Well, I finally decided to write another chapter. Sorry it took so long! I've had a lot of home work lately, and I have like no free time, so these chapters, for all of my fics, will becoming like maybe every weekend or every other weekend. Thanks so much for reviewing! They mean a lot to me! I hope I don't disappoint any of you!

Disclaimer: I don't own Hiei or Kurama…but I do own a cute little duckie named Phil who brings me all my e-mails!

Chapter 2
Don't You Understand?

The raging wind howled and shook the tree's outside, causing some to loose a few of their weaker branches. In the distance thunder could be heard, and with a loud CRACK, a streak of lightning lit up the sky. Kurama lifted his crimson head at the sound. Realizing it was only the storm, he sighed and returned to his math homework. He shuttered as the tree branches scraped against his bed room window. 'Boy, I'd hate to be out on a night like this..' he thought, turning to look out at the storm. Once again, the lightning crashed, and for a moment, Kurama thought he saw two intense ruby eyes staring back at him. 'Hiei?'

He blinked, and they were gone. Aggravated, he shut his text book, and threw it to the side. "This is ridicules…I can't concentrate.." he muttered, lifting him self from his desk, and walked over to his bed. He climbed in, and turned on his reading light. He picked up his book so he could read for a while, but he thought better of it, and turned off his light, waiting for sleep to claim him.

He turned on his side, so he could look out his window. He stared at it expectantly, waiting, no...Hoping to see the lithe form of his friend knocking to be let in. Whenever it rained, or the weather was cold, Hiei came to spend the night with him. 'Hiei…' the short, fiery demon that Kurama was lucky enough to call his team mate, ally, and best friend. Hiei, the arrogant, sword wielding Jaganshi who was feared and hated by many. Hiei, the one person who was able to make Yoko Kurama, the infamous Makai thief, fall head over heels in love. Yes, Kurama was in love with him. From the moment the two of them met, he knew he liked him.

At first, he was perfectly content with being Hiei's friend, but over time he had grown to love the little demon so much that it hurt. Everyone seemed to notice the change in Kurama; his mother and friends were very concerned. Shiori Minamino was constantly asking her son how he felt. Lately he had been eating less. He drifted in and out of day dreams, not really noticing what was going on around him. He stared off in to the distance, a far away look in his eyes.

Kurama didn't mean to worry his mother, but he couldn't help how he was feeling. He couldn't talk to any one either, because no one would understand. He could picture talking to his mother about Hiei and his love for him; "Hello mother! Yes, I'm fine, I'm just in love with my best friend, who just so happens to also be a guy! Have I mentioned that I am a fox spirit whose real name is Yoko Kurama, and I work for a royal baby named Koenma with my friends Yusuke, Kuwabara, and Hiei? Yes, you've met Hiei before. He is the little boy you found talking to me in my room the other day! No mom, I'm not gay, I just believe that me and Hiei are soul mates, and we belong together." Kurama laughed slightly at this thought. He felt guilty about lying to his mom all the time….but he just couldn't tell her…not yet, at least.

A single tear slid down Kurama's face as he lay there. Ever since the Ankoko Bujutsukai ended, Kurama had felt miserable. He had made a horrible mistake that week, and he couldn't forget about it. After they beat Toguro, they were all hurt pretty badly. Before he had a chance to Leave, Kurama asked Hiei if he would like to stay with him for a while, instead of going back to the Makai in such a vulnerable state. Hiei had hastily declined the offer, and left with out so much as a good bye. And none of them had seen him since.

He had scared him away. He had hoped so much that Hiei would come with him…he was so worried about all the wounds he had received while fighting Bui. If they were never treated properly, Hiei could be in serious trouble! Kurama couldn't bare the thought of Hiei being outside in this storm. Cold. Alone. Wounded. The tears came faster.

It would be his entire fault if Hiei died because his injuries were never treated. Why had he made that request? Why? Hiei never liked being around people for long periods of time. Had he seriously thought that he would consider living with him in the Ningenkai? Hiei hated ningens!

He hated the fact that Kurama was living with one, as one. He always criticized him, saying that living with these humans had made him weak. Hiei hated the weak.

Kurama tried to stifle his sobbing with his pillow, as not to wake his mother up. 'Is that it Hiei? You hate me? You hate me because you think living with these humans has made me weak and vulnerable? Is that why you haven't come back? You…hate me?' Kurama gave up trying to suppress his tears. They flowed freely now, causing his face to shine in the light of the pale moon that could now be seen. 'Hiei….don't you understand how I feel about you? All the signs I've sent out? I know you've noticed them…..You've been looking at me differently lately. I've caught you staring at me several times. But each time your scarlet eyes show not the feelings of some one who is in love. No. you emotionless eyes show that you are angry. Confused. Afraid? Are you afraid to find out what it means to be happy? Don't you want to fall in love? Hiei…cant you see?...I love you'

He couldn't take this. Living every day in misery, knowing you can't have the one thing you want more than any thing in the world. Knowing you are in love, but they are too dense to realize it.

Whoever said being in love was easy, lied. Being in love is hard. Sometimes, if you are fortunate enough, you fall in love with someone who returns your feelings. Other times, you find your self hopelessly devoted to some one who couldn't care less whether you lived or died.

Kurama sat up, and rubbed his eyes. "Hiei doesn't love me.." he whispered sadly. The truth hurts. 'Hiei doesn't love me.' his world was crashing to a halt. 'Hiei doesn't love me.' Time seemed to stand still. 'Hiei doesn't love me…..and there is nothing I can do to change that….'

With out getting dressed, Kurama slipped on his jacket, and a pair of shoes. He quietly walked down stairs, and out the front door. 'I can't think straight….I need to breathe….' Ignoring the fact that it was still raining pretty hard, Kurama shoved his hands in his pockets, and walked down the street, his heart searching for a way to forget the one thing that could cause him to feel so many things at once.

Next chapter coming soon! I hope you're all enjoying this!

-misery loves me