Title: Born to Be My Baby
Author: ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤
Date: Began March, 2003
Chapter 4/?
Rating: R for later chapters; PG - 13 for now
Category: Romance, Angst, Blood and the like
Main Paiting: Gojyo x Hakkai
Disclaimer: Unfortunately enough for me, I do not own Gensomaden Saiyuki. All characters, names, etc. are copyrighted to Minekura Kazuya.
Warning: Shounen ai/yaoi
Confession: Shit, I wait until now to say this but.... I haven't seen all of Gensomaden Saiyuki yet... *BOOOOOM!* If it wasn't obvious before, then it is now! My local anime store where I rent all of my stuff (including Saiyuki) doesn't have the first or the third DVD's of the first season anymore. The first DVD was rented by this one kid who never brought it back because they moved and I rented the third DVD and watched episodes #19 - 22 1/2. Yeah, that's right: 22 1/2. F*cking Disc Read Error on my PS2. (Speaking of my PS2, I lost my Orphen video game!!!) I brought it to the guy in the rental/sale store and he said it was pretty beat up. They don't let people rent it anymore 'cause they aren't gonna get much outta it. (Got the second DVD though!) So if I make a few statements that just aren't true... WORK WITH ME HERE! I'm saving up for the rest of the manga and the box set! That totals over $100.00!!! *cries* But I would like to add that I have seen over thirty episodes. Okasan won't let me rent anything at the moment so I am unsure of the precise amount. (How can a 13 year old make $100.00 without going mentally insane first!?)
REMEMBER!!: "A - duh!" (as my mother would say) we are still in the middle of the flashback.
Apology: If you guys are looking for some major shounen ai goodness, this really isn't the chapter. There is a lot of go - o - o - d stuff in here but in the later part of the chapter, there isn't much. I was just reading the manga and all so... yeah. Book 3 for anybody who cares. Ha ha. Enjoy and don't forget to review!
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Part Fourth (4/?)
"Would you be angry... if I kissed you?" Hakkai was stunned. He wanted to move, wanted to say something but Gojyo went on, unmoving from his spot underneath his covers, "It's wierd, y'know? I can remember back when I was walking home from, what I thought, was a typical poker night; poker, women and the like. Then all of a sudden you fell in front of me. I feel bad now for saying that I did this but I actually... sorta kicked you. And I was all, 'Hey, are you dead?' And then you looked at me. I was so amazed. You smiled at me. I dropped my jacket in the mud once I saw that smile. 'Forget the damned thing,' I told myself. 'This guy is in trouble.' You know how it isn't my style to pick up a guy offa the streets and all... but you were different - you still are. Damn, I mean, if I didn't hear her..."
"Her?"
"I never told you but there was this voice that I heard when I looked in your eyes and you smiled up at me. She kept saying, 'Help him, help him.' She had the most beautiful voice, Hakkai. I know it doesn't sound like me to say this but it really was. I helped you. Part of because I wanted to and part of because she told me to."
"I - -"
"And Hakkai?"
"Y - yes?"
"You were lucky... that you got to hear her voice so often...."
Gojyo felt Hakkai behind him, leaning down and wrapping his arms around his waist softly. "I'm so sorry," Hakkai began. "Gojyo whenever I've had to think about falling in love with you, be it at the meal table or in Jiipu, I've always excused myself with something terrible, like, 'Oh, please wait just a moment?' or 'Oh, my! I almost forgot!' Well, that's because I would always go to the restroom and splash water over my face or something. After my sister was gone... the thought of love always tore me to pieces inside. And it was all your fault." Hakkai tightened his grip. "But I'm glad that it was. I was so glad that you were in my life, even if you didn't love me then." He paused.
"I fell in love even when I brought you back to my house those few years back." Gojyo smiled. "I said you were different from the rest, didn't I?"
"Yes.... Gojyo?"
"Hn?" Gojyo rolled over slightly so that Hakkai had to remove his arms completely. The green - eyed man sat so that he was on the edge of the bed and leaning over Gojyo.
"To your question earlier...."
"Yes?"
"I would not be angry."
"That means I can?" Gojyo whispered as he raised a hand up to Hakkai, placing his slender fingers on the bottom of Hakkai's chin. The brunette nodded slowly as new tears rolled down his already damp cheeks. Gojyo's fingers stroked Hakkai's chin softly before he finally grasped it slightly and pulled the healer down to him. And with that, Gojyo pressed his lips to Hakkai's. So soft. Hakkai's lips were so much like velvet. They were softer and smoother than silk; like silk... no flaws. Gojyo could not help himself as he wrapped his arms around Hakkai's waist, pressing their chests together and opening his mouth slightly. Hakkai gasped but it only deepened the kiss as Gojyo closed his lips around the other man's. Hakkai wanted to pull back and Gojyo noted it, paying every ounce of his attention to make sure that he was not hurting or scaring him. The red - haired man slowly pulled back. Hakkai was surprised but not so much as to let another gasp escape from his lips as he slapped both hands over his mouth suddenly and fell forward, Gojyo catching him in his tender embrace. "Baby...," Gojyo began. "Was that too much?" Hakkai shook his head and said nothing as Gojyo pulled Hakkai to him, closer.
They fell asleep that way: both Gojyo and Hakkai sleeping peacefully in the same bed, not minding that the covers seemed to avoid their bodies. But all that Hakkai did was mouth something that he knew Gojyo neither heard nor saw... but he meant it all the same, "I love you.... Gojyo."
"Gojyo?"
Ah... Morning already?
"Gojyo?"
Oh, Hakkai....
"Wake up, Gojyo!"
The red - haired man rolled over onto his side and moaned softly - something like, "Mm... Hakkai."
The brunette blushed the adorable pink - coloured flush that always crept across his cheeks whenever Gojyo said something like what was just uttered. His thoughts explained to him that he had done enough blushing the previous night just from talking out his relationship with Gojyo.
"Hakkai?" Gojyo groaned hoarsely as his eyelids dragged open reluctantly.
"Erm... yes. We need to leave and get back to the town where Sanzo and Goku are."
"Ah!" Gojyo sighed. "Yeah, I guess so. They'll pretty much go insane if you aren't there to lecture on the 'No Bloodspatter' rules." He laughed through his teeth as he slowly pushed himself out of bed and rose his arms high over his head in a stretch, completely revealing his masculine chest and the perfect hip bones that his pants then failed to cover as they slipped down slightly, seeing as Gojyo's waist was, indeed, thin but with perfectly chiseled abdomen muscles.
'Oh, God...,' Hakkai thought. 'He really is beautiful....'
"Well, then," Gojyo commented, sauntering over to Hakkai and, finding the tiny snow - coloured dragon perched happily on his shoulder, he lifted his hand and scratched his chin lightly, recieving a happy 'kyu' noise, "We should get going before Sanzo hunts us down, eh?"
"Yes," Hakkai concured. "But perhaps you would like to slip on a shirt, Gojyo?" The brunette hid a small laugh behind his hand as Gojyo suddenly remembered that he had been shirtless the entire time and, looking himself over quickly, he recollected,
"Oh... yeah. I need a shirt, don't I?"
"Erm... yes."
"Aw, Hakkai!" Gojyo pointed to his companion suddenly, grinning from ear to ear. "I see that blush!"
"Ah!" Hakkai startled, attempting to cover it up by turning slightly to one side and placing a hand over one of his cheeks. Tiny squeaks were heard from Hakuryu as his eyes were shut in laughter at the current situation. It wasn't often that Hakkai was caught offguard - not to mention surprised by his own reactions [1].
Hakuryu leant forward slightly and nuzzled his master's jawline affectionately before talking flight and landing on the chair he had been on the previous day, leaving Hakkai in confusion, which later turned to understanding as Gojyo took the few steps that separated them and wrapped his arms around his waist, his lips near his cuffed ear. "You said it again last night, didn't you?"
"What?" Hakkai whispered, momentarilly clueless as to what Gojyo was speaking of.
"You mouthed it. You said you loved me," Gojyo whispered back. "What, you think I didn't see it?"
The brunette smiled and slowly let his eyes slip shut as his arms rested inbetween them, his hands over Gojyo's muscled shoulders. "Yes, I did." He moved his head to rest on the crook of Gojyo's neck. "I meant it, too," he murmured.
And Gojyo pulled the other man closer to him still, his arms bending at the elbow to wrap themselves still tighter around Hakkai. But even in all the romance that hung in the air, all of the things they had said to each other, Gojyo felt Hakkai's body in his arms, tense. His muscles were tightened; he was nervous. Nervous? Of what? He was not scared that Gojyo was going to hurt him, was he? Or was it the other way around - that he was afraid something would happen to the half - breed because his past would plant a trap in his path? Even so, the scarlet - eyed man did not blame the youkai in his arms entirely. They had both had tragic pasts and Hakkai's was one that no one could ever, ever forget; the same went for Gojyo.
'But...,' Gojyo thought. 'Once my step - mother was gone... my brother left... When I got older...,' His eyes brimmed with tears as he recalled every event. 'That's why I slept with so many women?' he realized. 'Was it for her? Was it for mother?'
"Gojyo," Hakkai haulted his thoughts as he lifted his head from where he had laid it near the other man's neck and stared into the ruby - red eyes that shone like true gems. 'They really do,' Hakkai understood. 'They really do look like blood.' Sadly, he remembered informing Gojyo of the fact, before he took his leave of the half - breed's house years back, that his eyes and hair had reminded him of blood; and that whenever he had tried to forget, Gojyo was his reminder. He also told him that the crimson staining his hands was the only thing that binded him to the real world. But it was the color - red: frobidden intercourse between youkai and human; it was a taboo. And Gojyo's hair and eyes reminded himself of the unbelievable angst he had experienced as a child and teenager. Red was the color of blood. But now, as Hakkai stared into Gojyo's eyes, they really did look like blood: the normally burning red eyes that Gojyo possessed were transformed from the tears, and the moisture shone over his iris, creating the bloody look.
It was then that Hakkai got to wonder: 'His eyes are so crimson. Has he ever cried blood?'
Gojyo blinked. The tear rolled down his cheek, leaving the tanned skin with a glossy look in the tear's wake. It was clear.
'I suppose not...,' Hakkai contemplated.
"Hakkai?" Gojyo inquired softly, almost shyly as he tightened his grip the most unnoticable bit.
"Gojyo?"
"You look so beautiful. What are you thinking about?"
Hakkai hesitated to speak his true feelings as to what he had been contemplating over the last few minutes, seeing as Gojyo was so saddenned when he had told him about his hair and eyes so far back, but then decided so speak, "I was thinking about your eyes, Gojyo."
Impossible was possible right then as Gojyo's eyes became even glassier, the tears flowing freely, almost instantly after Hakkai's words, without a blink or movement of them. Averting them would cost him the reason, but leaving them fixed where they were would cause more pain. "Why?" He chose the pain.
"Remember that I told you that they reminded me of blood?"
"Yeah," his tone was choked.
"I've been wanting to say this for a while now but that isn't all that they remind me of now. You know, they have a sparkle in them like someone could have sprinkled glitter unto them... but that is a definite understatement. I really do love the way that the sun glints off of your iris when you open your eyes from napping in the back of Jiipu; and when you get the thought of playing a prank on Goku, you always have this lovely, and at the same time, hilarious twinkle that doesn't really fade until Goku is in agony from your joke or you're beating up on each other. Not to mention when Sanzo fires his gun or hits your with his fan, your eyes grow to the size of billiard balls either from shock or from pain. Like I said just a minute ago: those were the understatements."
"Hakkai...," Gojyo murmured. How in the world could Hakkai come up with such a phenomenal description on the spur of the moment? Memory served the red - haired man correct, however, in reinforming him that the brunette in his arms used to be a teacher. Maybe he should begin to call him the living dictionary; he was the smartest person he had ever met.
The scarlet - eyed man wanted to lean down to kiss the man in front of him. A "good morning" kiss or something to help clear the pain - of which he was not sure. But as he just began to move his lips toward Hakkai's, the brunette slowly untangled himself from Gojyo's grasp and reminded him, "Well, shall we go then? Perhaps if we got back today, Sanzo would not have such a fit."
Gojyo nodded and wiped away the tears with his white wife - beater before he pulled the loose material over his chest, followed by the azure denim vest.
"Damn, it's pretty hot," Gojyo muttered from the passenger's seat as they drove across the solitude, the sun beating down on them with no mercy of any kind. Since Sanzo and Goku weren't there at the moment, he decided to see the view from the spot next to Hakkai. "I'm no Goku but it's actually worth complaining about!"
"Well, at least Sanzo is not here to slap you over the head," Hakkai joked, his shoulders shook with laughter.
"Damn right."
"Do you remember," Hakkai started, "when we picked up that youkai woman in the desert and she wanted to be taken to the city we were headed toward?"
"You mean when you just drove right off of the cliff and we sped down the side?"
"Yes! And then we finally crashed into the ground and you said something like, 'Hakkai! You bastard!'"
"Yeah, well, I didn't mean that literally." [2]
"No, it's okay. See, what really made me laugh was when Sanzo... threw his fan at you!" Hakkai began to laugh as he continued to speak. "He threw it at you and then you said, 'Hey! You're supposed to hit people with that thing, not throw it!'"
"Aw, shit, yeah! I'm surprised he didn't say somethin' like, 'Don't tell me how to do my job.'" They both shared a good laugh as they drove on, the situation concerning the unbearable heat was suddenly forgotten as they continued on. "Hakkai?"
"Yes?"
"You're a smart dude, so tell me: How come it takes so much longer to get somewhere but it seems shorter when you come back?"
"Well, Gojyo, just because I used to be a teacher doesn't make me a genius."
"You're smarter than me, so tell me!" Gojyo beamed.
"Gojyo!"
"Hey! It's the truth."
"Well, I really have no idea but it seems to me like it's an issue with patience. If you desire to reach a place, it's like reversing the saying, 'Time flies when you're having fun'. Sort of like if you can't stop thinking about the town or such that you want to reach. Then, I guess when you're coming back, you don't seem as eager to get back to where you origionally started. Understand?"
"I... think so."
"Ah, I don't really understand it myself."
I can remember
So far back
When I would laugh
Without a care in the world
You were beside me
And we drove all night....
The way your hair blows in the wind makes me shiver
The way your eyes shimer with sunlight makes me want to embrace you
The wind dries your lips and you lick them
It makes me want to kiss you
I'm sorry for what happened back then
I couldn't do anything to help you
I fell to pieces like you had to
Twice
Thrice
Too many times to count
The way your hair blows in the wind makes me shiver
The way your eyes shimer with sunlight makes me want to embrace you
The wind dries your lips and you lick them
It makes me want to kiss you
It makes me want to kiss you:
Hard
Passionate
Lovingly
I love you
You trip
And I will catch you
"Ne! Hakkai!" Goku exclaimed from the hotel window, leaning out far enough to nearly fall out. "Gojyo!"
"Hello, Goku!" Hakkai waved from the ground, two stories away from the excited teenager.
"Where in the world were you guys!?"
Gojyo took a step forward and smirked, "I got sick and got put in another town's hospital. Hakkai was worried so he sent me a living 'get well' card."
"Wha--?"
Hakkai blushed and motioned for Hakuryu to land on his shoulder, the little dragon having just transformed from his jeep form in a flash of white light.
"So," Sanzo began one morning, in his usual seat at the breakfast table across from the brunette, "what happened?"
"What do you mean by that, Sanzo?"
"Hell, looks like he did something to you."
"What!? What do you mean!?" Hakkai exclaimed, taken aback with coffee pot in hand.
"Nevermind. It's just that sometimes I think you really have something for that guy."
"Sanzo, remember, Gojyo and I are just friends. Besides, he's a player. Erm... remember? You and I both know how much he loves women. Besides, you know he'd never go for me even if, hypothetically, I did like him; although I admit, I am heterosexual, as 'normal' people usually are."
"My bad. You blush a lot around him, though. Gets noticed after the first ten times, Hakkai." Sanzo turned the page to yesterday's newspaper.
"Sanzo, didn't you ask me about this before?"
"Yeah, and you stated you were heterosexual three times in the last conversation about Gojyo."
"Just... stating the obvious."
"It is obvious."
"Of course it is."
"That depends.... You talking about Gojyo?"
"Sanzo!"
"Ne, Gojyo!"
"What?"
"Ah, you like Hakkai!"
"What!?" Gojyo let a harsh blow come into contact with the back of Goku's head with no mercy.
"Owa~! Gojyo! That hurt!"
"I'm glad," Gojyo grinned.
"Why'd you do that!?"
"God, just keep outta other people's business, will ya?"
"Then...," Goku's eyes widened as he pointed an accusing finger at the half - breed, "You DO like him!"
"Damn it all, bakasaru, we're just friends! We'll always be friends! Damn!" "Ne, but you look at him all funny!"
"Funny?"
"Yeah, like, you look at him and you smile all goofy and you look sleepy once and one time I actually saw you blow him a kiss in the hall! And the Hakkai smiles and blushes."
"Goddammit, SHUT UP!" Gojyo let his boot come in contact with Goku's (near empty) cranium before pushing him to the floor and stomping on him once before showing some mercy and letting him stand [3].
"Ow... dizzy...." Goku rubbed his head and stumbled over in front of Gojyo. "You still like him."
"Ga - a - d! Do I have to kill you to get you to shut up!?"
"Aya - a - a - a! Sanzo he - e - e - e - elp!"
~End Chapter 4~
*To be continued*
Author Notes:
[1] The whole thing about how our bodies do things that we aren't aware of until the last moment has really caught my eye. I have had my B.F. tell me that I flush pale instead of blush. Yeah and she rocks back and forth and doesn't even know it until I tell her to stop, "It's bugging me!" I haven't blushed very much at all and I know that from other people telling me, you can't really feel it creeping onto your face but you get hot. Is that true?
[2] People today use the term "bastard" incorrectly, for the most part, today. Actually, I was feeling unclear of the actual meaning so, after watching the anime "BastarD!!", I go upstairs and pull out this huge 2 - inch dictionary and look up the word. Now I can correct people when they use it incorrectly or congradulate them when they use it right! (Bastard: an illegitimate child)
[3] Oh... my... God.... I actually got to see the first half of Gensomaden Saiyuki episode #23, and that one part before my DVD messed up was when Goku made this little sound and then you see Gojyo and they're both in this allyway. All that you see is Goku and Gojyo's leg beating the living shitfire out of him... over and over and over again. Crap, that was hilarious, despite the seriousness of the moment.
Well, please read chapter #5! Oh, and please, please review. God, I never thought I would have the sheer willpower to actually make this thing longer than three or four chapters, but obviously, this is going to be much, much longer! At least I have ONE REVIEWER.... Along with my friends, that's... three people that are encouraging me to keep going. Oh yeah... that's re - e - e - e - al nice. Ha ha.
Ja.
Author: ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤
Date: Began March, 2003
Chapter 4/?
Rating: R for later chapters; PG - 13 for now
Category: Romance, Angst, Blood and the like
Main Paiting: Gojyo x Hakkai
Disclaimer: Unfortunately enough for me, I do not own Gensomaden Saiyuki. All characters, names, etc. are copyrighted to Minekura Kazuya.
Warning: Shounen ai/yaoi
Confession: Shit, I wait until now to say this but.... I haven't seen all of Gensomaden Saiyuki yet... *BOOOOOM!* If it wasn't obvious before, then it is now! My local anime store where I rent all of my stuff (including Saiyuki) doesn't have the first or the third DVD's of the first season anymore. The first DVD was rented by this one kid who never brought it back because they moved and I rented the third DVD and watched episodes #19 - 22 1/2. Yeah, that's right: 22 1/2. F*cking Disc Read Error on my PS2. (Speaking of my PS2, I lost my Orphen video game!!!) I brought it to the guy in the rental/sale store and he said it was pretty beat up. They don't let people rent it anymore 'cause they aren't gonna get much outta it. (Got the second DVD though!) So if I make a few statements that just aren't true... WORK WITH ME HERE! I'm saving up for the rest of the manga and the box set! That totals over $100.00!!! *cries* But I would like to add that I have seen over thirty episodes. Okasan won't let me rent anything at the moment so I am unsure of the precise amount. (How can a 13 year old make $100.00 without going mentally insane first!?)
REMEMBER!!: "A - duh!" (as my mother would say) we are still in the middle of the flashback.
Apology: If you guys are looking for some major shounen ai goodness, this really isn't the chapter. There is a lot of go - o - o - d stuff in here but in the later part of the chapter, there isn't much. I was just reading the manga and all so... yeah. Book 3 for anybody who cares. Ha ha. Enjoy and don't forget to review!
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Part Fourth (4/?)
"Would you be angry... if I kissed you?" Hakkai was stunned. He wanted to move, wanted to say something but Gojyo went on, unmoving from his spot underneath his covers, "It's wierd, y'know? I can remember back when I was walking home from, what I thought, was a typical poker night; poker, women and the like. Then all of a sudden you fell in front of me. I feel bad now for saying that I did this but I actually... sorta kicked you. And I was all, 'Hey, are you dead?' And then you looked at me. I was so amazed. You smiled at me. I dropped my jacket in the mud once I saw that smile. 'Forget the damned thing,' I told myself. 'This guy is in trouble.' You know how it isn't my style to pick up a guy offa the streets and all... but you were different - you still are. Damn, I mean, if I didn't hear her..."
"Her?"
"I never told you but there was this voice that I heard when I looked in your eyes and you smiled up at me. She kept saying, 'Help him, help him.' She had the most beautiful voice, Hakkai. I know it doesn't sound like me to say this but it really was. I helped you. Part of because I wanted to and part of because she told me to."
"I - -"
"And Hakkai?"
"Y - yes?"
"You were lucky... that you got to hear her voice so often...."
Gojyo felt Hakkai behind him, leaning down and wrapping his arms around his waist softly. "I'm so sorry," Hakkai began. "Gojyo whenever I've had to think about falling in love with you, be it at the meal table or in Jiipu, I've always excused myself with something terrible, like, 'Oh, please wait just a moment?' or 'Oh, my! I almost forgot!' Well, that's because I would always go to the restroom and splash water over my face or something. After my sister was gone... the thought of love always tore me to pieces inside. And it was all your fault." Hakkai tightened his grip. "But I'm glad that it was. I was so glad that you were in my life, even if you didn't love me then." He paused.
"I fell in love even when I brought you back to my house those few years back." Gojyo smiled. "I said you were different from the rest, didn't I?"
"Yes.... Gojyo?"
"Hn?" Gojyo rolled over slightly so that Hakkai had to remove his arms completely. The green - eyed man sat so that he was on the edge of the bed and leaning over Gojyo.
"To your question earlier...."
"Yes?"
"I would not be angry."
"That means I can?" Gojyo whispered as he raised a hand up to Hakkai, placing his slender fingers on the bottom of Hakkai's chin. The brunette nodded slowly as new tears rolled down his already damp cheeks. Gojyo's fingers stroked Hakkai's chin softly before he finally grasped it slightly and pulled the healer down to him. And with that, Gojyo pressed his lips to Hakkai's. So soft. Hakkai's lips were so much like velvet. They were softer and smoother than silk; like silk... no flaws. Gojyo could not help himself as he wrapped his arms around Hakkai's waist, pressing their chests together and opening his mouth slightly. Hakkai gasped but it only deepened the kiss as Gojyo closed his lips around the other man's. Hakkai wanted to pull back and Gojyo noted it, paying every ounce of his attention to make sure that he was not hurting or scaring him. The red - haired man slowly pulled back. Hakkai was surprised but not so much as to let another gasp escape from his lips as he slapped both hands over his mouth suddenly and fell forward, Gojyo catching him in his tender embrace. "Baby...," Gojyo began. "Was that too much?" Hakkai shook his head and said nothing as Gojyo pulled Hakkai to him, closer.
They fell asleep that way: both Gojyo and Hakkai sleeping peacefully in the same bed, not minding that the covers seemed to avoid their bodies. But all that Hakkai did was mouth something that he knew Gojyo neither heard nor saw... but he meant it all the same, "I love you.... Gojyo."
"Gojyo?"
Ah... Morning already?
"Gojyo?"
Oh, Hakkai....
"Wake up, Gojyo!"
The red - haired man rolled over onto his side and moaned softly - something like, "Mm... Hakkai."
The brunette blushed the adorable pink - coloured flush that always crept across his cheeks whenever Gojyo said something like what was just uttered. His thoughts explained to him that he had done enough blushing the previous night just from talking out his relationship with Gojyo.
"Hakkai?" Gojyo groaned hoarsely as his eyelids dragged open reluctantly.
"Erm... yes. We need to leave and get back to the town where Sanzo and Goku are."
"Ah!" Gojyo sighed. "Yeah, I guess so. They'll pretty much go insane if you aren't there to lecture on the 'No Bloodspatter' rules." He laughed through his teeth as he slowly pushed himself out of bed and rose his arms high over his head in a stretch, completely revealing his masculine chest and the perfect hip bones that his pants then failed to cover as they slipped down slightly, seeing as Gojyo's waist was, indeed, thin but with perfectly chiseled abdomen muscles.
'Oh, God...,' Hakkai thought. 'He really is beautiful....'
"Well, then," Gojyo commented, sauntering over to Hakkai and, finding the tiny snow - coloured dragon perched happily on his shoulder, he lifted his hand and scratched his chin lightly, recieving a happy 'kyu' noise, "We should get going before Sanzo hunts us down, eh?"
"Yes," Hakkai concured. "But perhaps you would like to slip on a shirt, Gojyo?" The brunette hid a small laugh behind his hand as Gojyo suddenly remembered that he had been shirtless the entire time and, looking himself over quickly, he recollected,
"Oh... yeah. I need a shirt, don't I?"
"Erm... yes."
"Aw, Hakkai!" Gojyo pointed to his companion suddenly, grinning from ear to ear. "I see that blush!"
"Ah!" Hakkai startled, attempting to cover it up by turning slightly to one side and placing a hand over one of his cheeks. Tiny squeaks were heard from Hakuryu as his eyes were shut in laughter at the current situation. It wasn't often that Hakkai was caught offguard - not to mention surprised by his own reactions [1].
Hakuryu leant forward slightly and nuzzled his master's jawline affectionately before talking flight and landing on the chair he had been on the previous day, leaving Hakkai in confusion, which later turned to understanding as Gojyo took the few steps that separated them and wrapped his arms around his waist, his lips near his cuffed ear. "You said it again last night, didn't you?"
"What?" Hakkai whispered, momentarilly clueless as to what Gojyo was speaking of.
"You mouthed it. You said you loved me," Gojyo whispered back. "What, you think I didn't see it?"
The brunette smiled and slowly let his eyes slip shut as his arms rested inbetween them, his hands over Gojyo's muscled shoulders. "Yes, I did." He moved his head to rest on the crook of Gojyo's neck. "I meant it, too," he murmured.
And Gojyo pulled the other man closer to him still, his arms bending at the elbow to wrap themselves still tighter around Hakkai. But even in all the romance that hung in the air, all of the things they had said to each other, Gojyo felt Hakkai's body in his arms, tense. His muscles were tightened; he was nervous. Nervous? Of what? He was not scared that Gojyo was going to hurt him, was he? Or was it the other way around - that he was afraid something would happen to the half - breed because his past would plant a trap in his path? Even so, the scarlet - eyed man did not blame the youkai in his arms entirely. They had both had tragic pasts and Hakkai's was one that no one could ever, ever forget; the same went for Gojyo.
'But...,' Gojyo thought. 'Once my step - mother was gone... my brother left... When I got older...,' His eyes brimmed with tears as he recalled every event. 'That's why I slept with so many women?' he realized. 'Was it for her? Was it for mother?'
"Gojyo," Hakkai haulted his thoughts as he lifted his head from where he had laid it near the other man's neck and stared into the ruby - red eyes that shone like true gems. 'They really do,' Hakkai understood. 'They really do look like blood.' Sadly, he remembered informing Gojyo of the fact, before he took his leave of the half - breed's house years back, that his eyes and hair had reminded him of blood; and that whenever he had tried to forget, Gojyo was his reminder. He also told him that the crimson staining his hands was the only thing that binded him to the real world. But it was the color - red: frobidden intercourse between youkai and human; it was a taboo. And Gojyo's hair and eyes reminded himself of the unbelievable angst he had experienced as a child and teenager. Red was the color of blood. But now, as Hakkai stared into Gojyo's eyes, they really did look like blood: the normally burning red eyes that Gojyo possessed were transformed from the tears, and the moisture shone over his iris, creating the bloody look.
It was then that Hakkai got to wonder: 'His eyes are so crimson. Has he ever cried blood?'
Gojyo blinked. The tear rolled down his cheek, leaving the tanned skin with a glossy look in the tear's wake. It was clear.
'I suppose not...,' Hakkai contemplated.
"Hakkai?" Gojyo inquired softly, almost shyly as he tightened his grip the most unnoticable bit.
"Gojyo?"
"You look so beautiful. What are you thinking about?"
Hakkai hesitated to speak his true feelings as to what he had been contemplating over the last few minutes, seeing as Gojyo was so saddenned when he had told him about his hair and eyes so far back, but then decided so speak, "I was thinking about your eyes, Gojyo."
Impossible was possible right then as Gojyo's eyes became even glassier, the tears flowing freely, almost instantly after Hakkai's words, without a blink or movement of them. Averting them would cost him the reason, but leaving them fixed where they were would cause more pain. "Why?" He chose the pain.
"Remember that I told you that they reminded me of blood?"
"Yeah," his tone was choked.
"I've been wanting to say this for a while now but that isn't all that they remind me of now. You know, they have a sparkle in them like someone could have sprinkled glitter unto them... but that is a definite understatement. I really do love the way that the sun glints off of your iris when you open your eyes from napping in the back of Jiipu; and when you get the thought of playing a prank on Goku, you always have this lovely, and at the same time, hilarious twinkle that doesn't really fade until Goku is in agony from your joke or you're beating up on each other. Not to mention when Sanzo fires his gun or hits your with his fan, your eyes grow to the size of billiard balls either from shock or from pain. Like I said just a minute ago: those were the understatements."
"Hakkai...," Gojyo murmured. How in the world could Hakkai come up with such a phenomenal description on the spur of the moment? Memory served the red - haired man correct, however, in reinforming him that the brunette in his arms used to be a teacher. Maybe he should begin to call him the living dictionary; he was the smartest person he had ever met.
The scarlet - eyed man wanted to lean down to kiss the man in front of him. A "good morning" kiss or something to help clear the pain - of which he was not sure. But as he just began to move his lips toward Hakkai's, the brunette slowly untangled himself from Gojyo's grasp and reminded him, "Well, shall we go then? Perhaps if we got back today, Sanzo would not have such a fit."
Gojyo nodded and wiped away the tears with his white wife - beater before he pulled the loose material over his chest, followed by the azure denim vest.
"Damn, it's pretty hot," Gojyo muttered from the passenger's seat as they drove across the solitude, the sun beating down on them with no mercy of any kind. Since Sanzo and Goku weren't there at the moment, he decided to see the view from the spot next to Hakkai. "I'm no Goku but it's actually worth complaining about!"
"Well, at least Sanzo is not here to slap you over the head," Hakkai joked, his shoulders shook with laughter.
"Damn right."
"Do you remember," Hakkai started, "when we picked up that youkai woman in the desert and she wanted to be taken to the city we were headed toward?"
"You mean when you just drove right off of the cliff and we sped down the side?"
"Yes! And then we finally crashed into the ground and you said something like, 'Hakkai! You bastard!'"
"Yeah, well, I didn't mean that literally." [2]
"No, it's okay. See, what really made me laugh was when Sanzo... threw his fan at you!" Hakkai began to laugh as he continued to speak. "He threw it at you and then you said, 'Hey! You're supposed to hit people with that thing, not throw it!'"
"Aw, shit, yeah! I'm surprised he didn't say somethin' like, 'Don't tell me how to do my job.'" They both shared a good laugh as they drove on, the situation concerning the unbearable heat was suddenly forgotten as they continued on. "Hakkai?"
"Yes?"
"You're a smart dude, so tell me: How come it takes so much longer to get somewhere but it seems shorter when you come back?"
"Well, Gojyo, just because I used to be a teacher doesn't make me a genius."
"You're smarter than me, so tell me!" Gojyo beamed.
"Gojyo!"
"Hey! It's the truth."
"Well, I really have no idea but it seems to me like it's an issue with patience. If you desire to reach a place, it's like reversing the saying, 'Time flies when you're having fun'. Sort of like if you can't stop thinking about the town or such that you want to reach. Then, I guess when you're coming back, you don't seem as eager to get back to where you origionally started. Understand?"
"I... think so."
"Ah, I don't really understand it myself."
I can remember
So far back
When I would laugh
Without a care in the world
You were beside me
And we drove all night....
The way your hair blows in the wind makes me shiver
The way your eyes shimer with sunlight makes me want to embrace you
The wind dries your lips and you lick them
It makes me want to kiss you
I'm sorry for what happened back then
I couldn't do anything to help you
I fell to pieces like you had to
Twice
Thrice
Too many times to count
The way your hair blows in the wind makes me shiver
The way your eyes shimer with sunlight makes me want to embrace you
The wind dries your lips and you lick them
It makes me want to kiss you
It makes me want to kiss you:
Hard
Passionate
Lovingly
I love you
You trip
And I will catch you
"Ne! Hakkai!" Goku exclaimed from the hotel window, leaning out far enough to nearly fall out. "Gojyo!"
"Hello, Goku!" Hakkai waved from the ground, two stories away from the excited teenager.
"Where in the world were you guys!?"
Gojyo took a step forward and smirked, "I got sick and got put in another town's hospital. Hakkai was worried so he sent me a living 'get well' card."
"Wha--?"
Hakkai blushed and motioned for Hakuryu to land on his shoulder, the little dragon having just transformed from his jeep form in a flash of white light.
"So," Sanzo began one morning, in his usual seat at the breakfast table across from the brunette, "what happened?"
"What do you mean by that, Sanzo?"
"Hell, looks like he did something to you."
"What!? What do you mean!?" Hakkai exclaimed, taken aback with coffee pot in hand.
"Nevermind. It's just that sometimes I think you really have something for that guy."
"Sanzo, remember, Gojyo and I are just friends. Besides, he's a player. Erm... remember? You and I both know how much he loves women. Besides, you know he'd never go for me even if, hypothetically, I did like him; although I admit, I am heterosexual, as 'normal' people usually are."
"My bad. You blush a lot around him, though. Gets noticed after the first ten times, Hakkai." Sanzo turned the page to yesterday's newspaper.
"Sanzo, didn't you ask me about this before?"
"Yeah, and you stated you were heterosexual three times in the last conversation about Gojyo."
"Just... stating the obvious."
"It is obvious."
"Of course it is."
"That depends.... You talking about Gojyo?"
"Sanzo!"
"Ne, Gojyo!"
"What?"
"Ah, you like Hakkai!"
"What!?" Gojyo let a harsh blow come into contact with the back of Goku's head with no mercy.
"Owa~! Gojyo! That hurt!"
"I'm glad," Gojyo grinned.
"Why'd you do that!?"
"God, just keep outta other people's business, will ya?"
"Then...," Goku's eyes widened as he pointed an accusing finger at the half - breed, "You DO like him!"
"Damn it all, bakasaru, we're just friends! We'll always be friends! Damn!" "Ne, but you look at him all funny!"
"Funny?"
"Yeah, like, you look at him and you smile all goofy and you look sleepy once and one time I actually saw you blow him a kiss in the hall! And the Hakkai smiles and blushes."
"Goddammit, SHUT UP!" Gojyo let his boot come in contact with Goku's (near empty) cranium before pushing him to the floor and stomping on him once before showing some mercy and letting him stand [3].
"Ow... dizzy...." Goku rubbed his head and stumbled over in front of Gojyo. "You still like him."
"Ga - a - d! Do I have to kill you to get you to shut up!?"
"Aya - a - a - a! Sanzo he - e - e - e - elp!"
~End Chapter 4~
*To be continued*
Author Notes:
[1] The whole thing about how our bodies do things that we aren't aware of until the last moment has really caught my eye. I have had my B.F. tell me that I flush pale instead of blush. Yeah and she rocks back and forth and doesn't even know it until I tell her to stop, "It's bugging me!" I haven't blushed very much at all and I know that from other people telling me, you can't really feel it creeping onto your face but you get hot. Is that true?
[2] People today use the term "bastard" incorrectly, for the most part, today. Actually, I was feeling unclear of the actual meaning so, after watching the anime "BastarD!!", I go upstairs and pull out this huge 2 - inch dictionary and look up the word. Now I can correct people when they use it incorrectly or congradulate them when they use it right! (Bastard: an illegitimate child)
[3] Oh... my... God.... I actually got to see the first half of Gensomaden Saiyuki episode #23, and that one part before my DVD messed up was when Goku made this little sound and then you see Gojyo and they're both in this allyway. All that you see is Goku and Gojyo's leg beating the living shitfire out of him... over and over and over again. Crap, that was hilarious, despite the seriousness of the moment.
Well, please read chapter #5! Oh, and please, please review. God, I never thought I would have the sheer willpower to actually make this thing longer than three or four chapters, but obviously, this is going to be much, much longer! At least I have ONE REVIEWER.... Along with my friends, that's... three people that are encouraging me to keep going. Oh yeah... that's re - e - e - e - al nice. Ha ha.
Ja.