Author's Notes:
Hey! I'm so sorry it's been a long time since my last update! I've been really busy...
Oh, and I got a new computer so some things may be misspelled towards the end of the chapter.
C&C is welcome with open arms :3
Read on~ ^_^
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I lay in bed, half awake, gazing at the chipped ceiling above me. I couldn't understand why I couldn't just fall back asleep.
My head was aching so much. It was mixed up with emotions I didn't know and had never felt before. My dreams kept showing me things I didn't want to see, or remember anymore. I don't understand why these keep coming back to me….
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My dream started as Auron struck the last blow on Braska's Final Aeon.
The whole pilgrimage seemed to have let off a big sigh, as if a huge weight was lifted from their shoulders.
Auron just stood there silently, looking off into space as Tidus came over and gave him a "Nice job."
He nodded slowly, and then turned towards Yuna, slowly saying her name.
Yuna turned to him, with a pained expression painted across her face.
"It's time." He spoke softly, yet clearly.
Yuna nodded, and gradually lifted up her staff. She began to send him.
I let out a quiet gasp, my feelings of happiness slowly drifted away, and were replaced with confusion and sadness.
Auron started to walk away from us, gradually starting to disappear.
I had to tell him. But, I couldn't. He was evaporating more and more, but I couldn't.
I-I….
"Auron…I-I…love……y-you."
Everyone was shocked and confused. Tidus seemed to have been talking to me, but I zoned everyone else out. I waited for Auron's response.
He just stared at me. His expression was nameless….it just seemed blank. My eyes started to swell up with tears, but I tried to hold them back.
Then Auron spoke up.
"I'm sorry."
With that, he was gone.
The tears now easily rained from my eyes now, as I fell to my knees, not knowing what to do next.
Why the heck did you tell him then? Of course you were going to be rejected! He was being sent, for Yevon's Mercy!
My thoughts couldn't tame me at all. I couldn't bear the feeling of rejection.
I felt something graze my shoulder. It was Yuna's hand.
"Rikku…are you okay…?"
You could tell by the tone of her voice that she was worried about me. She worries way too much…
"Y-yeah I'm fine, no need to worry about me!" My voice cracked, as I slowly stood up, and shot everyone an obviously phony smile.
I hated when people were concerned about me.
"All right!" I clapped my hands together. "Let's get moving"
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"BREEEEEE BREEEEE"
My machina alarm violently woke me up, practically shaking off the table.
I aimlessly groped around for my clock, trying to find the snooze button to make the stupid thing shut up. I finally found the button, sat up in bed, ruffling my hair and yawning at the same time.
Another dream about him, eh?
My eyes started to feel wet again.
What! Stop crying! Get a hold of yourself!
He's gone.
Get over it.
I stood up out of bed and yelled in-between sobs.
"BUT…I CAN'T!"
I tugged at my hair and fell back on to my bed, face down on the pillow.
I shrieked.
What is it now, Rikku?
Now what are you yelling about?
"Get the hell out of my head!"
Why?
What are you so scared of?
Don't you like it?
Don't you like the company?
"I SAID GO AWAY!"
I screamed into the pillow again.
Rikku.
"Stop it!"
Rikku, I know you need somebody like me now.
"I said go away!"
Rikku…
"ARRRGGGGGG!!"
I tugged at my hair and started shaking my head, as if some how, the voices would stop and leave me alone.
It sort of worked.
Shocked, I got out of bed, threw on some clothes and slowly walked downstairs.
I was walking downstairs, gazing off to space, when it happened again.
Rikku.
I freaked out, lost my balance, and fell down about 4 steps.
"I thought I told you to get the hell out!"
I tugged at my hair violently and buried my face into my knees, crying.
Rikku.
Auron…is…
"STOP!"
Look ahead of you.
I picked up my head.
Auron was standing there.
"…AURON!"
I launched myself off the steps, throwing my body towards him.
"Auron, I…."
My body went straight through his, causing me to fall down the staircase again.
I hit the floor hard, my head flew back, then was slammed into the floor.
I started to cry.
"Why…why would you do that…"
It wasn't my fault.
It was yours.
You didn't…
"SHUT THE HECK UP ALREADY!"
I picked myself up, and sat down on the last step, crying from all the mixed emotions I felt.
Rikku…
I can tell you....many things.
All you have to do is listen.
I kept on bawling, when I heard footsteps on the stairs.
I felt a light tap on my shoulders.
"Rikku….what's wrong?"
I looked up, and my eyes met with Tidus'. I then quickly tried to cover the fact that I was crying by rubbing my hands over my eyes.
"Tidus….I…I'm sorry if I was in your way…I-I must have hurt myself somehow…"
"Rikku," his voice was now serious and concerned "Are you sure you're fine? You know that if anything happens to you, anything at all, you can just come to me."
I started to cry more. Tidus cared…about me. I threw my arms around his neck and squeezed.
"….Thank you."
"No problem." He got up and smiled, then ruffled my hair. "Would you like to come to breakfast with me?"
"I-I think I'll pass, I….uh....gotta do something."
"Okay then! I guess I'll be seeing you later!" He smiled again, this time, including a wink, as he walked toward the kitchen.
Once he was finally out of sight, I let out a big sigh and put my chin on my knees, staring straight outside the big glass double doors at the water.
Finally...It was so peaceful…
Rikku.
"Stop….please just stop…"
"...Stop what?"
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a dark crimson jacket.
I looked to the left and Auron was standing there.
I shook my head.
"Nice try. Like I'm going to fall for that again."
"Rikku...What are you talking about?"
"Do you really think I'm going to be that stupid? You're just a figment of my imagination."
"Rikku? Are you feeling well? It's Auron...I really have come back."
I kept silent for a moment, looking at Auron. I cautiously got up, and went over to where Auron was standing studying him.
"I-is that really you?" I punched his arm to get a reaction.
He softly chuckled and nodded.
"Yes. It's me. I came back...for many reasons, but how I was able to come back, I really do not know."
My eyes started to swell up for the second time that day. Auron..he came back...for me?
I started to cry again, sniffling and sobbing at the same time. I punched Auron in the arm and cried,
"You big meanie! Why did you leave? Why did you do that to us.."
"Because, I had to. And I needed to."
I threw my arms around him and cried more, making his jacket all wet from my tears.
"I'm sorry...I uh...better go tell the others you're back"
I turned away from him and wiped my eyes.
"...Rikku"
I turned and just at the time I did, Auron came close to me and his lips grazed my cheek. My face became bright red and I ran away blushing insanly.
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I ran into the kitchen, panting.
"He is back!!!" I yelled
"Who? Who's back?" Yuna rushed over to me.
"He is!!"
"Who is 'he'?"
"Auron!"
"...Auron..? Rikku, are you sure you saw him?"
"Yes of course I am sure!
Lulu gasped.
"Rikku," Lulu said "are you sure it wasn't one of your halluci---"
"YES I AM SURE! I HUGGED HIM! HE'S REAL! I AM NOT GOING CRAZY!"
"Ok, ok. Rikku, we aren't saying you are crazy, it's just...--"
"Just what? Just because I thought I saw him that one other time? That doesn't make me crazy, okay? Follow me and I'll show you that Auron is here."
I walked out of the kitchen, followed by Yuna, Tidus, Lulu and Wakka.
"Auron!"
I ran over to Auron, and crossed my arms.
"See. Auron does exist."
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A/N:
I think I might have ended a bit abrupt, but I really wanted to get this done before I went back to school. I hope it turned out ok. ^^ By the way...AURON IS A PEDOPHILE :O:O:O...Hhehe...Kidding. I just thought that Rikku being inlove with Auron, but Auron couldn't really do anything about it would be kinda ......cute. In a weird way. Anyways. I'll stop babbling. I hope you'll come back for Chapter Five! ^_^
3 Sanno
Hey! I'm so sorry it's been a long time since my last update! I've been really busy...
Oh, and I got a new computer so some things may be misspelled towards the end of the chapter.
C&C is welcome with open arms :3
Read on~ ^_^
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I lay in bed, half awake, gazing at the chipped ceiling above me. I couldn't understand why I couldn't just fall back asleep.
My head was aching so much. It was mixed up with emotions I didn't know and had never felt before. My dreams kept showing me things I didn't want to see, or remember anymore. I don't understand why these keep coming back to me….
++++++++++++++
My dream started as Auron struck the last blow on Braska's Final Aeon.
The whole pilgrimage seemed to have let off a big sigh, as if a huge weight was lifted from their shoulders.
Auron just stood there silently, looking off into space as Tidus came over and gave him a "Nice job."
He nodded slowly, and then turned towards Yuna, slowly saying her name.
Yuna turned to him, with a pained expression painted across her face.
"It's time." He spoke softly, yet clearly.
Yuna nodded, and gradually lifted up her staff. She began to send him.
I let out a quiet gasp, my feelings of happiness slowly drifted away, and were replaced with confusion and sadness.
Auron started to walk away from us, gradually starting to disappear.
I had to tell him. But, I couldn't. He was evaporating more and more, but I couldn't.
I-I….
"Auron…I-I…love……y-you."
Everyone was shocked and confused. Tidus seemed to have been talking to me, but I zoned everyone else out. I waited for Auron's response.
He just stared at me. His expression was nameless….it just seemed blank. My eyes started to swell up with tears, but I tried to hold them back.
Then Auron spoke up.
"I'm sorry."
With that, he was gone.
The tears now easily rained from my eyes now, as I fell to my knees, not knowing what to do next.
Why the heck did you tell him then? Of course you were going to be rejected! He was being sent, for Yevon's Mercy!
My thoughts couldn't tame me at all. I couldn't bear the feeling of rejection.
I felt something graze my shoulder. It was Yuna's hand.
"Rikku…are you okay…?"
You could tell by the tone of her voice that she was worried about me. She worries way too much…
"Y-yeah I'm fine, no need to worry about me!" My voice cracked, as I slowly stood up, and shot everyone an obviously phony smile.
I hated when people were concerned about me.
"All right!" I clapped my hands together. "Let's get moving"
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"BREEEEEE BREEEEE"
My machina alarm violently woke me up, practically shaking off the table.
I aimlessly groped around for my clock, trying to find the snooze button to make the stupid thing shut up. I finally found the button, sat up in bed, ruffling my hair and yawning at the same time.
Another dream about him, eh?
My eyes started to feel wet again.
What! Stop crying! Get a hold of yourself!
He's gone.
Get over it.
I stood up out of bed and yelled in-between sobs.
"BUT…I CAN'T!"
I tugged at my hair and fell back on to my bed, face down on the pillow.
I shrieked.
What is it now, Rikku?
Now what are you yelling about?
"Get the hell out of my head!"
Why?
What are you so scared of?
Don't you like it?
Don't you like the company?
"I SAID GO AWAY!"
I screamed into the pillow again.
Rikku.
"Stop it!"
Rikku, I know you need somebody like me now.
"I said go away!"
Rikku…
"ARRRGGGGGG!!"
I tugged at my hair and started shaking my head, as if some how, the voices would stop and leave me alone.
It sort of worked.
Shocked, I got out of bed, threw on some clothes and slowly walked downstairs.
I was walking downstairs, gazing off to space, when it happened again.
Rikku.
I freaked out, lost my balance, and fell down about 4 steps.
"I thought I told you to get the hell out!"
I tugged at my hair violently and buried my face into my knees, crying.
Rikku.
Auron…is…
"STOP!"
Look ahead of you.
I picked up my head.
Auron was standing there.
"…AURON!"
I launched myself off the steps, throwing my body towards him.
"Auron, I…."
My body went straight through his, causing me to fall down the staircase again.
I hit the floor hard, my head flew back, then was slammed into the floor.
I started to cry.
"Why…why would you do that…"
It wasn't my fault.
It was yours.
You didn't…
"SHUT THE HECK UP ALREADY!"
I picked myself up, and sat down on the last step, crying from all the mixed emotions I felt.
Rikku…
I can tell you....many things.
All you have to do is listen.
I kept on bawling, when I heard footsteps on the stairs.
I felt a light tap on my shoulders.
"Rikku….what's wrong?"
I looked up, and my eyes met with Tidus'. I then quickly tried to cover the fact that I was crying by rubbing my hands over my eyes.
"Tidus….I…I'm sorry if I was in your way…I-I must have hurt myself somehow…"
"Rikku," his voice was now serious and concerned "Are you sure you're fine? You know that if anything happens to you, anything at all, you can just come to me."
I started to cry more. Tidus cared…about me. I threw my arms around his neck and squeezed.
"….Thank you."
"No problem." He got up and smiled, then ruffled my hair. "Would you like to come to breakfast with me?"
"I-I think I'll pass, I….uh....gotta do something."
"Okay then! I guess I'll be seeing you later!" He smiled again, this time, including a wink, as he walked toward the kitchen.
Once he was finally out of sight, I let out a big sigh and put my chin on my knees, staring straight outside the big glass double doors at the water.
Finally...It was so peaceful…
Rikku.
"Stop….please just stop…"
"...Stop what?"
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a dark crimson jacket.
I looked to the left and Auron was standing there.
I shook my head.
"Nice try. Like I'm going to fall for that again."
"Rikku...What are you talking about?"
"Do you really think I'm going to be that stupid? You're just a figment of my imagination."
"Rikku? Are you feeling well? It's Auron...I really have come back."
I kept silent for a moment, looking at Auron. I cautiously got up, and went over to where Auron was standing studying him.
"I-is that really you?" I punched his arm to get a reaction.
He softly chuckled and nodded.
"Yes. It's me. I came back...for many reasons, but how I was able to come back, I really do not know."
My eyes started to swell up for the second time that day. Auron..he came back...for me?
I started to cry again, sniffling and sobbing at the same time. I punched Auron in the arm and cried,
"You big meanie! Why did you leave? Why did you do that to us.."
"Because, I had to. And I needed to."
I threw my arms around him and cried more, making his jacket all wet from my tears.
"I'm sorry...I uh...better go tell the others you're back"
I turned away from him and wiped my eyes.
"...Rikku"
I turned and just at the time I did, Auron came close to me and his lips grazed my cheek. My face became bright red and I ran away blushing insanly.
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I ran into the kitchen, panting.
"He is back!!!" I yelled
"Who? Who's back?" Yuna rushed over to me.
"He is!!"
"Who is 'he'?"
"Auron!"
"...Auron..? Rikku, are you sure you saw him?"
"Yes of course I am sure!
Lulu gasped.
"Rikku," Lulu said "are you sure it wasn't one of your halluci---"
"YES I AM SURE! I HUGGED HIM! HE'S REAL! I AM NOT GOING CRAZY!"
"Ok, ok. Rikku, we aren't saying you are crazy, it's just...--"
"Just what? Just because I thought I saw him that one other time? That doesn't make me crazy, okay? Follow me and I'll show you that Auron is here."
I walked out of the kitchen, followed by Yuna, Tidus, Lulu and Wakka.
"Auron!"
I ran over to Auron, and crossed my arms.
"See. Auron does exist."
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A/N:
I think I might have ended a bit abrupt, but I really wanted to get this done before I went back to school. I hope it turned out ok. ^^ By the way...AURON IS A PEDOPHILE :O:O:O...Hhehe...Kidding. I just thought that Rikku being inlove with Auron, but Auron couldn't really do anything about it would be kinda ......cute. In a weird way. Anyways. I'll stop babbling. I hope you'll come back for Chapter Five! ^_^
3 Sanno