Chapter five up now! I can't say much so sorry. School is going to start this Monday so it will be a long time before I can update. Just thought I should warn you ahead of time. Okay chapter five here we come!

You probably already know this but I don't own Rurouni Kenshin. And why would I when the only one I can draw is Kaoru?

Chapter Five: It doesn't help

"So you guys all going to bed now?" Misao asked. Aoshi nodded but Kenshin hesitated. "What's with all the fidgeting Himura, got a spider up your pants or something?"

"Ororororo!!!" Kenshin said falling over. "Iie, I was just hoping I could check on Kaoru before I go to bed." Misao snapped her fingers. "That doesn't sound like a bad idea, wait here I'll go check and see if she is sleeping already." She went into the hallway towards Kaoru's room.

"So what are you going to do if or when you check on Kaoru, what if she's asleep?" Kenshin looked nervously from side to side. "Ara, if she is sleeping then I won't bother her, demo if she is awake that probably means that something is wrong and if that is the case I would like to try and comfort her I guess."

"Is that so," Aoshi said almost jokingly. Aoshi actually joked. "By the look on your face that doesn't seem to be all; is there something else that you aren't telling me?" Kenshin fell over again all flustered. "Oro! Eto, well I guess I...I'm just not used to sleeping in new places and I just...."

"I get the point," Aoshi said not wanting to push the matter any further. Kenshin was already embarrassed as it is. Kenshin was about to say something when-

"IYAAAA!!! KAORU-CHAN!!!" They heard Misao scream that out. Kenshin immediately worried and scared at the same time. "Kaoru!!!!" he cried rushing to her room Aoshi close behind. "Misao what happened, where is Kaoru?!" Kenshin asked looking around the bedroom. "What happened to her?!" Aoshi tried to calm Misao down as she cried into his shoulder. She pointed to a small note on the futon which was rolled up and unused. He saw the note.

**Minna,

By the time you're reading this I'll be gone. I know Yashiitomo's out looking for me and I've gone to find him. Onegai, don't follow me or try and look for me because you could get hurt. Just don't I would be able to bear it if anything happened to you. Arigatou for everything. Aoshi, Misao, good luck with your wedding. And tell Kenshin if he didn't read this that I love him for me. Take care guys**

Kenshin fell to his knees the note held to his chest. Tears fell once again from his eyes. 'Iie..koishii...not again....' Misao went on crying into Aoshi's shoulder while he continued to comfort or try to comfort her. Kenshin shut his eyes tight. "That idiot...."

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"A-Achoo!!!" Kaoru sneezed covering her mouth. She felt the heat of the sun which was rising high above the treetops. 'Better find a place to rest for awhile before I die in this heat.' It hadn't been very easy for her now that her sight was gone but she was able to manage. She had gone through hard training with her father and about half the time she was blindfolded so it wasn't exactly as hard as most would think. She trudged on sometimes feeling her way with the tip of her sheathed sword and luckily everyone kept their distance making it a bit easier not to bump into someone. But the bad thing about that was it made her easy to see.

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"Do you have any idea where she went? We've been searching for hours and there is still no sign of her," Misao said panting. The three of them were out searching for Kaoru, but they had no clue on where she went. "I really don't know where she would go but I'm going to look for her regardless."

"I really don't think being reckless is going to help. Let's just take a break and ask a few people around here if they saw her. I'm getting tired."

"I agree," Aoshi added. Kenshin looked at them anxiously. "We don't have time for that! Kaoru's blind! Anything could happen to her, we have to find her!" he yelled.

"I know that demo Kaoru isn't here right now," Aoshi replied. Kenshin was getting frustrated as well as upset. "That's my POINT! We have to find her now!" Misao was getting worried. "Hey calm down Himura that isn't going to help. Just stay calm and let's just ask people around here I'm sure she will be fine there was no need to yell at Aoshi for it!" A tear fell from Kenshin's eye. Unable to hold it in any longer he unconsciously let his clenched fist go flying. "DON'T YOU BE TELLING ME TO F**KING CALM DOWN!!!" he screamed just as his fist got her square in the face.

"Itai!!!"

"Misao!!!"

Kenshin realized what he did too late. Aoshi helped her up glaring at Kenshin. "You didn't have to do THAT!!!" Kenshin turned away. "H-Honto ni...gomen nasai..." he fell to his knees small sobs racking his body. Misao pulled away. "I'm alright Aoshi." She went up to Kenshin. "Doushite, what's the matter now?"

"It's Kaoru, she almost died one other time because of me." Misao and Aoshi gasped. "Do you mean when she was shot?" Kenshin shook his head. "It happened a few years ago when Enishi had kidnapped her. When I was fighting him he kept provoking me, telling me all the things he did to her while I wasn't there. When he said he had been sleeping with her without her permission that was when I finally snapped."

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"That's it prepare to die!!!"

"Iie, KENSHIN!!!"

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"I had lost control and became Battousai again," he continued. "In the middle of attacking him I had flipped the blade over." Their eyes widened.

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Kenshin raised the flipped blade getting ready to finish him off. Kaoru broke into a run towards him crying out. "Kenshin don't! Don't break your vow because of me! Onegai! Put down the sword!" She threw herself at him from behind trying to calm him down. "Onegai...put down your sword...there is no need for you to..."

*SLASH*!

Kaoru instantly stumbled backwards lifted a hand to her chest. A huge deep gash going from her shoulder all the way to her abdomen in a slant position was gushing freely with blood. Kaoru looked at Kenshin's...no, Battousai's cold amber eyes. "Kenshin..." She tried to reach out to him but he turned away. She slowly fell forward with a thud and then nothing more. He then punched himself in the face and his eyes grew violet again. Kenshin, he was back. But when he turned back he saw Kaoru's motionless form lying in a surrounding puddle of blood. His heart stopped and he looked at his sakabatou her blood dripping off the tip of the shimmering flipped blade. His eyes went back to Kaoru.

"Kaoru!!!!!!" he dropped the sword and ran over to her picking her up carefully like she was about to break. He found a pulse but it was awfully faint. Using his godlike speed he rushed to the nearest clinic.

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Misao was now covering her mouth and Aoshi was listening. Kenshin's face was tear-streaked. "They worked on her all night, she almost didn't make it. Demo, when she finally regained consciousness I was asked to go see her. When I came in she smiled at me, and she spoke. The first words out of her mouth were..." Kenshin covered his eyes.

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Kenshin sat next to her futon holding her hand which she had held out to him. "Kenshin....thank kami your back I was worried about you...arigatou for helping me, and I'm sorry for the trouble I caused you..."

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Kenshin looked over at them. "That's her, that was Kaoru. She never thinks...about herself. She didn't think about what she thought or about what I did, she never does!" Misao went up to him and put a gentle but firm hand on his shoulder. "It was because she cares and because she knew it wasn't you who did it. It was because she loves you."

"Even if it was Battousai he is part of me I should've been able to control him and protect Kaoru like I swore I would...that was what I was supposed to do! And yet I almost killed her instead and now I've lost her again she could be in danger right now!" Aoshi went up to him and they both helped Kenshin up. "Come on now, Kamiya didn't give up on you so you shouldn't either. That was all in the past and you know as well as she did. Let's just continue the search okay? We will find her," Aoshi said hoping it would get through his head. Misao smiled. 'Aoshi sure can talk a lot now.' Kenshin wiped his eyes and smiled. "You're right. Let's find her."

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Kaoru sat in a nearby clearing in the shade of a tree resting. 'I hope Kenshin and the others are doing alright. They're probably upset right now.' She rested her head in her arms. 'I wouldn't be surprised if they all hate me, I did leave them twice now.' She looked up at the sky. 'I won't be able to do much right now in this heat, I had better just rest.' All of a sudden she heard a faint rustle and a dagger flew in her direction at top speed. The sound of it hitting something was heard and then all was still.

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GAAAAAAH!!!! *runs away from angry mob* Somebody heeeeeeeeelp!!! Maniacs on the loose! *Panting* Well before I get stampeded to death I want to say thank you for reading and to please R/R! The next chapter will be up soon! *gets flattened by everyone*