Charles Carmichael vs Life

by WadeDT

Chuck is 2.0, trained and relocated to Rome. Charles Carmichael is leading a life of adventure and excitement, with a special woman in his life. Now a multi chapter, ongoing tale. FYI, in this tale Chuck is a flawed person, not a Saint. He is doing his best, making mistakes along the way. The one thing he knows is that he must become a real spy.

19. The Mission - Consequences

A/N 1:

Boy, I am making mistakes right and left. I managed to miss this when I did the massive Mission arc upload. It's a quick snap shot of Chuck's mindset. It was supposed to come before the July trilogy.

Until I can figure out how to incorporate it, I am going to insert it here. Consider it a flashback/reflection

Thanks for your patience with me.

A/N 2:

Don't own chuck.

The Mission - Consequences

Chuck is trying to find happiness where he can.

Like, actually seeing some of the places missions took him, grabbing a picture or two, for Ellie and Morgan.

Losing himself in the music at the clubs or the music from his extensive collection. Checking out new music was a pleasure he maintained, being able to work it into the gaps in his busy schedule.

Losing himself in the physicality of exercise, or the focus of martial arts training.

He is trying to think about nothing. He meditates to try to think about nothing.

Carina, living life at full throttle, eyes on the next adventure, had been slow to notice his decline. His diet, training, and still youthful recovery ability, offset the physical toll of missions, partying, and repressed sadness.

But his eyes told the story, or rather began to not tell the story. Carina used to fear the depths of his eyes, revealing his soul and totality, and in the process unveiling your own. Now the depth was gone. Staring into his eyes only got you to a screen of near emotionlessness.

He seemed perpetually slightly distracted and catching his attention seemed to supply only superficial awareness. Shades were down, walls were up, and emotions felt only in brief moments of distraction, and when Carina could extract some fire and passion.

The life of a spy is a life of adrenalin.

Carina is an adrenaline junkie, she lives for it.

Sarah accepts it as a compensation for all the bad stuff.

Chuck is depleted by it. He suffers the physical and emotional downsides of the bad things he does for the greater good. And, for him the adrenalin is closely associated with the following crash, so it engenders anxiety, not excitement.

Still, he finds happiness where he can.