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Alfred walked next to Barbara. She was sat in silence next to the window of Clock Tower. She didn't heard him walked in, either stood up back to her.
"Is cold here miss Barbara:" He said.
Barbara jumped lightly and smiled "You scared me. I needed some fresh air:"
"Miss Helena?"
"She is back, she returned almost in the morning. But she was hurt..." Barbara lowered her hands and rubbed her hands. "She, she went to fight drunk and a car hit her..."
"Is she...?"
"She is okay, okay, but, now i'm feel bad: She hurt with her words, yes, still it hurt me everytime I remember it, but last night; she come here and tried to avoid to me that she was hurt, but she couldn't be on her feet; I needed heal her in the floor. And while we were talking, she asked me forgive her, she look me in a way..." Barbar kept silence.
"She looked you in a way...?"
"She was so sorry, she was afraid that I couldn't forgive her. She broke my heart and I felt, Im feel guilty but at the same time Im angry becouse she almost kill her self drinking as a nut instead face her problems. Something is bothering her and she just keep silence. Now I don't know what to do, I don't know if scold her or hug her. I cant approve of what she did but I couldn't push her more... Was a mistake, my mistake?"
"What mistake?"
"I pushed her to be somthing she didn't want to be. She needs her space."
"You two are very similar" Alfred sighed "Seemed are very strong, but are too fragile to break; You two hide behind the walls you build around yourselves."
"Maybe" Barbara said with sadness and loooked her watch "Better i'll go to check how is she."
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Helena was sitting on her matress looking distractedly out her window, the snow was falling on the street. The next morning she woke up in her bed. She didn't understand how Barbara could have gotten her to her room. She had a terrible headache. Barbara had bandaged her chest, and she felt uncomfortable. But at least now her wound didn't hurt. But the thing that most annoyed her, was she had been acting with lack of maturity and she felt very stupid. She couldn't face Barbara, she felt really ashamed of her recent behavior.
She felt her heart jump when she heard the door open, was Barbara.
"Hey, you are awake." The red head wheeled in "How do you feel?"
"Better. thanks." Helena said not looking at Barbara.
"Let me see you." Barbara wheeled next to her and took off the blanket to examine her chest. The bruise was still black. Helena looked at her out of the corner's of her eye.
"I'm sorry, I was a stupid" she said in low voice.
"Want to talk?" Barbara covered her chest again and locked her eyes on her, "What happened to you?"
"Nothing, just was a bad night." Helena whispered avoiding her again.
"Nothing?" Barbara glared to her "Look at me and tell me again that nothing is bothering you."
Helena kept silent.
"Explain your reaction the other night when you turned off your mic while we were talking?"
"I asked you to forgive me."
"And tell me why you put your life at risk in that stupid way last night?" Barbara was annoyed and tried to control her self. "You were drunk and went into a fight with criminals. Are you nuts? That car hit you because your senses were dazed with the alcohol. Those men could have killed you! What were you thinking? Maybe that you are Superman and invulnerable? Do you think that being a hero gives you the right to act like a stupid child? That it gives you the right to worry me all damn night? Every time we have a fight, are you going to run and hide in a bottle?"
"I was trying to apologize and you didn't listen to me!" Helena felt that now was almost impossible that Barbara could forgive her.
"And? What do you expect? Do you think that just with an apology I could feel better so easily? Please! Helena, I'm human too! I needed time as you often do! As you do now. Listen to youself, you don't want to tell me what is happening with you! I'm angry because I feel helpless. Seeing you keep silent and hiding your self from me hurts me Helena."
Helena brushed her hair with her hands feeling desperate. "Please forgive me." Helena's eyes were moist.
Barbara bit her lip, and moved her head, she touched her hand. "I'm sorry Hel, I didn't want to be rude to you. If you don't want to tell me, it's okay. It's your choice. Just don't let your feeelings interfere in your work on the streets because you would hurt someone or your self. You are out of control. I can't accept or applaud your mistakes, your life depends on you. If you don't have control of your self, you will get hurt or worse. I don't want to lose you." Barbara said with her eyes full of tears. "I'll stop your patrols until you feel better and you solve your problems. I don't ever want to see you fighting drunk again."
Helena looked at her feeling very guilty.
"It's my fault, maybe this was too soon." Barbara sighed "I pressure you so much. You are just starting your new life again. It's too much for you. Your birthday is in a few months, you are going to be 18. I will not be your legal guardian any more, you will be able to live your life and to live any place you want."
"What?" Helena blinked.
"You would have accsess to your mother's money. You will be free. So, I think it's time that you start thinking about where you would like to go or what you want to do. I understand it's hard living with a person like me. I have many limitations and I can't give you a normal life."
"No Barbara."
"Helena," the red head interrupted her, "You need to grow, live your life and later make your own decisions."
Helena felt her heart sink, she didn't want that. She felt happy living with her. "I don't want that."
"I'm sorry. I made my choice, you make yours. I don't want to pressure you any more. I don't want to wake up some day and find you dead." She patted her thigh and wet her lips before saying, "Now rest, you need to do that. Thank God, you don't have anything broken, it's just a bad bruise."
Helena wanted said something but Alfred entered at that moment with a with a meal on a tray.
"Morning Miss Helena."
"Morning Alfred."
"Well, I need go to work," Barbara smiled with sadness and wheeled back. "I'll see you in a few hours, when I get back from school." Barbara went out of the room. Alfred prepared a bed table and put it across Helena's lap.
"She told me that I can leave." she mumbled sadly. "Excuse me?" "Oh God, I hurt her so much" she looked at him with tears in her eyes. "She thinks that I don't like living here and that I feel uncomfortable with her. She told me that I'll be free on my next biirthday and that I can leave. I don't want leave Alfred. I'm happy here"
"Did you talk with her about it?"
"She didn't let me. It's over." the kid mumbled with her look lost.
"Over? What is over?" He asked pouring her a glass of juice.
"Everything. I disappointed her, I screwed it all up."
"Just for one night?" Alfred asked.
"I made fun of her disability, I almost told her that she was crazy thinking she would help me while sitting in that damn chair. The there was yesterday, I behaved like a complete idiot. It was two nights."
"And the panther, don't forget the panther, and the day that you clogged the sinks."
"Shit." Helena rested her head on the pillow and closed her eyes remebering those things. "I'm always in trouble Alfred."
"You must learn to think before act or react. You always let your emotions control your life."
"I have always disappointed her." Helena took a fork and played with the scrambled eggs on the plate.
"That's not true; you gave her many good moments. You are a light in her life. Many times you had forced her to go out, to open her self to others. You have been good company for her on those long boring nights, and more importantly, you listened to her when she felt sad."
Alfred stood up in front of her with his hands on his back. "All people have good and bad moments, just like you two. You must understand that."
"She didn't forgive me yet, she couldn't do it and she told me it's over."
"Miss Helena, she is so worried about you and your reactions. You are a vulnerable target when you react like you did last night. Maybe you might want to think about that in this situation. Since from Miss Barbara's point of view, she is responsible for you. A lovely teenager who at the same time is the daughter of her mentor and one of her best friends. And the most important point, she loves you and she is afraid to lose you. Put yourself in her place, how would you feel?" He raised his brow. "She is happy living with you but she thinks you aren't happy living with her. She only is trying to what would make you happy."
"I'm happy here."
"Don't tell her, show her."
Helena pushed the plate away. "I'm not hungry, do you have any aspirin? My head hurts."
Alfred took off a small bottle of aspirin form his poket . "This and the breakfast. Deal?"
Helena took a deep breath and nodded.
* * *
Alfred walked next to Barbara. She was sat in silence next to the window of Clock Tower. She didn't heard him walked in, either stood up back to her.
"Is cold here miss Barbara:" He said.
Barbara jumped lightly and smiled "You scared me. I needed some fresh air:"
"Miss Helena?"
"She is back, she returned almost in the morning. But she was hurt..." Barbara lowered her hands and rubbed her hands. "She, she went to fight drunk and a car hit her..."
"Is she...?"
"She is okay, okay, but, now i'm feel bad: She hurt with her words, yes, still it hurt me everytime I remember it, but last night; she come here and tried to avoid to me that she was hurt, but she couldn't be on her feet; I needed heal her in the floor. And while we were talking, she asked me forgive her, she look me in a way..." Barbar kept silence.
"She looked you in a way...?"
"She was so sorry, she was afraid that I couldn't forgive her. She broke my heart and I felt, Im feel guilty but at the same time Im angry becouse she almost kill her self drinking as a nut instead face her problems. Something is bothering her and she just keep silence. Now I don't know what to do, I don't know if scold her or hug her. I cant approve of what she did but I couldn't push her more... Was a mistake, my mistake?"
"What mistake?"
"I pushed her to be somthing she didn't want to be. She needs her space."
"You two are very similar" Alfred sighed "Seemed are very strong, but are too fragile to break; You two hide behind the walls you build around yourselves."
"Maybe" Barbara said with sadness and loooked her watch "Better i'll go to check how is she."
* * *
Helena was sitting on her matress looking distractedly out her window, the snow was falling on the street. The next morning she woke up in her bed. She didn't understand how Barbara could have gotten her to her room. She had a terrible headache. Barbara had bandaged her chest, and she felt uncomfortable. But at least now her wound didn't hurt. But the thing that most annoyed her, was she had been acting with lack of maturity and she felt very stupid. She couldn't face Barbara, she felt really ashamed of her recent behavior.
She felt her heart jump when she heard the door open, was Barbara.
"Hey, you are awake." The red head wheeled in "How do you feel?"
"Better. thanks." Helena said not looking at Barbara.
"Let me see you." Barbara wheeled next to her and took off the blanket to examine her chest. The bruise was still black. Helena looked at her out of the corner's of her eye.
"I'm sorry, I was a stupid" she said in low voice.
"Want to talk?" Barbara covered her chest again and locked her eyes on her, "What happened to you?"
"Nothing, just was a bad night." Helena whispered avoiding her again.
"Nothing?" Barbara glared to her "Look at me and tell me again that nothing is bothering you."
Helena kept silent.
"Explain your reaction the other night when you turned off your mic while we were talking?"
"I asked you to forgive me."
"And tell me why you put your life at risk in that stupid way last night?" Barbara was annoyed and tried to control her self. "You were drunk and went into a fight with criminals. Are you nuts? That car hit you because your senses were dazed with the alcohol. Those men could have killed you! What were you thinking? Maybe that you are Superman and invulnerable? Do you think that being a hero gives you the right to act like a stupid child? That it gives you the right to worry me all damn night? Every time we have a fight, are you going to run and hide in a bottle?"
"I was trying to apologize and you didn't listen to me!" Helena felt that now was almost impossible that Barbara could forgive her.
"And? What do you expect? Do you think that just with an apology I could feel better so easily? Please! Helena, I'm human too! I needed time as you often do! As you do now. Listen to youself, you don't want to tell me what is happening with you! I'm angry because I feel helpless. Seeing you keep silent and hiding your self from me hurts me Helena."
Helena brushed her hair with her hands feeling desperate. "Please forgive me." Helena's eyes were moist.
Barbara bit her lip, and moved her head, she touched her hand. "I'm sorry Hel, I didn't want to be rude to you. If you don't want to tell me, it's okay. It's your choice. Just don't let your feeelings interfere in your work on the streets because you would hurt someone or your self. You are out of control. I can't accept or applaud your mistakes, your life depends on you. If you don't have control of your self, you will get hurt or worse. I don't want to lose you." Barbara said with her eyes full of tears. "I'll stop your patrols until you feel better and you solve your problems. I don't ever want to see you fighting drunk again."
Helena looked at her feeling very guilty.
"It's my fault, maybe this was too soon." Barbara sighed "I pressure you so much. You are just starting your new life again. It's too much for you. Your birthday is in a few months, you are going to be 18. I will not be your legal guardian any more, you will be able to live your life and to live any place you want."
"What?" Helena blinked.
"You would have accsess to your mother's money. You will be free. So, I think it's time that you start thinking about where you would like to go or what you want to do. I understand it's hard living with a person like me. I have many limitations and I can't give you a normal life."
"No Barbara."
"Helena," the red head interrupted her, "You need to grow, live your life and later make your own decisions."
Helena felt her heart sink, she didn't want that. She felt happy living with her. "I don't want that."
"I'm sorry. I made my choice, you make yours. I don't want to pressure you any more. I don't want to wake up some day and find you dead." She patted her thigh and wet her lips before saying, "Now rest, you need to do that. Thank God, you don't have anything broken, it's just a bad bruise."
Helena wanted said something but Alfred entered at that moment with a with a meal on a tray.
"Morning Miss Helena."
"Morning Alfred."
"Well, I need go to work," Barbara smiled with sadness and wheeled back. "I'll see you in a few hours, when I get back from school." Barbara went out of the room. Alfred prepared a bed table and put it across Helena's lap.
"She told me that I can leave." she mumbled sadly. "Excuse me?" "Oh God, I hurt her so much" she looked at him with tears in her eyes. "She thinks that I don't like living here and that I feel uncomfortable with her. She told me that I'll be free on my next biirthday and that I can leave. I don't want leave Alfred. I'm happy here"
"Did you talk with her about it?"
"She didn't let me. It's over." the kid mumbled with her look lost.
"Over? What is over?" He asked pouring her a glass of juice.
"Everything. I disappointed her, I screwed it all up."
"Just for one night?" Alfred asked.
"I made fun of her disability, I almost told her that she was crazy thinking she would help me while sitting in that damn chair. The there was yesterday, I behaved like a complete idiot. It was two nights."
"And the panther, don't forget the panther, and the day that you clogged the sinks."
"Shit." Helena rested her head on the pillow and closed her eyes remebering those things. "I'm always in trouble Alfred."
"You must learn to think before act or react. You always let your emotions control your life."
"I have always disappointed her." Helena took a fork and played with the scrambled eggs on the plate.
"That's not true; you gave her many good moments. You are a light in her life. Many times you had forced her to go out, to open her self to others. You have been good company for her on those long boring nights, and more importantly, you listened to her when she felt sad."
Alfred stood up in front of her with his hands on his back. "All people have good and bad moments, just like you two. You must understand that."
"She didn't forgive me yet, she couldn't do it and she told me it's over."
"Miss Helena, she is so worried about you and your reactions. You are a vulnerable target when you react like you did last night. Maybe you might want to think about that in this situation. Since from Miss Barbara's point of view, she is responsible for you. A lovely teenager who at the same time is the daughter of her mentor and one of her best friends. And the most important point, she loves you and she is afraid to lose you. Put yourself in her place, how would you feel?" He raised his brow. "She is happy living with you but she thinks you aren't happy living with her. She only is trying to what would make you happy."
"I'm happy here."
"Don't tell her, show her."
Helena pushed the plate away. "I'm not hungry, do you have any aspirin? My head hurts."
Alfred took off a small bottle of aspirin form his poket . "This and the breakfast. Deal?"
Helena took a deep breath and nodded.