Someone was speaking to her, but she couldn't make out what was being
said. She couldn't even tell what language the words were in. They had a
nice tone to them though. Friendly and soothing- like someone talking to a
stray kitten.
Maybe I'm a kitten, she thought, her logic that of the more than sleightly drunk. She climbed up into the person's lap, earning a startled cough, "Um"...
She began to purr, as best she could.
The voice again, this time sounding confused "Uhhh... Hildy, what are you doing?"
Recognition finnally cut through her drunken hase,-'Heero'?, she croaked, her throat tight. Then memories of the past week began to return.
He seemed to sense how close she was to breaking down. 'It's okay'. Somehow the monotone voice held a wealth of comfort, and even affection, and that cut through all of her defenses. And once again, she found herself in the arms of the one she should hate... But instead of hate she found herself returning the affection... How could she not? He had spent the last week like this. With an almost stranger drinking herself stupid and crying her heart out into his shirt. And after she'd run into Duo she'd become even more of a basket case. He'd just sat with her, and let her ruin a few nice shirts. Never once complaining, and she didn't understand why.
Why? That was the question that was stuck on her mind. Why would someone who seemed to have no emotions, and no need for human contact- why would he be so nice? There was nothing of sense to the equation.
Once again though, he seemed to know what she was thinking, "Once I loved someone- a young girl, with red hair. She had the strangest, most beautiful eyes, I could never seem to look away..."
"She was like light come to life- everywhere she went became magical, just from her presence. It was impossible not to be captivated the moment I saw her. "
"Though I was a moody child, I was not nearly as I am now. And I believe this is because she balanced out my darkness. We were always toghther, and almost always happy, until one day... She entered the room, and I knew something was wrong. She was broken, and empty, her eyes, once so mystical, emerald and violet, now a dead coal gray. She was a ghost. There was nothing I could do to free her from her misery."
He paused for a moment to hug her tight, and she felt hot tears on her neck. "You reminded me of her then, when I saw you outside your room. I couldn't leave you there... I left her once, I just couldn't do it again".
"Where is she now"?, Hildy felt compeled to ask.
For a moment silence, then he gently dissentangled himself from her, and got up, "She killed herself". He croaked.
"Oh."
"But you"- he began.
"I won't. I promise", she whispered.
"Thanks", he said, looking sheepish; "I'll leave you to uh..."
It hit her then just how bad she must look... and smell. She decided that a shower didn't sound like a bad idea, though she did miss being so close with him. She recognised that she'd been wallowing in self pity over Duo for too long, and she needed to get out of bed. She also needed to find out if she still had a job. But all of those things were secondary, a shower was first prority. Or rather thanking Heero was.
She gave him a quick hug, and a peck on the cheek; "Thank you for saving me that night", she wanted to say more, or pay him back somehow, but she couldn't think of anything... Obviously she'd fried a few braincells in her crusade to drown Duo in vodka. She promised herself that she'd think of something, but not now.
He handed her some towels, and a set of clothes, and silently left her alone with her thoughts.
* * *
To say that Duo was a bit worried about Hildy would be an understatement. When he'd fallen asleep, the other night everything had seemed fine. But when he'd awoken, the whole world had been turned upside down. Hildy wouldn't talk to him- heck, she couldn't even seem to stand the sight of him. And then she was staying over at Heero's? Were they an item now? And then there was the subject of her out of control behavior when they'd met on the street...
She had seen him, and turned to flee. Since to him, nothing had changed though, he'd simply assumed that she'd somehow not seen him. But when he followed after her, and touched her shoulder, she had seemed to both callapse and explode. She began screaming at him, nonsense words, nothing to give him any knowlwedge of what he'd presumably done wrong. Then Heero had apeared on the scene. and She'd calmed down, and held his hand like a little child as he led her away. All Heero had told him, during subsequent phone conversations, was that she was fine, and she just wasn't ready to see him yet.
How would Heero know? What did he even know about the human heart? The perfect soldier. Emotionless... Yet Duo knew that he'd seen affection on Heero's face when he was handling Hildy. How could that be? And why? Why would Heero suddenly open up, finally grow a heart, and then give it to someone else? He had nothing but questions.
And where was he? What was he doing? Not looking for answers- he hurt too much for that. No, he was in a smoke filled room, filled with other lonely people. Looking for an escape- just for a little while. Until the hurt of the betrayal died down a bit.
How could they? His best friend, and the man he'd loved for years. No! he wouldn't think about them- he wouldn't think at all.
A scarred angel of darkness aproached. Instinct said run, but instinct was drowned out by desire; that cup will stop the thoughts- it seemed to say. Why not? What do I have to lose?
Twenty minutes and another cup of forgetfulness later... He found out. **************************************************************************** ******
Wow, this was quite a turn, and it suprised even me. Sleep deprivation has a way of bringing out the darker me, but I think he's also the more creative me as well. I guess I have to apologise, my last author's notes might have implied that there would be no sex, and here I go implying ncs, well, like I said, none of this is planed, I just live it with the characters, and write down what goes on. As for our lovely Shinnigami, we'll definately be seeing some angst from him next chapter... But on the up side, some of the other Gundam boys should be making appearances soon, along with the relena.(That's right *the* relena) I still don't know if I like her or not, but I'll write what the story tells me, not what I feel about that Bit... yeah! Anyway r&r this one too please. I think that there was a bit more depth to this chapter, and I hope you agree, I'm still open to criticism. Also I type faster now, so the next chapter should be up soon. yeah!
Maybe I'm a kitten, she thought, her logic that of the more than sleightly drunk. She climbed up into the person's lap, earning a startled cough, "Um"...
She began to purr, as best she could.
The voice again, this time sounding confused "Uhhh... Hildy, what are you doing?"
Recognition finnally cut through her drunken hase,-'Heero'?, she croaked, her throat tight. Then memories of the past week began to return.
He seemed to sense how close she was to breaking down. 'It's okay'. Somehow the monotone voice held a wealth of comfort, and even affection, and that cut through all of her defenses. And once again, she found herself in the arms of the one she should hate... But instead of hate she found herself returning the affection... How could she not? He had spent the last week like this. With an almost stranger drinking herself stupid and crying her heart out into his shirt. And after she'd run into Duo she'd become even more of a basket case. He'd just sat with her, and let her ruin a few nice shirts. Never once complaining, and she didn't understand why.
Why? That was the question that was stuck on her mind. Why would someone who seemed to have no emotions, and no need for human contact- why would he be so nice? There was nothing of sense to the equation.
Once again though, he seemed to know what she was thinking, "Once I loved someone- a young girl, with red hair. She had the strangest, most beautiful eyes, I could never seem to look away..."
"She was like light come to life- everywhere she went became magical, just from her presence. It was impossible not to be captivated the moment I saw her. "
"Though I was a moody child, I was not nearly as I am now. And I believe this is because she balanced out my darkness. We were always toghther, and almost always happy, until one day... She entered the room, and I knew something was wrong. She was broken, and empty, her eyes, once so mystical, emerald and violet, now a dead coal gray. She was a ghost. There was nothing I could do to free her from her misery."
He paused for a moment to hug her tight, and she felt hot tears on her neck. "You reminded me of her then, when I saw you outside your room. I couldn't leave you there... I left her once, I just couldn't do it again".
"Where is she now"?, Hildy felt compeled to ask.
For a moment silence, then he gently dissentangled himself from her, and got up, "She killed herself". He croaked.
"Oh."
"But you"- he began.
"I won't. I promise", she whispered.
"Thanks", he said, looking sheepish; "I'll leave you to uh..."
It hit her then just how bad she must look... and smell. She decided that a shower didn't sound like a bad idea, though she did miss being so close with him. She recognised that she'd been wallowing in self pity over Duo for too long, and she needed to get out of bed. She also needed to find out if she still had a job. But all of those things were secondary, a shower was first prority. Or rather thanking Heero was.
She gave him a quick hug, and a peck on the cheek; "Thank you for saving me that night", she wanted to say more, or pay him back somehow, but she couldn't think of anything... Obviously she'd fried a few braincells in her crusade to drown Duo in vodka. She promised herself that she'd think of something, but not now.
He handed her some towels, and a set of clothes, and silently left her alone with her thoughts.
* * *
To say that Duo was a bit worried about Hildy would be an understatement. When he'd fallen asleep, the other night everything had seemed fine. But when he'd awoken, the whole world had been turned upside down. Hildy wouldn't talk to him- heck, she couldn't even seem to stand the sight of him. And then she was staying over at Heero's? Were they an item now? And then there was the subject of her out of control behavior when they'd met on the street...
She had seen him, and turned to flee. Since to him, nothing had changed though, he'd simply assumed that she'd somehow not seen him. But when he followed after her, and touched her shoulder, she had seemed to both callapse and explode. She began screaming at him, nonsense words, nothing to give him any knowlwedge of what he'd presumably done wrong. Then Heero had apeared on the scene. and She'd calmed down, and held his hand like a little child as he led her away. All Heero had told him, during subsequent phone conversations, was that she was fine, and she just wasn't ready to see him yet.
How would Heero know? What did he even know about the human heart? The perfect soldier. Emotionless... Yet Duo knew that he'd seen affection on Heero's face when he was handling Hildy. How could that be? And why? Why would Heero suddenly open up, finally grow a heart, and then give it to someone else? He had nothing but questions.
And where was he? What was he doing? Not looking for answers- he hurt too much for that. No, he was in a smoke filled room, filled with other lonely people. Looking for an escape- just for a little while. Until the hurt of the betrayal died down a bit.
How could they? His best friend, and the man he'd loved for years. No! he wouldn't think about them- he wouldn't think at all.
A scarred angel of darkness aproached. Instinct said run, but instinct was drowned out by desire; that cup will stop the thoughts- it seemed to say. Why not? What do I have to lose?
Twenty minutes and another cup of forgetfulness later... He found out. **************************************************************************** ******
Wow, this was quite a turn, and it suprised even me. Sleep deprivation has a way of bringing out the darker me, but I think he's also the more creative me as well. I guess I have to apologise, my last author's notes might have implied that there would be no sex, and here I go implying ncs, well, like I said, none of this is planed, I just live it with the characters, and write down what goes on. As for our lovely Shinnigami, we'll definately be seeing some angst from him next chapter... But on the up side, some of the other Gundam boys should be making appearances soon, along with the relena.(That's right *the* relena) I still don't know if I like her or not, but I'll write what the story tells me, not what I feel about that Bit... yeah! Anyway r&r this one too please. I think that there was a bit more depth to this chapter, and I hope you agree, I'm still open to criticism. Also I type faster now, so the next chapter should be up soon. yeah!