Disclaimer:

I don't own Trigun, but I wish I did. Oh well ::Sighs::

AN:

Hey everyone, how ya'll doin? How the days seem to fly by. I just joined this 'Anime Club' at my school, and I think it's cool. ^_^. Well that was a bunch of useless information. I would have updated sooner, but the days keeps on passing me by, and lately I have been too lazy to write out the chapter.

I just got a lot of work, again for Japanese: 3 quiz corrections, a TV report, and a work sheet. I also just found out that I got 1 'A', 3 'B', 1 'D' (Japanese) and 1 Unknown. But I don't have to worry its only midquarter reports.

Stupid Chem. Teacher "Oh I want you to write a lab report." but noo, we had to get a sub. the next day and wait till Monday to turn the work in. Sorry I just wanted to mention that. (More useless information): Saturday, I went to a math meet at a school called 'Kamehameha' and got a 7 out of 30. That goes to prove that I am really dumb, but hey that was really hard you know.

VASHIES-GIRL: Thanks for the review. I'm sorry, that I made Meryl like that. Maybe, if I get inspired to write another story, I'll make it less…um…violent for her. I promise.

Kathleen Stacy: Ok, I'll try. Next time.

AnnaMay-Ker: Cool, that was the same thing that I was thinking. But maybe not the 'Milly trying to find Vash' part, but still even though it was really good advice. Thanks so much. ^_^

Goth-chic: I know. I'm happy too.

OK. I think this time I'm on the roll…well on the roll with ideas. I think to me that this chapter is the easiest to write. Ok, less with the chitchat, and more of the story. Also I'm sorry. I may have lengthened the being of the chapter. (I wrote that a long time ago, but come to then of it, it turned out to be all a lie)

Chapter 6: To Find Eternal Freedom

The warm tears continued to cascade down her face. She couldn't handle all the loneliness she had lived for so long. Talking about was in no use for her anymore. Nothing gave her a will to live, a will to strive for life. She missed him so and all the misery, all the sacrifices she had gone through were already too much for her. The weight upon her heart was unbearable, and she felt as if she would have drowned in her own hopelessness.

Thinking that there was not much in her life to live for, she quickly got up from her bed, and walked over to her dresser. She stared at the gleaming weapon that lay there, suddenly her desire for the knife grew stronger. Without hesitation she reached for the knife all held it in her hand. She looked at the knife and saw flecks of her blood were encrusted within the etchings of the rose. She thought back on all the enjoyment that her new friend had brought her those few days. Walking back to her bed. She sat down and thought of the happiness that she would achieve, if she ended her life right then and there. But before she decided to continue with her plan, she sliced her arm open, and began to write a message to Milly with her blood.

Dear Milly,

Thank you so much for all the things you have done for me. But these past few months, I have realized that living was all too much for me to handle. Every since the day Vash and Nick left us; I have never really felt anything. I have had always felt numb. The sad thing was that the longer Vash was away, the stronger my love for him grew. Now I can't handle all the loneliness that has been building all these years.

So now I say good-bye to you with all my love. If you ever see Vash again, please tell him that I loved him and that I will be waiting for him in the after life.

Please don't worry about me, and take good care of yourself. Remember this, never forget me.

Sincerely with all my heart,

Meryl

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After writing the letter. Meryl sealed it in an envelope, and set it down on the kitchen table. Walking back up the stairs, she thought contemplated if her decision was the right one for her.

'Do I really despise my life, enough to end it all? Is this all a bad dream that I can't wake up from?'

Finally reaching the top of the stairs she walked back into her room and grabbed her knife. Sitting on her bed she lifted the knife's sharp edge to her pale skin. Dragging the knife across her skin, she felt as if her mind was at ease. Raising the blade once more, she applied more pressure on the hilt causing the blade itself to be pushed into her wrist. She watched her blood slowing beginning to drip down from her forearm. Exchanging her knife to her left hand, Meryl began to drag the blade across her other wrist. After the two cuts. Meryl immediately stumbled backwards, bumping into the wall and sliding down to the floor.

Looking down at her wrists she looked at the cuts that she inflected on herself. The blood flowed more freely than the other times she had cut herself.

'Such pretty blood…such pretty liquid that courses through my vains (AN: Is that right?)'

As Meryl thought about her past and the events that she always remembered. She began to feel her eyes drooping.

'Well I guess this is the end for me.' Meryl thought as she felt her body fall on its side. As her hand began to slowly lose its grip of the knife. She felt herself drift into unconsciousness.

But just as Meryl's eyes closed, the door burst open.

"MERYL…Oh no."

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AN:

There you go chapter 6.

Wow, finally an update. I'm sorry I didn't update, and for the fact I also didn't type out the story so fast. But lately it seems that I have been losing interest in Trigun, don't worry I'll finish this story. Lately I have been reading Naruto. It's a good story, Humor/Adventure if you that kind of stories. It's $7.95, cheap I say. But that's in Hawaii, might be different in other places.

Will, I hope you will forgive me.

Review please. Flame to a crisp.

Chikako