OMG! lol when I saw that sum ppl had ACTUALLY reviewed ~ I was so estatic! hahaha! Thanks to the ppl who've reviewed ~ u ppl are awesome! Some comments to the reviewers:

elvencherry07: Not sure whether I should make amos cheat or not....since a lot of ther ppl put that in their stories ~ we'll hafta wait and see!

me(): Haha, don't worry they just past out, Lily's not gunna be *that* easy!

Millie*A: omg! I loved your story! haha!

lilynjamesAAF: I DEFINATLY deserve more reviews! hahaha *Get the hint!* lol

And thanx again to the others who reviewed you're just as *special* hahaha ~ XoXHugs and Kisses!XoX

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Sunlight streamed into the Head Girl dorm room as Lily opened her eyes and stretched herself, like a cat. She smiled secretly to herself. Last night had been one of the most amazing experiances ever. If only she could remember what had happened. She remembered dancing with an incredibly cute boy and she remember snogging him and she knew that she had been drunk, her head was killing her.



She threw the covers off of her and walked to her dresser where she grabbed a bottle of muggle asprin and took two. That's when she spotted herself in the mirror.....she was in her bra and panties, which meant that someone, because it certaintly wasn't her, had taken them off. Her expression of puzzlement soon turned to horror, had she been raped? She racked her brain trying to think about who she had been with and that's when she remembered.

James Potter.

No, Scum Bag.

She had grinded with James and then when she had passed out, he had raped her. She was sure of it. He was always trying to sleep with her, wasn't he? It had been the perfect oppertunity and he had used it.

How could I have been so stupid, she thought as she ran through the head common room and then threw James's door open, he was lying there staring up at the ceiling, a slight smile on his face.

"You bastard! You son-of-a-bitch! HOW DARE YOU!" Lily screamed.

She threw the covers off of him and yanked him out of the bed and shoved him towards the wall.

"Lily! What the fuck did I do?"

"I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOU ACTUALLY HAVE THE GAUL TO STAND THERE AND PRETEND YOU DON'T KNOW! YOU FUCKING BASTARD!"

Lily pulled her fist back and slammed it into his face as hard as she could. He stumbled backwards, his shocked expression telling her that it'd hurt, and clutched the side wehre she had hit.

"WHAT DID I DO?" James shouted back at her, he had no idea what she was screaming about, although an idea was beginning to form in his head.

"You're pretty clever Potter," she spat his name like it was dirt, "gave me a few drinks, danced with me to make me nice and tired, and then took me and gave yourself a nice treat....."

"YOU THINK I RAPED YOU?" James's face held nothing but anger and puzzlement.

"Think Potter? NO! I KNOW you raped me! Don't try to talk me out of it." And she kicked him as hard as she could, bringing tears to his eyes.

James looked heartbroken, "You think I would do that to you? You think I'm the kind of person that would do something that horrible?" His voice was almost a sob and his cheek was now purple and yellow and black.

"Give it up James. I'm going to get a truth potion and your going to fucking drink it, GOT IT?"

"FINE!"

Lily ran to the medicine cabinit where she found a bottle of truth potion, and odd thing to have in a medicine cabnit, but that didn't really matter now. She ran back and chucked it at James, hard, who caught it.

"You wait and see."

Lily smirked, but her eyes said something different, why was he so willing to drink it? Maybe he wasn't lying.....no, he was lying. He had done it. Maybe he was proud of it.

"Sick bastard," Lily mumbled to herself.

He ripped the cork of with his teeth and then swallowed the whole bottle. 3 or 4 seconds later, a dreamy expression came over his face and Lily knew it was time.

"James? Where were you last night?"

"At a party in the Astronomy Tower," his voice was almost robotic.

"And who were you with?"

He smiled, "Well, I was with a bunch of girls......but then I saw her....and I was with her the rest of the night."

"You were with who the rest of the night?"

"Lily." James said, his expression still dreamy.

"What did you do? I mean, what happened?"

"Well, Lily showed up at the party and I had been drinking a little, but I asked her to dance. She said yes, actually, and we then danced for the rest of the night. I admit we both a way to much to drink, but it was awesome. We even snogged, quite a lot actually. She really is amazing, you know. Anyway, we ended up passing out and when I woke up at around 6ish I carried her to her head girl room and put her to bed. She was all sweaty, delicious to me, but I didn't think she'd want to sleep like that. So I undressed her and put her to bed. I was really good to, didn't touch her one bit!"

Lily stumbled back slightly, "So, you didn't touch her? Like....rape her?"

James shook his head hard, making him wobbly. "Nah, I wouldn't want to ever do that to Lily. Her first time should be special....not forced."

Lily stumbled back, her hand at her open mouth. Suddenly James fell over, passed out from the potion probably. So he hadn't done a thing to her and she had hit him so hard! For the next hour Lily stayed in his room, running cold water over his face and once in a while shaking him slightly. Which in the end, woke him up.

"James? Oh, God, James. I'm so sorry."

He looked extremly puzzled for a second and then nodded, as though he had remembered.

"That's okay, it did seem odd, I suppose for you. I just....how could you think that I would do that?"

"People do it all the time James! And no one ever knows who did it? Who knew? All I know, now, is that I'm sorry."

James tried to smile, but he winced on account of the purplish-yellowish-blackish bruise on his cheek.

"Don't move! It'll hurt! I'm going to take you to Madam Pomfery"

But James shook his head no, Lily knew he was too proud to do that for a bruise....a very very bad bruise. Lily tried to smile, but instead tears rose to her eyes. She tried to hold them back, but it didn't work. Instead she put her head down and lightly touched the mark with a cold rag.

"I'm so sorry...."

"Last night was one of the best nights of my life, Lily, you've got nothing to be sorry about." His voice was husky and he pulled her head down and kissed her on the forehead, although his body was aching for her mouth, which looked so sweet and delicious.

When he had just kissed her forehead, Lily had almost been upset. She was glad that he had forgiven her, but his lips were so sweet, she thought he would've kissed her mouth, instead, like he usually did. When she pulled back, she looked into his eyes and could tell he had wanted the same thing, but had been too polite and, she supposed, a little too scared.

"James...." She whispered it to him and then brushed her lips against his, softly, but James wasn't a soft kisser. He pulled her down to him and onto the bed, his mouth all over hers. She ran her hands down his naked chest, enjoying the feel of his toned muscles, while James sucked of her lower lip, making it tremble. She felt his toung poke at her teeth and smiling to herself she let her own tounge mingle with his. He brushed his lips against hers softly again and then pulled away, his eyes staring into hers and then raveling up and down her body. That's when she realized she was still wearing almost nothing. She squealed and jumped up.

"I'm practically naked and here I am, snogging you!"

James laughed and pulled her back down, rolling with her, down the length of them bed. They stopped, breathless, and looked at each other.

"Lily......you are...amazing. Really, you must be the most gorgeous girl ever," his voice had returned to a husky state, "Lily, if I told you that I lo-"

"James don't! Please don't say it!" Lily cried and she pulled away from him and off the bed. Why did he always have to say that? He always had to ruin it! He didn't love her and she didn't love him.

"Why not? Don't you li-"

"Please," she cut him off again, "James, we can't. I don't know what I've been thinking, but, James it won't happen. We're not right, we'd be all wrong together....And I've got a boyfriend! Who I love!"

James suddenly looked like he was drowning, his face turned pale and is eyes got a distant look in them, he turned and ran out the door, which lead to the boy's dorms and as he turned, Lily had been sure, she had seen tears on his face.

"No! James, wait!" Lily called and almost ran ofter him, but she didn't. "FUCK!" She screamed and ran to her room. Why did she have to go and say that? It was true, though! She knew it......



For the rest of the day, she stayed locked up in her room, sobbing. She could smell delicious food, but even her hunger didn't get her out. She refused to.

The next day, as she walked down the hall, her friend, Summer Peters, pulled her aside, her face in a cheerful smile. Summer was a lovely girl with long blond hair, blue eyes, and lots of cute freckles. She was skinny and she had nice curves. Since she played as a chaser on the quidditch team, she was tan and muscular.

"I haven't seen you in days! Where have you been?" She smiled and hugged her, tight. "You look upset, though, I heard something about you and James," she raised her eyebrows, "some sources saw you two grinding at the party the other night! Is it true?"

Lily stared at her lost for words and Summer's face turned to worry.

"Are you okay? You look upset?"

"Summer, I...I need to talk to you. Privatly."

"Of course! We'll go to the kitchens."

Summer pulled her down corridors and up and down stairs until they reached the painting of the pear, which she tickled and opened up. After they asked the kind houselves, who had run up to them gleefully, for some scones and tea, they sat by the fire.

"Lily, tell me what's wrong," Summer said as she sipped her tea.

But Lily couldn't talk, all she could to was cry. They sat there for an hour or so as Lily told Summer what had happened, through choking sobs, and how she was afraid that he would ever speak to her again.

"Silly, he has to. You're both head students!"

"Not like that, Summer! Like a friend!"

Summer didn't respend, instead she turned her head and looked into the fire.

"I don't really know what to tell you, besides that I'm sure that everything will come out right in the end. Remember, tomorrow is always fresh, with no mistakes in it."

And they laughed.

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"Today, I will be pairing you up into, well obviously pairs. You will continue growing you bibyretch cactuses. "Professor Budenster stood at the front of the greenhouse. "Now, let's put Black and Peters together, Diggory and Longbottom, Potter and Evans, Lupin and Pettigrew...."and she continued to pair the Hufflepuffs and Gryfinndors together.

Lily stood there, her head down, staring at her bibyretch cactus. James walked over and put his books down next to her, not a word was spoken between them. Amos was frowing as he watched who his girlfriend had been paired with, that biy he hated, James. He was such an idiot why was he paired with Lily? He wasn't her boyfriend! He was! Although, Frank Longbottom was a sweet fellow and was very smart. This assignment would be a piece of cake! Summer smiled at Sirius as she set her books down next to his.

"And how are we today, fair lady?" Sirius asked grinning at her. Summer was a cute thing. All smart and spunky.

"Fine thank, kind stranger," she replied, laughing, "Now I do bealive we should do our assignment.

"Indeed, my dear maiden, you are correct."

The two laughed and began observing their cactus, taking occasional notes. Lily watched them, a smile on her face. They were so sweet together. What a nice couple....unlike her and James.

James....

She looked at him, to find that he was looking back at her. But when she smiled, he turned his head and shoved the cactus towards her. She supposed that meant, "work." For the next hour the poked and prodded, cut and studied the cactus. Until the period was over. All the other students began jamming their books into their bags and hurrying out. Lily noticed, however, that Amos stood at the door waiting for her and that James packed his books slightly slower than Sirius, Remus, and Peter, who stood waiting for him, as well. You could tell there was a lot of tension.

"So, um, how was your practice today?" Amos asked Sirius, who played Beater on the Quidditch team.

"Er, fine. Thanks. And yours?"

"Oh, well. It was alright. I'm quite tired, it's so strenuous when your the head player."

"Yeah, well, James has got it really bad. Being the head player and the captian. You know?"

"For God's sake, guys, don't talk to such trash," James sneered at Amos, who immediatly glared back at him.

"Fuck off, Potter, we were just having a decent conversation. What's your problem?"

"I don't have a problem, I just don't want my friends talking to people that I and they both hate."

Amos laughed, "You don't have a problem, of course you do. And wanna know what that problem is shit face? It's that I'm the one Lily loves and not you and we all know how much you like her....your just jealous. Can't have what you want eh? Get get all the-"

"AMOS! Shut up! You idiot!" Lily shouted, her face was flushed, probably from blushing.

"What? I was defending you for crying out loud!" Amos said.

"No one even said anything about me! You brought me up on your own!"

"Only because I knew Potter would if I didn't!"

Lily, closed her eyes. She looked tired, bags hung under her eyes and the sparkle that usualy shown in them, was gone. "Amos, please. Just stop."

She turned to walk out and was closely followed by Remus and Peter. Sirius stayed behind, glancing nervously from James to Amos, who were glaring at each other.

"James? You gunna come?"

"I'll be there soon, man, gimme a few minutes."

"I......" Sirius began, but he trailed off knowing that if it was him. He would wanna fight in peace to and so he ran to join the others.

"So, you just thik your mr. hotshit, dontcha Digger-boy?"

"What if I do? Huh? What are you gunna do about it? You gunna run to Lily and cry? Oh wait! That's right, Lily hates you! Sorry, too bad for you!"

James bolted forward and slammed Amos against the wall. Holding onto his coller, he snarled in his face.

"Take that back to little shit! Take it back!"

Amos glared and shot his fist out, colliding it with James's stomach. He stumbled backwards, clutching his stomach in pain. Amos sneered at him again.

"I'm not gunna take back anything that isn't true!"

Amos shot his one last death glare and walked out.

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