As I Lay me Down Chapter 14--Run Away
"Okay Giles, we're going to try to do this one more time, 'kay?"Buffy said taking an ice pack off of her head, "I do not have a concussion. I just want to figure out why the hell I saw and heard what I did when I read that song." "Well, it would help if you told me what it was that you saw." "My god Giles!"She exclaimed and taking a pencil out of the bun in her hair, "You know what? If this were my pencil I would throw it at you. But it's not, so I won't. Now the reason I cannot tell you about my visions, or whatever they hell they were, is because I really don't think that you want to know about my sex life, whether it be imaginary or not. Are we clear." "Unfortunatly. Is there anything that you can tell me, that doesn't involve you and sex?" "...so I can kill Mohra before his blood makes me mortal."she remembered Angel explaining. "Mohra!"She exclaimed, "It was a demon with this funky Gwen Stefani jewel thing going on." "Mohra, I think I've heard of him. I'm going to have to consult my text. But first I'm taking you home." "Giles. I'm sick and tired of staying at home, doing nothing. Believe it or not I actually want to eat lunch here at school, go to my classes and listen to teachers ramble on about how rap music is making us dumb. Please." "Fine. But you're not walking home after school alone, and you're definetly not going patroling tonight." "Deal."
(Lunch room) Xander, Willow, and Cordelia sat eating lunch and joking around.
"What's the date today?"Willow suddenly asked before taking a bite of her sandwich. "October twentieth."Xander told her and then asked, "Why?" "Just curious." "Curious about what?"Buffy asked from behind them. "The date. What are you doing here? You should be at home resting."Cordelia told her. "God, why does everyone keep saying that? I'm fine. But I do need to talk to you though Cor."Buffy said looking around at the others. Xander and Willow sat there until they relized that Buffy ment that she wanted to talk to Cordelia alone. "So, we're gonna go, do something. Right Will?"Xander said standing up. "Right. I'll see you guys after school." "Bye Willow,Xander."Buffy and Cordelia said in unison, and then Cordelia asked,"What's up Buffy?" "When I read that song today, before I passed out I saw these visions. No, they weren't visions, they were something else. They were almost like memories." "What of?" "Angel and I. We were--together." "Together, together?" "Yeah, and there's another thing. He was human." 'Oh god.'Cordelia thought,'She remembered.' "That's crazy."Cordelia said outloud, "Angel hasn't been human in over 200 years." "I know but if felt so real." "Buffy it wasn't. Now I gotta go. I don't want to be late for class." "But Cordelia..." "I really gotta go."
(Angel's apartment) "What do you mean she remember's that day?"Angel asked slamming a glass down on his table "She knows things that only the two of you would know. She know's that you were human."Cordelia told him, crossing her arms. "This cannot be happening." "Well it is. Now what are you going to do?" "What do you mean 'what am I going to do'?" "Angel, think about it. You two have the forbidden love of all time, what makes you think that she isn't going to go running back to you once she remembers everything?"
(Spikes Cript, later) "Well, looks like you did a lot of redecorating."Buffy said standing in the doorway, looking around, "New lamp?" "Hey. What are you doing here? I thought you weren't supposed to walk around to much." "Spike I'm fine." "Does your mother know that your out walking around?" "Yes, she does, sorta. She thinks I took the car. She wants you to come to dinner tonight at around sixish. Can you do that?" "Well, there was a poker game that I was gonna go to, but I guess I can miss just one." "For reals? Thank you soooo much!!!"
(Angel's Apartment) "God, everything I read causes me to think of you and Buffy. We have to come up with a plan."Cordelia exclaimed throwing a book and her notebook down on the floor. "Cordelia, what does 'Love in the time of cholera' have to do with Buffy and I?"Angel asked picking up the book and examining the cover. "Angst, and all that good crap. But don't try to get out of this mister. We have to decide what you're going to do if Buffy comes to you to ask about 'the day'." "I'll just tell her the truth I guess." "Fine Broody-boy, but be surprised when Spike comes and tries to kill you for breaking up his family." "Spike wouldn't..." "You wanna bet?"
Angel and Cordelia sat looking at each other listening to the eerie silence, until Cordelia finally said, "Would you go back to her?" "What?"Angel asked, shaking his head. "If you told Buffy the truth, and she wanted to give the two of you a second chance, would you?" "No. Two years ago, I would have without a doubt. But now, I know that I am not the same man I was, and I'm never going to be the man she fell in love with. I realized that after she and I kissed. All-though, I don't really know if---" "Woah, woah, woah! Hold it a second buster. You and she kissed? When was this?"Cordelia asked interupting him. "When I went to Sunnydale, after Joyce died." "I can not believe you never told me about this!" "Cordelia what is wrong? Why are you getting so upset about this?" "It doesn't matter. You know, I've got to take a walk, I'll be back later."
(Buffy's house, later) "That was a delicious dinner Ms. Summers."Spike said as he, Joyce, and Buffy walked into the living room and took a seat on the couch. "Thank you Spike." "Suck up."Buffy whispered taking a hold of his hand. "So, have you and Buffy made any decissions about what you're going to do when the baby get's here?"Joyce asked. "Well, I hope to have a bigger place by then, so we can have room for the baby and also, I hope to have enough money for our wedding." "Hold it a second, our wedding?" "Yeah." "Spike, may I see you in the kitchen for a moment?"Buffy say pulling his arm in the direction of the kitchen. "What?"Spike asked as they entered the kitchen. "'What?' You know 'what'. We've already discussed this, we are not getting married William." "Why? Hmm, because ever-time we talk about this you can never give me a clear answer. Why won't you marry me?" "Because I can't marry you."
Buffy hurried out the backdoor and started running as fast as she could away from the house.
(Angel's apartment, Later) Angel sat reading Connor a book of poems when there was a knock on the door.
"Who's there?"Angel asked putting Connor in his play-pen and then walking towards the door. "It's me."Buffy said sniffiling. Angel opened the door and looked at Buffy standing across from him. "Can I come in?"She asked. He shook his head yes and took her hand and lead her inside.
As I Lay Me Down chapter 15--Here With Me
"Here drink this."Angel said handing Buffy a glass of milk, "What happened?" "Spike wants to marry me."She told him, wipping her red eyes. "And that's a problem, why?" "Angel! I'm only sixteen. I'm not ready to be a wife. God, I'm not even ready to be a mother." "But you're not." "What?" "Sixteen. You're twenty years old, Buffy. I think what's really wrong is that your getting so used to being here, in the past, that you're starting to hold on to it like it's a safety net." "That's crazy." "Is it? Because right now you don't have a teenage sister to take care of all by yourself. Your mother is still alive and your friends are still the friends you remember. But who know's maybe I am crazy. But there is one thing I want to know Buffy, besides being back in time, why don't you want to marry Spike? Because it can't be that he's a vampire, because you were in that same boat with me. Is it because he doesn't have a soul, and if so, then why did you sleep with him? Or is it something else? Hmm." "It's you! You're the reason why I can't marrry Spike."
(The Bronze) Cordelia sat nursing an empty glass of coke when Xander and Willow walked up behind her. "Well, well, well, if it isn't Queen C. What are you doing here with out Angel? I thought the two of you were attached at the hip."Xander said sitting down beside her. "Back off Harris." "Oooh, did I hit a nerve?" Cordelia let out a small breath and then grabbed Xander by the neck,"Listen to me."She said, "I don't feel like talking to you, or to anyone. Now when I let go of you, you're going to go off with wicca Willow over there and leave me the hell alone. Got it?"
Xander shook his head yes, and Cordelia let him go quickly. He hurried to a table far away and Willow followed him.
"Well, well, well. About damn time somebody did that. He deserved it."Spike told her, walking out of the shadows. "Why are you here Spike?" "Same reason you are, I recon." "You and Buffy get into a fight?" "Give the lady a prize. And let me guess you and soul-boy aren't speaking." "Not at the moment. What happened between you and Buffy?" "She won't marry me."
(Angel's apartment) "I was standing in my english class reading and all of a sudden I saw all of these flashes of us. And I don't know what they mean, but I do know that I cannot move on with my life until I find out if it's happen or what." "What did you see?" "You and me, together." Angel's mouth curled into a frown and he looked down at the floor. "What? What do you know?" "Nothing." "No, that isn't your nothing face, Angel. Please tell me what you're holding back. What do you know aboyt the things I saw?" "I can't tell you!"he exclaimed. "Why the hell not?" "Because...because you were never supposed to remember. They promised me that you would never remember what you couldn't have." "So it is true." Angel sat down next to her and took her hand,"Yes."he said. "You were human, and I felt your heartbeat. All that was real?" "Buffy you have to believe me when I tell you that I didn't want to hurt you. I wanted you to have a normal lfe..." "Great the normal life line again." "I wanted to be able to protect you and I failed."
(The Bronze) "So, let me get this strait...Buffy had these visions of her and Angel, and he was human?"Spike asked while signaling to the bartender for another beer. "You got it."Cordelia said drinking from her half-empty bottle of beer. "And she's with him right now?" "Yup." "Well, I hope everyone's prepared for Angelus part 2, because the sequals are always bloodier than the origial's." "I hope she can hold back at least until your guy's kid is born."
(Angel's apartment) "You didn't fail. No one could have stopped me. Oh my god Angel, is this why you're so afraid to get involved with Cordelia? Because you're gonna have to leave her like you lost me?" "In a way. And in away, I'm afraid that I don't know that I won't be able to love her as much as I loved you." "Angel, that's not going to happen! She and I are nothing alike. The two of you share a child and even if you do leave her you'll still share that." "Exactly." "What?" "Reverse pychology. Works everytime." "Useing my own weakness again me. That's very sneaky." "There are so many memories of the two of us...but we can't go back. Not ever. We have to pick up the pieces and keep moving ahead..." "And not ever worry about the past comming back to haunt you." "Feel better?" "Honestly, yeah. I do."
(Spike's Cript, later) Buffy opened the door and snuck down the stairs, kicking off her shoe's on her way to his bed. She slid under his sheet and wrapped her arms around his chest. "Hey." She whispered into his ear. "Hey."he mumbled turning over."What are you doing here?" "I wanted to appologise for the way I acted earlier. I was a bitch, and you didn't deserve me running off like that." "God, I must be really drunk right now." "Go to sleep. I'll be here with you in the morning."
"Okay Giles, we're going to try to do this one more time, 'kay?"Buffy said taking an ice pack off of her head, "I do not have a concussion. I just want to figure out why the hell I saw and heard what I did when I read that song." "Well, it would help if you told me what it was that you saw." "My god Giles!"She exclaimed and taking a pencil out of the bun in her hair, "You know what? If this were my pencil I would throw it at you. But it's not, so I won't. Now the reason I cannot tell you about my visions, or whatever they hell they were, is because I really don't think that you want to know about my sex life, whether it be imaginary or not. Are we clear." "Unfortunatly. Is there anything that you can tell me, that doesn't involve you and sex?" "...so I can kill Mohra before his blood makes me mortal."she remembered Angel explaining. "Mohra!"She exclaimed, "It was a demon with this funky Gwen Stefani jewel thing going on." "Mohra, I think I've heard of him. I'm going to have to consult my text. But first I'm taking you home." "Giles. I'm sick and tired of staying at home, doing nothing. Believe it or not I actually want to eat lunch here at school, go to my classes and listen to teachers ramble on about how rap music is making us dumb. Please." "Fine. But you're not walking home after school alone, and you're definetly not going patroling tonight." "Deal."
(Lunch room) Xander, Willow, and Cordelia sat eating lunch and joking around.
"What's the date today?"Willow suddenly asked before taking a bite of her sandwich. "October twentieth."Xander told her and then asked, "Why?" "Just curious." "Curious about what?"Buffy asked from behind them. "The date. What are you doing here? You should be at home resting."Cordelia told her. "God, why does everyone keep saying that? I'm fine. But I do need to talk to you though Cor."Buffy said looking around at the others. Xander and Willow sat there until they relized that Buffy ment that she wanted to talk to Cordelia alone. "So, we're gonna go, do something. Right Will?"Xander said standing up. "Right. I'll see you guys after school." "Bye Willow,Xander."Buffy and Cordelia said in unison, and then Cordelia asked,"What's up Buffy?" "When I read that song today, before I passed out I saw these visions. No, they weren't visions, they were something else. They were almost like memories." "What of?" "Angel and I. We were--together." "Together, together?" "Yeah, and there's another thing. He was human." 'Oh god.'Cordelia thought,'She remembered.' "That's crazy."Cordelia said outloud, "Angel hasn't been human in over 200 years." "I know but if felt so real." "Buffy it wasn't. Now I gotta go. I don't want to be late for class." "But Cordelia..." "I really gotta go."
(Angel's apartment) "What do you mean she remember's that day?"Angel asked slamming a glass down on his table "She knows things that only the two of you would know. She know's that you were human."Cordelia told him, crossing her arms. "This cannot be happening." "Well it is. Now what are you going to do?" "What do you mean 'what am I going to do'?" "Angel, think about it. You two have the forbidden love of all time, what makes you think that she isn't going to go running back to you once she remembers everything?"
(Spikes Cript, later) "Well, looks like you did a lot of redecorating."Buffy said standing in the doorway, looking around, "New lamp?" "Hey. What are you doing here? I thought you weren't supposed to walk around to much." "Spike I'm fine." "Does your mother know that your out walking around?" "Yes, she does, sorta. She thinks I took the car. She wants you to come to dinner tonight at around sixish. Can you do that?" "Well, there was a poker game that I was gonna go to, but I guess I can miss just one." "For reals? Thank you soooo much!!!"
(Angel's Apartment) "God, everything I read causes me to think of you and Buffy. We have to come up with a plan."Cordelia exclaimed throwing a book and her notebook down on the floor. "Cordelia, what does 'Love in the time of cholera' have to do with Buffy and I?"Angel asked picking up the book and examining the cover. "Angst, and all that good crap. But don't try to get out of this mister. We have to decide what you're going to do if Buffy comes to you to ask about 'the day'." "I'll just tell her the truth I guess." "Fine Broody-boy, but be surprised when Spike comes and tries to kill you for breaking up his family." "Spike wouldn't..." "You wanna bet?"
Angel and Cordelia sat looking at each other listening to the eerie silence, until Cordelia finally said, "Would you go back to her?" "What?"Angel asked, shaking his head. "If you told Buffy the truth, and she wanted to give the two of you a second chance, would you?" "No. Two years ago, I would have without a doubt. But now, I know that I am not the same man I was, and I'm never going to be the man she fell in love with. I realized that after she and I kissed. All-though, I don't really know if---" "Woah, woah, woah! Hold it a second buster. You and she kissed? When was this?"Cordelia asked interupting him. "When I went to Sunnydale, after Joyce died." "I can not believe you never told me about this!" "Cordelia what is wrong? Why are you getting so upset about this?" "It doesn't matter. You know, I've got to take a walk, I'll be back later."
(Buffy's house, later) "That was a delicious dinner Ms. Summers."Spike said as he, Joyce, and Buffy walked into the living room and took a seat on the couch. "Thank you Spike." "Suck up."Buffy whispered taking a hold of his hand. "So, have you and Buffy made any decissions about what you're going to do when the baby get's here?"Joyce asked. "Well, I hope to have a bigger place by then, so we can have room for the baby and also, I hope to have enough money for our wedding." "Hold it a second, our wedding?" "Yeah." "Spike, may I see you in the kitchen for a moment?"Buffy say pulling his arm in the direction of the kitchen. "What?"Spike asked as they entered the kitchen. "'What?' You know 'what'. We've already discussed this, we are not getting married William." "Why? Hmm, because ever-time we talk about this you can never give me a clear answer. Why won't you marry me?" "Because I can't marry you."
Buffy hurried out the backdoor and started running as fast as she could away from the house.
(Angel's apartment, Later) Angel sat reading Connor a book of poems when there was a knock on the door.
"Who's there?"Angel asked putting Connor in his play-pen and then walking towards the door. "It's me."Buffy said sniffiling. Angel opened the door and looked at Buffy standing across from him. "Can I come in?"She asked. He shook his head yes and took her hand and lead her inside.
As I Lay Me Down chapter 15--Here With Me
"Here drink this."Angel said handing Buffy a glass of milk, "What happened?" "Spike wants to marry me."She told him, wipping her red eyes. "And that's a problem, why?" "Angel! I'm only sixteen. I'm not ready to be a wife. God, I'm not even ready to be a mother." "But you're not." "What?" "Sixteen. You're twenty years old, Buffy. I think what's really wrong is that your getting so used to being here, in the past, that you're starting to hold on to it like it's a safety net." "That's crazy." "Is it? Because right now you don't have a teenage sister to take care of all by yourself. Your mother is still alive and your friends are still the friends you remember. But who know's maybe I am crazy. But there is one thing I want to know Buffy, besides being back in time, why don't you want to marry Spike? Because it can't be that he's a vampire, because you were in that same boat with me. Is it because he doesn't have a soul, and if so, then why did you sleep with him? Or is it something else? Hmm." "It's you! You're the reason why I can't marrry Spike."
(The Bronze) Cordelia sat nursing an empty glass of coke when Xander and Willow walked up behind her. "Well, well, well, if it isn't Queen C. What are you doing here with out Angel? I thought the two of you were attached at the hip."Xander said sitting down beside her. "Back off Harris." "Oooh, did I hit a nerve?" Cordelia let out a small breath and then grabbed Xander by the neck,"Listen to me."She said, "I don't feel like talking to you, or to anyone. Now when I let go of you, you're going to go off with wicca Willow over there and leave me the hell alone. Got it?"
Xander shook his head yes, and Cordelia let him go quickly. He hurried to a table far away and Willow followed him.
"Well, well, well. About damn time somebody did that. He deserved it."Spike told her, walking out of the shadows. "Why are you here Spike?" "Same reason you are, I recon." "You and Buffy get into a fight?" "Give the lady a prize. And let me guess you and soul-boy aren't speaking." "Not at the moment. What happened between you and Buffy?" "She won't marry me."
(Angel's apartment) "I was standing in my english class reading and all of a sudden I saw all of these flashes of us. And I don't know what they mean, but I do know that I cannot move on with my life until I find out if it's happen or what." "What did you see?" "You and me, together." Angel's mouth curled into a frown and he looked down at the floor. "What? What do you know?" "Nothing." "No, that isn't your nothing face, Angel. Please tell me what you're holding back. What do you know aboyt the things I saw?" "I can't tell you!"he exclaimed. "Why the hell not?" "Because...because you were never supposed to remember. They promised me that you would never remember what you couldn't have." "So it is true." Angel sat down next to her and took her hand,"Yes."he said. "You were human, and I felt your heartbeat. All that was real?" "Buffy you have to believe me when I tell you that I didn't want to hurt you. I wanted you to have a normal lfe..." "Great the normal life line again." "I wanted to be able to protect you and I failed."
(The Bronze) "So, let me get this strait...Buffy had these visions of her and Angel, and he was human?"Spike asked while signaling to the bartender for another beer. "You got it."Cordelia said drinking from her half-empty bottle of beer. "And she's with him right now?" "Yup." "Well, I hope everyone's prepared for Angelus part 2, because the sequals are always bloodier than the origial's." "I hope she can hold back at least until your guy's kid is born."
(Angel's apartment) "You didn't fail. No one could have stopped me. Oh my god Angel, is this why you're so afraid to get involved with Cordelia? Because you're gonna have to leave her like you lost me?" "In a way. And in away, I'm afraid that I don't know that I won't be able to love her as much as I loved you." "Angel, that's not going to happen! She and I are nothing alike. The two of you share a child and even if you do leave her you'll still share that." "Exactly." "What?" "Reverse pychology. Works everytime." "Useing my own weakness again me. That's very sneaky." "There are so many memories of the two of us...but we can't go back. Not ever. We have to pick up the pieces and keep moving ahead..." "And not ever worry about the past comming back to haunt you." "Feel better?" "Honestly, yeah. I do."
(Spike's Cript, later) Buffy opened the door and snuck down the stairs, kicking off her shoe's on her way to his bed. She slid under his sheet and wrapped her arms around his chest. "Hey." She whispered into his ear. "Hey."he mumbled turning over."What are you doing here?" "I wanted to appologise for the way I acted earlier. I was a bitch, and you didn't deserve me running off like that." "God, I must be really drunk right now." "Go to sleep. I'll be here with you in the morning."