Original A/N: My darlings!

I don't know how this happened! The writer's block wouldn't go away for After Gateway then belubluebleu commented saying that Naruto was too cute and needed to be protected and this fic sprouted out of cold hard snow. I've been typing ever since.

Listen...it was supposed to be a one-shot... maybe a three-shot...I think I'm way past that. But I want to give it to you as a thank you for being patient with me with After Gateway.

I'm not one for tagging, it isn't really my thing, but I went ahead and tagged a couple of things, the concept of tags is actually new to me, so if there is anything that you feel should be tagged let me know. But please make sure to read the WARNINGS below before beginning this story but if you're anything like me, you're going to fucking love it...I hope...

Rating: Explicit/M, like holy shit you guys don't even know, I don't know what happened or how it happened but this is the filthiest thing I've ever written I think...but you'll have to wait a little more for the filth lol.

Warnings: Sexual situations that involve underage characters, but nothing happens at fifteen, technically, other than some exploration/research. In a fic that starts in high school, I would expect it but I know it's not everyone's cup of tea so read at your own risk. Later in the fic, all of the filthy things that have to do with sex will happen.

Sidenote: There is Gaa/Naru, Sasu/SaKu, Sasu/Ino, Sasu/everyone else technically he's a fuckboy ok...but you all know...you all know this is all about Sasu/Naru.

Disclaimer: Characters sadly don't belong to me, they belong to Masashi Kishimoto. I was so dissatisfied they couldn't be together in canon that I had to write them into alternate universes with more satisfying endings.

Unrequited, Is It?

Chapter 1: What's that Feeling?

"This is my little brother, Naruto, this is his first year of high school," Karin told the raven that trailed in behind her, I looked up from where I'd been taking my shoes off and stilled. The raven had midnight black hair, it was mid-length, and somehow the back stuck up and the front managed to frame his face, he was easily a head taller than me, he was muscled but not bulky and his clothes fell on him in all the right places.

"Sasuke Uchiha, nice to meet you" The raven gave me a small smile.

"Naruto, nice to meet you," I said softly, finding my voice.

What was that feeling?

I moved to take my backpack to my room, thinking that I was probably just nervous about meeting a new friend of Karin's, typically it was only Suigetsu and Juugo at the house, all her friends were good looking Suigetsu' had bleached his hair and dyed it a flashy silver, it fell to his chin, he had a sort of delicate face but I'd soon learned that was all a front, he had a mouth on him and was as much spitfire as Karin's, probably why they got along so well.

Then there was Juugo, all muscles and incredibly tall, easily over 6'6, his hair was a washed-off red, pretty much orange. The final addition to the crew was my sister Karin, she had gotten mom's bright red hair, and had a tiny waist she liked to show off by wearing crop tops. Something dad wasn't really a fan of.

They all saw me as a kid, didn't really take me seriously, and typically huddled conspiratorially in the living room most of the time.

He said his name was Sasuke right? It was only a couple of weeks since school had started, and he kept hearing about this new transfer student that had all the girls' panties in a twist, but I hadn't actually run across the school's new popular addition.

That is until Karin walked in with Sasuke in tow 5 minutes ago.

I paced around my room, he was good looking yes, I could acknowledge when a person was good-looking, what I couldn't understand was why it felt like someone had lit a match inside me when my eyes landed on him, he's a he.

Sasuke became a regular addition to Karin's group of friends, and they all kept arriving at the house after school every other day if not every day.

I was starting to lose it, every time the door opened I would look up waiting to see the raven trail in so I could steal a look. I wasn't imagining things, it was right there pooled in the pit of my stomach, a feeling of…attraction…the feeling I got with Sasuke was worse than the first time I met Sakura and I had thought she was the prettiest girl I had laid eyes on, with soft curves and bubblegum hair. Her attitude had proved to be a turn-off later on, but…if I felt like that around Sasuke, that meant I was attracted to him right? Even if he was a guy…

I went about making a sandwich for myself trying to settle the butterflies on my stomach when Karin's voice reached my ears "Can I have one?"

"Me too" Suigetsu called

"Me three!" Juugo followed and I looked up annoyed "You all have hands"

"Older sister, so I pull rank, get to it, baby bro" Karin called back without looking at me but Juugo looked up smiling kindly at me "We'll get you a Starbucks as thanks next time we come over"

I perked up at that, and went about making five sandwiches, when I walked over and placed the plate in front of Sasuke he looked back up at me and I could feel the blood traveling to my face "I know you didn't ask for one, but it felt kind of rude not to" I said softly.

Then he did the one thing that made me think I was going to throw up butterflies, he smiled "Thanks"

Completely panicking I grabbed my own sandwich and scurried up to my room. I sat on my bed and left my food forgotten on the desk in my room as my hands fell on my crotch.

I'd gotten…just looking at him…what was happening?

As embarrassing as it was after I'd ended up in my room multiple times, completely flustered at being turned on by an accidental brushing of skin on skin with Sasuke, or his newfound habit of ruffling my hair, I turned my laptop on, opened an incognito window and typed in the web address for pornhub, made sure my headphones were connected to the Bluetooth like four times before I clicked on a video of a busty brunette completely getting railed.

There it was the heat in my belly and the slight tenting in my pants as the girls' moans rang through my ears. I bit my lip before I typed in gay and waited for the results to filter through. I didn't think I could feel more shame but I did. As my eyes fell to the titles and picked up words like bear, hunk, and twink…

I spotted a video Blonde Twink Prepared & Rammed, and felt the pit of my stomach open, as the cursor hovered over the video and showed a little preview. Not being able to help myself I clicked on the video and felt my mouth go dry as the bulky man with sandy short blonde hair squirted lube on his fingers, spread the other man's ass cheeks, and started prodding. By the time he stood and started pumping his erection, I felt my eyes widen at the size, there was no way that was going to fit.

But it did…and the blonde guy moaned into the pillow his face had been shoved into.

I didn't realize I let out small gasps as I watched, and as I looked down my pants weren't just tented, I was rock hard.

Well, fuck .

It was pretty obvious as Sasuke kept visiting that year that I had a big fat crush on him, well, I'd like to think I wasn't blushing teenage girl obvious, but I was quieter when he was around, and cherished being able to hang out with Karin and her friends before she asked me to scatter.

Given that I got plenty hard watching both gay and straight porn, I realized I wasn't just gay for Sasuke, or just gay for that matter, but he was definitely the object of my teenage hormone-induced sexual tension. It stung that he was older because I was still lanky and had a mop of blonde hair I couldn't control, but most of all because I was Karin's little brother…and probably would never be anything else to him.

Turns out…Sasuke also liked both.

I found this out one afternoon, as I came down the hall from my room, the hallway let out into the open space of the living room and kitchen. I ran into Karin who was walking over to her room. While mom and dad didn't mind her having mostly boyfriends instead of girlfriends, dad was pretty strict about the no boys in her room rule while they weren't home. Which is why she always sent me to my room. Joke was on them because I'd seen her making out heavily with Hidan at school, and I knew dad would hate Hidan, he was all rough around the edges and cussed like a sailor but she was happy, well looked happy and I pretended not to notice how she'd sneak him into her room in the afternoons, or even at night sometimes…

My personal opinion was that my sister was seventeen now, I think she could make her own decisions regarding her body, I had only teased her once about being careful and not giving me any nephews and she'd let out that mom was also in on it because she'd gotten her birth control after finding a condom on the trash can in her room. But they'd agreed not to tell dad for now because Karin was still his baby girl and would most likely lose it.

Point was, I thought when Karin made friends with Sasuke that they would end up involved, the thought always bugged me. Knowing that my sister could potentially date Sasuke or do anything else with him while I wanted it so badly always left me a wreck. I didn't know I could be more of a mess, but apparently, I could because as I finally turned towards the living room I stopped dead in my tracks at the sight of Suigetsu on top of Sasuke.

I took a step back, looked back to see Karin had gone into her room and closed the door, then peeked at the living room again, Sasuke was sitting on the couch and Suigesu had climbed on top of him, his knees on either side of the raven.

"I like our friendship the way it is," Sasuke said but his actions said otherwise as his hands fell on Suigetsu's hips pulling him closer. The silver-haired boy leaned down latching onto Sasuke's neck.

I was sick, why couldn't I take my eyes off the pair, why did I want to be in Suigetsu's place so badly…

"We'd still be friends, just with more perks" he lifted his pretty face to Sasuke "I'm not looking for a relationship, just some fun" Sasuke smirked as his hands shifted running through the silver locks of hair.

I gasped softly as his fingers tightened pulling at the hair a bit before he led Suigetsu down to his lips. I wanted to see, I wanted to keep watching, the way Sasuke's hands moved, the way he smirked, the way he bit Suigetsu's lower lip into his mouth…I wanted it…I wanted to feel that so badly. I turned and scampered back to my room.

Furiously pulling my pants down and taking care of myself, thinking that it was me he was touching, I barely managed to unload on a bunch of kleenexes when the knocking on my door started and I hurriedly pulled my blanket over my lower body.

Karin's head popped in "I went in my room to make a call and the guys left, did they tell you anything?" I shook my head and she shrugged.

I was so confused.

My mind kept conjuring up things Sasuke was probably doing to Suigetsu, the fantasy still turned me on, and I was left with a ball of frustration building on my chest because I didn't know if I should cry or jerk off again.

My whole freshmen year went by and I didn't know if Sasuke and Suigetsu were still friends with 'extra perks' but what was made perfectly clear to me was that Sasuke was a fuck boy. He had easily filtered through at least ⅓ of the pretty girl population in the Junior and Senior classes.

I didn't know what to do with my stupid crush, I would sit and wonder if it would be any better if he didn't spend so much time at my house, or if I could have done what Suigetsu did and propositioned him if I was only a year or two older…He didn't date any of the sophomore or freshman girls. I'd caught the end of that conversation once when all four of them were at the house, something about them being a little too young for him.

So apparently the only set of morals he had worked against me.

"What's wrong?" Kiba asked next to me, we hadn't had classes together before but we ended up in a lot of the same classes our freshman year and had grown super close. Now at least I could play video games in my room with Kiba when Karin and the crew were over, I could distract myself a little instead of just sitting on pins and needles lamenting the fact that I couldn't make out with Sasuke Uchiha.

"Nothing's wrong," I said as I looked up to see he'd completely beat me for the fourth time at Mario Kart

"Liar" He gave me a wolfish grin and I looked down embarrassed "You thinking about your platonic love once again?"

He asked playfully, Kiba had caught me staring, multiple times, and taken it in stride, didn't make a big deal out of it, and I loved him for it.

"It's their Senior year, I just…I wonder if I'll still get to see him after"

I felt like I knew him, from the conversations I got to eavesdrop on, to actual conversations we had when he came over to the house. Or when he'd walk over and help me make snacks for everyone when Karin sent me over. He didn't have to help, but after that first time with the sandwich he always did…and that always made my heart skip a beat.

He didn't make it easy for me because even though he was easily one of the coolest boys at school, if not the coolest, he didn't ignore me, if he saw me he always said hi and waved. If we were in close enough proximity he'd always ruffle my hair.

I let out a sigh and Kiba shook his head "You're incorrigible. I don't think I'm into dudes, but you're a pretty one you know, I can admit that, I've seen the way other people at school look at you" He dropped the remote and pulled me closer. I allowed my head to fall on his shoulder.

"Maybe try with someone, I mean even if it's just experimenting you know" I could feel him snickering as the blood rushed over to my face.

"Hey we ordered pizza if you two want to—" Sasuke stopped mid-sentence as he opened the door and spotted me leaning against Kiba, my face probably red as a tomato.

I straightened up and pulled a loose blonde hair behind my ear. I didn't have to be so flustered, we weren't doing anything…but I knew what it probably looked like…

"Hell yeah, food!" Kiba said as he stood completely unphased and walked by Sasuke over to the living room.

Sasuke stood there and I didn't know what to do as his eyes trailed over me and I felt shivers down my spine.

"I guess you're not a little kid anymore huh?" He muttered mostly to himself, as he turned.

"What's that supposed to mean? I was never a little kid, I was already fifteen when you met me" I said as I rushed behind him.

"Just let me know if he doesn't treat you right and I'll step right in," He said but there was no playful smirk, it was a little more forced than when we usually talked.

"It's not like that," I said embarrassed, I didn't know how to clarify, I didn't even know if I should…

He stopped and turned around, but this time around his eyes were a little softer "You know it's ok if it is right? That there's nothing wrong with you if you like him?" I should have been absolutely mortified, but all I could feel was warmth spread through me, I wanted to lean up and kiss him, thank him for caring enough to say that...

"Yes, I know" I answered softly, as his hand came up to muss my hair up a little "I know your sister is not the most emotionally available person, but you can always talk to me"

"Naruto! Come tell your dog friend he can't eat all the pizza!" Karin's voice rang through the hall.

I walked into the restroom shaking.

Sasuke Uchiha was dating Sakura Haruno

What happened to younger girls being too much trouble? What the fuck.

I took a couple of breaths, I knew there was nothing between us, I had already seen him kiss, and grope so many girls, and even some other guys aside from Suigetsu. I've been through this so many other times.

We weren't dating, we might never date. I had no valid reason to be this upset.

"Fuck" I wiped away at the unwelcome tears.

Karin was in her room changing, Sasuke was sitting on the couch, and I really wished he would stop staring. Suigetsu and Juugo hadn't arrived yet; I turned around and grabbed a glass before taking the sweet tea out of the fridge.

"Are you ok?" Sasuke's smooth voice cut through the tension.

I looked up and told the butterflies no, as I allowed an impassive look to settle on my face.

"Yeah"

"Did you fight with Kiba?" he asked as he stood up and walked over to lean against the kitchen counter.

"No," I said

"C'mon quiet and brooding isn't really your style, baby" I blushed, after the first year he'd started calling me baby, and it would be a turn-on if he hadn't started doing it because I was Karin's baby brother.

His hand came up to ruffle my hair "You're usually much more cheerful"

Maybe if you would stop fucking everyone around me, but me

I held my tongue as I slapped his hand away, his eyes widened slightly, and I stood frozen for a second, instantly feeling guilt, it wasn't his fault that I was jealous, he was just trying to be nice.

"Sorry," I said softly, as my eyes fell to the ground. To my utter surprise he grabbed my wrist and pulled me over and I felt the air get knocked out of me as he hugged me, like my body was flush against his and my face against his shoulder, I could smell him, I could feel his hands surrounding my waist.

"I don't know what's wrong, but it's going to be ok" just like that he was pulling back and it was over and I had to stop myself from reaching over to pull him back.

"You can't even stay up late, you're going to end up falling asleep" Karin told me as I walked over to the living room with my spiderman blanket.

"Am not" I pouted as she scrolled through prime video and selected the movie Hell House Inc.

"Kiba coming over?" Juugo asked from his spot on the floor, Karin and Hidan were taking up all the couch. She'd dropped the extra set of sheets from the closet on the floor and told us we could sit there if we wanted to watch.

"He's over at Hinata's," I said simply and everyone grew a little too quiet.

"What?" I asked confused.

"We were sure you two were dating," Karin said at last and I grew beet red "I've told you all a thousand times we are not"

"We were sure you were lying," Suigetsu said from where he was throwing multiple bags of chips into plastic bowls.

"But umm you do like boys right?" Karin said

"You're so embarrassing," I said as I rolled my eyes and plopped next to Sasuke.

"Sasuke you're fucking cold, when Karin told you, you couldn't come if you brought Sakura, I didn't think you'd show up"

Suigetsu said amused as he juggled the plastic bowls and handed Karin, Juugo, and Sasuke a bowl. I forgot about how fucking embarrassed I was and turned a little surprised towards Sasuke.

"Of course, he showed up, she's only good to him if he can get her in a room alone" Karin laughed from the couch.

"Bet she was a good fuck though" Suigetsu snickered as he took the other available seat next to Sasuke and I shifted closer unconsciously.

Sasuke rolled his eyes and scowled at Suigetsu "Not in front of baby"

I huffed "I know about sex, and I'm not a baby"

"You just called it sex, so you're still too young" Suigetsu laughed, I huffed

Juugo laughed "Guys don't forget Naru is already going to be seventeen later this year" I threw him an appreciative glance before glaring at everyone else.

"Can't wait for you all to stop calling me baby"

"Then stop acting like one," Karin said as she threw a chip my way I stuck my tongue out at her, and she gave me a smile in return before she snuggled up against Hidan.

The movie was ridiculously terrifying, and Sasuke was all too amused every time I shifted closer and covered my eyes with my blanket. I could barely believe it when we ended up sharing the blanket and I scooted so close his arm ended up around my waist making soothing motions every time I squeaked in fear.

My heart was beating so fast, that I thought it would jump out of my chest. I hated myself when my eyelids started fluttering close. I couldn't fall asleep, Sasuke was technically hugging me…I allowed my head to fall on his shoulder and despite the continuous 'motherfukers' and 'fuck' coming off everyone else, I fell asleep.

"I knew he wouldn't make it the whole movie" I heard Karin faintly

"No don't wake him up" I felt someone shift me around and I was closer to that woodsy smell I loved so much, I circled my arms around the source and rubbed my face against it. So good.

I felt the source of movement still for a bit, and I opened my eyes groggily, I realized Sasuke had been carrying me and was now lowering me down onto my bed.

"You're a dangerous little thing aren't you?" He murmured softly, my eyelids had closed again, I was surely dreaming still, right?

"Mmmm lay down" I mumbled

"I wish"

I wanted to bury myself alive the next day when Karin told me Sasuke had carried me to my bed. Had I asked him to lay down with me or had I dreamt that I asked him? He didn't mention anything the next time he came over so I assumed I must have thought I said it.

I must have also imagined the part where he called me a dangerous little thing, because why would he…right? Some wild fantasy in the back of my head coming to light.

As we neared the end of the year the party invitations started sprouting everywhere and after telling my parents I'd be seventeen later that year, and complaining that Karin was allowed out all the time to party they had said I could go, as long as Karin also went and we came back home together. It's not that I wasn't allowed to party before, but obviously, a lot of those parties had shifted to 18+ and 21+ activities as early as last year, and mom and dad had become a little warier.

"Be responsible you two" mom said as we both ran out the door and jumped into Juugo's car.

Honestly, I didn't even know whose house we were in, but it was loud and packed. I wandered away from Karin and found Kiba and Hinata soon enough. They were hanging out with Temari and Neji from Math class, but my eyes fell on the redhead, his eyes heavily lined. I couldn't tell if they were blue or green in the dim light but they were beautiful.

Kiba handed me a red cup, and I took a sip grimacing, that was three parts vodka, one part cranberry, so much for being responsible…but a drink or two wouldn't hurt, right?

"Naru's here!" Temari squealed as she moved over to hug me, she'd definitely had more than two cups already.

"Naruto this is my cousin Gaara, I thought it be good for him to come and socialize since he's moving to town"

I looked back at the redhead and smiled "Nice to meet you" His eyes rolled over me in a way that made me feel self-conscious and settled a blush on my face.

"Pleasure seems to be all mine," He said with a smile.

I had stuck to the two cups for the first two hours, but then I spotted Sasuke and Sakura when I'd gone off to look for the restroom. They were squeezed in a hallway groping each other, Sasuke thoroughly exploring the glossed lips.

I wanted that, I wanted it so badly, not a peck on the lips, but for someone to try and suck the life out of me, melt me. Preferably I wanted it from Sasuke but Kiba had been right, maybe anyone would do it at this point.

When I came back from the restroom I downed my next two cups in record time and then joined the rest of the crowd where they were dancing with my fifth cup.

"Bout time you got back baby," Kiba said and I scowled

Gaara raised an eyebrow "Baby?"

"Naruto's pet name" Temari snickered

I looked at Gaara flustered "Don't call me that"

"Oh right there's only one person that gets to call you that" Kiba winked and I pushed my shoulder against him "You're being a fucking bully"

"We are just teasing Naruto," Hinata said fondly

I didn't drink often, so the fifth cup had been a mistake, everything was a little too blurry.

"Hey, come here" I felt an arm slide around my waist and I looked to the side to see a mop of red hair. I looked back and noticed Kiba and Hinata grinding on each other and Temari leaning up to say something by Shika's ear. I scrunched my nose, everyone had someone.

I plopped down on a couch and frowned "but we're outside" Gaara must have seen I was looking at the couch like it had offended me and laughed.

"It's called outside furniture," He said "Stay here, I mean it, don't move" I let my body fully fall on the couch, honestly it's not like I could move, now that I was sitting I don't think I could.

I ended up closing my eyes but opened them as I felt cold on my forehead and opened my eyes to see Gaara was holding a cold water bottle to my forehead.

"I found you water," He said as he sat next to me and opened the bottle offering it to me. I tipped the contents through my lips. How had I not realized cold water was the most delicious thing in the entire universe?

"You should really watch out, someone might try and take advantage, baby " the water bottle was pretty much empty but my hands stilled as I blushed and my eyes centered on the handsome man.

"We just met you don't get to tease me like that" I mumbled.

"Well, you want to tell me the story behind that little nickname?"

I looked to the side "I really would rather not"

"You dating anyone?" I was a little taken back by the question.

"No"

"I guess that's good"

"Why?"

"If I was seeing you I'd be a little jealous that the norm was for other people to call you baby"

I bit my lower lip, letting the compliment wash over me, it was a compliment, right? His eyes fell on my lips and his eyes grew a little dark.

"Can I kiss you?" my eyes widened a bit, and I pressed my tights together trying to control the effect he was having on me.

"We just met"

"So?" Yeah, so? Wasn't I just wallowing in self-pity because I had no one to show me what being wanted felt like?

"Ok," I said softly, his eyes twinkled as he shifted closer "You can push me away if you change your mind" He muttered, his face inches away from mine.

Then his lips were on mine, he tasted like cranberry and vodka, and I squeaked a little when his tongue first slipped inside, and I made a noise in the back of my throat that had me pushing him off a bit and bringing my hand up to cover my mouth.

But he was smiling "Don't be embarrassed, that only means I'm doing good" He said as he leaned back down but this time his lips landed on my neck and I gasped, he nibbled his way up and every single little soft kiss gave me goosebumps.

Then his lips were back on mine and his body was towering over mine, and all I could think about was like 'wow' so that's what it felt like.

He stopped and I opened my eyes to ask why and noticed it was more like he was pulled away, Sasuke had him by the arm and was throwing daggers at him, looking between Gaara and me.

"What's your problem?" Gaara asked as he shook his hand off Sasuke's hold. But Sasuke paid him no mind as he looked at me "Naruto are you drunk?"

"No" I huffed, lying.

But he reached over and grabbed my hand nudging me to get up, which I was able to do only after stumbling a couple of times.

"I'm driving you home"

"I don't want to leave yet," I said as I pulled away from him "And I'm supposed to head back with Karin"

"Then we'll go get you more water and wait for the alcohol to get out of your system a little more"

"Don't you have anything better to do than to cockblock me?" I said as I shook my hand from his again "Like make out with Sakura or something"

He let out a small growl and pulled my hand again, his other hand falling on my chin and gripping it, lifting my face so I could look at those deep black orbs "I'm not going to let anyone else touch you while you're drunk, even if you get pissed off at me, is that clear?"

I nodded my head, fuck why did he have to be like this? Didn't he understand that even if he was just trying to be friendly that's not at all how I perceived it?

I guess he didn't because I was a fucking coward and couldn't get myself to tell him how I felt.

So...how do you like it so far?

The wonderful news is I don't intend to keep you waiting, I'll be posting as I spell check and edit, so you might get the second chapter tomorrow, and I'll keep doing the same until I post everything I have. Honestly, I'm hoping to finish writing it today, I could have finished it yesterday but like always the plot bunnies were like but wait! There's more!

Can't wait to hear your feedback!

Much love, Chio~