!
This would be the second time in three months that Goten had been here. The last time was a few days after Gohan cruelly broke it off with Trunks and threw him out, calling him disgusting while screaming about how he never wanted to see him again. All because of the gift that he planning on giving him. Disgusting? Trunks? For what he was about to do on Valentines day? Now *that's* funny!
The very second he found out about what his brother did, while hearing it from his best friend who just couldn't seem to stop his tears, he flew over to ask him why he did that. The very first thing his dear brother did though, was grab him by the collar of his shirt and back him up against a wall, sneering at his nerve for showing his face to him. What had he done? Gohan actually threatened to kick the shit out of him if he ever tried to come back, so he never came back. Not because he was afraid of his threat, but because of how much he resented his brother for doing what he did, and then taking it out on him.
The only reason why he was even here now, was because Trunks had begged him to deliver it, saying that he didn't trust the mailmen with something so important and that he just had to give it to him right away due to it's importance. Oh ya, this thing was important all right! And as far as Goten was concerned, he didn't deserve it. He and Trunks had spent so many extra hours in the office working on this, coming home late night after night, thinking about how much he would love and appreciate what they were doing for him. Even after Gohan heartlessly threw him out Trunks continued to work on it, without his help, night after night.
Documents and files that would prove him to be a good father and help him get joined custody of Pan with Videl. Goten wanted to burn them for what he did, but Trunks insisted on continuing his constant meetings with his expensive lawyers so they could find ways around what Videl had done.
Trunks had so many surprises planned for Gohan that day. Telling him about all of his lawyers working on getting Pan back for him wasn't even one of them! But somehow Gohan found out about what else he was doing and became insulted by it. Practically screaming how much he hated Trunks and didn't love him with knowledge of what he planned to do for him, and then watching as he cried while packing up his belongings and then throwing him out.
His older brother, whom he always looked up to, had hurt his closest friend, used him and then betrayed him. It was so painfully obvious to him about how Gohan had used him. He fucked his best friend, made him think that he finally had someone to love after going through all the damn gold diggers and who loved him back for who he was. But just as he was about to perform the ultimate gesture of love, Gohan slapped him in the face with the reality that he didn't want it *or* him and then threw him out. Sneering at him on the floor while saying how he never wants to see him ever again.
Trunks still loved him though. Even after all of that he still loved the man who stole his heart and then made him watch while he ripped it to shreds. He was practically on his deathbed right now and all he could think about was Gohans happiness with his daughter. Oh how Goten hated him right now. 'My best friend is gonna die because of you, you asshole! The very least you could do would be to open your goddamn door and accept his gift!' He thought while clenching his teeth in rage.
He suddenly stopped knocking and kicked the door *loudly*. He'd been knocking for almost a half an hour and was getting seriously pissed off. He wanted to get back to Trunks in case something else happens while he was away. "Gohan, open the fucking door already! I know you're in there!" He yelled out in rage, not caring if anyone in the other apartments would hear him.
Gohan was sick and tired of listening to the damn door, and just as he was about to open it and tell the kisama on the other side to fuck off, he kicked his door and put a dent in it before screaming at him to let him in.
He just grit his teeth in rage as he opened the dented door and saw his *ex* little brother giving him a sneer that closely resembled the one on his face right now. It didn't surprise either of them that a face like that could be made by such a traitorous bastard.
One thought ran through both of their heads at this point, and it was at the same time too as the very sight of each other made them want to be sick with the rage that they had directed at each other for what had happened.
* 'I hate you!' *
To be continued.................
Sorry that it's so short, but I just wanted to get out this little part. Thanks to all who reviewed me!! Please review me and tell me what you thought! plz plz plz!!! I love feedback!
By: Freewater
Pairings: Gh-Tr
Rating: Pg 13, Shonen ai
Disclaimers: I do not own DBZ, never have never will yada, yada, yada. Please don't sue me!
Warnings: Male/Male relationship. Swearing
Archive: Sure, anything's good! Just ask me first k? ^_^
Feedback: Definitely! Please, yes!! I want to know if I did a good job or not writing this! a_rosko@hotmail.com
Notes: A bunch of these little stars **** Means a change in time or scenery. ''These things here indicate thoughts.
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Three months had passed since Gohan threw Trunks out and he was still was living all alone. Trunks had gone back to live at CC and he hadn't tried to contact him since the day he was thrown out. Gohan was half relieved for this while his other half remained miserable.
Part of him wanted to work it out with Trunks. He missed him so much that it hurt, but he knew that it would be both stupid and pointless to try and take him back. Like the old saying goes: Once a cheater always a cheater. It just bothered him that he wasn't around anymore.
It was strange waking up in the morning and not feeling the warmth of his body laying next to him, or not seeing his lavender hair or bright blue eyes everyday, and no matter how many more days passed he just missed him even more. Gohan just couldn't get used to it. Last week was Trunks twenty-third birthday and, he had to constantly remind himself not to go out and get him anything because they weren't on speaking terms anymore. It was weird.
He couldn't deny his anger at Trunks for what he did, but he also couldn't deny how much he wanted him back. It took a lot of willpower to not call him and suggest that they work things out, but that would be just what Trunks wanted. For him to come running back to him like some kind of mindless pet.
It was still hard not having him around though. One time he woke up in the middle of the night from one of his horrible nightmares, where he watched everyone he ever loved being killed by either Frieza or Cell. Trunks among them. When he woke up with a giant start, he tried to wake Trunks up to tell him about it, but when the memory of how he'd thrown him out when he found nothing but cold sheets on the other side of him came back, he cried himself back to sleep miserably.
He was alone now, with no one to be there for him and no one to hold him close whenever he would have one of his dreams. He'd had them for as long as he could remember, because out of all the fights he'd been in, the two of them were the worst and the most cruel when they took the lives of his friends. And even when whished back he still couldn't control the pain inside of him when he remembers their faces twisted up in agony as they died.
Videl didn't understand the pain of these dreams, and on a few occasions when he tried to wake her up to tell her about them, she would merely shrug him off in annoyance and tell him to go back to sleep. Trunks never did that. Not once. He would gladly get up at four in the morning to listen to what he had to say and hold him until he would fall asleep again in his loving embrace.
Was it a loving embrace? He didn't know anymore. He didn't know if any of the soft touches or whispered words of love were true at all in any part of their now dead relationship. For all he knew, Trunks never cared to begin with, and he was merely one in a very long line of spoiled rich brats who care about nothing and no one but themselves, and he was just next on the list to be used.
Almost immediately after he broke up with the treacherous brat, Goten moved into Capsule Corp with him, and from the bits and pieces of gossip that went around the school he taught at, he heard that they were sharing a room together. This proved him right from the very start, but it still crushed him.
His father came over once to see how he was doing, and he even suggested that he should forgive Trunks for whatever it was that he did. Goku was pretty much out of the loop when it came down to what had happened, so when he told his father that his Koi, the very person whom he would've married if given the chance had cheated on him, he was just stunned, and didn't really know what to say or do aside from offer his support. Gohan didn't tell him that Trunks had done it with Goten, because he knew that, that would just cause more tension in their family. They just didn't need that right now.
So far he hadn't figured out who sent him the photos that proved Trunks guilty, but that was the very last thing on his mind at this point in time. The number one issue right now was whether or not he should open the door and let his little brother, who was knocking on the other side of it in.
He'd been out there for a good fifteen minutes so far, and the sound of his knuckles banging against the wooden door was really starting to piss him off. He must've known that he was home because from the sound of it he wasn't about to leave.
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Goten knew he was in there, it was hard to *not* sense his Ki that was currently fluctuating in anger from the inside. He sighed in annoyance. The only reason why he was even here was to give him the package that Trunks had asked him to deliver for him, which was currently tucked away safely inside of his huge trench coat pocket.
He really didn't know why his best friend did favours like this for him anymore. Especially after what he did to him, and trust me when I say that what he was about to give him was *great*! But he wouldn't get a chance to give his pigheaded brother the package if he didn't open the damn door!
This would be the second time in three months that Goten had been here. The last time was a few days after Gohan cruelly broke it off with Trunks and threw him out, calling him disgusting while screaming about how he never wanted to see him again. All because of the gift that he planning on giving him. Disgusting? Trunks? For what he was about to do on Valentines day? Now *that's* funny!
The very second he found out about what his brother did, while hearing it from his best friend who just couldn't seem to stop his tears, he flew over to ask him why he did that. The very first thing his dear brother did though, was grab him by the collar of his shirt and back him up against a wall, sneering at his nerve for showing his face to him. What had he done? Gohan actually threatened to kick the shit out of him if he ever tried to come back, so he never came back. Not because he was afraid of his threat, but because of how much he resented his brother for doing what he did, and then taking it out on him.
The only reason why he was even here now, was because Trunks had begged him to deliver it, saying that he didn't trust the mailmen with something so important and that he just had to give it to him right away due to it's importance. Oh ya, this thing was important all right! And as far as Goten was concerned, he didn't deserve it. He and Trunks had spent so many extra hours in the office working on this, coming home late night after night, thinking about how much he would love and appreciate what they were doing for him. Even after Gohan heartlessly threw him out Trunks continued to work on it, without his help, night after night.
Documents and files that would prove him to be a good father and help him get joined custody of Pan with Videl. Goten wanted to burn them for what he did, but Trunks insisted on continuing his constant meetings with his expensive lawyers so they could find ways around what Videl had done.
Trunks had so many surprises planned for Gohan that day. Telling him about all of his lawyers working on getting Pan back for him wasn't even one of them! But somehow Gohan found out about what else he was doing and became insulted by it. Practically screaming how much he hated Trunks and didn't love him with knowledge of what he planned to do for him, and then watching as he cried while packing up his belongings and then throwing him out.
His older brother, whom he always looked up to, had hurt his closest friend, used him and then betrayed him. It was so painfully obvious to him about how Gohan had used him. He fucked his best friend, made him think that he finally had someone to love after going through all the damn gold diggers and who loved him back for who he was. But just as he was about to perform the ultimate gesture of love, Gohan slapped him in the face with the reality that he didn't want it *or* him and then threw him out. Sneering at him on the floor while saying how he never wants to see him ever again.
Trunks still loved him though. Even after all of that he still loved the man who stole his heart and then made him watch while he ripped it to shreds. He was practically on his deathbed right now and all he could think about was Gohans happiness with his daughter. Oh how Goten hated him right now. 'My best friend is gonna die because of you, you asshole! The very least you could do would be to open your goddamn door and accept his gift!' He thought while clenching his teeth in rage.
He suddenly stopped knocking and kicked the door *loudly*. He'd been knocking for almost a half an hour and was getting seriously pissed off. He wanted to get back to Trunks in case something else happens while he was away. "Gohan, open the fucking door already! I know you're in there!" He yelled out in rage, not caring if anyone in the other apartments would hear him.
Gohan was sick and tired of listening to the damn door, and just as he was about to open it and tell the kisama on the other side to fuck off, he kicked his door and put a dent in it before screaming at him to let him in.
He just grit his teeth in rage as he opened the dented door and saw his *ex* little brother giving him a sneer that closely resembled the one on his face right now. It didn't surprise either of them that a face like that could be made by such a traitorous bastard.
One thought ran through both of their heads at this point, and it was at the same time too as the very sight of each other made them want to be sick with the rage that they had directed at each other for what had happened.
* 'I hate you!' *
To be continued.................
Sorry that it's so short, but I just wanted to get out this little part. Thanks to all who reviewed me!! Please review me and tell me what you thought! plz plz plz!!! I love feedback!