Disclaimer: Just borrowing. Don't sue.

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Ryou's POV

Ryou wasn't sure where he was. Blackness surrounded him and he momentarily froze, thinking it was the Shadow Realm. But no, he knew what the Shadow Realm felt like and this wasn't it. He relaxed and sat on the supposed ground, nothing surrounding him but his thoughts. And his thoughts chased around only one thing.

~*I'm so tired of being here

Surpressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it wont leave me alone*~



Bakura. I loved you. When I first met you, I thought you were the light that had come to take me away from my nightmare, my life. But you quickly set me straight. You weren't going to save me in any way.

~*These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears

I've held your hand through all of these years

And you still have all of me*~

Well, at least you *tried* to make me see that you wouldn't deliver me from this hell. But I wouldn't listen, would I? I held out some kind of hope. You had learned to use that to your advantage. You had hurt me any way you knew how and when you ran out of ideas, you invented new ones. If fed something inside of you and you were addicted to it, drawn to it like bees to honey. But I didn't care. I loved loving you. I loved holding out hope that you'd turn good and realize how much you care.

~*You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams

Your voice, it chased away all of the sanity in me*~

I kept my hope alive and...I guess that makes me worse than you. It wasn't you that tortured me this way, it was I who tormented my every waking moment. You may of hurt me physically but my mind could of been saved. And you didn't kill me, I killed myself. So where does that leave you?

~*These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears

I've held your hand through all of these years

And you still have all of me.*~

I lost myself under trying to please you. I don't know who or what I am anymore. Am I even human after your work on me? I'm so tired of trying to tiptoe around you and giving up myself for you. I drowning now and so tired of your lies and facades. I can see through you and I know you're just as weak as I am. And I loved you for it. I thought I could save you and make you care, thaw your heart and help you find yourself again. And in the process, I became numb. I became you.

Ryou looked around, still not sure whether he was alive or dead. And he was even more unsure whether he was happier here than in life. Was this what he left Bakura for? Ryou's unhurried musing was rudely interrupted by a loud, imposing beeping sound.

~*I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

And thought you're still with me

I've been alone all along.*~

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Lady Maeve: ::reads over chapter and blinks:: Wow, not much happened, did it? I'm sorry but it is the way that the story goes in my head. If I could make a short movie about how Ryou is sitting in the middle of nowhere, looking lost and kawaii, I would but I can't so bear with me. Flame or review.

This song is by Evanescence.