Dear Diary
It has been almost three months since the bashing and I've been back in school for almost three weeks.
I've had a few episodes where my hand tires and trembles and I need to take breaks. Ok so more than a few
I've had alot of them. They've actually gotten so bad that my dean called me into his office today and Asked
me how I was doing. I told him that I'm doing fine. He asked about my hand, I told him I was doing fine and
sometimes my hand did get a little tired but I could work it out that it was no big deal. He told me how some
of my teachers came to him and told him how I was working to slow in class and not getting assignments
done on time. The longer I sat there and listened to him the madder I got. I ended up stoming out of his
office and slamming the door. I'm not going back there. My hand is ruined and I'll never be able to draw
again I'm just gonna have to deal with that and the quicker I realize it the quicker I can move on. Chris Hobbs
has ruined my life. That's all for now I'm off to Babylon to meet Brian I can really use a drink after the day
I've had.
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As Brian walks in to Babylon he searches for the guy's. As he's walking up to the bar he hear's someone calling
his name.
"Brian"
He looks around to see Michael coming towards him.
"Hey Mikey"
"Hey did something happen between you and Justin?"
"No Why?"
"He's was here when we got here and he's totally smashed,we tried talking to him but he's not talking , he keeps
saying he's fine but he's acting weird." explains Michael
"Maybe he's just havin a good time Mikey, I wouldnt worry about it." Brian says but he really is worried it's not
like Justin to get so drunk so fast it's still early and it's a school night.
Brian walks up to the bar orders a drink and looks around for Justin he see's him on the dance floor with some
hot brunette. He watches them for about 10 minutes he gets another drink but when he turns around they are gone.
"Where did Justin go?" asked Emmett "I'm really worried about him he's not acting right"
"Stop being such a drama queen, He's a big boy he can take care of his self."
Emmett snaps back " You stop acting like the cold hearted asshole that you are and admit that you KNOW there
is something wrong with him."
"Brian admit he cares? The world would come to an end" Ted smirks
"Why don't you all just mind your own business?" Brian storms off into the back room
After wandering through the backroom he eventually realized that Justin had left he was not back here.
"Where the hell did he go"
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Dear Diary,
I went out lastnight and got totally smashed and went home with some guy,I know it's not normally something
I would do but who cares I am not the same person I was. Chris Hobbs took my life away when he left me laying
there to die, I might as well have.
I seen Brian watching me while I was dancing with that guy and I know he seen me leave with him. I wonder
what he was thinking? He probably wasnt thinking about me at all. He probably found his own trick and had his
own fun. He was asleep when I got home lastnight and he's still sleeping. The guys were on me last night to tell
them what was wrong but it's not worth talking about nobody would understand, nobody knows what it's like to
have your future taken away from you. So for now nobody needs to know what happened with school. I don't
feel like hearing all their preaching. Well I'm off to take a shower and go to work.
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Justin takes his journal and put's it away somewhere safe Just because Brian knows about it doesnt mean I want
him reading it and it would be just like him to read it.
I wonder why he's not awake yet he's usually up by now. Maybe I should wake him up he must of had a rough
night.
"Brian,Brian Wake Up" Justin pokes at Brian
Brian starts to stirs and rolls over.
"BRIAN GET UP, your gonna be late for work"
"I don't have to go in today" Brian mumbles
"Why not?"
"Because I leave tonight for my conference in Cleveland"
"That's right I totally forgot"
I hear him mumble something "What did you say?"
Brian stands up "I said I'm not suprised"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nothing, don't you have to work this morning?" Brian walked into the bathroom
I wonder what his problem is Oh well I don't have time to worry about it.
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My shift at the diner was going so slow and I was ready to leave before I even started. About two hours till the
end of my shift I was cleaning the counter when I heard the door buzzer go off. I looked up just as Brian was
walking in the door. He of course looked as good as ever in his dark grey suit. But why was he dressed for work
when he didnt have to go into the office today?
I heard Debbie yell say Hi to Brian and she went over to take his order. Why is he sitting in thr corner booth if
he's by himself? He's acting very strange even this morning he was very different. I decided I give him a few
minutes to read his paper before I attempted to go over and talk to him,but before I could even get back into the
kitchen he was calling me over to him. As I was walking over to him I seen he had a cold look on his face.
"Hey, What's Up" I said as I sat down across from him.
" How are you feeling this morning?" He said with sarcasim.
"I'm fine how are you?" He didnt answer or even look up from his paper. I couldnt resist any longer I had to ask
"Is there something wrong?" I asked frightened by the answer everyone knows if Brian's mad to let go and leave
him alone. But I didnt want him going out of town with us on bad terms. "Fine" was all I got out of him without
even a glance my way. So I decided to quickly change the subject "What time does your flight leave?" I asked
hoping to get him to at least notice I was there. He was the one who called me over to him. So he must of wanted
to talk to me.
"4:15" he said .
"When will you be back?"
"Tommorow night at 6:35"
" Do you need me to take you to the airport?"
"No"
At this point I'm really starting to get annoyed he called me over here and now he's blowing me off. Finally as I'm
getting up I say "Have a nice trip" I return back to the counter and I guess Debbie could read my face because
she just gave me a pat on the back that said " I know sunshine I know" I smiled slightly at her and conitnued with
my work. I noitce about 20 minutes later that Brian's booth was empty he had left. I don't know what his problem
is the today, I didnt do anything,unless he's upset about that guy I went home with lastnight but that's just not
Brian he doesnt care what I do or Who I do so what would make him care now?
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Dear Diary
I'm on my way homr from my shift at the diner and I decided to stop and get a cup of coffee and
write in here so there atr no distractions. Brian's probably at the airport already his flight leaves in an hour. When
he woke up this morning he was really short and cocky with me. Then this afternoon he came into the diner for
lunch I decided to give him a few minutes to relax but he ended up calling me over to him and when I went to
talk to him he blew me off he acted as if I was bothering him. I don't know what his problem is there is no way
that he is mad because I went home with some guy,that is not Brian at all that would show that he cares and
that would blow his whole heartless cover. So what is it? What is bothering him? I guess I can just add it to the
list of "Things that go wrong in Justin's Life" I should write a book. I can't help but think how I'm supposed to be
in school right now and instead I'm sitting here in a coffee shop in the middle of the afternoon. My life is a total
mess and to tell you the truth I'm beginning not to care anymore.
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I walk in the loft about 3:45 I close the door and go into the bedroom to put my things away when I walk back
into the living room I nearly fainted when I seen Brian standing in front of me.
"Brian you scared me to death" I said as I tried to catch my breath
"What are you doing here " I ask as I walk into the kitchen to get a drink
" The question is what are you doing here don't you have a 3'oclock class this afternoon?" He asked as he
followed me into the kitchen.
I grab a water out of the fridge and take a drink " I skipped it today"
"Why?"
"Because I didnt feel like going,Geez.....What's with the interrogation Bri?"
" I just find it odd that you would skip a class only 3 weeks into your first semester?"
Ok this is really getting old he needs to leave it alone. " I don't know what to tell ya I just didnt want to go"
"Well then maybe you can tell me about this?" I look up and see the small piece of paper in his hand and I
nearly spit out my water. "Shit"
It has been almost three months since the bashing and I've been back in school for almost three weeks.
I've had a few episodes where my hand tires and trembles and I need to take breaks. Ok so more than a few
I've had alot of them. They've actually gotten so bad that my dean called me into his office today and Asked
me how I was doing. I told him that I'm doing fine. He asked about my hand, I told him I was doing fine and
sometimes my hand did get a little tired but I could work it out that it was no big deal. He told me how some
of my teachers came to him and told him how I was working to slow in class and not getting assignments
done on time. The longer I sat there and listened to him the madder I got. I ended up stoming out of his
office and slamming the door. I'm not going back there. My hand is ruined and I'll never be able to draw
again I'm just gonna have to deal with that and the quicker I realize it the quicker I can move on. Chris Hobbs
has ruined my life. That's all for now I'm off to Babylon to meet Brian I can really use a drink after the day
I've had.
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As Brian walks in to Babylon he searches for the guy's. As he's walking up to the bar he hear's someone calling
his name.
"Brian"
He looks around to see Michael coming towards him.
"Hey Mikey"
"Hey did something happen between you and Justin?"
"No Why?"
"He's was here when we got here and he's totally smashed,we tried talking to him but he's not talking , he keeps
saying he's fine but he's acting weird." explains Michael
"Maybe he's just havin a good time Mikey, I wouldnt worry about it." Brian says but he really is worried it's not
like Justin to get so drunk so fast it's still early and it's a school night.
Brian walks up to the bar orders a drink and looks around for Justin he see's him on the dance floor with some
hot brunette. He watches them for about 10 minutes he gets another drink but when he turns around they are gone.
"Where did Justin go?" asked Emmett "I'm really worried about him he's not acting right"
"Stop being such a drama queen, He's a big boy he can take care of his self."
Emmett snaps back " You stop acting like the cold hearted asshole that you are and admit that you KNOW there
is something wrong with him."
"Brian admit he cares? The world would come to an end" Ted smirks
"Why don't you all just mind your own business?" Brian storms off into the back room
After wandering through the backroom he eventually realized that Justin had left he was not back here.
"Where the hell did he go"
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Dear Diary,
I went out lastnight and got totally smashed and went home with some guy,I know it's not normally something
I would do but who cares I am not the same person I was. Chris Hobbs took my life away when he left me laying
there to die, I might as well have.
I seen Brian watching me while I was dancing with that guy and I know he seen me leave with him. I wonder
what he was thinking? He probably wasnt thinking about me at all. He probably found his own trick and had his
own fun. He was asleep when I got home lastnight and he's still sleeping. The guys were on me last night to tell
them what was wrong but it's not worth talking about nobody would understand, nobody knows what it's like to
have your future taken away from you. So for now nobody needs to know what happened with school. I don't
feel like hearing all their preaching. Well I'm off to take a shower and go to work.
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Justin takes his journal and put's it away somewhere safe Just because Brian knows about it doesnt mean I want
him reading it and it would be just like him to read it.
I wonder why he's not awake yet he's usually up by now. Maybe I should wake him up he must of had a rough
night.
"Brian,Brian Wake Up" Justin pokes at Brian
Brian starts to stirs and rolls over.
"BRIAN GET UP, your gonna be late for work"
"I don't have to go in today" Brian mumbles
"Why not?"
"Because I leave tonight for my conference in Cleveland"
"That's right I totally forgot"
I hear him mumble something "What did you say?"
Brian stands up "I said I'm not suprised"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nothing, don't you have to work this morning?" Brian walked into the bathroom
I wonder what his problem is Oh well I don't have time to worry about it.
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My shift at the diner was going so slow and I was ready to leave before I even started. About two hours till the
end of my shift I was cleaning the counter when I heard the door buzzer go off. I looked up just as Brian was
walking in the door. He of course looked as good as ever in his dark grey suit. But why was he dressed for work
when he didnt have to go into the office today?
I heard Debbie yell say Hi to Brian and she went over to take his order. Why is he sitting in thr corner booth if
he's by himself? He's acting very strange even this morning he was very different. I decided I give him a few
minutes to read his paper before I attempted to go over and talk to him,but before I could even get back into the
kitchen he was calling me over to him. As I was walking over to him I seen he had a cold look on his face.
"Hey, What's Up" I said as I sat down across from him.
" How are you feeling this morning?" He said with sarcasim.
"I'm fine how are you?" He didnt answer or even look up from his paper. I couldnt resist any longer I had to ask
"Is there something wrong?" I asked frightened by the answer everyone knows if Brian's mad to let go and leave
him alone. But I didnt want him going out of town with us on bad terms. "Fine" was all I got out of him without
even a glance my way. So I decided to quickly change the subject "What time does your flight leave?" I asked
hoping to get him to at least notice I was there. He was the one who called me over to him. So he must of wanted
to talk to me.
"4:15" he said .
"When will you be back?"
"Tommorow night at 6:35"
" Do you need me to take you to the airport?"
"No"
At this point I'm really starting to get annoyed he called me over here and now he's blowing me off. Finally as I'm
getting up I say "Have a nice trip" I return back to the counter and I guess Debbie could read my face because
she just gave me a pat on the back that said " I know sunshine I know" I smiled slightly at her and conitnued with
my work. I noitce about 20 minutes later that Brian's booth was empty he had left. I don't know what his problem
is the today, I didnt do anything,unless he's upset about that guy I went home with lastnight but that's just not
Brian he doesnt care what I do or Who I do so what would make him care now?
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Dear Diary
I'm on my way homr from my shift at the diner and I decided to stop and get a cup of coffee and
write in here so there atr no distractions. Brian's probably at the airport already his flight leaves in an hour. When
he woke up this morning he was really short and cocky with me. Then this afternoon he came into the diner for
lunch I decided to give him a few minutes to relax but he ended up calling me over to him and when I went to
talk to him he blew me off he acted as if I was bothering him. I don't know what his problem is there is no way
that he is mad because I went home with some guy,that is not Brian at all that would show that he cares and
that would blow his whole heartless cover. So what is it? What is bothering him? I guess I can just add it to the
list of "Things that go wrong in Justin's Life" I should write a book. I can't help but think how I'm supposed to be
in school right now and instead I'm sitting here in a coffee shop in the middle of the afternoon. My life is a total
mess and to tell you the truth I'm beginning not to care anymore.
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I walk in the loft about 3:45 I close the door and go into the bedroom to put my things away when I walk back
into the living room I nearly fainted when I seen Brian standing in front of me.
"Brian you scared me to death" I said as I tried to catch my breath
"What are you doing here " I ask as I walk into the kitchen to get a drink
" The question is what are you doing here don't you have a 3'oclock class this afternoon?" He asked as he
followed me into the kitchen.
I grab a water out of the fridge and take a drink " I skipped it today"
"Why?"
"Because I didnt feel like going,Geez.....What's with the interrogation Bri?"
" I just find it odd that you would skip a class only 3 weeks into your first semester?"
Ok this is really getting old he needs to leave it alone. " I don't know what to tell ya I just didnt want to go"
"Well then maybe you can tell me about this?" I look up and see the small piece of paper in his hand and I
nearly spit out my water. "Shit"