Disclaimer~ I don't own ff people *cries* maybe one day I will =)

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a note: longest chapter so far! w00t! Ill write more soon =)
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Yuna reminds me of Auron I a way but in a different way…

"Why Auron?! Why Yuna?! WHY?!" I shouted

Tears started streaming down my face why me oh why me I thought. Finally I stopped thinking altogether, lest let my mind fill up whit everything and cried and cried. I don't know how, I don't know when but I cried my self to sleep.

I awoke to someone banging on my door, well some people, Ti and Lu and with one look at me they knew that something was very wrong. My Tidy blonde hair was all a mess half up and half down, my make-up was smudged all over my face, because of all my tears, I was wearing the same clothes as yesterday but they were all scrunched up and a little wet from all my tears..

Lulu gasped, and Tidus just stood there. None of them had seen me like this before they looked confused and worried my normal self, where was it they seemed to think, if I was like this something was really wrong, and there was. They stood there standing there for a few seconds then Lulu finally said

"Rikku! Your not all right, can we come in?"

I said nothing so the just walked in and went to my lounge, I followed.

Lulu sat down I was opposite her, Tidus was next to me. Ti put his arm around me and I started to cry again. Surprised he tried to comfort me.

"Rikku you not all right …" Lulu started.

"What's the matter?" Tidus finished

I started crying even more I couldn't tell Ti I loved him that would be not right… plus not around Lu, Yuna is like a little sister to her.. Well ill tell them about Auron I thought, I guess its time to tell someone about that, its been in me way to long… I just hope the believe me.

"Rikku" Ti said "we are your friends… we are worried about you… come on tell us we wont tell anyone ok?"

I stopped crying.. Well I tried to; I sat up a bit more and leaned on Ti's shoulder.

"Well ok" I started "but don't blame me if what I tell you is hard to believe, it is all true… so I really hope you are ready to hear this…"