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His only Way Out: Part 4
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Lorelai stared at the ceiling, covers pulled up to her neck. She glanced over at the clock for the fiftieth time in the last five minutes, it was 1.14am, and she couldn't sleep, she was worried about Luke, and maybe she should be. . . she hurt him, even if she didn't want to believe it.
She rolled over and fingered the sheet that was poking out slightly from the quilt. Luke can't live without me. Those words made her feel nervous; they posed so much meaning. I can't be what Luke wants, he's so calm and collected, and I'm just stupid and unorganized. Where's the sense in that?
"Urrggg!" she groaned out loud and rolled onto her side. The light of the moon was breaking its way through the clouds and into her window. Damn moon. Who told you to come out? And damn Luke, our friendship is clearly gone, out the window, down the toilet, washed away. Why did he have to say that? He could've made something up, Oh god!! I told him to tell me not the other way around. I should be blaming myself for this, not Luke, he was telling me the truth. His eyes were so honest and soft. They were raw. He was hurt. Realization hit her and she sank to a low.
She flipped onto her back and stared and the ceiling once again. Her eyes were sorrowful and glassy. Rolling onto her other side and took another look at the clock 1.28am. She curled into a protective ball, as if to keep her heart in tact. She buried her head further into the pillow and felt like crying. She had never craved to know what she wanted or what she felt as much as she did then. Tears began to burn her eyes. She told herself she wouldn't cry over this, but it's the only thing she could think to do, nothing else was being clear. She took the spare pillow next to her and hugged it. What was she gonna do? She had no idea where he was going and for how long. She needed to know what was on the note! She wondered where he was. . .
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AN: Thanks again for all the great feedback. Keep it coming.
Here is a brief summary for the people who asked:
Rory left for Yale a month ago. Lorelai didn't take to that too well. She was lonely. Luke was being Luke until he got a phone call from his ex-girlfriend, Rachel. Lorelai was there the night of the morning he got the call and he was in a crappy mood, which made Lorelai concerned, so she pushed it and Luke revealed something about his inner self that Lorelai didn't take too well.