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*Never Felt So Alone*
After the funeral was over, Draco took Ginny to our apartment, and I stayed to help clean up. I felt like I needed to, that maybe it would help me register the fact that Harry and Ron were dead.
Mrs. Weasley stayed too, along with Lupin, and all the Hogwarts Professors. They all told me to go home. Told me they would finish cleaning up and I needed to go home and get some rest.
I ignored them all. I wouldn't do anything at home anyways. Nothing besides crying myself to sleep. At least here I had a chance to do something and get my mind off what has happened. At home, there would be nothing to stop me from mourning.
It was very late when Mrs. Weasley and Lupin finally went home. All the other Hogwarts teachers had retired for the night, and only Dumbledore was left.
He came up to me with an envelope in my hands. He told me that it was left with him to give to me. I gave him as much as a smile as I could and nodded, slipping it into my pocket without a glance.
He then told me to get home, and I objected until he pointed out that there was nothing left to do and I dejectedly flooed home.
Ginny was already asleep when I arrived so I quietly went to my room and got changed for bed, setting the letter facedown on the table beside my bed.
I sat on my bed for a while, staring at it. Finally I reached out and flipped it over and I saw my name written on the front.
I froze as I immediately recognized the handwriting.
Harry's.
Suddenly, I didn't want to read it. I did not want anything to do with it. I didn't want to know what it contained. I was afraid of what it would say. I sat there, as if frozen in time, staring at the handwriting. My name written by the person I wanted more than anything to be with me.
I reached for my wand, wanting to burn it. To burn it as easily as I had burned the picture I found of the three of us. Then I would never be able to read it. Never be able to be disappointed of what it contained.
I stopped, inches away from the envelope. I knew I could never live with myself if I burned it. I set my wand down on my bedside table and took a deep breath.
Slowly, I broke the seal and opened the envelope, pulling out the parchment inside.
Dear Hermione,
If you are reading this now, then I'm gone. I didn't make it.
I'm sorry if you were upset when I left. I could tell you
weren't very happy when I said goodbye. You have to understand,
I had to go. I had no choice. If I had stayed Voldemort would
have used you or Ron to get to me. I couldn't let that happen.
You and Ron are everything to me. You're like the family I
always wanted but never had the chance to have. Please don't
mourn my death. I don't want anyone being depressed over me.
Celebrate your life you have. Get married, have kids, anything.
Maybe get together with Ron, I always thought you two would go
out during our years at school. You are one of the best friends
anyone could have. Thank you for always being there for me,
right up to the end.
-Harry
Silent tears dripped down my face.
Harry thought I liked Ron, never know I liked him. He never knew it was him I had reserved my entire heart for.
There will never be a chance to tell him. To let him know of my feelings.
And I've never felt so alone.
A/N: Chapter Five!! Yea!! I am really sorry about all the little symbols in the last chapter. I don't know how they got there and I'm trying to put a better copy up when I upload this, but I'll have to see if it will work. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and the next one will be out soon!!
Thank you all my Chapter Four reviewers!!
::Allysoner:: Yes, I can tell you like to make your reviews long. Very long. I'm glad you liked the chapter. It had your favorite part about the waffles and bacon in it. I can't wait to read your next extra long review!!
::coopie:: Thank you for your review!! I'm glad you think it's good!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter too and I hope to hear from you again!!
::dan fan:: I'm glad you found it sad. ( corny, yes I know. Yes, I love that song too!! Danfan minds think alike!! I hope you liked this chapter!!
::Ickle Ronniekins Girlie:: Thank you for your review!! I'm glad you liked it and thought it was good!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter too and I hope to hear from you again!!!
::Arwen Greenleaf:: Thank you so much for your review!! And thank you even more for your compliment!! I'm so happy you think that!! I am so glad you like the story!! I hope to hear from you again!!
::sas:: You'll have to wait and see for that!! I hope you review again!! I'll be glad to hear from you!!
::Hermione512:: I'm glad you think my story is good!! I'm glad you like it; even if it's so sad it made you cry!! I really hope to hear from you again!!
::P.E.N. Name:: Thank you for your reviews. But H/Hr and D/G happen to be my favorite ships. There won't really be any D/G in this story but I did put my story in the H/Hr section. I'm sorry if it makes you not want to read my story anymore, but this is how I planned out the story to happen. I am happy you think I'm good at writing and I hope you can keep reading even though you don't like the ship.
*Never Felt So Alone*
After the funeral was over, Draco took Ginny to our apartment, and I stayed to help clean up. I felt like I needed to, that maybe it would help me register the fact that Harry and Ron were dead.
Mrs. Weasley stayed too, along with Lupin, and all the Hogwarts Professors. They all told me to go home. Told me they would finish cleaning up and I needed to go home and get some rest.
I ignored them all. I wouldn't do anything at home anyways. Nothing besides crying myself to sleep. At least here I had a chance to do something and get my mind off what has happened. At home, there would be nothing to stop me from mourning.
It was very late when Mrs. Weasley and Lupin finally went home. All the other Hogwarts teachers had retired for the night, and only Dumbledore was left.
He came up to me with an envelope in my hands. He told me that it was left with him to give to me. I gave him as much as a smile as I could and nodded, slipping it into my pocket without a glance.
He then told me to get home, and I objected until he pointed out that there was nothing left to do and I dejectedly flooed home.
Ginny was already asleep when I arrived so I quietly went to my room and got changed for bed, setting the letter facedown on the table beside my bed.
I sat on my bed for a while, staring at it. Finally I reached out and flipped it over and I saw my name written on the front.
I froze as I immediately recognized the handwriting.
Harry's.
Suddenly, I didn't want to read it. I did not want anything to do with it. I didn't want to know what it contained. I was afraid of what it would say. I sat there, as if frozen in time, staring at the handwriting. My name written by the person I wanted more than anything to be with me.
I reached for my wand, wanting to burn it. To burn it as easily as I had burned the picture I found of the three of us. Then I would never be able to read it. Never be able to be disappointed of what it contained.
I stopped, inches away from the envelope. I knew I could never live with myself if I burned it. I set my wand down on my bedside table and took a deep breath.
Slowly, I broke the seal and opened the envelope, pulling out the parchment inside.
Dear Hermione,
If you are reading this now, then I'm gone. I didn't make it.
I'm sorry if you were upset when I left. I could tell you
weren't very happy when I said goodbye. You have to understand,
I had to go. I had no choice. If I had stayed Voldemort would
have used you or Ron to get to me. I couldn't let that happen.
You and Ron are everything to me. You're like the family I
always wanted but never had the chance to have. Please don't
mourn my death. I don't want anyone being depressed over me.
Celebrate your life you have. Get married, have kids, anything.
Maybe get together with Ron, I always thought you two would go
out during our years at school. You are one of the best friends
anyone could have. Thank you for always being there for me,
right up to the end.
-Harry
Silent tears dripped down my face.
Harry thought I liked Ron, never know I liked him. He never knew it was him I had reserved my entire heart for.
There will never be a chance to tell him. To let him know of my feelings.
And I've never felt so alone.
A/N: Chapter Five!! Yea!! I am really sorry about all the little symbols in the last chapter. I don't know how they got there and I'm trying to put a better copy up when I upload this, but I'll have to see if it will work. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and the next one will be out soon!!
Thank you all my Chapter Four reviewers!!
::Allysoner:: Yes, I can tell you like to make your reviews long. Very long. I'm glad you liked the chapter. It had your favorite part about the waffles and bacon in it. I can't wait to read your next extra long review!!
::coopie:: Thank you for your review!! I'm glad you think it's good!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter too and I hope to hear from you again!!
::dan fan:: I'm glad you found it sad. ( corny, yes I know. Yes, I love that song too!! Danfan minds think alike!! I hope you liked this chapter!!
::Ickle Ronniekins Girlie:: Thank you for your review!! I'm glad you liked it and thought it was good!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter too and I hope to hear from you again!!!
::Arwen Greenleaf:: Thank you so much for your review!! And thank you even more for your compliment!! I'm so happy you think that!! I am so glad you like the story!! I hope to hear from you again!!
::sas:: You'll have to wait and see for that!! I hope you review again!! I'll be glad to hear from you!!
::Hermione512:: I'm glad you think my story is good!! I'm glad you like it; even if it's so sad it made you cry!! I really hope to hear from you again!!
::P.E.N. Name:: Thank you for your reviews. But H/Hr and D/G happen to be my favorite ships. There won't really be any D/G in this story but I did put my story in the H/Hr section. I'm sorry if it makes you not want to read my story anymore, but this is how I planned out the story to happen. I am happy you think I'm good at writing and I hope you can keep reading even though you don't like the ship.