Yeaness! I have finally updated this poor story!
Disclaimer: I do not own Yuugiou. Do you think this would be called fan fiction if I did?
Without further ado.Yami no Bakura's chappie.
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Reality
Chapter Five: Through Someone Else's Eyes [1]
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Go to sleep yadonushi [2]. Sleep forever for all I care. We both know your nightmare haunts your waking hours when sleep will not come, when darkness consumes you but you cannot retreat from it nor resist it. Feh.
You are so weak.
How can the damned yadonushi be so weak? Is it so much to want more power in this body of ours? Is it so much to want a challenge when I try to take control? The poor fool has no will left to fight me for his own body.
It's because the nightmare took that too.
I really have taken everything from him haven't I? His body is mine [3]. His life is in my hands. I've taken his home, his existence, his soul. Guilt. Not an emotion I know. The Ra-damned pharaoh has told me countless times that I should feel bad about what I do.
Bastard.
What a hypocrite. We were the same once. Pharaoh too killed for sport, for pleasure under the pretense of trespass in his soul [4]. Now though.ku. Now that he has become so righteous, I should feel guilty about controlling what little fate I have been given to hold. They're simply scraps from the table, but at least I have not become weak. I am still strong despite yadonushi's weakness.
Yadonushi. Hn. It's strange how he's grown on me despite my proclaimed disgust of him. Apparently sharing a body makes hatred difficult to maintain. Even so, I do not claim to like him. No, this feeling is something different, something I cannot explain. I can just hear that Mazaki girl, 'Ah, it's love.' Whiny bitch [5].
Wishful thinking. Love is such a trifling, betraying little emotion. How could I possibly love yadonushi? I have no use for love, nor would I be able to offer it if I wished. Does she truly believe I could give something I have never received? Besides, it's not as though he could love me after the Hell I've put him through.
It's a means to an end when all else is burned away. When the Sennen items are mine, I won't have a use for him any longer, save for his body [6]. Though, the Sennen items are another problem altogether, or rather the end that I seek is. Once I have all seven items, what use will they serve? Yes, I will be powerful, but why exactly did I need the power so badly? Nothing will stop me from getting them regardless, but I have lost sight of my original purpose. Somehow, the end I seek is lost to me.
No matter.
What a lie. I don't understand how I could have forgotten such a thing! Yadonushi has distracted me I suppose; so long I have tried to counterbalance his weakness that my reason has vanished. Damn it all! I will not become weak as the pharaoh has!
Were I logical and levelheaded as yadonushi is, it might occur to me how terrified I am of weakening beyond hope. But, I am not yadonushi, and I will never resign myself to that. Never! If I give into that delusion I will never succeed.
I'll be looking through someone else's eyes forever.
What is reality worth if it costs you your freedom?
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Author's Notes:
[1] The title.my original title was 'Until the Day I Die,' but obviously that did not happen. YnBakura has a sharing problem, as in he does not want to share his body with his weaker omote [more on this later]; thus, he is always forced to look out through someone else's eyes.
[2] yadonushi- King's property; I have also seen it translated as host
[3] Take it how you will
[4] In the early volumes of the manga, YnYuugi used to kill and/or torture people, either psychologically or physically, who offended him, Yuugi, or Yuugi's friends and family.
[5] that Mazaki girl- Mazaki Anzu.for the record, I do not detest her character any longer. She is still whiny though.
[6] The cool translucent bodies of the yami are only seen by their hikari, so YnBakura would still need a body if he were in possession of all of the Sennen Items.it's a different view than I generally take.
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Yami no Bakura: Crazy? Quite likely.
Strong? Doubtless, but he is not as strong as he believes. In all truth, YnBakura is controlled by the will of his hikari, Bakura Ryou [Ryou for my purposes], though he feels that he has the upper hand because Ryou is so weak willed when it comes to control of the body. Ryou is not actually weak though, he just relinquishes control to his yami more quickly.probably a lesson learned the hard way.
Confused? No.not you, Yami no Bakura. Yes, he is confused. [Mind you this is not canon, but rather my interpretation for the purposes of this chappie.] He's forgotten why he needed the power of the Sennen Items, because his changing mentality toward Ryou distracts him. YnBakura slowly comes to view his "yadonushi" with something other than disdain. Yea!
In love? Absolutely not. I don't think that YnBakura is incapable of love, he just doesn't know how to love. His past, which is too lengthy to discuss, did not offer any love for him and therefore he does not know how to show love.
I decided to take a different direction with this chapter than originally planned. No fluff and no separate bodies. What a concept for a screaming shounen-ai fangirl. *^^ I was pondering what it would be like to be trapped in someone else's head, and came up with this painfully short chappie. Don't get me wrong, I love yami/hikari pairings, but this version felt more appropriate. Though, I just noticed how much it digresses from the whole concept of this collection. *o.o*
As for my original title: Until the Day I Die. This is the title of a Story of the Year song which I have absolutely fallen in love with. As it is, I heard the song while I was writing this chapter last night.
My hands are at your throat, and I think I hate you. We made the
same mistakes.Until the day I die, I'd spill my heart for you.
*giggle* Anyway, YnBakura doesn't truly hate Ryou as much as he would believe, or as much as it would seem to a viewer. He thinks he hates him, but would die for him anyway. Like YnBakura has a choice whether or not he would die for his hikari. It's ironic really.
That's all then! Please read and review as usual.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yuugiou. Do you think this would be called fan fiction if I did?
Without further ado.Yami no Bakura's chappie.
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Reality
Chapter Five: Through Someone Else's Eyes [1]
* * *
Go to sleep yadonushi [2]. Sleep forever for all I care. We both know your nightmare haunts your waking hours when sleep will not come, when darkness consumes you but you cannot retreat from it nor resist it. Feh.
You are so weak.
How can the damned yadonushi be so weak? Is it so much to want more power in this body of ours? Is it so much to want a challenge when I try to take control? The poor fool has no will left to fight me for his own body.
It's because the nightmare took that too.
I really have taken everything from him haven't I? His body is mine [3]. His life is in my hands. I've taken his home, his existence, his soul. Guilt. Not an emotion I know. The Ra-damned pharaoh has told me countless times that I should feel bad about what I do.
Bastard.
What a hypocrite. We were the same once. Pharaoh too killed for sport, for pleasure under the pretense of trespass in his soul [4]. Now though.ku. Now that he has become so righteous, I should feel guilty about controlling what little fate I have been given to hold. They're simply scraps from the table, but at least I have not become weak. I am still strong despite yadonushi's weakness.
Yadonushi. Hn. It's strange how he's grown on me despite my proclaimed disgust of him. Apparently sharing a body makes hatred difficult to maintain. Even so, I do not claim to like him. No, this feeling is something different, something I cannot explain. I can just hear that Mazaki girl, 'Ah, it's love.' Whiny bitch [5].
Wishful thinking. Love is such a trifling, betraying little emotion. How could I possibly love yadonushi? I have no use for love, nor would I be able to offer it if I wished. Does she truly believe I could give something I have never received? Besides, it's not as though he could love me after the Hell I've put him through.
It's a means to an end when all else is burned away. When the Sennen items are mine, I won't have a use for him any longer, save for his body [6]. Though, the Sennen items are another problem altogether, or rather the end that I seek is. Once I have all seven items, what use will they serve? Yes, I will be powerful, but why exactly did I need the power so badly? Nothing will stop me from getting them regardless, but I have lost sight of my original purpose. Somehow, the end I seek is lost to me.
No matter.
What a lie. I don't understand how I could have forgotten such a thing! Yadonushi has distracted me I suppose; so long I have tried to counterbalance his weakness that my reason has vanished. Damn it all! I will not become weak as the pharaoh has!
Were I logical and levelheaded as yadonushi is, it might occur to me how terrified I am of weakening beyond hope. But, I am not yadonushi, and I will never resign myself to that. Never! If I give into that delusion I will never succeed.
I'll be looking through someone else's eyes forever.
What is reality worth if it costs you your freedom?
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Author's Notes:
[1] The title.my original title was 'Until the Day I Die,' but obviously that did not happen. YnBakura has a sharing problem, as in he does not want to share his body with his weaker omote [more on this later]; thus, he is always forced to look out through someone else's eyes.
[2] yadonushi- King's property; I have also seen it translated as host
[3] Take it how you will
[4] In the early volumes of the manga, YnYuugi used to kill and/or torture people, either psychologically or physically, who offended him, Yuugi, or Yuugi's friends and family.
[5] that Mazaki girl- Mazaki Anzu.for the record, I do not detest her character any longer. She is still whiny though.
[6] The cool translucent bodies of the yami are only seen by their hikari, so YnBakura would still need a body if he were in possession of all of the Sennen Items.it's a different view than I generally take.
* * *
Yami no Bakura: Crazy? Quite likely.
Strong? Doubtless, but he is not as strong as he believes. In all truth, YnBakura is controlled by the will of his hikari, Bakura Ryou [Ryou for my purposes], though he feels that he has the upper hand because Ryou is so weak willed when it comes to control of the body. Ryou is not actually weak though, he just relinquishes control to his yami more quickly.probably a lesson learned the hard way.
Confused? No.not you, Yami no Bakura. Yes, he is confused. [Mind you this is not canon, but rather my interpretation for the purposes of this chappie.] He's forgotten why he needed the power of the Sennen Items, because his changing mentality toward Ryou distracts him. YnBakura slowly comes to view his "yadonushi" with something other than disdain. Yea!
In love? Absolutely not. I don't think that YnBakura is incapable of love, he just doesn't know how to love. His past, which is too lengthy to discuss, did not offer any love for him and therefore he does not know how to show love.
I decided to take a different direction with this chapter than originally planned. No fluff and no separate bodies. What a concept for a screaming shounen-ai fangirl. *^^ I was pondering what it would be like to be trapped in someone else's head, and came up with this painfully short chappie. Don't get me wrong, I love yami/hikari pairings, but this version felt more appropriate. Though, I just noticed how much it digresses from the whole concept of this collection. *o.o*
As for my original title: Until the Day I Die. This is the title of a Story of the Year song which I have absolutely fallen in love with. As it is, I heard the song while I was writing this chapter last night.
My hands are at your throat, and I think I hate you. We made the
same mistakes.Until the day I die, I'd spill my heart for you.
*giggle* Anyway, YnBakura doesn't truly hate Ryou as much as he would believe, or as much as it would seem to a viewer. He thinks he hates him, but would die for him anyway. Like YnBakura has a choice whether or not he would die for his hikari. It's ironic really.
That's all then! Please read and review as usual.