Thx for reviewing (to the two people who did)
Lily's thoughts
O crap! I don't know what to do, I really don't. I usually have trouble knowing what to do anyway but this is even worse. James has just told me that he loves me, and would die for me (I think that's a bit drastic). I thought I hated him but when I got my mind to think about what my feelings were for James, my mind was just blank, I didn't know whether I hated him or if I did love him.
Somewhere in my mind tells me that I can't be loved, and that I never want to be loved. I can't handle being loved by someone, probably because I am so unused to being loved, I've never been loved. My sister hates me and my parents can't love me because they've been dead since I was three. Its sad to think that I can't remember anyone loving me or me loving someone back. Love is something completely unknown to me, and because it is unknown I have no control over it. To fall in love would be the end of me.
Why does he do this to me?
I can't do anything, I can't even think, I just feel so thoughtless and emotionless inside. I wish I could change that but I can't, if I had the chance I'd start my life again right from the beginning, that life would be so different to the one I'm unfortunately living now.
What the hell am I going to tell James?