I paced around my room as I looked at the messages exchanged between the others who will be going later too. We decided to prepare a gift that we all collectively contributed to, which Konoha, Komi and I handled. Still, I should probably get her a more personal gift aside from what we all did.

But what should I give her?

I'm not really sure what to give her... What's an appropriate gift for someone after they perform?

Maybe an omamori too? But if I give her an omamori, then it should be the goodluck one, and that should be given before their performance... I think they'll leave a little earlier so they can prepare. I could call her and tell her to meet me before their turn, but I don't think that's appropriate...

I decided to get out of my room and ask one of my sisters. I loitered nervously outside Kouha's room as I decided whether to knock or not. She's... Well, she loves listening to bands so she'll probably know.

I nervously loitered around her door as I decided on how to begin my question.

"What are you doing?" I heard Kouha ask from behind me. I turned around and saw her with a raised eyebrow and a bowl of popcorn in her hand.

"Well... I have a question?" She sighed before gently pushing me out of the way to her door and entering it, gesturing for me to follow after her. She sat in her bed and waited for me to ask my question. I dragged a chair from her desk and sat on it so I'm not awkwardly standing around.

"Er, so you know how Chuuya's competition is today right?" I played with my fingers as I talked. She nodded in affirmation so I continued. "Well, what's an appropriate gift for after a performance."

"Hmm." Kouha hummed. "Well, flowers for one. It's what musicians commonly receive after a competition. And it's a classic gift. It'll never go wrong."

Flowers don't sound that bad... Does she like flowers? I think she at least held interest in those because I see her picking a few when we hang out in the park or when we feed the cats...

"Then... What flowers should I give her?"

"I'm not sure... You can buy a premade bouquet or you could ask for a customized one with specific flowers. The second is more meaningful, but I'm not really sure what's the correct one since I'm not that knowledgeable in floriography. That's on Kougyoku's lane."

Before I could reply, I heard Kougyoku's voice from the door. We both turned around and saw her peeking in.

"I heard you say my name?"

"Great timing." Kouha drawled. "'Tarou here is asking what flowers he should give Chuuyou since he wants a customized one."

"Hmm..." Kougyoku hummed as she thought while the two watched her expectantly. Her face brightened and she clapped her hands in excitement. "I have an idea. Do you have a pen and paper so I could just write it?" Kouha pointed to her desk. After writing what flowers to buy, she told me where and what time to get them tomorrow. There is one near Ginzu that opens at 10 in the morning till 5. Luckily, that's just a short ride for me so I could just place an order in the morning and come back to it right before we leave...

· · ·

"HELLO!" I greeted the lady at the counter before sauntering in there.

"What can I help you with?" She greeted me warmly. She looks like a calm and reserved type of person, so she strangely reminds me of someone. Especially that cat-like gaze of hers. Feels awfully familiar, but I can't quite put my finger on it.

"Can I buy these?" I said as I took out the list from my pocket and gave it to her. The lady at the counter hummed as she read through the list I gave her. She did a double take at the list before smiling, which made me feel more at ease. That means those flowers were fine.

"I'll prepare this for you. Do you mind waiting."

"Not at all!"

· · ·

I sighed and continued staring at the flower bouquet that's in my lap. The lady really did a nice job on this. It was worth every yen I spent. I let the chatter of my friends fill the air in the train as I remembered the rest of my conversation with Kougyoku and Kouha yesterday right after talking about the flowers.

-

Anyways. How's your relationship with Chuuyou?" Kougyoku asked.

"I mean... We're still very close friends if you're asking?" He said unsurely.

"Close friends?" Kouha emphasized while staring at him. The stare made him feel uncomfortable and (fidget?) on his seat. Koutarou knows what his sisters are implying. He also knows that they won't leave him alone until he comes clean with them. After inwardly debating whether it's worth the hassle of them bothering him or not, he sighed.

"Fine... So I sorta have feelings for her... it may or may not be a small crush..." Koutarou admitted. Both his sisters squealed in delight at the admission of their younger brother.

"Are you sure it's just a small crush though?" Kougyoku teased while poking him. Koutarou was determined not to say anything more, so Kougyoku pouted and stopped what she was doing.

"It is." He said firmly.

-

I slightly tilted the flower bouquet to see the other parts. It really is made finely. It's worth the money I spent, even if I saved that up for a long time. I hope she'll like it. And as for that conversation with my sister...

It's partially true.

I sighed and looked at the window of the train to watch the scenery to take my mind off of that conversation.

I felt my scarf (the one she made for me) slightly loosen up from my neck. I tightened it before continuing to stare at the window, and I found myself thinking about her again.

I'm already sure that I like her. Not just a small crush. I had a lot of those before, but none of them feels as intense as this. None of them made me feel like I'm constantly seeking her in every moment I can. None of them makes me feel like my heart is beating so rapidly that it might burst. None of them made me feel so happy and content when just seeing her. None of them made me feel as strong as this.

The only conclusion I could come up with is that I'm in love with her. I mean, that makes sense right? What else could this be?

I might be confused at times. Maybe a little oblivious as well...

But I'm not completely hopeless.

I'm not really sure when it began, or how long it had been going on. Just one day, I realized that I'm already in love with her.

And I don't like this one bit.

I remember that she and 'Kaashi had a conversation about why their band name was Aesir. Apparently, Aesir was something important to Norse mythology? And Chuuyou thought it sounded cool. Then they talked about more Norse mythology... Then about the deities and gods of not just Norse mythology, but others as well.

Why they were talking about that, I'm not entirely sure... And I think both of them aren't exactly that religious, but it seemed like a good conversation for the two of them. Even if I actually didn't understand anything.

Anyways, she mentioned something about the... I think it was the book of Genesis? About the first man and woman and a garden? The man and the woman lived peacefully in the garden... I think it was called Eden... Everything was fair game to the man and woman, except for the tree fruit in the middle of the garden. The God has forbidden them from eating fruit from there because... I forgot the actual reason... I think they obeyed the God until a serpent came along and tempted the woman into eating it and then she shared it with the man. And then everything turned for the worst for the man and woman. I think? Is that how it went?

I'm getting off topic here...

But yeah. I think I could compare to that.

For me, liking Chuuyou is like the forbidden fruit in the garden of Eden. Along with how you shouldn't like your older sister's friend, or your friend's older or younger sibling. It's something you shouldn't even think of doing. There's so many things that could go wrong with that.

I wanted to tell her. I really do. Everyday, I wish I could just go to her and tell her! I'm tempted to just go and tell her, but if I do, everything could go downhill, you know?

Like how in the story, everything went downhill when the woman gave into the temptation of something forbidden, our friendship could burn to ashes if I say something.

I'm aware that I'm not the easiest person to deal with. I'm too loud, too talkative, too easily distracted, and hyper, and too moody. And- and- there's so many things wrong with me. It's hard finding people that could accept me from who I am. My friends already did -and I'm forever grateful for that- they accepted that and had worked over that, but it took them a long time to get used to me.

Chuuyou though? She easily accepted me. She didn't tell me to shut up when I keep rambling, nor tune me out completely. Instead, she listened to everything I said and stayed with me even if it took me three hours rambling on a completely random topic. And when I apologized, she told me she likes hearing me! Even 'Kashi's not the patient with me. She also doesn't tell me that I'm dumb for doing something because I was curious and just wanted to know more about topics I'm not really familiar with but seems like a pretty basic knowledge to others. And- and, it's like she knows when I'm down and needs help. Even if it's not that serious, like a cat completely ignoring me, or something big like the time I cried during our defeat at the nationals, she still tries to cheers me up! Or the little things like the gifts she places in my desk. I love seeing those, and I try to do the same thing for her if I could.

And I don't want anything to happen to that.

Our friendship means so much to me- I don't want anything to happen to that. I don't want to ruin that because of me confessing. I'm already content with what we have.

Even If I have to fight the urge to tell her what I feel everyday, I would.

I could endure that much. Even if I really want to tell her to the point that it's a little painful, even if I have to watch her fall in love with somebody else one day, I won't say anything. I could settle into us being just 'best friends' forever if it meant that I would get to be with her.

"Bokuto-san, we're near our stop." I snapped out of my thoughts as I felt Akaashi gently tap my shoulder. I mustered everything I could to smile and look excited as I followed them exit the train.

· · ·

As they walked to the area where the competition was held, Akaashi slowed his steps until he's completely on the back of the crowd next to Kenma. They watched as Kuroo and Konoha made fun of Koutarou for bringing flowers while he tried to stop them from teasing him.

"Do you think he knows the meaning of those flowers?" Kenma suddenly blurted to Akaashi.

"Probably not." Akaashi replied. He then looked curiously at Kenma once he fully realized what he asked. "Wait, do you?"

"...yeah." Kenma admitted. When Akaashi only looked at him with a slightly raised eyebrow, Kenma shrunk. "My mother is a florist. She owns a small shop near Ginzu."

"Makes sense." Akaashi shrugged. "What are those flowers and what do they mean exactly? The roses are the only ones I recognized."

"I think there's Gladiolus, White lilies, the pink roses, and the single red rose in the center." Kenma mumbled. "Individually, they have different meanings. The gladiolus, if I'm correct, meant sincerity. The white lillies are purity. Then the pink roses are appreciation, and a single red rose means love at first sight..."

"Huh..." Akaashi said thoughtfully. "That's... Those... Those are oddly specific..."

"You think he's now self aware and bought those on purpose?"

"I'm not sure." Akaashi squinted. "Bokuto-san can be the most oblivious person, that even the most obvious thing in the world, he would still brush past it, but he also says or does wise things ever so often that you'll be surprised..." Akaashi recalled the Venus flytrap from Kuroo's gift that, surprisingly, is still alive. Kuroo did include a very detailed 21-page manual he personally made (it even had sketches and image guides, along with some scientific jargon and random facts about the Venus flytrap) about how to care for the plant, which Koutarou followed down to every letter.

All of them were thinking that the plant wouldn't last five days before dying (the others even had a betting pool about it), but it's been more than a month and the venus flytrap is still as healthy as ever. At this point, it should have been embedded in their minds that they should not underestimate Bokuto Koutarou.

"By the way, have you peeked at the banner they made?" Kenma said while slightly gesturing to Konoha, who was carrying the banner.

"No." 'And I have a bad feeling about that...'

· · ·

I let myself get lost in the crowd as I watched her walk up the stage, her guitar hanging on her shoulder. We were standing in the back, the banner we made was strewn wide. It's the first time I'm seeing her on a stage. Sure I've heard directly from her, and some from conversations with our schoolmates when they talked about their band, but seeing it personally is a whole new experience.

I'm really excited about their song. She was really secretive and didn't let me peek! I rarely go to things like this since none of my family are musically inclined since we all went to sports. Kougyoku does karate while Kouha is in her college's Kyudo team. Even mom, back in her younger days, used to be a pretty good track and field player. The only times I think I saw a… music performance? Are the ones Kouha forcefully dragged me into.

I shookt away my thoughts as the go signal was given. Then they started playing their instruments. And then she started singing- and just like that, my attention was just focused on her.

-

When you see the crimson leaves

Can you hear my whispery?

Like I'm calling out those memories in ecstacy

-

She does have a soothing voice. It's... Well... I'm not a musician, so I don't know the exact terms to describe it but, it's the one where the voice isn't that high and pitchy, but also not deep either.

-

All the places we could be

All the faces we could see

All the dreams that we could dream.

-

That probably would be amazing! I mean, going to different places with her. We already explored a lot of places because we both like to wander, and I want that some more! I can literally travel the world barefoot as long as I'm with her. After this, maybe I could ask her to go somewhere else too...

-

You are like sunshine duration

Shining for the population

People praise for you

-

My favourite time with her was... I don't have a favorite. I like everything! Maybe when she gave me this scarf?

I unconsciously placed my hand on my scarf and felt the fabric. I'm torn between using this everyday and not using this at all. She did put so much effort into doing this for me, so I should not be wasting this and let it rot in the closet. But since it's from her, I don't want anything to happen to this! Using it might cause it to accidentally tear or for the ends to fray.

-

There are sparkles from the sky

Though it's beautiful but I

Know it's time to say goodbye

-

I sharply inhaled as I heard that line, since that's what it feels like everytime I spend time with her. Everything just feels so beautiful- so right. And even though I wish those times would never end, we do need to part ways too! Like when we walk together. As much as I like that to continue longer, we both need to rest and we live in different streets.

-

You are my sunshine duration.

-

The timing was right in that part, when she looked down from staring at the sky- how she's singing and playing the guitar in front of the crowd without looking at any of that and not making a mistake is amazing itself!- And it's like the sound of the crowd was drowned and it's only her that I see and hear- just the two of us in this place, alone.

Maybe- maybe I'm assuming things too much here but I feel like she's looking directly at me too, like how I'm looking at her. Maybe- she was thinking of the same thing I'm thinking about...

Those are some wistful thoughts.

I lightly sighed as I immediately got rid of my assumption. I do feel a little disappointed. She might be looking at the crowd, or a tree or something else, so I shouldn't assume things.

I still wish it was that though.

· · ·

When I saw her taking off from walking, I had an inkling about what she's gonna do. My immediate reaction was to give the bouquet to Akaashi and catch her. I felt her arm wrapping around me as she

"YOU WERE AMAZING OUT THERE!" I felt her lift her head without removing herself from the hug and look at me. I got a face full of her expression from our near proximity with each other.

"You really think so?" Her eyes wide and sparkling from the excitement and her smile so radiant.

"I KNOW SO!" A laugh escaped on her lips as she hugged me tighter. Of course, I did the same. I know I already hugged her a lot of times before, but I can't seem to stop my heart from fluttering in excitement every time. If anything, it's like it's going stronger as the number of times we hugged increased.

I don't know how many minutes have passed, but I know that we have to stop eventually. I inwardly sighed and desperately fought off the urge to keep the hug longer. While I know that it's normal for friends to hug, it's not normal when one of the said friends is already feeling something more than platonic.

I reluctantly let go of her, with her following right after me. No words were spoken between us- we were just looking at each other. My gaze landed on her hair, which is slightly ruffled from the long hug. A strand of her hair fell down on her face, but she didn't seem to notice. I lifted my hand and tucked that strand behind her ear, making sure my actions were as gentle as I could. I then let my hand rest on her shoulder as we continued looking towards each other.

I don't know what came into me when I started slightly leaning my face forward- or is this downward? She is shorter than me-, with her doing the same.

We were just a mere few more inches close to each other when we heard a voice pop from beside us.

"Congrats! You guys were good." A guy with a… there's no nice word to say this. A badly cut hair with an equally badly done dye… Maybe that was intentional? I mean… no one would want a hair that looks like it was chopped by a dull, small knife and spaghetti sauce was poured all over it.

The trance I was in before was suddenly shattered as I quickly pulled away and looked at the direction of the voice.

"Oh! Jinsung!" I heard her say from beside me. They started talking, but I tuned them out as I focused on my own thoughts.

What was that earlier?

I couldn't be l- she-

Damn it.

I don't even know how to start with this one.

Why did I do that? And why did I lean in after-

...I just realized that a few more inches closer and we could have been kissing each other.

I felt warmness rise up on my cheeks and ears at that thought. I bit the bottom of my lip as a mental image of us formed in my mind which I chased away immediately. I don't have a mirror right now but I know I'm blushing. I tugged my scarf higher to cover my face. This is so embarrassing. I just want to hide in a hole or something.

I need a distraction.

I snapped out of my thoughts and tried listening in to their conversation again. They don't seem like they want me to leave so I stayed. I can't help myself from blurting "Who's Dowoon?"

"Oh! Quick introductions first. Kou, this is Lee Jinsung. He's from luck and logic and they haven't performed yet. Jinsung, this is Bokuto Koutarou. He's a volleyball player." We silently acknowledged each other without saying a word and let Chuuyou continue talking. "Dowoon, his younger brother-" she gestured at Lee, who only nodded "-is my friend way back when we were 4."

I felt a wave of possessiveness when they mentioned this Dowoon guy. She looked like she was reminiscing about something and she talks to him so fondly- as if she was longing for him. I don't like this.

I hate this.

I immediately got rid of that thought as I reminded myself I have no right- I'm not her boyfriend- I'm just her friend. We're just friends. I have no right to be mad about that.

At least it did the job of getting rid of my earlier train of thoughts.

They waved goodbye to each other and we watched Lee disappear from our sight. I looked around and noticed that the others were gone and were staying in a corner a bit far away from us. They probably got bored and moved, since we were kinda ignoring them.

We arrived where the others were and I remembered that I still haven't given her my gift.

I broke away from her a bit to go to Akaashi as she went ahead to talk to Kenma. He silently gave me the bouquet and pushed me away. I took a deep breath before marching back to where she was.

"SO UHM-" I slightly winced at my loud voice. "I sorta forgot to give this to you earlier. Yeah. Congratulations for the amazing performance."

"Oh thank you! You didn't have to get me one, since you guys apparently made that banner already." She almost let out a laugh disguised as a cough. Tilting the bouquet side to side to see it more clearly, her eyes sparkled at a particular flower."You know, Japanese lilies are my favorite."

I got a surge of happiness when I heard that bit. I'm glad that I was lucky enough to buy her favourite out of all flowers available.

"REALLY?"

"Yeah." She paused as she continued looking at the flowers. "Aside from looking elegant and alluring, they have a lot of interesting things associated with them. In Hanakotoba, lilies have different meanings depending on their color. For example, the Shirayuri here-" She lightly touched one of the smaller lillies in the bouquet. "-symbolizes purity. Sayuri symbolizes hatred and revenge. Oniyuri symbolizes wealth. Lastly, the Manjushage, or more commonly known as the Higanbana, symbolizes final goodbye." She finished her speech without looking up from the flowers.

"That's a sad meaning for a beautiful flower." I noted at the Higanbana. I think that was the one often associated with death in festivals.

"Maybe so. But it got its meaning because of where it blooms. Higanbana often thrives in dense graves in cemeteries, or in Buddhist temples and Shinto shrines. It is also used to drive away pests in farmland, since it is poisonous. In summary, Higanbana just got it's bad rep because it is associated with poison, death, and religion."

"It would be a bit freaky seeing a red flower stemming on a grave when you just want to visit a deceased important someone." I nodded. Imagine that. You were just visiting the cemetery at night and then you see a bright red flower blooming in the tombstone... Yeah no.

"I'd like to think that Higanbana's meaning of final goodbye isn't necessarily about death though." She added as she turned the bouquet around. "For me, it can mean that the two people are just permanently parting ways. Maybe something happened that forced them to be apart from each other."

"That's still very sad to think about. I don't think I could bear it if I was forced to say goodbye to someone special without a chance of seeing them again..."

"I mean, anyone wouldn't, of course. But atleast, thinking about that is better than thinking that they already died. It gives you hope that maybe they're actually doing better in another country, or were able to advance in their desired careers, or maybe they might have found peace with themselves."

"True." I was about to continue when I felt Kenma stand up and walk away. I honestly completely forgot he was there for a moment, since I was sorta busy with her.

"Aw." She sighed before turning her attention from the stage to me. "I wanna hug you again."

"Do you really like my hugs that much?" I asked as I went behind her and gave her a hug she wanted. I rested my chin on her head and made sure I wasn't holding her too tight- just something acceptable for two friends. This is fine. I mean, she is the one who asked and I'm doing just what she said. This is fine.

"You give the best hugs. I would be hugging you again if I was holding this." Chuuyou said. We both laughed at her joke as we watched the rest of the other contestants perform. Well, I wasn't watching. I was recalling the remainder of my conversation with my sisters earlier.

-

"She gives you those things? And very often at that?" Kougyoku asked with a raised brow.

"Yeah."

"Huh. Sounds like she's been courting you." At the mention of the word, Koutarou remembered a joke Chuuyou made at his birthday.

"I mean... She did say that as a joke..."

"As a joke? When was she doing all those things for you after?" Kougyoku asked unimpressed.

"Probably? I mean-"

"That doesn't sound like she was joking to me." Kouha shrugged.

"Well... She never explicitly said anything about liking me..."

"SHE WOULDN'T DO ALL THOSE THINGS IF SHE DOESN'T LIKE YOU!" Kougyoku slammed her hands on her lap. "Don't expect her to do everything, 'Tarou. You have to meet her halfway!" Kougyoku sighed in exasperation. "And you're the one who should be courting her in the first place, not the other way around! Man up!" She continued chastising.

-

She liking me back? Yeah right. That's a good joke. If only it was true.

I wish for us to be just more than friends, but I shouldn't be greedy. I'm already blessed enough when I met her- I shouldn't be trying to ask for more.

I gotta set a boundary for myself- I can't keep slipping like this all over the place. But I can't quite distance myself from her either! When she was so busy for one whole week she didn't even have the time to talk to me, i felt- i dunno? Heartbroken? I don't think I could bear that, but I can't exactly fumble like this every time she's there.

Oh god. I need to get a grip on my feelings.

· · ·

"Why did you suddenly leave there?" Akaashi asked curiously once Kenma sat next to him.

"I can't stand them. The sexual tension between them is so fucking high." Kenma complained to Akaashi. "Look at them!" Kenma pointed at the two of them as Koutarou wrapped his arms around her.

"Pfft..." Akaashi laughed softly at the two people as he watched them.

"And we have to endure a few more hours of them as we wait for the results to be announced." Kenma sighed.

· · ·

"Well, second place isn't that bad." Chuuyou said as the two of them sat on the ground and watched other people leave. The sky already darkened, since it's almost 8 already.

"I think you guys were way better than the first place." Koutarou muttered.

"Pfft. I don't think so. If anything, we weren't expecting to place at all, since this is our first time performing roc-" They were interrupted by loud voices coming from behind them.

"Jinsung! Hi again!" Chuuyou waved. "You guys were amazing! Though, what happened to Jason? Your vocalist was different." She looked at the person from behind Jinsung. "And hello to you too."

"Jason's got in a little accident with his bike, so he's filling in for him. We posted an ad online and he took it." Jinsung said and pushed the said guy Infront. The guy glared at him before turning his attention to Chuuyou and Koutarou.

"Uh. Hi. I'm Semi Eita." He introduced himself while slightly bowing.

"Nice to meet you, Semi-san. I'm Ishinomori Chuuyou." She greeted back.

"He's a good guy. He travelled all the way from Miyagi every week to practice with us." Jinsung nodded while patting him on the back. "You sure you don't want to join us? I'm sure Jason wouldn't mind. In fact, I think he'll like it even more if he could focus on bass rather than being the main vocalist."

"I don't think I could manage. I also play volleyball, so I don't think I could be a full time member yet." Semi said regretfully.

"Ah. That's unfortunate. But our offer still stands. Just ring us if you change your mind."

"Maybe when I graduate? I don't think I'll be pursuing volleyball in college..." Semi said.

Chuuyou dragged Koutarou from his arm as she followed Semi and Jinsung to get their prizes. 20,000 yen is the price for second place, which isn't that bad.

After collecting their prize, they all gathered to go home together. At this point, the place was almost devoid of people, save for the other contestants who also stayed, or the staff cleaning the area.

Making sure that everyone's fine, they headed to the subway with Tsukiko separating in the parking area for her own car (since she couldn't bring her drums on the subway). The ride in the subway was a little quiet compared to their usual enthusiasm filled ones, since most of them were tired already.

"No way! So what team is Semi-san from?" Chuuyou whispered to Koutarou.

"It was Shiratorizawa. You know, the team with Ushiwaka."

"You mean Ushijima?" Koutarou nodded. "Huh. I can't believe it! I didn't recognize him since I know no one who plays volleyball aside from you guys."

"I was surprised too, since our team played against them a lot of times before."

They continued their whispered talks for the duration of the subway ride to Tokyo. After waving goodbye to the others since they arrived on their stops, they walked together to their own homes.

"Well. So this is it." Chuuyou said as she faced him. He insisted on walking her to her house since it was already completely dark outside except for the streetlights. "Let's just see each other again next week. I can't believe you guys actually came when you're leaving tomorrow for your training camp.

"We leave at 8 anyways, since Shinzen's not that far. I swear it won't affect our sleep schedules. And the guys actually wanted to come and support you."

"Still..." At Koutarou's pointed look, she sighed. "Fine. It already happened anyway... Not like I could do anything about it anymore. Anyways. Thanks again for coming. And the banner. And this." She gestured at the bouquet with a slight giggle."

"Of course!" She smiled at him one last time today and gave him a quick one hand hug. "Get home safe, yeah?"

"I will."

· · ·

On the opposite house of Chuuyou, a person was standing in front of a window with curtains that's partly opened. He watched the scene play out in front of him while glancing at the conversation in his phone ever so often.

Reject Elmo 10:57

You might wanna be coming home earlier if you don't want your precious childhood friend be taken away from you

Tinky-winky 11:12

What? What happened?

Reject Elmo 11:17

I saw Chuuyou with this guy earlier. And they look pretty intimate with each other, I must say.

Tinky-winky 11:18

Impossible

Tinky-winky 11:18

That can't be right.

Tinky-winky 11:19

I was only gone for four years.

Reject Elmo 11:20

And you thought she would be single for the entire duration of that? That she would just be silently waiting for you when there's nothing in you two in the first place?

Tinky-winky 11:21

Whatever. I was scheduled to go back in December, but I can come earlier. Let me just sort it out.

Tinky-winky 11:22

I'll come back to Japan next week

Exams are finally over and i swear to- ahHHHh i think i downed more than 10 cans of red bull and monster the past week alone, excluding the fact that i also had several mugs of coffee... This probably ain't healthy but yeah... I was so close to trying to mix redbull in my coffee to see what happens shsjsjks.

Anyways, I think I could return to my regular schedule of 2-5 days interval between updates... I hope . I still need to catch up to sleep. My whole schedule is fucked- my update schedule, my sleeping schedule etc.

Personal shit aside, the lyrics were from sunshine duration by 'sing sing rabbit'. Or, if you play mobile rhythm games, Cherry punk from cytus 2. I really like her songs along with Ivy. Aesir (the band name) was actually another reference to that game.

Anyways:

Hanakotoba (floriography) - The japanese term for the language of flowers.

Shirayuri - White lily

Sayuri - orange lily

Oniyuri - Tiger lily

Higanbana/Manjushage - Red spider lily