Disclaimer: I don't own Recess. If I did then recess would be all day everyday.
Summary: T.J. lost Spinelli years ago, and it's still haunting him, but now there this new girl and she just happens to look like Spinelli. But Spinelli's dead. It's impossible…isn't it?
Title: Mirror Image
Author: qtloveskittles
Dedication: Ummm...I'm dedicating this to my friend Ashley cuz she encouraged me to write keep writing it.
Author's note: I'm hoping to upload a chapter a day...but I'm not sure if I can so please bear with me if I can't. GOMEN!!! (that means sorry in Japanese) I'm soooooo sorry to make everyone wait so long. (I'm sure it just killed you! Lol) The only excuse I have is pure laziness. Isn't that horrible? But I'm back with the last chapter… Yes the last chapter of Mirror Image… Sniff!
Extra info: This story deals with suicide so if that is a problem for you then…please don't read it. I'm not encouraging anyone to commit suicide and I have no suicidal thoughts running through my mind. (Unless (mentally) killing my annoying alter ego counts as suicide... (lolz joking)).
Stuff you need to know:
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Thoughts are in italics
ON WITH THE FIC!
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T.J. looked at Gretchen his eyes wide with wonder and fear. Gretchen had never seen T.J. look scared. How could he stand up to Finster and Mr. Prickly (they had stopped calling him Principal after 6th grade) but could be reduced to trembling because of a girl? Then again this was Spinelli's twin.
"T.J. what are you saying?"
He ran a hand through is already tousled hair.
"Come on Gretch, you can't tell me that you haven't noticed her similarities to Spinelli."
His eyes were begging, pleading with her to reassure him that it was true. That he wasn't just some love sick puppy. Gretchen sighed.
"I have... we all have. It was you who didn't seem to notice"
His blues were brimming with tears. Tears, Gretchen realized, that he had kept unshed since he had met Amy.
"I...I tried to ignore them. I tried to pretend it was all a coincidence. That Amy was her own person but… it became harder to deny and I... I fell in love with her."
Whatever Gretchen had expected him to say that wasn't it. Her eyes widened in surprise.
"T.J. I… I… I… didn't… you... In love? With Amy?"
Something clicked in T.J.'s mind and he drew in a sharp breath.
"Oh no."
Gretchen didn't like his tone of voice.
"What's wrong?"
"Shit! She probably thinks I'm a jerk now."
Gretchen's face scrunched in confusion.
"Why?"
"Well when we kissed my mind triggered something. A feeling that I hadn't felt since 4th grade. That's when I couldn't pretend anymore. I was in so much shock that I just walked away. I didn't even stay to explain. She...
His eyes darted around the room quickly.
"She's gone." He hung his head. "I screwed up again. I couldn't save Spinelli before and I can't..." He stopped as he began to concentrate on choking back sobs.
Gretchen's eyes softened.
Teej."
T.J. didn't look at her. Instead he walked out the door.
"T.J."
~*~
Amy sighed as she looked at the stars. Tonight had been perfect...up until she had kissed T.J.
It wasn't that she hadn't enjoyed it, she had. It had stirred feelings in her that felt like a dream.
A dream.
Suddenly her mind sent her flashes of a memory so faint she couldn't tell if it was real.
*FLASH*
A crowd murmuring ten thousand different things at once.
*FLASH*
A young boy in a suit and the word marriage.
*FLASH*
Two lips joining for the first time and the taste of mouth wash.
*FLASH*
The cry of ew and a relieved sigh.
*FLASH*
The awkward silence of young life.
*FLASH*
Amy's eyes snapped open.
Could it have been a memory?
She shook her head. No she had had that dream before. She could feel. It had just been wistful thinking.
Back to the problem at hand.
She could tell him that it hadn't meant anything to T.J. so it must have been a 'caught up in the heat of the moment' type of thing. How could she have been so stupid as to think that he could ever lover her! She willed herself to get up and go find T.J.
Just tell him that is was a spur of the moment thing. Then everything will be fine.
She turned around and bumped into someone. She fell backwards and closed her eyes, waiting for the impact that never came. Slowly she opened her eyes to meet the very same pair of eyes she had been willing herself to go find.
And those same blue eyes were filled with tears.
~*~
"What was that all about?" Vince asked as Gretchen waked back to him.
"His known the whole time. He was just pretending not to notice."
Vince didn't need to ask. He knew what Gretchen was talking about.
"Where is he now?"
"He went out on the porch to think. He's positive Amy hates him."
Vince raised an eyebrow.
Gretchen sighed. "I know it's ridiculus but I guess he needs to work this problem out with Amy."
Vince nodded before putting his arm around Gretchen's shoulder.
"Don't worry everything will be fine."
"I hope so Vince." Another sigh. "I hope so."
~*~
"T.J.!"
"Amy!"
Both teens blushed crimson and looked at the ground.
"Go ahead." Amy said.
"No you."
Amy sighed. "Look about earlier. I'm sorry, it was just a heat of the moment kind of thing."
T.J.'s face fell. "Oh."
He sat down next to her.
"Yeah, your right." He hoped she couldn't hear his heart breaking.
"Yeah...it was…nothing." She hoped he couldn't hear her heart breaking.
"Well," She stood up and brushed some dust off her pants. "I think I'll go inside."
She turned and walked towards the door. Suddenly she felt T.J.'s hand close around her wrist.
"No...wait a minute."
She was surprised, his voice was horse...had he been crying?
"It wasn't just a heat of the moment thing." Amy's heart stopped.
"What?"
"You heard me. It wasn't and I'm sorry I ever said it was. How can I expect you to understand if I can't trust you with the truth."
She gazed at his lowered head in wonder.
"I'm sorry I haven't told you everything. I need to tell you now."
She sat down again, placing a hand on his shoulder. "I'm listening."
"I think I've fallen in love with you.
Her breath caught in her throat. "You-"
He held up a hand to silence her.
"Just let me finish please. It'll be easier if I'm not interrupted." She nodded. "When I met you I felt...drawn to you. You see, ever since Spinelli died there's been this hole in my heart that no one could fill. But then you came, and to be honest, you are everything she was and more, and I felt myself starting to heal. My heart was healing the wound her death left. I'm sorry. I should have told you right away but I thought I could over look the similarities but then...we shared that kiss. And I realized that...that I'd kissed you before. But I've only kissed Spinelli and that was in 4th grade but still..." His sentence drifted off into the night and Amy realized it was her turn to speak.
"Do you love her?"
"With every bone in my body-wait do? Shouldn't it be did?"
"No." She shook her head. "When you really love someone apart of your heart will always love and cherish them."
"Then yeah I do love her."
"Do you only love me because I remind you of her?"
T.J. must have heard the hurt in her voice because his gaze met hers and he held her hands in his.
"I love you for being Amy."
She gave a soft sniffle. "But you were just saying how I was everything Spinelli was-"
He put a finger to his lips.
"You are everything Spinelli was. But you're also Amy and that's why I love you."
She smiled and leaned against his shoulder.
"You know," She said with a smile. "There's still I chance that I could be your Spinelli."
T.J. smirked.
"Well...that's a chance I'll have to take.
~But after all...only time will tell.~
Okay! Done!!!! How many people want to shot me for ending it like that. I thought I'd let you decide. So put those imaginations to work!!!
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO REVIEWED...there was so many people (cuz I took so long to upload) that I'm just giving everyone a big thanks.