As I Lay Me Down Ch. 9--Sweet Child Of Mine
Giles sat in the E.R. holding Buffy's hand while she waited for the doctor's too return with the results. "Did you call my mom?"Buffy asked raising her head to look at Giles. "Yes, she's on her way." "Good." "Is there anyone else you want me to call? Willow, Xander, anyone?" "No." "Not even Spike?" "Especially not Spike."
Giles nodded his head and she laid her's back down on the pillow.
"I can't tell him."she explained,"If the baby servives maybe. But not yet. This was his one chance to be a father, and I might have blown it." "Buffy, your child is a fighter. Just like you. And just like it's father." "You keep reminding me of that okay."
Just then the doctor,Michael M. Laxerith,entered the room, holding Buffy's medical chart. She propped herself up on her arms and said a silent prayer. "Well Miss Summers. I have the results right here."Doctor Laxerith told her sitting on the end of the bed. "What does it say?" "Your baby is fine. In fact, it is better than fine. But you do need to be careful, okay?" "Yes Sir."
(Cordelia's house)
"Oh my god!"Cordelia exclaimed. On the door step was Conner wrapped up tightly in a blanket, sitting calmly in his carseat. Cordy picked him up and brought him inside, shutting the door behind her. "Angel, you've got to see this."she told him excitedly. "What is it?"he asked turning towards her; when he saw his son in Cordelia's arms a smile spread on his face, "Is that..." "Connor? Yeah, it is."
They both took a seat on the sofa and Angel gently took his son out of the carseat. They were both shocked.
"How did this happen?"Angel asked holding the child close to him. "I'm as shocked as you are. I have no idea how he got here." "Well he's here, and that's all that matter's."
(Sunnydale hospital)
Joyce Summer's sat rubbing her daughter's hair and just listening to what she had to say.
"And, I mean, at first I wasn't sure how I felt about it. I mean, it's mine and no matter what I'll love it, you know, but when I thought that I could have lost it, my feelings all came to the surface." Buffy wipped her eyes with a tissue and continued with what she was saying. "I want this baby more than I ever knew. I can't even put it into words. Why was realizing that so hard?" "It's supposed to be hard. If it weren't everyone would want to do it."Joyce told her. "That's great mom, you're quoting 'A League of Their Own' now?"Buffy asked letting out a small laugh. "It's good to see you laugh. So, when are the doctor's letting you out of here?" "They want to keep an eye on me tomorrow, to make sure that there's nothing wrong with me. So they said Friday at the earliest."
(Babys 'R' Us) Angel pushed the shoping cart through the story while Cordelia held Connor, who was fast asleep in his car seat, in her arms.
"Look at this!"Cordelia exclaimed pointing, with her empty hand, at a blue onesy with teddy bears on the sleeves. "Isn't it a little expensive?"Angel asked looking at the price tag. "It is, but look at it. It's adorable!" "Fine, put it in the cart." "Thank you!"
Cordelia put Connor in the front of the cart and reached up to grab it.
From behind them someone asked, "Cordy Chase?" She turned around and it took a minute for her to put a name to the face in front of her,"Oh my god! Trust?!" "Cordy, it is you!"
They both hugged each other and squeeled quietly.
"What are you doing here?"Cordelia asked. "Shopping, for a girl in my dorm's baby shower. What are you doing here?" "Shopping too." Connor started to fuss and Cordelia relized that introductions were in order.
"God where is my brain at? Trust, this is Angel and this,"she said taking Connor out of his carrier,"is our son Connor. Trust used to be on the cheerleading squad with me last year." "Nice to meet you."Angel said. "Nice to meet you too. I had no idea that you had a son Cordy. But I guess it's not that surprising, I mean you were the one that we always said would get pregnant first."
(Sunnydale hospital) Spike rushed through the hospital doors and up to the first Nurses Station that he saw.
"Excuse me, ma'am, 'could you tell me where I could find Buffy Summers?"Spike asked getting the attention on one of the nurses. "Room 730, down the hall."she told him going back to her work.
Spike hurried to room 730 and slowly opened the door.
"Buffy?"He asked cautiously. "Spike, hi."She said groggily. "Hi." He took a seat in the chair next to her, and held her hand. "How did you find out I was in here?" "Giles tracked me down. He told me that you were hurt." "Yeah. I was on patrol and I guess I didn't block a kick or something, it all happened so fast, and the next thing I knew I was in extream pain being rushed to the hospital." "Is anything seriously wrong?" 'This is it.'Buffy thought,'If you tell him now there's no turning back. This decision is going to change both of your lifes.' "No. Just a couple bruised muscles. They want to keep me here for observations, though." "That's good. Better safe than sorry, right?" "Right."
Buffy felt so much guilt at that moment for chickening out. She knew he had the right to know, but what if he didn't want to be a father. What if he freaked out when she told him and left town. But of course he could also be thrilled. This is his chance to have something normal, something that he has never had.
"What did you tell your mom when she asked about what happened to you?"Spike asked, bringing Buffy out of her thoughts. "I told her that I was at the library studying and I triped and fell down some stairs, and Giles found me and took me here." "So, where is she now?" "She went home to get me some stuff, and to call my dad." "Oh. Do you think he's going to come and see you?" "Doubt it. See, you don't know my dad. Work is way more inportant than his family. Always has been." "That can't honestly be true. I mean if I found out that my daughter was in the hospital, I would drop everything I was doing, to see here and make sure that everything's okay." "I know you would."Buffy said smiling through the tears that were rising in her eyes,"Look, I think I should get some rest." "I totally understand." Spike stood up to leave, but Buffy stopped him. "Could you stay with me?"She asked,"I mean at least until my mom get's back." "Sure." He sat back down and rubbed Buffy's head until she fell asleep.
As I lay me down chapter 10--Pressure
The clock in Buffy's hospital room struck 9 o' clock. She let out a sigh, and gently rubbed her stomach. It had only been an hour since she woke up and already she was bored. There was a knock on the door and Buffy let out an aggitated, "Come in." The door opened and Cordelia walked in with a balloon that read 'Get Well Soon' in Pink and Blue, a bag full of stuff, and a baby carrier. "Cordy, what are you doing here?" "Well,"She said setting the carrier down on the chair, by the bed,"my first class is really dull, as you know, and we're having an assembly today. So, this morning, when I heard about you being in here, I decided to drop by and bring you some stuff to keep you occupied." "I definetly need that. But uh-- what's up with the carrier?" "Oh, that's Connor. Connor Angel Chase" "Chase? How is he related to you?" "He's Angel and my son."Cordelia told her, and then took it back, "Well, he's not my son by birth, but I've been there from the day he was born. Helping Angel with him and stuff." "So he's Angel's son too? How exactly did that happen?" "Well when two people love each other very much..." "I know how it happened, but who's the mother? The birth mother?" "Darla." "Darla!?"Buffy nearly screamed, but then remembered that there was a baby in the room, "Angel and Darla got together? But Darla died." "Yes she did, then she was brought back by this pycho law firm, and then she died again while giving birth to Connor."Cordelia explained and then changed the subject, "Do you want to see what I brought you or what?" "Sure."
Buffy moved over and Cordelia sat down beside her, on the bed. She pulled out of the bag: three or four magazines, a box of chocolates, a book of mad-libs, a pen set, and a Scooby-Doo coloring book, along with crayons.
"Thank you Cor. I really appreciate all of this. And I don't want to sound rude or anything, but I'm really tired, and I could use some rest." "I totally understand."Cordelia told her, standing up and taking ahold of Connor's carseat. "I'll see you later." "Yeah."
Buffy closed her eyes and pretended to fall asleep until she heard Cordelia walk out, and the door shut behind her. Then slowly Buffy opened her eyes, picked up the phone next to her, and dialed Angel's number. After three or four rings Angel finally answered, "Angel, hi it's me....I'm sorry to wake you up, but I need to talk to you about something....I can't really tell you over the phone. Can you meet me?...You can? Good. Tonight at the hospital....yeah, I'm okay. Just come by room 730 shortly after sunset, okay....Okay."
(Sunnydale High) Willow and Xander sat in the aditorium not listening to a word that the speaker on stage was saying.
"So, we're going to see Buffy after school right?"Willow asked "Definetly." "You know that Giles is keeping something from us, don't you Xand?" "You saw it too huh. There was something in his eyes. He's worried about her. He's worried that she's not going to survive whatever's going on." "You really don't think that it's that bad, do you?" "I hope it's not, but we've seen that look in his eyes before, and it wasn't good then either."
(Sunnydale Hospital)
That afternoon Buffy sat writing in her diary. Diary, I'm in the hospital. I got hurt last night on patrol and Giles rushed me here. And yes, Giles knows about the baby. He knows that the baby is Spike's and believe it or not he doesn't seem to be upset. And my mom also know's. She was a diffrent story. Giles called her and told her that I was in the hospital and she came rushing over here. At first she just wanted to make sure I was okay. And when she knew I was she asked me what happened, and I told her, sort of. I told her that I was at the library studying for my math test and I was leaving and I fell down the stairs. And then I told her that when I was falling all I worried about was my baby. Saying that she was shocked and outraged is an understatment. She started off on this whole rant about how I'm only 16 and how I don't know the first thing about taking care of another life. About that time I started to cry and cry and cry. She appologied and then we talked. I told her that it was Spike's and she asked me if I was keeping it. I told her yes, and that I'm going to raise it. Then I relized that I had just made my first parental decision. And not to long after that I made my second. Spike stopped by. We talked and I didn't tell him about the baby. I felt so sick because I didn't tell him, but I was afraid of what would happen if I did. What if he didn't want to be a father? What if he left us. But then again there was the idea in the back of my head that he would want this child, that he would want to be a father to this baby. I know we wouldn't be able to be the ideal family; white picked fence, dog, a mother that can take her child to school plays and recitals, and a father that can teach his kid to ride a bike or coach the little league team. But we could be a family right? A mother and a father and a child,
A knock at the door brought Buffy back into reality.
"Come in."She called shutting her diary and leaning back on her pillow. "Hey." Xander said walking in the door followed by Willow carrying a pot of flowers, "How are you doing?" "I'm heavily medicated for your safety."she replied with a yawn. "We brought you flowers."Willow said setting the flowers down. "Thank you."
Xander and Willow sat down on the bed and Buffy took a deep breath.
"So Giles told you about last night?"she asked. "Yeah."Xander said nodding his head. "Did he tell you everything?" "What do you mean everything?"Willow asked confused. "I'm pregnant."
Both of her friends looked at her, with their jaws down on the floor.
"You're what?!"They both asked in shock. "I'm pregnant." "Oh my god."Willow whispered, while Xander still sat there in shock. "How far along are you?"he finally asked. "Three months" "Oh my god."The redhead whispered again "I'm due around the end of April sometime." "Who's the baby's father?"Willow asked. "Spike." "Spike!?"Xander shrieked "Calm down Xander."Willow said, finally speaking up.
He stood up and began pacing around the room.
"You've known him how long? A month? Did you even know him when the two of you slept together?" "Xander! God, is that what you think of me? Do you see me as some kind of slut bunnie or something?!" "You know what? I can't do this, I've got to get out of here. Willow, are you staying here or coming with me?" "I'm staying here."
(Angel's apartment)
Angel sat feeding Connor, while Cordelia tried to get through the book she was reading.
"So did you hear that Buffy's in the hospital?"Angel asked. "Yeah, I did."Cordelia told him,"Connor and I went to see her today. How'd you find out?" "She called me. She wants me to come over tonight." "Why?" "She didn't tell me."
They both were quiet for a while until Cordelia exclaimed, "Oh my god! It's so ovious, why didn't I think of it before?! Buffy wants you to come see her because she wants to tell that she still loves you!" "She doesn't love me." "Come on now Angel. The two of you are soulmates. For some reason you always have been and always will be." "Will you drop it?" "Just think about it Angel. Just think about it."
(Sunnydale Hospital)
Three hours after she fell asleep, Buffy opened her eyes and saw Willow sitting in the exact spot that she was in three hours ago. "Your still here?"Buffy asked sitting up. "Yeah. I thought maybe you'd want a friend to talk to." "I cannot believe that Xander got so pissed off at me." "He loves you. Finding out that you're carrying someone else's child probably broke his heart."
The memory of Cordelia telling her that Connor was Angel's, filled Buffy's head. Even though she didn't love Angel anymore, she couldn't say that it didn't hurt to hear that he had, had a child with another woman. What hurt even worse was the fact that he didn't tell her.
"I know."Buffy said comming out of her thoughts,"But it still hurts." "So, let's get onto a more possitive topic. You're three months pregnant, huh."
A smile grew on Buffy's face, Willow always was one to make her smile even when she wanted to cry. "Yeah."she said, "I am." "Are you going to want to know what the sex of it is or not?" "I don't think so. I mean I'll have to ask Spike, but there's something about having the doctor say, you know, 'Congradulations, it's a girl' or whatever makes it real. You know that you've got a daughter or a son. You're possitive, you're not just you know walking around going 'It could be a boy, or the sonogram could have been wrong and it's really a girl.' You know?" "It sounds to me like you really want to have a girl." "I just want it to be healthy. As long as it is I'll be trippin' about whatever sex it is." Willow raised her eyebrow, "Trippin'?"she asked. "Never mind."
(Sunnydale Hospital, Later)
Buffy laid in bed staring up at the ceiling counting the tiles when Angel opened the door. "Hey."he said, "How you doing?" "I'm tired, but other than that I'm doing okay." Angel sat down next to her, "Let's just jump right to the point. Cordelia and I talked and she told me why you wanted me to come see you." "She did?"Buffy asked worried, "How did she find out?" "She said it was ovious." Buffy placed a hand on her stomach and asked "Is it? Ovious I mean." "Well, I didn't think it was. But now that I'm here, I can see that it is." "So you know. Well, come on, give it to me." "I'm confused. Give what to you?" "The whole 'you're throwing your life away' speech. Oh, or how about the 'you're only sixteen' one. Take your pick. I've heard them both already." "Buffy, why would I give you a speech? In fact, I think it's kinda cute." "Cute? You're the first one to say that to me." Angel leaned closer to her, "Buffy, I've heard of lot's of people falling back in love with their high school boyfriend or girlfriend." "Woah, woah, woah! Back the train up one! You think that I'm in love with you?" "Aren't you?" "No! Angel, the reason I asked you to come here tonight is because I'm pregnant, and I need your help trying to figure out a way to tell Spike." "Your not in love with me?" "Angel, you're a great guy. And a part of me will always love you, I won't deny that. But I'm with Spike now." "And you're having a child with him." "Yeah, I am." "Wow."
Giles sat in the E.R. holding Buffy's hand while she waited for the doctor's too return with the results. "Did you call my mom?"Buffy asked raising her head to look at Giles. "Yes, she's on her way." "Good." "Is there anyone else you want me to call? Willow, Xander, anyone?" "No." "Not even Spike?" "Especially not Spike."
Giles nodded his head and she laid her's back down on the pillow.
"I can't tell him."she explained,"If the baby servives maybe. But not yet. This was his one chance to be a father, and I might have blown it." "Buffy, your child is a fighter. Just like you. And just like it's father." "You keep reminding me of that okay."
Just then the doctor,Michael M. Laxerith,entered the room, holding Buffy's medical chart. She propped herself up on her arms and said a silent prayer. "Well Miss Summers. I have the results right here."Doctor Laxerith told her sitting on the end of the bed. "What does it say?" "Your baby is fine. In fact, it is better than fine. But you do need to be careful, okay?" "Yes Sir."
(Cordelia's house)
"Oh my god!"Cordelia exclaimed. On the door step was Conner wrapped up tightly in a blanket, sitting calmly in his carseat. Cordy picked him up and brought him inside, shutting the door behind her. "Angel, you've got to see this."she told him excitedly. "What is it?"he asked turning towards her; when he saw his son in Cordelia's arms a smile spread on his face, "Is that..." "Connor? Yeah, it is."
They both took a seat on the sofa and Angel gently took his son out of the carseat. They were both shocked.
"How did this happen?"Angel asked holding the child close to him. "I'm as shocked as you are. I have no idea how he got here." "Well he's here, and that's all that matter's."
(Sunnydale hospital)
Joyce Summer's sat rubbing her daughter's hair and just listening to what she had to say.
"And, I mean, at first I wasn't sure how I felt about it. I mean, it's mine and no matter what I'll love it, you know, but when I thought that I could have lost it, my feelings all came to the surface." Buffy wipped her eyes with a tissue and continued with what she was saying. "I want this baby more than I ever knew. I can't even put it into words. Why was realizing that so hard?" "It's supposed to be hard. If it weren't everyone would want to do it."Joyce told her. "That's great mom, you're quoting 'A League of Their Own' now?"Buffy asked letting out a small laugh. "It's good to see you laugh. So, when are the doctor's letting you out of here?" "They want to keep an eye on me tomorrow, to make sure that there's nothing wrong with me. So they said Friday at the earliest."
(Babys 'R' Us) Angel pushed the shoping cart through the story while Cordelia held Connor, who was fast asleep in his car seat, in her arms.
"Look at this!"Cordelia exclaimed pointing, with her empty hand, at a blue onesy with teddy bears on the sleeves. "Isn't it a little expensive?"Angel asked looking at the price tag. "It is, but look at it. It's adorable!" "Fine, put it in the cart." "Thank you!"
Cordelia put Connor in the front of the cart and reached up to grab it.
From behind them someone asked, "Cordy Chase?" She turned around and it took a minute for her to put a name to the face in front of her,"Oh my god! Trust?!" "Cordy, it is you!"
They both hugged each other and squeeled quietly.
"What are you doing here?"Cordelia asked. "Shopping, for a girl in my dorm's baby shower. What are you doing here?" "Shopping too." Connor started to fuss and Cordelia relized that introductions were in order.
"God where is my brain at? Trust, this is Angel and this,"she said taking Connor out of his carrier,"is our son Connor. Trust used to be on the cheerleading squad with me last year." "Nice to meet you."Angel said. "Nice to meet you too. I had no idea that you had a son Cordy. But I guess it's not that surprising, I mean you were the one that we always said would get pregnant first."
(Sunnydale hospital) Spike rushed through the hospital doors and up to the first Nurses Station that he saw.
"Excuse me, ma'am, 'could you tell me where I could find Buffy Summers?"Spike asked getting the attention on one of the nurses. "Room 730, down the hall."she told him going back to her work.
Spike hurried to room 730 and slowly opened the door.
"Buffy?"He asked cautiously. "Spike, hi."She said groggily. "Hi." He took a seat in the chair next to her, and held her hand. "How did you find out I was in here?" "Giles tracked me down. He told me that you were hurt." "Yeah. I was on patrol and I guess I didn't block a kick or something, it all happened so fast, and the next thing I knew I was in extream pain being rushed to the hospital." "Is anything seriously wrong?" 'This is it.'Buffy thought,'If you tell him now there's no turning back. This decision is going to change both of your lifes.' "No. Just a couple bruised muscles. They want to keep me here for observations, though." "That's good. Better safe than sorry, right?" "Right."
Buffy felt so much guilt at that moment for chickening out. She knew he had the right to know, but what if he didn't want to be a father. What if he freaked out when she told him and left town. But of course he could also be thrilled. This is his chance to have something normal, something that he has never had.
"What did you tell your mom when she asked about what happened to you?"Spike asked, bringing Buffy out of her thoughts. "I told her that I was at the library studying and I triped and fell down some stairs, and Giles found me and took me here." "So, where is she now?" "She went home to get me some stuff, and to call my dad." "Oh. Do you think he's going to come and see you?" "Doubt it. See, you don't know my dad. Work is way more inportant than his family. Always has been." "That can't honestly be true. I mean if I found out that my daughter was in the hospital, I would drop everything I was doing, to see here and make sure that everything's okay." "I know you would."Buffy said smiling through the tears that were rising in her eyes,"Look, I think I should get some rest." "I totally understand." Spike stood up to leave, but Buffy stopped him. "Could you stay with me?"She asked,"I mean at least until my mom get's back." "Sure." He sat back down and rubbed Buffy's head until she fell asleep.
As I lay me down chapter 10--Pressure
The clock in Buffy's hospital room struck 9 o' clock. She let out a sigh, and gently rubbed her stomach. It had only been an hour since she woke up and already she was bored. There was a knock on the door and Buffy let out an aggitated, "Come in." The door opened and Cordelia walked in with a balloon that read 'Get Well Soon' in Pink and Blue, a bag full of stuff, and a baby carrier. "Cordy, what are you doing here?" "Well,"She said setting the carrier down on the chair, by the bed,"my first class is really dull, as you know, and we're having an assembly today. So, this morning, when I heard about you being in here, I decided to drop by and bring you some stuff to keep you occupied." "I definetly need that. But uh-- what's up with the carrier?" "Oh, that's Connor. Connor Angel Chase" "Chase? How is he related to you?" "He's Angel and my son."Cordelia told her, and then took it back, "Well, he's not my son by birth, but I've been there from the day he was born. Helping Angel with him and stuff." "So he's Angel's son too? How exactly did that happen?" "Well when two people love each other very much..." "I know how it happened, but who's the mother? The birth mother?" "Darla." "Darla!?"Buffy nearly screamed, but then remembered that there was a baby in the room, "Angel and Darla got together? But Darla died." "Yes she did, then she was brought back by this pycho law firm, and then she died again while giving birth to Connor."Cordelia explained and then changed the subject, "Do you want to see what I brought you or what?" "Sure."
Buffy moved over and Cordelia sat down beside her, on the bed. She pulled out of the bag: three or four magazines, a box of chocolates, a book of mad-libs, a pen set, and a Scooby-Doo coloring book, along with crayons.
"Thank you Cor. I really appreciate all of this. And I don't want to sound rude or anything, but I'm really tired, and I could use some rest." "I totally understand."Cordelia told her, standing up and taking ahold of Connor's carseat. "I'll see you later." "Yeah."
Buffy closed her eyes and pretended to fall asleep until she heard Cordelia walk out, and the door shut behind her. Then slowly Buffy opened her eyes, picked up the phone next to her, and dialed Angel's number. After three or four rings Angel finally answered, "Angel, hi it's me....I'm sorry to wake you up, but I need to talk to you about something....I can't really tell you over the phone. Can you meet me?...You can? Good. Tonight at the hospital....yeah, I'm okay. Just come by room 730 shortly after sunset, okay....Okay."
(Sunnydale High) Willow and Xander sat in the aditorium not listening to a word that the speaker on stage was saying.
"So, we're going to see Buffy after school right?"Willow asked "Definetly." "You know that Giles is keeping something from us, don't you Xand?" "You saw it too huh. There was something in his eyes. He's worried about her. He's worried that she's not going to survive whatever's going on." "You really don't think that it's that bad, do you?" "I hope it's not, but we've seen that look in his eyes before, and it wasn't good then either."
(Sunnydale Hospital)
That afternoon Buffy sat writing in her diary. Diary, I'm in the hospital. I got hurt last night on patrol and Giles rushed me here. And yes, Giles knows about the baby. He knows that the baby is Spike's and believe it or not he doesn't seem to be upset. And my mom also know's. She was a diffrent story. Giles called her and told her that I was in the hospital and she came rushing over here. At first she just wanted to make sure I was okay. And when she knew I was she asked me what happened, and I told her, sort of. I told her that I was at the library studying for my math test and I was leaving and I fell down the stairs. And then I told her that when I was falling all I worried about was my baby. Saying that she was shocked and outraged is an understatment. She started off on this whole rant about how I'm only 16 and how I don't know the first thing about taking care of another life. About that time I started to cry and cry and cry. She appologied and then we talked. I told her that it was Spike's and she asked me if I was keeping it. I told her yes, and that I'm going to raise it. Then I relized that I had just made my first parental decision. And not to long after that I made my second. Spike stopped by. We talked and I didn't tell him about the baby. I felt so sick because I didn't tell him, but I was afraid of what would happen if I did. What if he didn't want to be a father? What if he left us. But then again there was the idea in the back of my head that he would want this child, that he would want to be a father to this baby. I know we wouldn't be able to be the ideal family; white picked fence, dog, a mother that can take her child to school plays and recitals, and a father that can teach his kid to ride a bike or coach the little league team. But we could be a family right? A mother and a father and a child,
A knock at the door brought Buffy back into reality.
"Come in."She called shutting her diary and leaning back on her pillow. "Hey." Xander said walking in the door followed by Willow carrying a pot of flowers, "How are you doing?" "I'm heavily medicated for your safety."she replied with a yawn. "We brought you flowers."Willow said setting the flowers down. "Thank you."
Xander and Willow sat down on the bed and Buffy took a deep breath.
"So Giles told you about last night?"she asked. "Yeah."Xander said nodding his head. "Did he tell you everything?" "What do you mean everything?"Willow asked confused. "I'm pregnant."
Both of her friends looked at her, with their jaws down on the floor.
"You're what?!"They both asked in shock. "I'm pregnant." "Oh my god."Willow whispered, while Xander still sat there in shock. "How far along are you?"he finally asked. "Three months" "Oh my god."The redhead whispered again "I'm due around the end of April sometime." "Who's the baby's father?"Willow asked. "Spike." "Spike!?"Xander shrieked "Calm down Xander."Willow said, finally speaking up.
He stood up and began pacing around the room.
"You've known him how long? A month? Did you even know him when the two of you slept together?" "Xander! God, is that what you think of me? Do you see me as some kind of slut bunnie or something?!" "You know what? I can't do this, I've got to get out of here. Willow, are you staying here or coming with me?" "I'm staying here."
(Angel's apartment)
Angel sat feeding Connor, while Cordelia tried to get through the book she was reading.
"So did you hear that Buffy's in the hospital?"Angel asked. "Yeah, I did."Cordelia told him,"Connor and I went to see her today. How'd you find out?" "She called me. She wants me to come over tonight." "Why?" "She didn't tell me."
They both were quiet for a while until Cordelia exclaimed, "Oh my god! It's so ovious, why didn't I think of it before?! Buffy wants you to come see her because she wants to tell that she still loves you!" "She doesn't love me." "Come on now Angel. The two of you are soulmates. For some reason you always have been and always will be." "Will you drop it?" "Just think about it Angel. Just think about it."
(Sunnydale Hospital)
Three hours after she fell asleep, Buffy opened her eyes and saw Willow sitting in the exact spot that she was in three hours ago. "Your still here?"Buffy asked sitting up. "Yeah. I thought maybe you'd want a friend to talk to." "I cannot believe that Xander got so pissed off at me." "He loves you. Finding out that you're carrying someone else's child probably broke his heart."
The memory of Cordelia telling her that Connor was Angel's, filled Buffy's head. Even though she didn't love Angel anymore, she couldn't say that it didn't hurt to hear that he had, had a child with another woman. What hurt even worse was the fact that he didn't tell her.
"I know."Buffy said comming out of her thoughts,"But it still hurts." "So, let's get onto a more possitive topic. You're three months pregnant, huh."
A smile grew on Buffy's face, Willow always was one to make her smile even when she wanted to cry. "Yeah."she said, "I am." "Are you going to want to know what the sex of it is or not?" "I don't think so. I mean I'll have to ask Spike, but there's something about having the doctor say, you know, 'Congradulations, it's a girl' or whatever makes it real. You know that you've got a daughter or a son. You're possitive, you're not just you know walking around going 'It could be a boy, or the sonogram could have been wrong and it's really a girl.' You know?" "It sounds to me like you really want to have a girl." "I just want it to be healthy. As long as it is I'll be trippin' about whatever sex it is." Willow raised her eyebrow, "Trippin'?"she asked. "Never mind."
(Sunnydale Hospital, Later)
Buffy laid in bed staring up at the ceiling counting the tiles when Angel opened the door. "Hey."he said, "How you doing?" "I'm tired, but other than that I'm doing okay." Angel sat down next to her, "Let's just jump right to the point. Cordelia and I talked and she told me why you wanted me to come see you." "She did?"Buffy asked worried, "How did she find out?" "She said it was ovious." Buffy placed a hand on her stomach and asked "Is it? Ovious I mean." "Well, I didn't think it was. But now that I'm here, I can see that it is." "So you know. Well, come on, give it to me." "I'm confused. Give what to you?" "The whole 'you're throwing your life away' speech. Oh, or how about the 'you're only sixteen' one. Take your pick. I've heard them both already." "Buffy, why would I give you a speech? In fact, I think it's kinda cute." "Cute? You're the first one to say that to me." Angel leaned closer to her, "Buffy, I've heard of lot's of people falling back in love with their high school boyfriend or girlfriend." "Woah, woah, woah! Back the train up one! You think that I'm in love with you?" "Aren't you?" "No! Angel, the reason I asked you to come here tonight is because I'm pregnant, and I need your help trying to figure out a way to tell Spike." "Your not in love with me?" "Angel, you're a great guy. And a part of me will always love you, I won't deny that. But I'm with Spike now." "And you're having a child with him." "Yeah, I am." "Wow."