Neville woke up the next day feeling worse then he had when he went to
sleep, physically he felt fine, but mentally and emotionally he ached. His
heart ached when he woke up all alone; he had hoped maybe Harry would have
stayed. Neville had so many questions, but none he would ask.
Neville got showered and changed, glade that he had gone to sleep so early,
he liked getting up early and showering alone. He felt uncomfortable
showering with other people in the room.
By the time Neville had finished his shower, the other boys had begun to
wake up. Neville did not look at Harry; who was the only one who actually
looked awake besides himself.
Neville grabbed his bag and left for the great hall; even though he knew he
wasn't going to be able to eat anything. He was going to avoid Harry all
day, hopefully that wouldn't be too hard.
***
Harry woke up at least fifteen minutes before Neville; Harry just looked longingly at the other boy. Thoughts flitted through his head, barely registering with his brain. Harry felt so hollow. Had he been to bold yesterday? Did Neville know how he felt? Would he tell everyone? Harry hoped not. Harry wanted to cry, but after years of living with uncle Vernon he knew that crying didn't solve anything. When Neville started to wake up Harry pretended to be asleep, he wasn't ready to deal with last night's events just yet. Harry lay in bed pretending to be asleep until he heard the bathroom door shut, Harry listened to the sound of the shower and pictured Neville in there, Naked, right now. Harry was tempted to go look, but he didn't. Harry may be brave in the face of Voldemort, but in the face of the boy he loved, he was a coward. Harry stopped himself from listening to the shower and picturing such things about Neville, he had classes to go to and his roommates would be awake soon, now was not the time to let himself get hard. Neville got out of the shower and refused to look at Harry, this made Harry feel horrible. Harry was going to have a horrible day.
***
Harry and Neville avoided each other all day. It wasn't that hard really, considering they never really hung out, Neville was a loner and Harry hung out with Ron and Hermione; Neville avoided working with Hermione today because of this fact. It was slightly harder for them after class though. It was December 22nd so neither went outside; also they were both in the same house, so they both ended up in Gryffindor common room. Neville sat in the corner as he did the last night; meanwhile Harry sat on the other side of the room with Ron and Hermione. Unfortunately Hermione saw Neville and dragged both Ron and Harry over to go ask Neville what's wrong. Hermione kneeled down and put her and on Neville's shoulder. "What's wrong Neville?" She asked softly. "Please go away." He replied sounding a bit pleading. He wrapped his arms around his knees. He felt childish for doing so, but he was scared; very scared. "Why do you want us to go away Neville? What's wrong?" Hermione repeated her last question. She was very persistent, she wanted an answer. "Yeah Nev, What's wrong?" Ron asked smiling a goofy smile and kneeling down too, hoping to make Neville feel a bit better. Harry was still standing, he looked at Neville with sad eyes, hurt eyes, and he knew he should just go away, because he was just making this worse for Neville. Harry knew he should go away, but he couldn't, he missed being close to Neville, missed looking at him, and missed touching him. Harry felt so bad for causing Neville pain; he wished he could go back and change what he did. Neville looked up, he didn't answer Ron or Hermione, he just looked at Harry, who was looking hurt. "Why does he look hurt?" Neville wondered. "What does he have to feel hurt about!? He doesn't get treated like a little kid! They treat him like a god!" Neville thought more angrily. Harry saw anger in Neville's eyes, he felt horrible, because Neville hated him for what he did. Harry left and walked up the stairs to the dorm, he promptly went to his bed, closed the hangings, cast a silencing charm on them, and proceeded to cry himself to sleep for the second night in a row.
***
Harry woke up at least fifteen minutes before Neville; Harry just looked longingly at the other boy. Thoughts flitted through his head, barely registering with his brain. Harry felt so hollow. Had he been to bold yesterday? Did Neville know how he felt? Would he tell everyone? Harry hoped not. Harry wanted to cry, but after years of living with uncle Vernon he knew that crying didn't solve anything. When Neville started to wake up Harry pretended to be asleep, he wasn't ready to deal with last night's events just yet. Harry lay in bed pretending to be asleep until he heard the bathroom door shut, Harry listened to the sound of the shower and pictured Neville in there, Naked, right now. Harry was tempted to go look, but he didn't. Harry may be brave in the face of Voldemort, but in the face of the boy he loved, he was a coward. Harry stopped himself from listening to the shower and picturing such things about Neville, he had classes to go to and his roommates would be awake soon, now was not the time to let himself get hard. Neville got out of the shower and refused to look at Harry, this made Harry feel horrible. Harry was going to have a horrible day.
***
Harry and Neville avoided each other all day. It wasn't that hard really, considering they never really hung out, Neville was a loner and Harry hung out with Ron and Hermione; Neville avoided working with Hermione today because of this fact. It was slightly harder for them after class though. It was December 22nd so neither went outside; also they were both in the same house, so they both ended up in Gryffindor common room. Neville sat in the corner as he did the last night; meanwhile Harry sat on the other side of the room with Ron and Hermione. Unfortunately Hermione saw Neville and dragged both Ron and Harry over to go ask Neville what's wrong. Hermione kneeled down and put her and on Neville's shoulder. "What's wrong Neville?" She asked softly. "Please go away." He replied sounding a bit pleading. He wrapped his arms around his knees. He felt childish for doing so, but he was scared; very scared. "Why do you want us to go away Neville? What's wrong?" Hermione repeated her last question. She was very persistent, she wanted an answer. "Yeah Nev, What's wrong?" Ron asked smiling a goofy smile and kneeling down too, hoping to make Neville feel a bit better. Harry was still standing, he looked at Neville with sad eyes, hurt eyes, and he knew he should just go away, because he was just making this worse for Neville. Harry knew he should go away, but he couldn't, he missed being close to Neville, missed looking at him, and missed touching him. Harry felt so bad for causing Neville pain; he wished he could go back and change what he did. Neville looked up, he didn't answer Ron or Hermione, he just looked at Harry, who was looking hurt. "Why does he look hurt?" Neville wondered. "What does he have to feel hurt about!? He doesn't get treated like a little kid! They treat him like a god!" Neville thought more angrily. Harry saw anger in Neville's eyes, he felt horrible, because Neville hated him for what he did. Harry left and walked up the stairs to the dorm, he promptly went to his bed, closed the hangings, cast a silencing charm on them, and proceeded to cry himself to sleep for the second night in a row.