I don't own Degrassi. Everyone else is my property.
Day Six
Craig woke up with dread in his stomach. He had a bad feeling about what would happen when he saw Dr. Allen. He didn't want to talk about his family, he just didn't. And he didn't understand what bringing that up would have to do with his going home.
He picked at his food all though breakfast, just sat around in group and halfheartedly played the game in group rec. It was going to be a bad day, he could feel it in his bones.
He could feel dread filling him as he walked to the offices after lunch. Dr. Allen started the session with "Tell me about your mother."
"She was great. Wonderful. Amazing. I hated it so much when she left me...but she did what she had to do...and I wish she was still alive."
"And your father?"
"I don't want to think about him, talk about him, be him." The last two words slipped out of Craig without thinking.
"Do you think you're like him?"
Craig shuddered "I Hope not. He was an ass. He Hurt me, he wasn't any of a man, and not much of a father."
"but he's your father. You share DNA. You lived with him for years."
"That doesn't mean I want to be like him."
"You say you don't want to. Does that mean you are afraid you are going to become like him someday?"
"Maybe...I Don't know. Can we talk about something else?"
"OK, what about women."
"I don't have a girlfriend right now. I did, but I cheated on her, and that ruined things."
"Why did you cheat on her?"
"I was tempted, I don't know" Craig looked down at his hands. "Why do you ask me these questions?"
"So you can understand yourself better, Craig. If you understand yourself you won't want to hurt yourself."
"I don't want to hurt myself Damnit! Dr. Allen, why do I have to deal with this stuff. I Don't want to talk about my father!"
"Why not?" Dr. Allen was calm, as if he dealt with this every day. "Craig, if you don't deal with your past you won't have a future."
"I just..." Craig would not cry. He refused to. He hadn't cried at all since his father died. "I can't do this now."
"you have to before you leave. You say you want to leave-well, the only way out is through."
Craig looked at Dr. Allen. "I Don't want to be my father, but I cheated on my girlfriend like he cheated on Mom. So what if I am going to be him? IS that what you want me to tell you?" He was raging now, angry at Dr Allen, his father, the world. "I'm going now."
"I'll see you tomorrow, Craig."
"Its not like I have a choice." Craig said, storming out.
He sat around the rest of the day, not talking to anyone until Allegra came into his room after dinner.
"Scream at me until my ears bleed I'm taking heed just for you" She smiled at him, then.
"Not...I don't want to talk tonight..maybe tomorrow, OK?" She nodded and left as quietly as she came.
Craig laid down and tried to sleep, scared what tomorrow would bring, after what he'd said that day about his father. The memories he tried to forget every day growing in his head. He did not sleep well.
Song used: Green Day "She"
Day Six
Craig woke up with dread in his stomach. He had a bad feeling about what would happen when he saw Dr. Allen. He didn't want to talk about his family, he just didn't. And he didn't understand what bringing that up would have to do with his going home.
He picked at his food all though breakfast, just sat around in group and halfheartedly played the game in group rec. It was going to be a bad day, he could feel it in his bones.
He could feel dread filling him as he walked to the offices after lunch. Dr. Allen started the session with "Tell me about your mother."
"She was great. Wonderful. Amazing. I hated it so much when she left me...but she did what she had to do...and I wish she was still alive."
"And your father?"
"I don't want to think about him, talk about him, be him." The last two words slipped out of Craig without thinking.
"Do you think you're like him?"
Craig shuddered "I Hope not. He was an ass. He Hurt me, he wasn't any of a man, and not much of a father."
"but he's your father. You share DNA. You lived with him for years."
"That doesn't mean I want to be like him."
"You say you don't want to. Does that mean you are afraid you are going to become like him someday?"
"Maybe...I Don't know. Can we talk about something else?"
"OK, what about women."
"I don't have a girlfriend right now. I did, but I cheated on her, and that ruined things."
"Why did you cheat on her?"
"I was tempted, I don't know" Craig looked down at his hands. "Why do you ask me these questions?"
"So you can understand yourself better, Craig. If you understand yourself you won't want to hurt yourself."
"I don't want to hurt myself Damnit! Dr. Allen, why do I have to deal with this stuff. I Don't want to talk about my father!"
"Why not?" Dr. Allen was calm, as if he dealt with this every day. "Craig, if you don't deal with your past you won't have a future."
"I just..." Craig would not cry. He refused to. He hadn't cried at all since his father died. "I can't do this now."
"you have to before you leave. You say you want to leave-well, the only way out is through."
Craig looked at Dr. Allen. "I Don't want to be my father, but I cheated on my girlfriend like he cheated on Mom. So what if I am going to be him? IS that what you want me to tell you?" He was raging now, angry at Dr Allen, his father, the world. "I'm going now."
"I'll see you tomorrow, Craig."
"Its not like I have a choice." Craig said, storming out.
He sat around the rest of the day, not talking to anyone until Allegra came into his room after dinner.
"Scream at me until my ears bleed I'm taking heed just for you" She smiled at him, then.
"Not...I don't want to talk tonight..maybe tomorrow, OK?" She nodded and left as quietly as she came.
Craig laid down and tried to sleep, scared what tomorrow would bring, after what he'd said that day about his father. The memories he tried to forget every day growing in his head. He did not sleep well.
Song used: Green Day "She"