I always remember that since I was in kindergarten I was never someone to reach a friendship that lasted more than a year. I did not abandon them. Now being older and in a more adolescent class, it was almost the same thing happening. The difference is that no one approached me to speak, nor did I approach them.

I am a very introverted person. I seem quiet, but I am the most talkative person in the world. The thing is, it's not with the outsiders, but with the insiders. I mean, the people who live with me. I make jokes, I get angry, I laugh, I sing, I dance, anything that a sociable person would do.

I'm afraid of doing that outside.

The class now was math. Despite the fact that math was not to my liking, I got very good marks at it. It is something that I find difficult to understand. The teacher explains the subject badly and even so, on some occasions, I manage to surpass the most intelligent of the class. They classified me as a copycat.

In a test I accused one of my colleagues for copying my work. They did not take long to take him to the address. After that they cataloged me as the teacher's pet.

Many times I do not understand my classmates.

Walk through the halls of the school, it was recess time. I ate some chips that my mom bought me. I was supposed to eat the apple first at recess. The chips was the first thing I took out of my backpack, I told myself that in the second recess I would eat the apple.

When I got to the pews, I sat and watched the children play and the children forming groups with each other to talk about current issues. My gaze then fell to the ground, embarrassed to be sitting on an empty bench. I closed my eyes and got into the imaginary world that I formed.

My imaginary world is not unique. I just took things that I had seen during my childhood and formed them in my mind so that I could have a good time doing what I want. I share this world with myself, with a voice that I believe myself and speaks to me at times.

I called him Alex

Alex is me, the different thing is that he is more direct. His tongue is loose and he says whatever he wants regardless of the consequences. He tells me that people today are offended by everything and he doesn't care if it offends them, he wants to be the same.

I never tested his thinking.

I didn't realize when my chips were taken from my hands. As I looked straight ahead, my gaze came upon the boy whom I had accused. Since that day I accused him, he has gripped an irrational hatred for me. Once he yelled a rude thing to me that I don't remember. Turn down the street and let him fight his own problems.

My face did not change, the boy named Albert moved my chips from one side to the other.

"Oh? These were your chips?"

Yes, they are our chips. They were in our hands for something.

"Oh! I'm sorry! Look, let me fix my mistake!"

My chips were stepped on the ground. The boy began to laugh as if it were not tomorrow. The children were now watching this whole show. I wanted to get out of here. I got up from the bench and decided to walk to the bathroom. The boy was not finished with me yet and he grabbed me by the neck of my t-shirt.

"Hey! Don't run away!"

I looked at him waiting for him to continue. My hands became fists every minute this idiot spoke every word.

"You really think you're much more than pleasing the teacher? I knew you were a dirty pet! Are you going to bark at her and ask her to feed you?" He laughed at the end. For some reason, a small laugh escaped me.

The boy looked at me again, now all furious.

"What are you laughing at?!"

"... Nothing"

"Don't lie! Idiot, you dare to make fun of me-"

"Leave her alone! She has done nothing wrong!"

And there comes a group of friends to defend the needy. A pink haired girl separated us and put a barrier between the two of us. Other children joined being one with brown hair and had it made of some standing wood. One with a basketball. A boy with blond hair. A girl with black hair and finally a boy with black hair.

They got into an argument with Albert, which he poorly tried to justify. The girl with black hair began to ask me if I was okay, with her was the boy with black hair. The others were with Andres.

Mari, smart girl in my class. Endowed with the piano and with a very respectable status. She was much loved among her peers for her sweet attitude. She has tried many times to get me to join her small group of friends. I have rejected it.

"Come. Do you want to go somewhere?"

I looked at Mari. She waited for my answer like she always does. It would be very rude of me not to tell her anything. She waited several times for many answers from me and I slip away each one. Alex has been disappointed in me for it.

"...No, thank you very much"

I could see her expression change to a happy one. There, you have your answer, I do not remember how many times I have always escaped from it. Now I got bored of running away all the time and I only answered her so that she could calm down and not feel bad about myself.

She doesn't care if I told her no, she only cares about the fact that I spoke to her.

Look at who was next to me. Sunny, quiet boy but equally respected as his sister. Violin prodigy and together with Mari they create a great duo beating several violinists and pianists. I must admit they are good. Despite his quiet nature, he has made several friends. He even got the sweetness of Brasil, boy who sits next to me in all classes.

I have noticed him looking at me in the distance. Every time I sit down and I do something that in solitary, Sunny was always watching me. Every move. His gaze often made me go to the other side of the school. I was beginning to irritate and inwardly wished I had the courage to ask him what his problem is or what is going on.

But I didn't have it. And now, he looked at me like those times, now in front of me.

"If you want to join us. You can do it at any time! We will always wait for you with open arms!"

The others in the group were still arguing with Albert. The boy is really a lot of fight. When I turned my gaze to Mari, I could see how she was still standing there. Sunny still couldn't stop looking at me.

And again, you run away.

I turned my back on them. I felt how Mari sighed. I felt how Sunny had his gaze on me. Everything bothered me now. Now I was upset. I went to the women's bathroom and was grateful that no one was there. I got into one and stared at the door of it. I didn't do anything until recess was over.