Lost, loved and found again

Bella

Driving down the road I can see the sign of the dinner up ahead spelling Carver Cafe it's been a long time since I was there

After my truck came to a stop in one of the parking spaces, I left it and made my way in. Stepping into it was immediately assaulted by the smell of fresh bacon and café so much, so it made my stomach rumble. Nothing beats good old cholesterol.

Glancing around, I searched for my father and found him on a window seat waving awkwardly at me

''Bells, come to sit, so we can get you something to eat'' my Dad said

''How long were you waiting already?'' I would feel bad if he had to sit here for a long time surrounded by this mouthwatering smell, I can't wait to eat already the food at school is horrible.

''Ah, I just got needed to stay in longer on the station there were animal attacks in the neighboring county'' he said with some concern, I guess that's relatively normal for a town like Forks

''Oh I hope whatever it is it's not coming our way'' with my luck it would most likely somehow find its way into my room

''So do I Bell's so do I''

Not long after, the waitress came to get our Order. Finally, having something to bite into, I couldn't be happier. Maybe I could ask dad a few questions about the Cullen's he must know something for sure since he's the chief and all.

Swallowing my bite and taking a sip of coke ''Hey dad can you tell me something about the Cullen's?'' best go for the direct approach, beating about the bush isn't going to bring you far with him

Gulping down the rest of his burger and cleaning his hands ''Sure, but why do you ask, I hope I have nothing to worry about. He said half-jokingly.

''Don't worry it's nothing like that they are just a big deal at my school, so I hoped you have some info on them'' may be something that helps me understand why they were all acting so strange today

''Well, they moved here around August 2003. Dr. Cullen is a talented doctor who works here in the local clinic, which we all should be thankful for. Other than that, I only met his wife once or twice, I don't know much about their kids except their names.''

Well that didn't amount to much

Arriving back home again from my dinner with dad, I was doing my homework, thinking about the day and all that has happened. For the most part, my first day went better than expected, but there were still some things that bugged me, the most important being the Cullen's.

They are all beautiful, have the same eye color for some reason, and move with grace and confidence you wouldn't expect from any high school student.

Yet there was one of them who wouldn't leave my mind no matter how hard I tried Rosalie I haven't even spoken a word to her, yet why can't I stop thinking about her

Shooting up from my chair with shock in my eyes ''don't tell me'' don't tell me I have a crush on her

Now pacing around my room from left to right, I mean yeah she is absolutely gorgeous without a doubt the most wonderful looking person I have ever seen. But is that enough for me to develop a crush?

My head hurts from all the thinking, so I let myself fall down on my bed, am I really this shallow

Turning myself sideways, so I was staring at the wall, I started to think more seriously about the situation at hand. I've found out in Arizona that I prefer women, but that was just attraction for some reason unfathomable to me this feels like more, and that thought scares me. I've never felt that way about anyone, And her actions today don't exactly make me confident. She probably isn't even into girls.

The ringing of my phone pulled me out of my musings. Quickly stretching myself to grab it, I saw it was my Mom.

''Hey, mom'' There seems to be a lot of noise in the background cars I guess?

From what I could gather from my talk with mom, she and her boyfriend Phil seem to be on some sort of road trip right now, apparently. It has to do with Phil's baseball career, as much trouble her carelessness has caused me, it's nice that she now has the life she wished she always had.

Looking at the clock, I saw that it was nearly midnight, I should probably go get some sleep, wouldn't want to look deader than I already look now. So now laying in bed staring at the ceiling, I for a very long time was excited about tomorrow, and it was not because of a tall, blonde-haired golden-eyed beauty, maybe a little bit.

And with that, I turned off the lights and shrouded myself in darkness with nothing but the light of the moon shining through my window, and after a few minutes sleep overtook me.

19th January 2005

On the drive to school today, I made the decision to confront Rosalie today and ask if I did something wrong. I hate to start out my new start on bad terms with someone.

But to my surprise, she wasn't with her siblings, when I asked Edward about it, he just said that she isn't feeling too well. I haven't got anything more out of him and I, for one, thus didn't want to pry too much since that can be seen as rude, Rosalie and I aren't exactly friends.

So I just went on with my day like nothing happened. Ignoring the trickle of sadness that is seeping into my heart.

20th January 2005

The next day she also wasn't there, and slowly the sadness that was seeping became a pond. I went through everything I did since arriving in Forks that could have angered her, since I don't quite believe Edward's excuse. I mean she seemed perfectly fine that day before and her storming out of the cafeteria and now not coming to school can't be a coincidence.

But no matter how much I searched, I couldn't find anything that could have ticked her off, so drops of irrational anger also started to land in the pond for making me worry so much.

24th January 2005

Over the course of the week, I've gone through a range of emotions from sadness to anger then loneliness, and finally apathy, but really that one is more of a defense mechanism

Looking out of the window this morning, I suddenly missed Phoenix because it was raining cats and dogs ''Welcome to Forks'' I muttered heat and sweat aren't my thing exactly, but too much rain, and you get depressed

Stepping foot outside the front door still half asleep, Dad was already standing near my truck, and nearly falling on your butt made for a good stimulant to wake you up, yeah I definitely take heat and sweat over this

''Everything alright Bells'' My Dad asked concerned since I nearly made a crash landing into the ground

''Yeah all alright all thanks to years of training'' I jested back

''I changed your tires just in case so that thing that just happened here won't happen with your car'' yeah that would suck

''Thanks''

''Well, I will probably be late for dinner today, gotta head out to Mason County today''

''Why?'' I asked since that's quite the drive.

''Remember about the animal attacks in the neighboring county, well the animal is coming closer'' just my luck

Walking to his car he turned to me''I know you can look after yourself, but you're not in Phoenix anymore Bells be careful'' He said with a serious tone

Smiling lightly ''Yeah I will be but you too''

Sitting down in my car, I somehow got a bad feeling for what is to come ''And here I thought Forks would be boring''