AN: OMG GUYS!! A million apologies can't explain how sorry I am about not updating in so long! But I do have a legit reason..my computer crashed after I finished posting chapter 3 so I couldnt write anymore until we got it fixed but luckily it saved everything ..plus i've had drivers ed for the past two weeks so i havent been gettin home til 7 everyday and with loads of homework! once again I am REALLY REALLY sorry! and I present to you chapter 4! hope ya'll like it! I know its kinda short but I wrote it in like half an hour so you guys wouldnt kill me for not having at least one little chapter when I came back!! and I promise the next chapter will come soon and it will be longer!! peace & love!
-heather
~usual disclaimers apply~
Jess had been gone for three months now and Rory, after her initial breakdown outside of Luke's, had carried on with her life as normal. Though she hadn't dared even to look at anything that held memories of him since.
"Rory, baby, sweetie, sugar pie, honey bu-" Lorelai sang.
'Yes mother?" Rory said, cutting her off.
"I'm goin out for a bit, oh and if you have any wild keg parties, make sure you tell people to use the coasters."
"Will do."
"K, so I'll be back about 11, love you babe."
"Love you too mom, have fun."
And with that, Lorelai was out the door.
Rory, deciding to do a little reading, walked over to her bookshelf and skimmed the titles, running her fingers along the spines, until she hesitantly stopped on one book, a book she'd read many times, a book that had alot of memories for her, a book she hadn't so much as glanced at since HE left.
Oliver Twist.
She slowly pulled the book down and when she opened the front cover, she was shocked to see that handwriting she knew all too well.
Rory,
You've had such a huge impact on me. I'm constantly in awe of the person you've helped me to become. And my life won't ever be the same, but I have to find the strength I need to let you go. Please don't turn around now, you might see me cry. And I'm falling apart, so walk away and close the door, and I'll never know just how I let you go. But I can't stay. I know you're hurting right now and most likely you hate me, but you have to understand that I did this because I only want the best for you, because you deserve nothing less than everything, and because with me hanging on to you, I wouldn't be helping you succeed, I'd only be aiding in your failure, and that would break my heart, nothing could ever hurt worse than hurting you but I felt that it was best for your future plans; Yale, Harvard, Princeton, anywhere you wanna go, anything you want to do, you deserve all that and so much more, as for me, I'll miss you so much but I'll be satisfied knowing that your doing what you've always wanted to do and not having to compromise for me. I don't know where I went right, what I did to get you, my angel, for that brief moment in time, but I was the luckiest guy alive. There will never be a day I stop missing you. There will never be a second I stop thinking about you. There will never be a single moment that I regret. Because I've loved you so much ever since the day we first met, and I will always.
-Dodger
Rory was sobbing uncontrollably after reading what Jess had written.
She couldn't believe that this was the same monosyllabic guy that had come to Stars Hollow only months ago hating the world and so seemingly tough on the outside, always having a sarcastic remark for everything so as never to let the wall of hurt from his past down to let people see his real emotions and sweet side that she always knew was there.
It took her breath away to hear that he thought he wasn't good enough for her, that was the farthest thing from the truth. He was everything she ever wanted. Everything she ever needed. He was the one.
She knew she had to do something.
-heather
~usual disclaimers apply~
Jess had been gone for three months now and Rory, after her initial breakdown outside of Luke's, had carried on with her life as normal. Though she hadn't dared even to look at anything that held memories of him since.
"Rory, baby, sweetie, sugar pie, honey bu-" Lorelai sang.
'Yes mother?" Rory said, cutting her off.
"I'm goin out for a bit, oh and if you have any wild keg parties, make sure you tell people to use the coasters."
"Will do."
"K, so I'll be back about 11, love you babe."
"Love you too mom, have fun."
And with that, Lorelai was out the door.
Rory, deciding to do a little reading, walked over to her bookshelf and skimmed the titles, running her fingers along the spines, until she hesitantly stopped on one book, a book she'd read many times, a book that had alot of memories for her, a book she hadn't so much as glanced at since HE left.
Oliver Twist.
She slowly pulled the book down and when she opened the front cover, she was shocked to see that handwriting she knew all too well.
Rory,
You've had such a huge impact on me. I'm constantly in awe of the person you've helped me to become. And my life won't ever be the same, but I have to find the strength I need to let you go. Please don't turn around now, you might see me cry. And I'm falling apart, so walk away and close the door, and I'll never know just how I let you go. But I can't stay. I know you're hurting right now and most likely you hate me, but you have to understand that I did this because I only want the best for you, because you deserve nothing less than everything, and because with me hanging on to you, I wouldn't be helping you succeed, I'd only be aiding in your failure, and that would break my heart, nothing could ever hurt worse than hurting you but I felt that it was best for your future plans; Yale, Harvard, Princeton, anywhere you wanna go, anything you want to do, you deserve all that and so much more, as for me, I'll miss you so much but I'll be satisfied knowing that your doing what you've always wanted to do and not having to compromise for me. I don't know where I went right, what I did to get you, my angel, for that brief moment in time, but I was the luckiest guy alive. There will never be a day I stop missing you. There will never be a second I stop thinking about you. There will never be a single moment that I regret. Because I've loved you so much ever since the day we first met, and I will always.
-Dodger
Rory was sobbing uncontrollably after reading what Jess had written.
She couldn't believe that this was the same monosyllabic guy that had come to Stars Hollow only months ago hating the world and so seemingly tough on the outside, always having a sarcastic remark for everything so as never to let the wall of hurt from his past down to let people see his real emotions and sweet side that she always knew was there.
It took her breath away to hear that he thought he wasn't good enough for her, that was the farthest thing from the truth. He was everything she ever wanted. Everything she ever needed. He was the one.
She knew she had to do something.