"Look What I've Done to Her"
Mic's POV
I saw it in her eyes
When I was sayin goodbye
That girl, she aint gonna be alright
Cuz I could tell
She'd be goin thru a livin hell
And I
I wouldnt be there by her side
Lord I felt so bad
As I sat and watched her cry
Thinkin I was movin on
And she was barely gettin by
I will never forget the look on her face when I told her I was leaving. It was the look of pain, agony, and hurt all mixed into one sad face! But it had to be done. I knew she didn't love me, she loved him. And if I had to hurt her to make her see that, than I would do that.
Look at what I've done to her
Look at how I made her feel
I gave back her heart
The broken parts
She got the raw end of the deal
And look at whats its done to me
Gotta know it tears me up
I gave it everything I had
And Lord it wasnt enough
Hurtin her like this seems so wrong
Look at what I've done to her
Now shes alone
God-it hurt so much. It still does, just not as much. I got over it about 2 months ago. But it wasn't easy. I compared everyone I went out with to her. Measured them up, and they all fell short. But then I realized that I would never have her back, so I decided to move on.
But I do feel good about one thing. I didn't leave her alone. She may have felt alone but she was nowhere near it. She had him. He would come to the rescue and be her knight in shining armor. That's what she needed and that is what she would get.
I saw her out last night
she was havin a good time
That girl
It looks like she doin fine
But then I saw a man
Walk up and take her by the hand
And I, oh God I almost died
And then it hit me
she didnt really need me
I just sat there for a while
Until i finally smiled
I knew they would finally end up together. I knew it would happen. I knew they would be the best couple together. I knew that everyone would say they are so adorable together. I knew that whenever they got together, two angels in heaven would whisper the word 'perfect.'
I knew it, and yet it hurt so much when I saw them together. I watched as he walked over to the table, and how her eyes lit up. How he asked her to dance, and of course she said yes. I saw the rock on her finger sparkle under the cheap disco ball. I saw how they dance to the perfect rhythm. Never off beat and always matching each other.
I saw her happy, which was nice.
As I sat at the bar without them noticing me, I smiled. I haven't smiled in a long time. And it's a bitter sweet smile at the best. I am so happy that she finally found someone who has made her happy, but I am bitter that it wasn't me.
Yea look at what I've done to her
Look at how I made her feel
Shes found somebody new
And look who took the time to heal
And look at what its done to me
Ya gotta know it tears me up
To walk away from the love me made
And just leave it in a cloud of dust
And now its got me thinkin
Maybe i was wrong
After all the things i've done to her...
Now shes strong.
She's always been strong, or so she would have liked me to think. The macho Marine who never cries and could stop a bullet. That is what she wants everyone to believe.
But before the Marine shines through, the woman does first. She cries, she laughs till she cries, she has bad days, she has great days, she wins some she loses some. She's a human underneath all the Marine green. And not many people see that, but he does- as did I. The one thing we had in common. We both knew it was woman then Marine.
I walked up and said, "Hello."
She said, "Its good to see ya,"
"But hey I gotta go."
I did say hi, and she did leave after that. But for the few minutes that we talked, that was enough for me. She was so happy. She acted as though we had parted on pleasant grounds. I am glad she has put it in her past.
Yea look at what I've done to her
Look at how I made her feel
Shes standin tall
Shes got it all
Got the world at her heels
And look at what its done to me
Yea look at how it makes me hurt
If I could go back now I swear somehow
I'd find a way to make it work
Aint life funny
Now i'm the one alone
Yea look at what Ive done me to me...
Shes gone.
They were the last to leave from their engagement party. I watched as they walked out of the bar, hand in hand. She seemed to have an extra bounce in her step. She seemed as though she was walking on air, and as though nothing could go wrong. If a wind came up, she knew he'd catch her. But her air was calm…she was calm…and she was gone.
A/N- I hope you liked it. I know I am bounces from story to story but they will get done I promise! The song is by Chris Cagle and it's called "Look what I've done to her."