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*Never Felt So Alone*
I've spent the last few days locked up in my room. I've been so depressed after John walked out on me that night. I thought I was definitely over Harry now.
Apparently I'm not.
I know I should get over Harry. But I can't. No matter how hard I try, something happens and I'm in tears again. I don't know why. I wish I knew. I wish I could register that he's really gone.
At least in my room, there's nothing to remind me of him. So I've stayed here, unable to leave, in fear of being reminded of Harry. But even though I'm not reminded, I can't seem to get him off my mind.
I can't sleep, so I slowly walk into the kitchen for some tea. I always find it helps me relax a little, especially in times like these.
I had just taken a nice long sip of my tea when I heard the floorboards creak in the living room.
I froze, the cup halfway back up to my mouth for another sip. I could hear someone walking in my living room, walking toward the kitchen. Where I was.
I couldn't calm my heart, which was beating way above normal. And I couldn't move my feet, as if they were glued to the floor.
The dim moonlight shone through the kitchen window as the person stepped in the kitchen.
I could tell the person was a tall man with dark, which made me shrink back against the counter. They took a small step forward and the dup of tea fell from my hands with a crash.
He had bright emerald eyes.
It was him. I knew it. There was no mistaking those bright green eyes. I could never forget them. The eyes that haunted me in my sleep. The ones that were torn away from me when I awoke.
I stood there staring at him, still frozen where I had dropped my cup. He hadn't moved either. We locked eyes, neither one of us breaking the gaze.
He opened his mouth to say something but I didn't want to hear it. I snapped my eyes away from his and walked forward. He tried to move in front of me but I pushed him aside and went to my room, shutting and locking the door behind me.
I dove onto my bed and buried my face in my pillow, sobbing. I couldn't stop crying, couldn't stop picturing the face that I hadn't seen in person for so long.
He was alive.
He was alive all this time. All while I've been crying and shielding myself from the world.
All while I had been mourning the love I lost, he was alive.
But he didn't have the decency to tell me. He couldn't have just dropped a letter or something to let me know. He just let me be alone in the world, always angry and depressed. Ignoring everyone, having no friends, losing everything I once had.
He didn't let me know.
He let me suffer.
And I've never felt so alone.
A/N: Chapter Nine!! I hope you enjoyed it and I think it answered some of your questions. Please review, I look forward to hearing what you think!!
Thank you to the Chapter Eight reviewers!! You guys are so great!!
::The Keeper of Secrets:: Thanks for your review!! And well, now Hermione can't really be in denial anymore, now that she's seen him. I hope you enjoyed this chapter too!! Please review again!!
::Allysoner:: You know, I posted chapters 7 and 8 together. As for them *appearing* maybe you should check if it's updated when you read your pirate fic! Jk! Don't worry, I'll let you know when the next chapter is up, so you don't have to make *unnecessary* trips to this website. And your review was. um. yea. thanks. Lol. The quotes were very special. :)
::dan fan:: Have a conniption why don't you? Honostly. Jk! Ok, ok, next time I update I'll be sure to let you know. I won't ever not tell you again. And what do you mean you *think* you're one of my best friends? Hello? Where have you been the past three years? Lol. I'm glad you liked the story!!
::dracosgirl10:: Thanks for reviewing!! I think this chapter answered your question about whether or not he was alive!! I hope you liked this chapter!! I hope you review again!!
::Hobbit:: Thank you for reviewing!! I'm so glad you like my story!! I hope you liked this chapter as well!! I'm glad you like how I write!! That makes me want to write more!! Thanks so much!!
::CrAzY Pigwidgeon:: Thanks for reviewing!! I hope you liked this chapter too!! Please review again!! I'll be glad to hear what you think!!
::HarryHermione13524:: Thank you for reviewing!! Harry's back of course!! I could never really kill him off!! : ) Please review again!!
::Hermione512:: Thank you for your review!! I'm so glad you think it's so good! I hope you enjoyed this chapter as well!! I hope to hear from you again!!
Thank you again to all the reviewers!! The next chapter should be up soon!!
*Never Felt So Alone*
I've spent the last few days locked up in my room. I've been so depressed after John walked out on me that night. I thought I was definitely over Harry now.
Apparently I'm not.
I know I should get over Harry. But I can't. No matter how hard I try, something happens and I'm in tears again. I don't know why. I wish I knew. I wish I could register that he's really gone.
At least in my room, there's nothing to remind me of him. So I've stayed here, unable to leave, in fear of being reminded of Harry. But even though I'm not reminded, I can't seem to get him off my mind.
I can't sleep, so I slowly walk into the kitchen for some tea. I always find it helps me relax a little, especially in times like these.
I had just taken a nice long sip of my tea when I heard the floorboards creak in the living room.
I froze, the cup halfway back up to my mouth for another sip. I could hear someone walking in my living room, walking toward the kitchen. Where I was.
I couldn't calm my heart, which was beating way above normal. And I couldn't move my feet, as if they were glued to the floor.
The dim moonlight shone through the kitchen window as the person stepped in the kitchen.
I could tell the person was a tall man with dark, which made me shrink back against the counter. They took a small step forward and the dup of tea fell from my hands with a crash.
He had bright emerald eyes.
It was him. I knew it. There was no mistaking those bright green eyes. I could never forget them. The eyes that haunted me in my sleep. The ones that were torn away from me when I awoke.
I stood there staring at him, still frozen where I had dropped my cup. He hadn't moved either. We locked eyes, neither one of us breaking the gaze.
He opened his mouth to say something but I didn't want to hear it. I snapped my eyes away from his and walked forward. He tried to move in front of me but I pushed him aside and went to my room, shutting and locking the door behind me.
I dove onto my bed and buried my face in my pillow, sobbing. I couldn't stop crying, couldn't stop picturing the face that I hadn't seen in person for so long.
He was alive.
He was alive all this time. All while I've been crying and shielding myself from the world.
All while I had been mourning the love I lost, he was alive.
But he didn't have the decency to tell me. He couldn't have just dropped a letter or something to let me know. He just let me be alone in the world, always angry and depressed. Ignoring everyone, having no friends, losing everything I once had.
He didn't let me know.
He let me suffer.
And I've never felt so alone.
A/N: Chapter Nine!! I hope you enjoyed it and I think it answered some of your questions. Please review, I look forward to hearing what you think!!
Thank you to the Chapter Eight reviewers!! You guys are so great!!
::The Keeper of Secrets:: Thanks for your review!! And well, now Hermione can't really be in denial anymore, now that she's seen him. I hope you enjoyed this chapter too!! Please review again!!
::Allysoner:: You know, I posted chapters 7 and 8 together. As for them *appearing* maybe you should check if it's updated when you read your pirate fic! Jk! Don't worry, I'll let you know when the next chapter is up, so you don't have to make *unnecessary* trips to this website. And your review was. um. yea. thanks. Lol. The quotes were very special. :)
::dan fan:: Have a conniption why don't you? Honostly. Jk! Ok, ok, next time I update I'll be sure to let you know. I won't ever not tell you again. And what do you mean you *think* you're one of my best friends? Hello? Where have you been the past three years? Lol. I'm glad you liked the story!!
::dracosgirl10:: Thanks for reviewing!! I think this chapter answered your question about whether or not he was alive!! I hope you liked this chapter!! I hope you review again!!
::Hobbit:: Thank you for reviewing!! I'm so glad you like my story!! I hope you liked this chapter as well!! I'm glad you like how I write!! That makes me want to write more!! Thanks so much!!
::CrAzY Pigwidgeon:: Thanks for reviewing!! I hope you liked this chapter too!! Please review again!! I'll be glad to hear what you think!!
::HarryHermione13524:: Thank you for reviewing!! Harry's back of course!! I could never really kill him off!! : ) Please review again!!
::Hermione512:: Thank you for your review!! I'm so glad you think it's so good! I hope you enjoyed this chapter as well!! I hope to hear from you again!!
Thank you again to all the reviewers!! The next chapter should be up soon!!