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*Never Felt So Alone*
I found a picture of us today. All three of us. I was in the middle, with Harry and Ron on either side of me. We were all smiling, being the best friends that we were.
I burned it.
I regretted doing it as soon as I saw the ashes. But in a way, the burned picture was like us, all broken and battered, never to be whole again. Forever gone. And nothing could change it.
It's amazing how angry death makes you. How sad it makes you. How lonely, miserable and everything in between. How it rips at your heart and you close your eyes hoping beyond anything that it was just a dream, just a horrific nightmare. That you imagined everything and when you open your eyes, everything will be all right.
But then you open your eyes. You open them and everything is the same as it was before. Then you realize that it is a nightmare. A real one. It's your life now. And then you want to just sit down and cry, and cry.
So I did.
I cried, tears streaming down my face. Then the tears turned into rage, angry at the world, angry at everything that was taken from me. I grabbed the pillows and starting swinging them around my room, hitting everything in sight.
The door flung open and Ginny flew in faster then I could imagine. She wrenched the pillows from my grasp and held me in a tight hug. I slid down to the floor and Ginny followed, never letting me go. She whispers soothing words in my ear as my tears of rage stop and silent tears just drip down my face.
I've been too busy crying in my room to remember that Ginny even lives with me. I've been too busy to notice her. Too busy to remember that she's lost her brother. Two brothers, in a way. Mrs. Weasley seemed to have unofficially adopted Harry into the family over the years. Ginny's lost all that I have too.
But she doesn't cry.
She sits next to me and watches me, her face full of sadness. But her face remains dry, unlike my tear-streaked face. It seems so easy for her to deal with. Like she's already over it.
In a way, I hate her for it. She can walk around easily, seeming unaffected. But I can't even look at a broom without it reminding me of Harry and Ron. And then I'm in tears again. Sobbing like it's the end of the world. But for me, it seems like it really is.
Maybe it's because I've always been an old child. I've never had brothers around me all the time, like Ginny.
After being an only child for eleven years, Harry and Ron were like the brothers I never had. And now since they're gone, I have no one. Ginny still has five other brothers. Me, I'm alone.
Now and forever.
But while losing Ron was like losing a very close brother, losing Harry was worse. Much, much worse.
Losing him was like someone dropped a heavy weight on my heart. It just stopped. I could not believe he was gone. I loved Harry. Not the brotherly-love I had for Ron. No. It was true love. Every time I looked it him, it became clearer to me that we were soul mates. That we belonged together.
Only destiny stood in the way. Harry was gone before he even knew of the feelings I had for him.
He never knew I loved him with my entire heart. Never knew that I wanted to marry him and live the rest of my life as Mrs. Harry Potter. He never knew I wanted to have children with him and name them honorably after his departed parents, Lily and James.
He never knew I had a wedding all planned out in my head. Never knew I fantasized the dress, the altar, the wedding party, with Ron as his best man and Ginny as my maid of honor.
He never knew. And he will never know.
Because he's gone.
And I've never felt so alone.
A/N: Chapter Two!! I really hoped you liked it! Please review, the reviews are greatly appreciated!! I hope to have the next chapter up very soon!!
Thank you so much to my first reviewers!!
::P.E.N. Name:: Thank you for your review!! I'm glad you found it sad!! =) It was supposed to be that way!! I hope you enjoyed the second chapter as well and I really hope to hear from you again!! Thanks!!
::Allysoner:: Ally!! Two reviews!! I'm so happy you read my story!! I loved your review!! It was very funny!! You see, you found one good thing about fanfiction: it puts my brain to good use!! Ha! I am rubbing off on you!! I'm glad you think my story is good!! We'll have to see about the bacon and waffles. =) I hope you liked this chapter!! Thanks for the review!!
::Dan fan:: hmm. lemme think. Nope. I have no idea who this is. Not a single clue. Not at all. I'm lost. lol. I'm very very happy you read my story!! And I'm glad you like it!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter also!! And was this up fast enough?? I hope so. I hope you review again!! Thank you!! I hope you get a story up soon too!!
*Never Felt So Alone*
I found a picture of us today. All three of us. I was in the middle, with Harry and Ron on either side of me. We were all smiling, being the best friends that we were.
I burned it.
I regretted doing it as soon as I saw the ashes. But in a way, the burned picture was like us, all broken and battered, never to be whole again. Forever gone. And nothing could change it.
It's amazing how angry death makes you. How sad it makes you. How lonely, miserable and everything in between. How it rips at your heart and you close your eyes hoping beyond anything that it was just a dream, just a horrific nightmare. That you imagined everything and when you open your eyes, everything will be all right.
But then you open your eyes. You open them and everything is the same as it was before. Then you realize that it is a nightmare. A real one. It's your life now. And then you want to just sit down and cry, and cry.
So I did.
I cried, tears streaming down my face. Then the tears turned into rage, angry at the world, angry at everything that was taken from me. I grabbed the pillows and starting swinging them around my room, hitting everything in sight.
The door flung open and Ginny flew in faster then I could imagine. She wrenched the pillows from my grasp and held me in a tight hug. I slid down to the floor and Ginny followed, never letting me go. She whispers soothing words in my ear as my tears of rage stop and silent tears just drip down my face.
I've been too busy crying in my room to remember that Ginny even lives with me. I've been too busy to notice her. Too busy to remember that she's lost her brother. Two brothers, in a way. Mrs. Weasley seemed to have unofficially adopted Harry into the family over the years. Ginny's lost all that I have too.
But she doesn't cry.
She sits next to me and watches me, her face full of sadness. But her face remains dry, unlike my tear-streaked face. It seems so easy for her to deal with. Like she's already over it.
In a way, I hate her for it. She can walk around easily, seeming unaffected. But I can't even look at a broom without it reminding me of Harry and Ron. And then I'm in tears again. Sobbing like it's the end of the world. But for me, it seems like it really is.
Maybe it's because I've always been an old child. I've never had brothers around me all the time, like Ginny.
After being an only child for eleven years, Harry and Ron were like the brothers I never had. And now since they're gone, I have no one. Ginny still has five other brothers. Me, I'm alone.
Now and forever.
But while losing Ron was like losing a very close brother, losing Harry was worse. Much, much worse.
Losing him was like someone dropped a heavy weight on my heart. It just stopped. I could not believe he was gone. I loved Harry. Not the brotherly-love I had for Ron. No. It was true love. Every time I looked it him, it became clearer to me that we were soul mates. That we belonged together.
Only destiny stood in the way. Harry was gone before he even knew of the feelings I had for him.
He never knew I loved him with my entire heart. Never knew that I wanted to marry him and live the rest of my life as Mrs. Harry Potter. He never knew I wanted to have children with him and name them honorably after his departed parents, Lily and James.
He never knew I had a wedding all planned out in my head. Never knew I fantasized the dress, the altar, the wedding party, with Ron as his best man and Ginny as my maid of honor.
He never knew. And he will never know.
Because he's gone.
And I've never felt so alone.
A/N: Chapter Two!! I really hoped you liked it! Please review, the reviews are greatly appreciated!! I hope to have the next chapter up very soon!!
Thank you so much to my first reviewers!!
::P.E.N. Name:: Thank you for your review!! I'm glad you found it sad!! =) It was supposed to be that way!! I hope you enjoyed the second chapter as well and I really hope to hear from you again!! Thanks!!
::Allysoner:: Ally!! Two reviews!! I'm so happy you read my story!! I loved your review!! It was very funny!! You see, you found one good thing about fanfiction: it puts my brain to good use!! Ha! I am rubbing off on you!! I'm glad you think my story is good!! We'll have to see about the bacon and waffles. =) I hope you liked this chapter!! Thanks for the review!!
::Dan fan:: hmm. lemme think. Nope. I have no idea who this is. Not a single clue. Not at all. I'm lost. lol. I'm very very happy you read my story!! And I'm glad you like it!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter also!! And was this up fast enough?? I hope so. I hope you review again!! Thank you!! I hope you get a story up soon too!!