SEQ CHAPTER \h \r 1I don't own Beyblade or any of the characters, so don't sue me.
I can't believe I'm doing this...I have so many other fics to work on, but...here's the second part to "Arrogant."
Same pairings as before, Kai/Rei.
Untamed
I don't love him.
Hell, I don't even like him sometimes.
But I'll sleep with him. It satisfies the lust in me. He's attractive, after all. And he knows it. He doesn't act like it, but there are certain mannerisms Rei has that show the arrogance he first had when he was competing in the Japan tournament. Of course, he does it so discreetly that no one knows it just from looking at him. Well, almost no one.
Back to the matter at hand…most people would blame me for our current situation. Say I'm taking advantage of him. But he's never refused me. I'm many things, but I'm not a rapist. If he had said no and really meant it, I wouldn't force him.
But he's never said no. So I don't see a problem. And the morons–my "teammates"–are so clueless. Disgustingly so. They never realize why I always room with Rei or why when I give them time off, which is a rarity, he and I tend to disappear at the same time. They'll never guess what goes on after dinner when he and I go into our room and the door shuts. They're naive.
Rei knows that what we have is nothing. He knows that it's lust. He knows that I don't care. That's what makes it easy. No attachments means I can do whatever I want with whoever I want. But...I don't.
See, I figure that this...arrangement...deserves some sort of balance. Rei isn't with anyone else, ever. I hate sharing, and he knows that. And so I'm not with anyone else either. If he's stuck with me, I'm stuck with him until one of us gets sick of this and breaks the whole thing off. He doesn't know this, of course. He most likely thinks that I go see other lovers whenever I decide to disappear for a few days. He's wrong. That's just thinking time.
But it's still not a relationship, despite the monogamy. From what I've heard, relationships require care and attention. Outside of blading, what Rei does is none of my concern, nor is my business any of his. I don't know anything about him other than his past with the White Tigers–and that sweet spot he has right under his ear. He knows pretty much the same about me–my past, which has been made painfully obvious–and what I like in bed. After nearly two months of sex it's hard not to know the latter.
Rei likes to tease. It's in his nature. I don't take teasing too well. That's my nature. He often does it just to rile me up, and I hate to admit it, but it works. Apparently he finds it amusing. This would be an example of a time where I really don't like him. I hate people finding amusement at my expense.
I don't even know why I tolerate it. He isn't my first, by the way. I've had other partners before. But my other partners knew when not to push me, and let me do as I pleased without question. Rei isn't like that. I find it both interesting and irritating. He's no pushover.
When we started this little affair, Rei wasn't a virgin. I'll admit that I was almost shocked. Definitely surprised. But apparently he's had partners of both genders before. It made it even easier to be with him, I suppose. He knew what to expect, and since I wasn't his first, I knew he wasn't expecting huge romantic shit, all candles and love and whatever. I don't do that. Our first time, I think, was on the cruise ship on the way to Europe. Yeah, it was. He was reading and Tyson had pissed me off again, so I stormed into our room to get some peace. Rei pestered me about what was wrong until I just kissed him to shut him up.
As for how I knew how I wasn't his first, I asked. I had to...I don't have sex with virgins as a general rule. I don't want to make someone's first time a bad memory...that's what happened to me, and it's like hell. But Rei just tilted his head and asked in which sense I meant, girls or guys. Needless to say, I was startled. Then he shook his head and replied that he wasn't in either sense, so it didn't matter. This was where the almost-shock settled in, but I was distracted when he began kissing me again and so forgot about it for the time being.
I still wonder who his first was, though. Mariah? Li? Hell...Kevin? Never mind, I don't want to think about those possibilities. Bad mental pictures. And before you assume things, I'm not jealous. I'm just curious.
Will I get tired of this? Probably. I'm not exactly "commitment"-oriented, and I don't have the equanimity to deal with a whiny and clingy lover. Am I tired of it yet? Surprisingly, no. This is the longest that one of my "affairs" has ever lasted. And Rei, unlike the others, doesn't try to keep me tied down with tricks and mind games. My previous partners didn't figure out that I knew when they were trying to toy with me–and *no one* toys with me. He doesn't protest when I leave, though I think he's angry when I get back, but he never says a word. It makes it all the more tempting to actually interact with him, to see why he's so goddamned tolerant of an asshole like me—I'll admit that freely. I'm not a nice person.
I'm used to being the puppet master, used to manipulating people and using them as I will to further my own causes. But perhaps in this situation *I'm* the puppet, and Rei is the master. He's gotten me to stay longer than I have for anyone else–much longer. And I have no intentions of leaving, which is almost frightening. I don't like getting attached to things or people. It always blows up in your face some way or the other. My personal philosophy is Murphy's Law: If anything can go wrong, it will.
Kinda pessimistic and cut-off, I know, but it *is* Kai. Hope you all enjoyed this final installment of "Arrogant," and please review!
