Disclaimer- I give up! I really truly do give up! You haven't figured it out by now. They... are... not... mine! I... own... nothing... of... this... show!
Happy now?

Wishes

Starlight, star bright,
First star I see tonight,
I wish I may, I wish I might,
Have this wish I wish tonight.


I just wish...

I wish I didn't have to wish anymore. I wish I'd never had to wish. I wish I'd never made any wishes before now, because there are times I worry that those wishes will come true and that the ones I'm making now will be passed over. It's a depressing thought, but then, this is a depressing time.

It's a time I wish I could skip. It's a time I wish had never come. There are times in this time when I wish I could stop the clocks, and just walk out of this time.

I've wished something like that before, only then I wanted to be fast forward time, to skip my medical exams. I never dreamed I would fly though them. Here, I never dream at all.

Every time I close my eyes all I see are images that are right out of a horror movie. I wish this were a movie, then I could leave. But the only way to leave here would be to go AWOL, and I refuse to give Ferret Face the satisfaction of that.

There are times I wish I had the courage to desert. It's weird, you always hear people saying it's the cowards way out, but I can't believe that's true anymore. It would take more courage than I will ever possess to walk away and leave those patients. If I did that, I know every time I close my eyes, I'd see shot up kids staring at me, reaching towards me, begging me to help them. And I know I would never be able to.

That's what really scares me most; the thought that one day a kid'll come in that I should be able to help, but won't be able to. I wish I didn't have to worry that. Of all the things I could wish for, I wish for peace.

I've made a lot of friends here, I couldn't wish for better. But I can, and do, wish to see my Dad again. I wish I could wake up in Crabapple Cove and throw open the window to the scent of the flowers and the sea.

I know a lot of people, my self included, think I'm a little mad, but, above all else, I wish for this madness to end.