Chapter 5
"Ahhh... I love taking baths. It's so relaxing." Kagome told no one as she sunk into the deeper water. This was the only time when she felt comfortable. While bathing she didn't have to worry about demons or Naraku or Kikyou. How she hated Kikyou. Her mother had always told her when she was growing up that she should never hate anyone, that it was too strong of a word. As she contemplated this she came to the conclusion that she truly despised, loathed, detested, abhorred, and hated Kikyou. She hated how she made her feel, how she had an invisible grasp on Inuyasha, and how she was her ancestor. Kagome got a look of pure disgust and contempt on her face as she thought of the dead miko. "I hate that stupid bitch!" she yelled without thinking. She looked around to see if anyone had heard her and assuring herself that no one had, lowered herself back into the water. After about ten more minutes of bathing, she got out and dried herself. After she was dressed, she turned to head back to the camp.
"Hi guys." Kagome said as she walked up to the fire lit campsite. Sango, Miroku, Kirara, and Shippou looked up at her and smiled. She noticed that someone was missing. "Where's Inuyasha?" "I dunno." Sango said evenly. "I think he went for a walk." "Oh. Anyways, I'm hungry. Who wants ramen?" She took the smiles that she received as 'I am's and reached for her bag to pull out the food. "Oh no! I left my bag at the springs!" she cried. "Be right back guys!" With that, she took off in the direction she had just come from.
"Which way was it?" Kagome had been lost for about ten minutes. She stumbled awkwardly through the dark forest, tripping on roots every now and then. She started to worry, until she heard voices nearby. "Thank the Gods." she said wearily, starting towards the whispers. She looked out from behind a tree and saw something that made her heart drop. "I love you Kikyou." Inuyasha whispered as her hugged her tightly and swiftly pulled her into a kiss. When he finished he resumed hugging her and whispering to her delicately. Kikyou glanced over his shoulder at Kagome, who was standing with her mouth open and her jaw hanging in disbelief. Kikyou smiled at her mockingly and pulled Inuyasha in tighter. "Inu... Inuyasha... you can't..." Kagome sputtered. She felt as though she were being set on fire while being stabbed through the heart. He didn't look up to her; He didn't even notice her. He was preoccupied. Wanting to get away from all the pain and fear and frustration, Kagome ran. She ran from the only person she had ever truly loved. She ran from the only person she had ever truly hated. She ran blindly, not knowing or caring where she was going. The pain had started to reside and was now being replaced with an emotion that seemed ill fitting for her predominantly cheerful disposition, anger. 'I loved him! How could he?! I... I'm leaving forever! He can't expect to put me through hell and then have me just return to him! NO! I WON'T GO BACK! I HATE HIM!" she thought as tears silently poured down her flushed cheeks and she choked back sobs. She came upon a clearing and sat to rest. She put her arms around her knees and drew them closer to her body, trying to shut out the cold. She quietly lay down on the grass and tried to keep the tears back. 'I can't cry. I can't let him make me cry...' She thought as she slowly cried herself to sleep.
Inuyasha walked back towards camp, deep in thought. 'Why do I act like that whenever I'm around Kikyou? I only love her when she is near. Then she leaves and I realize that I can't love her. That isn't Kikyou. That is just earth, clay, and bones. I don't love her. I'm already in love with someone else...' As he neared camp he heard Miroku and Sango talking. "Where do you think she could be?! She left nearly 3 hours ago! She should've returned by now. Maybe she got lost?!" Sango shouted at Miroku, looking for an answer. "Or maybe she went looking for Inuyasha..." he thought out loud. 'Kagome's gone?! Maybe she... did she see me with Kikyou?!' Inuyasha turned and ran into the woods, searching for the scent he had often dreamed of. He ran for what seemed like hours before coming upon a small clearing. He knew that she was here. Not only could he smell her, he could hear her deep breathing. He saw her and slowly walked towards her. She was asleep, hugging her legs. 'She must be cold.' he thought. He bent down to wake her and take her back to camp. He touched her arm lightly and she woke sharply. Without a word, she sat up and glared at him. 'Was she... crying?' Her cheeks were stained. "Come on Kagome, let's go back to camp." he said soothingly, yet she had not forgotten her anger that easily. "No." He turned to look at her slowly, half expecting her to be kidding, but the look on her face told him that she was morbidly serious. "What's wrong with you? Come on, let's go back to camp." He motioned for her to get on his back, but she turned away and crossed her arms. She didn't want him to see that she was fighting back tears. "I'm not going anywhere with you. I'm done." she said coldly, hoping that he would make it easy on her and just leave. He didn't. "But why-" he started before being cut off. "I SAW YOU INUYAHSA! I SAW YOU WITH KIKYOU! YOU JUST LOVE MAKING THIS EASY FOR ME DON'T YOU?! WELL I'VE HAD ENOUGH! I'M LEAVING AND YOU'RE NOT CHANGING MY MIND! FUCK YOU INUYASHA! I HATE YOU!" she yelled. As he stood there, trying to absorb what she had said, she ran off down a hill and into another clearing. 'She... hates me?! But... she can't hate me...' He needed to talk to her; He needed to comfort her. So, he ran after her. She knew that he was much faster than she was, but she ran nonetheless. She hoped that she could lose him in the forest, but deep down she knew that she had no chance. "Kagome wait! We need to talk!" he yelled. He ran as fast as he could, and he was almost up to her. "NO! GO TO KIKYOU! SHE'LL HELP YOU FIND THE SHARDS! YOU LOVE HER ANYWAYS! I'M SICK OF GETTING MY HEART BROKEN BY YOU INUYASHA!" she screamed. Tears were spilling onto her shirt, but she didn't care. She was in too much pain. She needed to get away from it all. Inuyasha caught up to her and grabbed her wrist, pulling her to a stop. She fought against him, kicking and thrashing, but it was no use. He was too strong. He pinned her to the ground and she looked up at him with malice filling her eyes. "Why do you hate me?" he asked calmly. "As if you don't know!" she spat at him. "Actually I don't, so if you would be as kind as to inform me, I think we can work it out." "I saw you kiss her and I heard you tell her that you loved her! If you didn't love me, you should have told me, and I would have left! Why did you have to toy with me?! What did I do to you?! I loved you and you put me through hell! Do you know the agony I went through when I saw you kiss her?!" She was sobbing now, and she knew that he was watching her. She felt his hand release her wrist and rub her cheek. She tried to pull away from him, but it was useless. He put her free arm under his leg and gently ran his hand across her face, trying to calm her. "You loved me? Why didn't you tell me?" he asked. "Well it's not like it would have done any good! You love Kikyou, not me! I'm just your damn shard detector! I mean nothing to you, and I never will!" "You don't know what you're saying... I love you... When I'm around her I just... it's like I'm under some spell. I don't know what I'm doing or saying. I don't love her. She's not Kikyou. Kikyou died." he stated reassuringly. He felt her go limp under him and she looked up at him blankly. "You... you're just saying that so I won't leave and you can keep looking for your precious jewel shards! Then you'll revive Kikyou and leave me!" "No I'm not, I love you Kagome. I want you to stay with me, to be with me forever. I want you to love me like I love you." he said while looking deeply into her eyes. "How do I know that I can trust you?" she asked meekly. She looked back into his gaze and realized that his eyes showed only sincerity and concern. "Because of this." He kissed her and her breath caught in her throat. She closed her eyes and savored the moment. She had always dreamt of kissing him, and it was even better than she imagined. She instantly melted into him and he released his grip on her arms. She put her arms around his neck, pulling him in closer. Her lips parted and his tongue licked the entrance of her mouth before entering. Her tongue and his met, and she massaged his with hers. He rolled over and pulled her on top of him. They continued kissing as he ran his hands through her hair. She did the same to him and her hands found his ears. She rubbed them gently and she could feel him purring. She giggled as the purr rumbled through his chest, and into hers. She pulled away from him just enough to look into his eyes and smiled gently. "I believe you Inuyasha."
"Ahhh... I love taking baths. It's so relaxing." Kagome told no one as she sunk into the deeper water. This was the only time when she felt comfortable. While bathing she didn't have to worry about demons or Naraku or Kikyou. How she hated Kikyou. Her mother had always told her when she was growing up that she should never hate anyone, that it was too strong of a word. As she contemplated this she came to the conclusion that she truly despised, loathed, detested, abhorred, and hated Kikyou. She hated how she made her feel, how she had an invisible grasp on Inuyasha, and how she was her ancestor. Kagome got a look of pure disgust and contempt on her face as she thought of the dead miko. "I hate that stupid bitch!" she yelled without thinking. She looked around to see if anyone had heard her and assuring herself that no one had, lowered herself back into the water. After about ten more minutes of bathing, she got out and dried herself. After she was dressed, she turned to head back to the camp.
"Hi guys." Kagome said as she walked up to the fire lit campsite. Sango, Miroku, Kirara, and Shippou looked up at her and smiled. She noticed that someone was missing. "Where's Inuyasha?" "I dunno." Sango said evenly. "I think he went for a walk." "Oh. Anyways, I'm hungry. Who wants ramen?" She took the smiles that she received as 'I am's and reached for her bag to pull out the food. "Oh no! I left my bag at the springs!" she cried. "Be right back guys!" With that, she took off in the direction she had just come from.
"Which way was it?" Kagome had been lost for about ten minutes. She stumbled awkwardly through the dark forest, tripping on roots every now and then. She started to worry, until she heard voices nearby. "Thank the Gods." she said wearily, starting towards the whispers. She looked out from behind a tree and saw something that made her heart drop. "I love you Kikyou." Inuyasha whispered as her hugged her tightly and swiftly pulled her into a kiss. When he finished he resumed hugging her and whispering to her delicately. Kikyou glanced over his shoulder at Kagome, who was standing with her mouth open and her jaw hanging in disbelief. Kikyou smiled at her mockingly and pulled Inuyasha in tighter. "Inu... Inuyasha... you can't..." Kagome sputtered. She felt as though she were being set on fire while being stabbed through the heart. He didn't look up to her; He didn't even notice her. He was preoccupied. Wanting to get away from all the pain and fear and frustration, Kagome ran. She ran from the only person she had ever truly loved. She ran from the only person she had ever truly hated. She ran blindly, not knowing or caring where she was going. The pain had started to reside and was now being replaced with an emotion that seemed ill fitting for her predominantly cheerful disposition, anger. 'I loved him! How could he?! I... I'm leaving forever! He can't expect to put me through hell and then have me just return to him! NO! I WON'T GO BACK! I HATE HIM!" she thought as tears silently poured down her flushed cheeks and she choked back sobs. She came upon a clearing and sat to rest. She put her arms around her knees and drew them closer to her body, trying to shut out the cold. She quietly lay down on the grass and tried to keep the tears back. 'I can't cry. I can't let him make me cry...' She thought as she slowly cried herself to sleep.
Inuyasha walked back towards camp, deep in thought. 'Why do I act like that whenever I'm around Kikyou? I only love her when she is near. Then she leaves and I realize that I can't love her. That isn't Kikyou. That is just earth, clay, and bones. I don't love her. I'm already in love with someone else...' As he neared camp he heard Miroku and Sango talking. "Where do you think she could be?! She left nearly 3 hours ago! She should've returned by now. Maybe she got lost?!" Sango shouted at Miroku, looking for an answer. "Or maybe she went looking for Inuyasha..." he thought out loud. 'Kagome's gone?! Maybe she... did she see me with Kikyou?!' Inuyasha turned and ran into the woods, searching for the scent he had often dreamed of. He ran for what seemed like hours before coming upon a small clearing. He knew that she was here. Not only could he smell her, he could hear her deep breathing. He saw her and slowly walked towards her. She was asleep, hugging her legs. 'She must be cold.' he thought. He bent down to wake her and take her back to camp. He touched her arm lightly and she woke sharply. Without a word, she sat up and glared at him. 'Was she... crying?' Her cheeks were stained. "Come on Kagome, let's go back to camp." he said soothingly, yet she had not forgotten her anger that easily. "No." He turned to look at her slowly, half expecting her to be kidding, but the look on her face told him that she was morbidly serious. "What's wrong with you? Come on, let's go back to camp." He motioned for her to get on his back, but she turned away and crossed her arms. She didn't want him to see that she was fighting back tears. "I'm not going anywhere with you. I'm done." she said coldly, hoping that he would make it easy on her and just leave. He didn't. "But why-" he started before being cut off. "I SAW YOU INUYAHSA! I SAW YOU WITH KIKYOU! YOU JUST LOVE MAKING THIS EASY FOR ME DON'T YOU?! WELL I'VE HAD ENOUGH! I'M LEAVING AND YOU'RE NOT CHANGING MY MIND! FUCK YOU INUYASHA! I HATE YOU!" she yelled. As he stood there, trying to absorb what she had said, she ran off down a hill and into another clearing. 'She... hates me?! But... she can't hate me...' He needed to talk to her; He needed to comfort her. So, he ran after her. She knew that he was much faster than she was, but she ran nonetheless. She hoped that she could lose him in the forest, but deep down she knew that she had no chance. "Kagome wait! We need to talk!" he yelled. He ran as fast as he could, and he was almost up to her. "NO! GO TO KIKYOU! SHE'LL HELP YOU FIND THE SHARDS! YOU LOVE HER ANYWAYS! I'M SICK OF GETTING MY HEART BROKEN BY YOU INUYASHA!" she screamed. Tears were spilling onto her shirt, but she didn't care. She was in too much pain. She needed to get away from it all. Inuyasha caught up to her and grabbed her wrist, pulling her to a stop. She fought against him, kicking and thrashing, but it was no use. He was too strong. He pinned her to the ground and she looked up at him with malice filling her eyes. "Why do you hate me?" he asked calmly. "As if you don't know!" she spat at him. "Actually I don't, so if you would be as kind as to inform me, I think we can work it out." "I saw you kiss her and I heard you tell her that you loved her! If you didn't love me, you should have told me, and I would have left! Why did you have to toy with me?! What did I do to you?! I loved you and you put me through hell! Do you know the agony I went through when I saw you kiss her?!" She was sobbing now, and she knew that he was watching her. She felt his hand release her wrist and rub her cheek. She tried to pull away from him, but it was useless. He put her free arm under his leg and gently ran his hand across her face, trying to calm her. "You loved me? Why didn't you tell me?" he asked. "Well it's not like it would have done any good! You love Kikyou, not me! I'm just your damn shard detector! I mean nothing to you, and I never will!" "You don't know what you're saying... I love you... When I'm around her I just... it's like I'm under some spell. I don't know what I'm doing or saying. I don't love her. She's not Kikyou. Kikyou died." he stated reassuringly. He felt her go limp under him and she looked up at him blankly. "You... you're just saying that so I won't leave and you can keep looking for your precious jewel shards! Then you'll revive Kikyou and leave me!" "No I'm not, I love you Kagome. I want you to stay with me, to be with me forever. I want you to love me like I love you." he said while looking deeply into her eyes. "How do I know that I can trust you?" she asked meekly. She looked back into his gaze and realized that his eyes showed only sincerity and concern. "Because of this." He kissed her and her breath caught in her throat. She closed her eyes and savored the moment. She had always dreamt of kissing him, and it was even better than she imagined. She instantly melted into him and he released his grip on her arms. She put her arms around his neck, pulling him in closer. Her lips parted and his tongue licked the entrance of her mouth before entering. Her tongue and his met, and she massaged his with hers. He rolled over and pulled her on top of him. They continued kissing as he ran his hands through her hair. She did the same to him and her hands found his ears. She rubbed them gently and she could feel him purring. She giggled as the purr rumbled through his chest, and into hers. She pulled away from him just enough to look into his eyes and smiled gently. "I believe you Inuyasha."