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Disclaimer: In the words of Joey, the fact that I don't own the characters is a moo point. I'll return them when I'm done, I promise.
Chandler felt the blood rush to his head and only thought repeated again and again in his head.
Monica.
What would he tell her? She was going to be heartbroken. Things had been going so great, and now this? No. It wasn't possible. Mona couldn't be pregnant.
"You're what?" Finding his voice finally, Chandler choked out the question.
"I'm pregnant. And so I can't give you this divorce." Grinning, it looked like Mona had won. This was her checkmate. Chandler wouldn't leave her now, he just wouldn't. And Monica, poor Monica would lose again. Mona felt triumphant. And the fact that she really wasn't pregnant wasn't important. In her mind it was just a small, insignificant detail. He would move back in with her and eventually one of two things would have to happen:
She would get pregnant for real, or he would figure out that he was in love with her and not Monica.
"Oh God," he muttered. That was not exactly the reaction Mona had been hoping for. Of course, she knew that he was "in love" or so he said with Monica, but she had figured he would be at least slightly happy about becoming a father again.
"Chandler, let's go home, okay?" Mona said smiling at him and taking his arm. "Let's forget about this past week. Let's forget about Monica."
"Monica," he moaned the name sending a shock of guilt down his spine.
"She doesn't exist," Mona told him. "She's nothing. She's no one." And in Mona's mind, this was how it was, or at least, how it should be.
"No," wrenching his arm away from Mona. "I have to go talk to her. I have to....I have to figure things out."
"What's there to figure out?" Mona demanded. No, no, no, Monica was not going to ruin this. This plan was perfect. This plan had no faults. Not a single one. And especially not one that went by the name of Monica. Mona had thought everything through, and in every single one of her scenarios, Chandler never went back to Monica. He couldn't. He wouldn't.
"I have to go clear my head," he told her. "Um....go home, and rest, and I'll come by later." Sighing, he turned around and headed back towards his car.
"Chandler!" Mona yelled after him. "Get back here! Right now! Chandler!"
Well, that was just super.
Maybe her perfect plan wasn't so perfect after all.
Monica would be devastated. Chandler knew that this was just going to break her heart. And once again, he would be the reason behind it. What did he do now?
He loved Monica.
But Mona was going to have a baby.
How was he possibly going to decide what to do? Stepping out of the car in front of Monica's house, his head spun and he had to stop half way and close his eyes. Finally, he reached the door to house and raised his hand to knock. Monica pulled the door open and her eyes lit up. Leaning forward, she placed a kiss on his mouth.
"How did it go?" She asked shutting the door behind him as he stepped in.
"Um..." His mouth went dry. He was about to break her heart. How did he do that? How could he do this to her? This wasn't right. It just wasn't fair. She didn't deserve this. Any of it.
"What's wrong?" She asked.
"Mon, maybe you should uh, sit down." Shaking her head, she took his hand.
"What happened?" She asked softly.
"Mona's pregnant." There. It was out. He had told her. Her face went pale and she looked behind her blindly trying to find somewhere to sit. Finding nothing, she sunk to the floor instead.
"She's...." Monica's hand went up to her mouth as Chandler helped her to her feet.
"Monica," he started. "I'm so sorry. I don't know what to do." Monica looked at him and shook her head.
"What do you mean? You have to go back to her. She's pregnant Chandler."
"I know, but I love you."
"But...she's....Oh God....I can't....oh...Hannah is going to.....oh...." Monica was finding it hard to form full sentences in her head. Everything was happening at once, her head was pounding. Mona was pregnant. The right thing for Monica to do would be to step aside. She should step aside and try to let Chandler see if he could make it work for their baby's sake.
"Mon, I just can't turn around and walk away from you." It was the truth. He knew that he should go be there for Mona, but he couldn't. He just couldn't make himself walk away from her.
"You know what Chandler? Let me make this a little easier for you," Monica said. Taking her hand away from his, she walked away and did the hardest thing she had ever done before.
She opened the door for him to leave.
"Monica...."
"Don't....I don't think.....I have to do this....and you have to leave."
"I can't."
"You have to." After carefully avoiding his eyes, she finally met them and he noticed the tears that were threatening to fall.
"Monica...."
"Chandler, there's nothing to say. There's nothing more we can do. Mona's pregnant. You should be with her and be a family. The baby deserves for it's parent's to at least try to make a family work. "
"Hannah deserves a family too," he pointed out softly.
"We did try. And it didn't work. Maybe this is a sign, maybe this is saving us from a lot more heartache." Even as the words were coming out of her mouth she knew that it was wrong. There could be nothing that hurt more than it hurt right then. She felt as if she had been punched in the gut. But she had to do this. It was the right thing to do. Despite the fact that it would leave her, Chandler, and not to mention Hannah, heartbroken.
Nodding, Chandler came up to her once more and held her tightly in his arms.
"I love you," he whispered into her ear. "More than anything or anyone."
"I know," she said beginning to sob into his chest. "And that's what make this so hard." Reluctantly, she pulled herself away and refused to look back up at him as he walked out.
And as soon as the door was shut behind him, she collapsed on the floor in a fit of tears. Which was where Rachel and Phoebe found her when they walked in with Hannah. Phoebe took Hannah upstairs into her own bedroom while Rachel picked her best friend up from the floor and led her to the couch.
"What happened honey?" Rachel asked, and when Monica couldn't control her tears, couldn't calm herself down even a little, Rachel didn't ask anything else, instead just held her and tried to calm her down. "Whatever it is, it's going to be okay. I promise. Everything will be just fine." Monica appreciated the words, but she knew that Rachel was completely wrong.
It could never be fine.
Chandler walked into his old house and found Mona sitting reading a book and sipping a glass of wine.
"You can't drink that!" He exclaimed. Sheepishly, Mona looked down at her glass and placed it on the coffee table.
"You're right," she said smiling up at him. Climbing to her feet, she wrapped her arms around his neck and gave him a kiss. "I'm so glad that you're home. For good now. And there's nothing that can pull us apart." And more importantly, Mona thought to herself, no one.
"Mona," Chandler said pulling back from her. "I can't do this. I can't. I love Monica. I love her. And I can't be without her. And I'll be there for this baby, I promise. I promise that I will be there for everything, but I can't be with you. And this is better, because if we stayed together than I would resent you, and I would be so unhappy, and that can't be healthy for a child. And you have to understand this, you have to see that we don't work. We never did, if we're being honest." He didn't add the last part. That she was a rebound girlfriend who moved in and made herself comfortable. He had never intended her to be anything more than that.
Mona's mouth dropped and she was left speechless. No, no, no, he wouldn't do that. He couldn't. No.
"No." This one was said aloud. "You can't leave. You can't leave me. You can't leave me all alone."
"You won't be alone," Chandler told her softly. "I'll always be here for you and the baby."
"There is no Goddamned baby!" Mona yelled.
"What?" Covering her mouth with her hand, Mona stepped back.
"I meant...." Her eyes wide, she searched for an excuse.
"You're not pregnant?" Chandler asked.
"Chandler, I just...you can't leave. I love you, I love you more than she could ever love you. I love you so much. You can't do this to me."
"You lied?"
"I did it for you. For us." Mona reached out and grabbed his arm.
"You can't toy with people like that Mona! You can't play with people's emotions!"
"Chandler, please. I'm sorry, I just couldn't imagine life without you! Please...don't go! Please don't do this!"
"Did you think of anyone else but yourself? Did you? Did you think that I wouldn't figure it out? Did you think I wouldn't notice that you weren't getting bigger?" Wiping the tears from her face, Mona just shrugged.
"Chandler...."
"God Mona!" He closed his eyes, but all he could see was Monica's face when he walked out the door. "You need to get help. You need to talk to a therapist or something. You need to...." Running a hand through his hair, he turned back around to face her. "Mona, can't you see that we were never happy? You deserve to be with someone that makes you happy. You deserve to be with someone who loves you back. Not just someone who you tricked into staying with you." Shaking her head, she looked up at him.
"I'm sorry," she said. "I just...panicked. I can't be alone. I don't want to be alone."
"And so it didn't matter who you hurt along the way as long as you got what you wanted?" Not waiting for her to answer, he pulled his coat back on and turned around to face her.
"Where are you going?"
"I have to go see Monica. I have to beg her to take me back. I hurt her again. I left her again." Finally, Mona understood. Her plan had been useless from the start. He could never love her. Not like he loved Monica.
"Chandler, for what it's worth, I am really sorry."
He wasn't ready to forgive her. But he nodded anyway, and walked out the door to find Monica again.
~ Okay, there will be one more chapter, I think. So if you would be so kind and please review. Will Monica understand? He he, if you review you'll find out! ~
Disclaimer: In the words of Joey, the fact that I don't own the characters is a moo point. I'll return them when I'm done, I promise.
Chandler felt the blood rush to his head and only thought repeated again and again in his head.
Monica.
What would he tell her? She was going to be heartbroken. Things had been going so great, and now this? No. It wasn't possible. Mona couldn't be pregnant.
"You're what?" Finding his voice finally, Chandler choked out the question.
"I'm pregnant. And so I can't give you this divorce." Grinning, it looked like Mona had won. This was her checkmate. Chandler wouldn't leave her now, he just wouldn't. And Monica, poor Monica would lose again. Mona felt triumphant. And the fact that she really wasn't pregnant wasn't important. In her mind it was just a small, insignificant detail. He would move back in with her and eventually one of two things would have to happen:
She would get pregnant for real, or he would figure out that he was in love with her and not Monica.
"Oh God," he muttered. That was not exactly the reaction Mona had been hoping for. Of course, she knew that he was "in love" or so he said with Monica, but she had figured he would be at least slightly happy about becoming a father again.
"Chandler, let's go home, okay?" Mona said smiling at him and taking his arm. "Let's forget about this past week. Let's forget about Monica."
"Monica," he moaned the name sending a shock of guilt down his spine.
"She doesn't exist," Mona told him. "She's nothing. She's no one." And in Mona's mind, this was how it was, or at least, how it should be.
"No," wrenching his arm away from Mona. "I have to go talk to her. I have to....I have to figure things out."
"What's there to figure out?" Mona demanded. No, no, no, Monica was not going to ruin this. This plan was perfect. This plan had no faults. Not a single one. And especially not one that went by the name of Monica. Mona had thought everything through, and in every single one of her scenarios, Chandler never went back to Monica. He couldn't. He wouldn't.
"I have to go clear my head," he told her. "Um....go home, and rest, and I'll come by later." Sighing, he turned around and headed back towards his car.
"Chandler!" Mona yelled after him. "Get back here! Right now! Chandler!"
Well, that was just super.
Maybe her perfect plan wasn't so perfect after all.
Monica would be devastated. Chandler knew that this was just going to break her heart. And once again, he would be the reason behind it. What did he do now?
He loved Monica.
But Mona was going to have a baby.
How was he possibly going to decide what to do? Stepping out of the car in front of Monica's house, his head spun and he had to stop half way and close his eyes. Finally, he reached the door to house and raised his hand to knock. Monica pulled the door open and her eyes lit up. Leaning forward, she placed a kiss on his mouth.
"How did it go?" She asked shutting the door behind him as he stepped in.
"Um..." His mouth went dry. He was about to break her heart. How did he do that? How could he do this to her? This wasn't right. It just wasn't fair. She didn't deserve this. Any of it.
"What's wrong?" She asked.
"Mon, maybe you should uh, sit down." Shaking her head, she took his hand.
"What happened?" She asked softly.
"Mona's pregnant." There. It was out. He had told her. Her face went pale and she looked behind her blindly trying to find somewhere to sit. Finding nothing, she sunk to the floor instead.
"She's...." Monica's hand went up to her mouth as Chandler helped her to her feet.
"Monica," he started. "I'm so sorry. I don't know what to do." Monica looked at him and shook her head.
"What do you mean? You have to go back to her. She's pregnant Chandler."
"I know, but I love you."
"But...she's....Oh God....I can't....oh...Hannah is going to.....oh...." Monica was finding it hard to form full sentences in her head. Everything was happening at once, her head was pounding. Mona was pregnant. The right thing for Monica to do would be to step aside. She should step aside and try to let Chandler see if he could make it work for their baby's sake.
"Mon, I just can't turn around and walk away from you." It was the truth. He knew that he should go be there for Mona, but he couldn't. He just couldn't make himself walk away from her.
"You know what Chandler? Let me make this a little easier for you," Monica said. Taking her hand away from his, she walked away and did the hardest thing she had ever done before.
She opened the door for him to leave.
"Monica...."
"Don't....I don't think.....I have to do this....and you have to leave."
"I can't."
"You have to." After carefully avoiding his eyes, she finally met them and he noticed the tears that were threatening to fall.
"Monica...."
"Chandler, there's nothing to say. There's nothing more we can do. Mona's pregnant. You should be with her and be a family. The baby deserves for it's parent's to at least try to make a family work. "
"Hannah deserves a family too," he pointed out softly.
"We did try. And it didn't work. Maybe this is a sign, maybe this is saving us from a lot more heartache." Even as the words were coming out of her mouth she knew that it was wrong. There could be nothing that hurt more than it hurt right then. She felt as if she had been punched in the gut. But she had to do this. It was the right thing to do. Despite the fact that it would leave her, Chandler, and not to mention Hannah, heartbroken.
Nodding, Chandler came up to her once more and held her tightly in his arms.
"I love you," he whispered into her ear. "More than anything or anyone."
"I know," she said beginning to sob into his chest. "And that's what make this so hard." Reluctantly, she pulled herself away and refused to look back up at him as he walked out.
And as soon as the door was shut behind him, she collapsed on the floor in a fit of tears. Which was where Rachel and Phoebe found her when they walked in with Hannah. Phoebe took Hannah upstairs into her own bedroom while Rachel picked her best friend up from the floor and led her to the couch.
"What happened honey?" Rachel asked, and when Monica couldn't control her tears, couldn't calm herself down even a little, Rachel didn't ask anything else, instead just held her and tried to calm her down. "Whatever it is, it's going to be okay. I promise. Everything will be just fine." Monica appreciated the words, but she knew that Rachel was completely wrong.
It could never be fine.
Chandler walked into his old house and found Mona sitting reading a book and sipping a glass of wine.
"You can't drink that!" He exclaimed. Sheepishly, Mona looked down at her glass and placed it on the coffee table.
"You're right," she said smiling up at him. Climbing to her feet, she wrapped her arms around his neck and gave him a kiss. "I'm so glad that you're home. For good now. And there's nothing that can pull us apart." And more importantly, Mona thought to herself, no one.
"Mona," Chandler said pulling back from her. "I can't do this. I can't. I love Monica. I love her. And I can't be without her. And I'll be there for this baby, I promise. I promise that I will be there for everything, but I can't be with you. And this is better, because if we stayed together than I would resent you, and I would be so unhappy, and that can't be healthy for a child. And you have to understand this, you have to see that we don't work. We never did, if we're being honest." He didn't add the last part. That she was a rebound girlfriend who moved in and made herself comfortable. He had never intended her to be anything more than that.
Mona's mouth dropped and she was left speechless. No, no, no, he wouldn't do that. He couldn't. No.
"No." This one was said aloud. "You can't leave. You can't leave me. You can't leave me all alone."
"You won't be alone," Chandler told her softly. "I'll always be here for you and the baby."
"There is no Goddamned baby!" Mona yelled.
"What?" Covering her mouth with her hand, Mona stepped back.
"I meant...." Her eyes wide, she searched for an excuse.
"You're not pregnant?" Chandler asked.
"Chandler, I just...you can't leave. I love you, I love you more than she could ever love you. I love you so much. You can't do this to me."
"You lied?"
"I did it for you. For us." Mona reached out and grabbed his arm.
"You can't toy with people like that Mona! You can't play with people's emotions!"
"Chandler, please. I'm sorry, I just couldn't imagine life without you! Please...don't go! Please don't do this!"
"Did you think of anyone else but yourself? Did you? Did you think that I wouldn't figure it out? Did you think I wouldn't notice that you weren't getting bigger?" Wiping the tears from her face, Mona just shrugged.
"Chandler...."
"God Mona!" He closed his eyes, but all he could see was Monica's face when he walked out the door. "You need to get help. You need to talk to a therapist or something. You need to...." Running a hand through his hair, he turned back around to face her. "Mona, can't you see that we were never happy? You deserve to be with someone that makes you happy. You deserve to be with someone who loves you back. Not just someone who you tricked into staying with you." Shaking her head, she looked up at him.
"I'm sorry," she said. "I just...panicked. I can't be alone. I don't want to be alone."
"And so it didn't matter who you hurt along the way as long as you got what you wanted?" Not waiting for her to answer, he pulled his coat back on and turned around to face her.
"Where are you going?"
"I have to go see Monica. I have to beg her to take me back. I hurt her again. I left her again." Finally, Mona understood. Her plan had been useless from the start. He could never love her. Not like he loved Monica.
"Chandler, for what it's worth, I am really sorry."
He wasn't ready to forgive her. But he nodded anyway, and walked out the door to find Monica again.
~ Okay, there will be one more chapter, I think. So if you would be so kind and please review. Will Monica understand? He he, if you review you'll find out! ~