Shinji: Gomen nasai!!! I'm really sorry! It took me longer than I said it would to get this chapter out. I've been rather busy lately and had to finish my homework for going back to school. *curses school*

Shadow: Yeah, that's her excuse…

Shinji: I know that it's past the Christmas season now but I hope you still enjoy this chapter. Well it's Tykai so hopefully you should…

Shadow: Yes, yes now on with the fic!

Shinji: Um, I apologise for any spelling or grammar mistakes since I usually tend to make them. ^_^;;

Chapter 3

The red eyed boy suppressed a sigh as lay staring upwards at the ceiling. He did this often seeing that he hadn't really anything better to do. He never thought he'd be doing it here however. Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, these were just like any other days to him so when Tyson had come to his house it had surprised him. It shocked him that the blue haired boy was even thinking about him let alone coming to visit him. Then again they had been together in the World's championship Beyblade team together, but still…

Often he would find his thoughts fixed on the boy and most of the time they had nothing to do with Beyblading whatsoever. When Tyson had visited him he had come as a friend not a team mate. He hadn't come because he was lonely so what other reason was there? Would he have come if Kenny hadn't been away on vacation?  Probably not…

Out of all the people in his life Tyson had made the biggest impact on him. Sure his Grandfather had helped shape him into what he had become with all that time in the abbey when he was younger but with Tyson he caused him to think, he caused him to debate and reflect on his actions and feelings whilst with his Grandfather he just did what he was told. If it hadn't been for Tyson he doubted he would have had the courage to confront him. Because of Tyson's kindness and trust he was no longer under the manipulation and control of his wicked Grandfather. Because of him he was free. And although he has lost in his match against the demolition boys he knew he had done the right thing. Both Rei and Tyson had come through victorious however and thus the Blade breakers achieved their goal of becoming the world champion team.

 He had felt happy then. He had done what he had set out to do. The joyous looks of his team mates faces had made him happy, but that time was over now he had went back to being what he had always been. Alone. Sure he had his memories but this wasn't even to sustain him through the emptiness he felt, and despite everything that had happened he still hated admitting that he felt like this. He had always been alone, why should it bother him now? After all in away every single human being was fundamentally alone. He would waste hours debating this one simple question yet the conclusion he came to was always the same. Him. Tyson. And that boy was less than a meter away right now.

The boy was a complete idiot, he was loud, obnoxious, stubborn, disgusting and down right annoying! He was the perfect representation of the kind of people Kai hated the most, yet he was drawn to him. He had been since the first time he had met him back when he was still a member of the Blade sharks. Despite the absurdness of it, it was all most like he had sensed something in him, something special that was different from any other person that he had ever met. This feeling had overwhelmed him in the first round of his and Tyson's first beyblade match causing him to lose without putting up a fight. Tyson then yelled at him claiming that he wasn't even trying which was very much true. Taking the younger boy's advice he did try and he won. After this victory he awoke to reality, Tyson was just like any other amateur blader and he could crush him easily.

But things took an unexpected turn and giving it his all Tyson defeated him. That cocky little idiot defeated him! Yet Kai didn't feel as humiliated as he should have for deep down in his subconscious he knew that there really was something special about the kid after all. So having been defeated by Tyson he fulfilled his promise and became captain of the blade breakers. And after months of competing against many strong and at times odd opponents they won the world championships. Now about half a year here he was lying in that special idiotic boy's room staring at the ceiling.

The photograph from the world championships was plastered in his mind, Tyson and his huge smile with his hand on his shoulder.

'You have a great smile. You should definitely smile more often.'

But that would mean being around you for only you can make me smile, Tyson. And that can never be. I can never be with you. Not the way I want it to be…

He turned over pulling the covers over himself, no longer wanting to stare at the void white ceiling. A part of him wanted to laugh, the powerful and cold Kai reduced to a helpless state of confusion and despair. If only the others could see him, if only Tyson knew the truth. How would he react? No, he didn't even want to think about it, he couldn't stand for anyone to see him like this. All of this was going on in his mind and no doubt that stupid idiot was lying in a peaceful sleep dreaming of Christmas and food. Always carefree, indulging in the simple things in life. How pathetic. Yet it was also one of the reasons why he loved him…

Contrary to Kai's belief, Tyson was very much awake. Usually the dark haired boy would fall asleep instantly the moment his head touch the pillow but tonight he was unable to take his mind off of the mysterious and handsome boy sleeping below him. Christmas usually made him feel so happy, as did being with his friends. With the fact that both were happening he should have been ecstatic. To a certain extent he was but… Kai…

Tyson admired him. He was a great balder, calm, serious and very passionate about beyblading. The first time he met Kai he thought he was a no good jerk, he even kidnapped Kenny! He wanted to beat him so badly, to prove that he was as just as great a blader. And eventually he did. Yet he was not satisfied. He wanted more. And after Mr. Dickinson announced that he would be team captain of the Blade breakers he wanted to become friends with Kai. Kai however wasn't interested at all and instead kept to himself. The others in the Blade Breakers often saw him as being just downright arrogant but Kai knew that wasn't true. Deep down Tyson believed that Kai had a compassionate side and really did care about his team mates, only he was afraid to show it. Yes deep he knew that Kai cared. This belief was placed in jeopardy however when Kai deserted the Blade Breakers and became a member of the Demolition boys.

Out of everyone Tyson took this fact the worst. When he found out it was like someone had stuck a sharp knife into him. He couldn't believe that Kai would do that, or he didn't want to believe it. He even tried convincing him to come back pleading with him. It hurt even worst when it finally sank in that Kai had betrayed them and wasn't going to be coming back. It seemed that the boy he had once known was gone, that or he had been an illusion all along. After all, the red eyed blader even went as far as trying to steal their bit beasts. Thankfully Max came alone in the nick of time and defeated him. Even after all that he as well as the others forgave Kai much to the other boy's shock.

Kai… I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't returned to us… You're our captain and even if you don't see it I look up to you. Your always there looking out for us, looking out for me and there when I need advice about beyblading. To bad I can't ask you for any advice about this. I want to tell you but I can't. When the others are around I'm happy but when your there I-I feel warm… just looking at you makes me blush and your beautiful smile makes me just want to melt. I know what I'm saying must sound really stupid, I can barely believe I'm saying it myself! But I can't deny what I feel. I know I'm the kind of person who always acts on my emotions so it's difficult for me to sit back and do nothing. You'd hate me if I ever told. I couldn't stand your reaction, your reaction, after all why the hell would you be interested in someone like me? I guess the most I can ever ask of you is friendship and couldn't stand loosing that. So I will remain uncharacteristically silent, just as long as I can see your beautiful smile. You don't smile often, I wish you would. Sometimes I notice the edges of your lips curve. Softly he sighed. I wish you'd smile for me…

Suddenly he heard movement coming from below him. I guess it's just Kai turning in his sleep. But then he heard soft footsteps. Slowly he pulled the covers away from his face and cautiously looked down to see that Kai was gone. Quickly he shot up and glanced around the room. He wasn't there. Had he left? Maybe he had gotten fed up and decided just to go home. Tyson bit lip. Perhaps Kai was angry with him, which could explain his leaving. The dark haired boy found him overcome with panic. He couldn't stand for Kai to be angry at him!

He leapt out of bed ready to go after him when something suddenly dawned on him. Even if he did catch up with him, what would he say? Plead for him to return just like when Kai had left the Blade breakers? He felt tears from in his eyes. He was lost. He had no idea what to do. What if he went and chased after Kai only to blurt out his real feelings? But couldn't just stay here and do nothing no matter what he had promised himself. Chikushou! Damn you Kai! Why can't I get you out of my head?!

The red eyed boy sighed as he stared outside standing in the dojo with the door opened. It was a cold night but that didn't particularly bother him. He just had to get away. He knew he couldn't leave. He had all ready done that to Tyson many a times before, plus he would probably get it into to his head that he has left because he was angry or something. Yeah right, if only that idiot knew how opposite it really was. If I told him the truth he would know that I couldn't possibly hate him but that's not going to happen so what the hell can I do? I don't want to hurt him but…

The flashing Christmas lights suddenly caught his eyes. He found it strange that Tyson and his Grandpa left them on even though both of them were all ready in bed. The lights look great don't they, Kai?!

Despite having the worlds Beyblading championships the little things still mattered to Tyson. It seemed that even the simplest of things would affect him. Kai was rather analytical and perspective when it came to observing the world but he never allowed such things to concern. Instead he ignored them, letting them pass by. Tyson was one of these things. He was simple, a kind, and stubborn guy without any worries who was always smiling. It was funny how such a simple thing could cause so much confusion.

I don't understand my feelings. I don't understand myself. Or could it be that I'm afraid to?

"Kai!"

The light blue haired boy awoke from his thoughts and abruptly turned around. "Tyson?"

"I'm so glad I found you." Tyson sighed with great relief.

"I couldn't sleep so I just came out here to get some fresh air." replied Kai calmly. Wait was that tears in Tyson's eyes?

"I thought… I thought you had left…"

"Um well my bag and clothes are still in your room. I wouldn't have walked home in the middle of the night wearing only a t-shirt and shorts."

Tyson sweatdropped. "Oh yeah I never actually thought on that." he chuckled awkwardly scratching the back of his head.

Kai sighed. He really is an idiot. He was a great blader but when it came to common sense the boy was definitely lacking. Nonetheless Kai thought it was actually kind of cute.

Tyson stared curiously at the taller boy. Is Kai trying to smile?

"I'm sorry if I worried you. Let's go back to bed." said Kai before turning and walking away.

Tyson stood transfixed for a few moments and without thinking blurted out, "Kai!"

The other boy turned stopped and turned around.

Ah! What am I doing?! "I-I uh I'm glad that you're here. I mean you're my friend and I'm grateful to be with you. I uh mean spent Christmas with you!"

"I'm glad I came."

"Really?! Cause I was worried that I had made you angry when I mentioned your smile." Kai looked at the other boy, trying his best to hide his sorrow. The way Tyson was acting wasn't like him at all. Was it because of him that he was acting so insecure?

"Tyson I wasn't angry with you, I was just…"

"Great!"

Kai softly bit his lip. "I know you want me to stay but maybe it would be better if I just left."

"Go?" What-what do you mean?" asked Tyson his voice quivering slightly.

"If I'm causing you to act like this, causing you to be so worried then maybe it would be best if I just went."

"You're saying you want to leave? Have I-"

"No!" he shouted quickly. "Look it's me not you that I'm angry at. It's not your fault at all, I mean I want to stay but-"

"Then don't go!" yelled Tyson. "If you really don't want to go then stay!"

"It's not that easy…"

"Why not?!"

"I don't want to hurt you anymore. I don't want to cause you worry on my account so…"

Suddenly he felt his sleeve being tugged. Turning his head he saw Tyson standing there, the tears clearly running from his eyes.

"You're not hurting me! Please stay… please stay…" Kai was shocked, never had he seen him act like this, so vulnerable, so desperate. God he longed for the usual genki boy to crack a smile right now.

"Please stay." He begged once again. Despite the pain he was clearly causing him he still wanted him to stay.

Ignoring all previous promises he carefully wrapped his arms around the grieving boy. He had never been so close to someone, not since he was a child. "Tyson, it will be all right. I promise that everything will be okay." spoke Kai gently soothing him.

"So-so you'll stay then?"

"Of course."

Kai carefully helped him to sit down and for minutes they sat there Kai with his arms wrapped around the smaller boy. Tyson's breath caught in his throat as he felt his captain's strong arms gently cradling him. He had longed for so long to be held like this. Again he should have been happy but really all he wanted to do was cry, to breakdown and reveal his inner most feelings, but also he wished to continue receiving the comfort that Kai was giving him. He knew he couldn't have both so which one would he settle for?

Gradually the greyish haired blader pulled away causing Tyson to give a small whimper. "Do you want me to get you a drink?" offered Kai.

Tyson shook his head, his eyes fixed on the ground. "No, thank you."

"Okay."

There were a few moments of silence until Tyson spoke up. "I-I'm sorry for being so much bother. I wanted you to have a good Christmas but then this happened."

"You're not a bother Tyson. I'm just worried about you that's all."

Tyson quickly shook his head. "No, I'm fine. Really you don't have to worry about me." he replied with a smile that Kai could instantly tell was fake.

"I guess we're both causing each other to worry."

"I worry about you because I care. I want you to be happy."

"But why, Tyson? Why is such a thing so important to you?"

"Like I said before, because you're happy and that makes me happy, plus when you're happy you smile."

"Smile?"

"I know it's really none of my business but you have an amazing smile. That's why I love that photo so much, because you're smiling." Kai suddenly felt himself blush. "You don't smile often but I love it when you do and-" The blue haired boy stopped, realising and fearing that he had said too much.

"I-I never realised that my smile meant that much to you." The little things really do matter to Tyson, but why something like that?

"I guess it's kind of funny how I only smile when you're around."

Tyson's face went red. "I know I do a lot of stupid things that makes everyone laugh. It's not like I can help it…"

"No, not just when you do idiotic things but when I'm with you…" Even just being near him made him happy, and on the edge of his lips a smile would form, a smile wishing to reveal itself. But he would hold it back. He couldn't let anyone see it. He couldn't show anyone his true feelings. This… Is this happiness?  Tyson he makes me happy. Being around him makes me happy. When I see him smile it makes me even more so. When I see him sad, I worry, I feel pain. I guess I really must care about him then. I care about him just as he cares about me.

"Kai?" Tyson stared at the other boy curiously. He hadn't said anything for a few minutes and looked as if he were debating something.

"If it makes you happy then I'll stay here with you."

"Huh?"

"Seeing a hyperactive idiot like you in such a pathetic state is too depressing."

Tyson smiled. "Kai, you're so kind."

He gave a small chuckle. "That's the first time anybody's ever called me that."

"Ne, so the cold tough guy attitude really is just for show after all." laughed Tyson.

Kai snorted and turned away. "Idiot, what the hell are you talking about?" His eyes softened once he heard Tyson laughing.

"You're just a big softie aren't you?!"

"Well at least I'm not a complete fool who goes around constantly making a fool of himself."

"Hey!" Yes it seemed that Tyson was back to his old self and for the first time Kai allowed himself to smile without any hesitation.

Tyson looked at him with surprise. He was smiling just like he had done at the world championships. "Kai…"

"I guess I'm happy that you're all right now."

"You're smile is-"

"Amazing, right? Again that's the first time I've ever heard anyone say that."

"Actually I was going to say that it's beautiful." Kai's eyed widened and before he could do anything the smaller boy suddenly pressed his lips against his smile.

Ty-Tyson was kissing him?! His lips they were so soft… Was it all just a dream?

Abruptly Tyson pulled away realising what he was doing. "Ka-Kai! I-I'm sorr-" The taller boy wrapped his arms around him and pressed his lips against him continuing their kiss. Dream or not he had just tasted Tyson's soft lips and he longed to taste them again, this time pushing his tongue into the other boy's mouth. To his surprise the other boy didn't struggle at all, in fact the soft moans he was making seemed to indicate that he was enjoying it. Tyson ran his fingers through Kai's soft light blue hair, but even softer were his lips, so warm, they tasted sweeter than he could have possibly imagined.

Gradually they pulled away due to the sad human need of oxygen. With the warmth of Tyson's body gone Kai suddenly found his self terrified. How would he react? He knew the smaller boy had wanted comfort but like this? He sat there panting now staring straight into Tyson's eyes. "Tyson…"

Unexpectedly he felt something gently caressing his cheek. Dropping his gaze he realised that it was Tyson who was stroking his cheek with his hand. Slowly he looked back into Tyson's chocolate eyes. He now saw the warmth in them and the finally the truth sank in. And as all sound seemed to fade he watched as the dark haired slowly mouthed the words 'I love you.' And feeling himself melt he too said without any hesitation the words 'I love you'.

Now he knew the reason why Tyson had really invited him here, and now he knew the reason why he accepted the boy's offer. And having being given the warmth that Tyson had shared with him he found that he could no longer close his feelings to him. Was this what peopled called love? Or perhaps it was one of those Christmas miracles which Tyson had spoke of. Hey, maybe Christmas wasn't so bad after all…

"I'll definitely have to take a photo of that smile." Spoke Tyson gently.

Giving a small laugh Kai carefully wrapped his arms around the smaller boy and held him. Both smiling they stared blissfully at the stars, the snow lightly falling. 

"Kirei! It's really beautiful… But not as beautiful as you…" said blue haired boy melting in his loves arms.

Kai gently snorted. "Stupid idiot…"

Authors Notes: I hope this chapter was okay and the ending wasn't too bad. Thanks to Natasha AKA: Tash, Kia, ShadowDragon22 and Ms Hobgoblin for reviewing last chapter. It's appreciated very much. A bigger thanks to TechnoRanma for all the encouragement! *blushes* I'm really happy you like my fic so much. ^__^ I hope the ending wasn't disappointing.

Any feedback or advice on how I could improve would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for reading!